I woke up Monday morning a little later than I normally do. I am pushing myself daily because I desire myself to be the best than I can be. So, I am tired and sleep better. Everyone in my home was up and  gone and you could hear a pin drop. I looked at the beautiful day outside and got into the shower. My mind was very peaceful and I quietly prayed as I got ready.

I was all set to go and I grabbed my cane. I was so happy to be driving and be able to go where I want to, when I want to. I was not disappointed. It was a beautiful day outside as I rolled along the road to visit my dad. The sky was perfectly blue, the Windows were open and the air was crisp and fresh.

Driving makes a handicapped person feel normal like everyone else.

A song came on the radio from the 70’s I was on cloud nine as I listened and felt so grateful to be in that moment. I felt younger and had wonderful memories of simpler times.  I was going to spend my time with my dad and then along came the emotion. This emotional thought came to mind and a sadness filled my heart. I thought I wish I could have done this when my mom was sick and was failing 2 years ago. If you remember I could not go out a whole lot because of my medical condition I spoke to  my mom a couple of times a day by phone during that time and I did get over there physically to sit with her when I could. She never complained  and we all prayed together as a family when we were there at our family home.She was not afraid. She was too busy praying for me and emotionally supporting her whole family. She was showing us the way of the cross with such tender love.

THIS IS THE SONG THAT CAME ON WHILE I WAS DRIVING ALONG. IT WAS A GREAT MEMORY.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zgo3KVk8wvU

The big BUTT is that I wanted to be there physically with her, all the time.

The heart wants what the heart wants. No matter how much time I had with my mom it would never have been enough.

MY MOM WOULD SAY,

LOVE IS SELFISH, WE NEVER WANT TO LET OUR LOVED ONES GO.

AND

YOU LOVE BIG,  YOU LOSE BIG!

SHE WAS RIGHT ON BOTH COUNTS.

She began to say this after the loss of her mom and dad.

I WILL SAY THIS HER PASSING IS SOMEHTING I ACCEPT BECAUSE JESUS PAID THE PRICE FOR HER TOO. SHE IS ENJOYING HER ETERNITY AWAITING AND WATCHING OVER HER FAMILY . AMEN

My mom a few years back attended one of her neighbors funerals and heard this song sung. She was so moved by it. I found it for her and she loved it. It is not sad it was a very moving and comforting gift to her. She believed the message of that song. My mom left to be with the Lord on a sunny afternoon. She was at peace and her faith in God allowed her that peace.

This is the beautiful song that I spoke of. For my mom.

Libera, Going Home.

God Bless You,

Danny