Today, I was thinking of some of my friends that I have lost due to cancer, drugs and accidents when I was young.

I remember them all in prayer to this day because I loved them. These kids that I met  were very young and most of them did not have what I had as a young kid. Two parents, a lot of love and parents who were on the ball watching their movements.

You know, when we love someone or something like our pets and become seperated by death we feel the personal loss in our lives but the joy of that love and what they meant to us never leaves or dies. God would never give us something like love and make it so that it ends. God is love so that is impossible. We are merely 1 breathe and heartbeat to where they are. I believe we will be united with all of our loved ones and friends someday that includes our little furry friends too. That’s my belief anyway. 🙂

Josh Gorman to where you are.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zU2EgwPBCiA

The list that I will put down below  are a few that died young friends that i have lost.

Buffy B. She had a cough that was masking cancer and she passed away in highschool. Buffy  was a sweet heart.

Frank N. great kid who ended up contracting aides and passed away  I guess he was in his early 20’s.

Johnny got mixed up with drugs and took a heart attack from the use of cocaine.

Kelly U. was 30 years old and was ironing her nurses uniform and dropped dead of a sudden heart attack. She had an undetected heart problem.

My brother had two friends who thumbed a ride to get home from a party on night and the person who was driving and picked them up  saw a police car and decided to speed away from them and went off of the mystic valley parkway and my brothers friends were killed.

My youngest brother had a very good friend who came to visit my brother he acted normal but gave my brother a few of his small prized possessions and was acting like he was fine. He said goodbye. Later that day he was found dead at Walden Pond from a self inflicted gun shot wound. So sad.

A young neighborhood friend  Bobby Mc. when college age went to a college party in Cambridge and went out onto the fire escape to get a beer out of the cooler and slipped on the ice Bobby fell 4-5 stories to his death.

We all no matter what generation we are from  have had to face these terrible losses. Thats why when we see someone struggling in our lives  we need to reach out to them and let them know that they count and that we loved them. It’s so hard to see anothers pain but speak the words of your heart. It really hurt my younger brother when his friend did this desperate act.

This list could go on if I think longer and harder but, I do not have to go through that process. I pray for everyone and their needs.

I was born with a gift of getting along, I will call it. Different groups, different people do not bother me. For example in my school years, I  could jell with the so called nerds, jocks and rats if need be. My upbringing was such that we were not to engage and do things to people by word or action that was hurtful . We defended ourselves when we needed to in order to defend ourselves from bodily harm.

My parents always said sticks and stones may break your bones but names will never hurt you. You know we as kids deal with kids who sometimes do not have the life skills and say whatever stupid hurtful thought is in their mouths .

The bottom  lines is this in my opinion, life is too short to harm each other. The friends that I lost early on were kind people which only made their passing so much more difficult.

You know, when I was younger all the kids on my bus were great, they were all scared about growing up and the kids that were the bullies were the most frightened of them all. They had an identity crisis and felt the need to pick on the quiet kids. It seemed like every year that I sat beside another kid who got picked on and road shot gun beside them to protect these innocent kids. You know one of my favorite memories of school was the fact that I could walk down the hall with anyone and sit at any table for lunch. Isn’t that what God wants anyway? What also helped me was the fact that my older brother was at the same school and he did not take the bus but they all knew that I was Ril’ s brother so I had an invisible shield around me and i had my ability to charm a snake if necessary. Lol 🙂

Growing up was hard for us all, but I had a beautiful family life with God and I was safe. God gave me a large group of friends that were only a phone call away. I have looked back over the years and really believe that I was in my friends lives that passed for a specific reason. i brought stability, I was grounded and would say to them I would not do this or do that. I know my mom talked to more than one of them and my dad would try not to step on toes and guide them as well.

I thank my friends all of them but am remembering the ones that have passed because after 30 years I still carry them with me daily and feel called to pray for them. I still thank them for being such great friends.

This ( song)was one of the first songs of its type that came out during this time in my life and was a massive hit!  So, for all of those friends that are gone, this is for you thanks for the memories 🙂

This is another artist that passed too soon. I think alcohol and drugs are truely a terrible thing if in the hands of a person who is lost, hurting and does not feel like they are loved and fit into society.

Queen – Bohemian Rhapsody (Official Video)

 

The loss of anyone dear is difficult. My mom always said , you love big, you loose big. I will say this I am so happy for their love while they were here. I think for the most part I have had mainly healthy and authentic relationships with the people I call friends. No one is perfect but they have been sincere in who they have been to me. So, I thank God for each one.

It’ll see you again my friend.

God Bless,

Danny