I was talking to my brother tonight and told him how uncomfortable I am with all of the I’s in my blog.
As I have stated before I am not a career writer, I don’t have that kind of finesse. This blog is Gods Victory that we all share and is being put pen to paper which so many people said that I needed to do. I am personally grateful to be here in this moment to write this account, but at times with the use of all of the I’s as I said to my brother, it feels very gratatuitous and anyone who know me knows that I cannot stand that stuff. I am not computer savy and did not even know what a blog was until a couple of days before my first post.
While speaking to my brother tonight we spoke about a topic that is very real that we all deal with whether it is a illness or a death. The people , sometimes the ones you would think of when something happens to be there for you , run for the hills and never look back at you (or so it feels) like you did something wrong.
This happened to us years ago when we lost our son Brad Michael. Again, we were younger and so were those individuals. We were really young kids back then by todays standard. So, we just figured they were not our friends.
I am older now and, I am getting a little wiser as I go 🙂
When cancer came barreling down the road a few of my friends just plain disappereared from our lives. It has taken a long while for me to work through my feelings on this issue. Through a lot of prayer, assistance from my family including my conversation tonight with my older brother, I have come to understand what I knew anyway, that I had done nothing wrong. It is funny how our minds will deceive us sometimes.(devil) Everyone as I have written in my blog before is a summ of all of our life experiences and shapes who we are as people. So, some people aren’t able to cope with certain life experiences especially if it includes death or the possibility of losing a friend.Some people look at me and let’s face it say, God this could be me ! It scares them.Some people have felt death so close to them before that they just cannot bare it again.They could not deal with another loss. I don’t judge that. I am also so glad that I now have an understanding of that situation. Life is a healing experience in so many ways. Everyday, if you choose can be a day of getting your thoughts in a place where you are stronger and healthier. Prayer plays an essential roll in that process for me. With prayer comes peace, understanding,wisdom and healing from God.
Another very important thing that I really need to say is how many people who are too numerous to count ran to our sides in that moment and are still with us today, so we count them as our friends and blessings in our lives today too. God has been extremely good to us. Amen.
In closing on this issue, I am putting this behind me and for any of us that have had this experience, like my brother said what would Jesus do? How right he is! I will say that I for one still love them all very much, and pray for them thats what friends do 🙂
Friends Michael W. Smith
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4JsJ_TDaItM
Casting Crowns Prayer for a friend. Just beautiful
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EN3D0Carn3U
God Bless You ,
Danny
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