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Good morning, today, I was up at 5:30 and the cold that has been on me for over two weeks seems to finally be leaving. I am very grateful for this.

Last night was a busy night here with my youngest daughter getting her next semester of college underway. It was good stuff though. I got into bed and began my evening prayer and was looking out of the skylight at the very black sky. It was  like a blank black canvas devoid of any stars. Not a typical night sky.

I was laying there thinking about the day and all that went Into it. I saw some news, as always it seems to be increasingly more depressing.

The story of that day that I found so very sad was the murder of Dr. Michael Davidson at Brigham and Women’s Hospital. I cannot accurately answer the question of why a person would ever hurt  a doctor who is attempting to save lives. Clearly ,the perpetrator had to have been mentally imbalanced. But it is still tragic for everyone especially his family.

During my writings on this blog, I have covered my relationship with my doctors and all of my health Care providers. I as a patient love them as far as I am concerned they are on my team seeking the best outcome for me that they humanly can provide.

That’s right I did say humanly.  Doctors  are just people like us and are subject to everything that we are. I detailed in my writing months ago about the loss of my son Brad Michael that there was an issue with the suctioning technique while removing fluid from his lungs, which triggered his cardiac arrest. After Brad passed from those complications of that error. I made the comment with the Doctors , Now what do we do? They looked at my wife and myself and looked a little worried. I realized my words were not well selected for that moment but I / we were in shock over his loss.

I looked into their eyes and realized the reality of the moment and said , no,no I am not blaming you. I know how hard you worked on Brads behalf. I was just talking out loud about my wife and I being able to pick up the pieces and going on.

After I said that they understood it was my mind trying to keep the situation in a place where emotions can be watched carefully. I was trying to lead my wife through this horrific emotional loss.

You see, Dr.s are amazingly gifted individuals who have a very special calling, they have the same problems that we do but they also feel the weight on their shoulders when it comes to aspect of human life.

For instance, could you imagine waking up on a beautiful April morning going into the hospital as my doctor did and having to then drill into My skull ( his patients)  and then to put a probe deep into my brain to get a biopsy sample of the tumor to grade my cancer  with his hands knowing that one slip could kill me his patient? I could never have done that. And you know , I as the patient understood that there were no guarantees. The only thing that we can rely on is the fact that God, the author of life is there with us.

So, God Bless Dr. Michael Davidson and family may they be comforted by God in this moment.

Also, let us pray for that man that perpetrated this desperate and horrible act. He and his family need prayers now too.

Dr. Michael Davidson

https://commonhealth.wbur.org/2015/01/davidson-brigham-bio

Gratitude Nicole Nordeman

God Bless,

Danny