Let me just say I was not thinking of this song I haven’t  heard it since I was maybe a ten year old boy when I driving around with my mom and dad. I know my mom liked it.  It came out of the blue in fragments to my mind, just a few words with a beat. The song popped up in my head and up out of my chair I went to my computer and I found it. God does work in mysterious ways 🙂 Today I was talking to a childhood friend from Florida Billy. God joined our  lives and our personal psalm #139  back in kindergarden he was my first friend there. We have been connected since that day. It is funny, I remember the first  day I walked home from school with him, the school was a half block away from my home so my mom would come out onto the walkway and watch me come down the street. This day she was also weeding the front flower bed. In this moment , I am thinking how  it really is miraculous indeed that my memory remains so vivid even through this Gleo’s attack on me. But again, thats God. I will pick up with more on Bill in the not too distant future. He is an amazing man.

For this moment let me say this , Life can be tough but It is not tragic. And, oddly enough even great things can become problems to us. Its how our emotions are running in any given moment. Thats why emotions need to be controlled, another free will choice ! Even in the perfection of a Miracle I can find the imperfection. Thats why I need to be aware of that aspect of my thinking and I need to cut that thought off at the pass.

I am a Miracle and yet have more physical hurtles yet to jump. I generally say so what to that fact but, I do have moments that I say I cannot stand this. I am grateful and yet frustrated. My body holds my mind back back from going and doing. Only prayer to my Lord and Heaven restores me. 

Another thing about a Miracle in my feelings anyway and based on my life, is that I just want to be normal to others, that I blend in . I have been so many places where people will see me at a function, grad party, restaurant and do a double take shocked to see me. They cannot believe its me or how I look.  For a while in my home parish some  people would part like the red sea to allow me passage to a seat. Some actually said Its a honor and God would have me stop and say, thankyou, and I am only a person like you and God loves us all the same. I then thank them for their prayers. I am not a matyr by any standard,  it takes courage to be one of those. God gave me an easy pass for the moment.

God called me in this moment to witness and inside my head sometimes I am that little kid pouting and stamping my foot. Part of me wants to say this right now, How dare I feel this way! But you know, I am human and God knows my short comings and knows my gripes etc. He loves me anyway, he knows my heart and he is merciful. He loves you all too. 🙂

Finally, here is the song that I spoke of above, and we sometimes feel like this in our lives but the reality is that we do not have to live with this as our personal anthem. Life is good, Life is worth living 🙂 Amen.

And the after life when this side show ends, it is so much better. ! 

Side Show  Blue Magic

As always, God Bless You,

Danny