I have been led to slow down the blog writing. I felt that it was best for this blog and believe God wanted it to be a more reflective time for me.

During this slow down, I have reflected on so much that has transpired over the last three or so years. So much water has gone under the bridge I have lost a lot of the people that I have prayed for. But having said that I am in contact with a number of them that are healed or are simply living their lives with their illness.

I could have been a victim of this cancer but God gave me a strong faith. Most of my troubles since I got cancer were caused by my impatience and pig headed attitude.

Happiness is elusive if we are not content with the blessings that we have.

Having it all is not something that anyone of us can truely find here in this life. My feeling and understanding of life is this. Accepting our plights and the things that occur in our lives and acknowledging them allows us the power over how they can or will affect us. It is our choice to be a victim or victorious.

Everyday, I spend a great deal of energy on rebuilding my life. In the last few days I has begun the process of loving who I am now. When I look at my life I am trying to be less harsh on myself.

I cannot help my mobility issues any more that I could have prevented the brain cancer.

I should be 100 percent happy having my life just as it is. Imperfect yet blessed by the breath in my body and my brain and my minds ability to function at such a high level given the cancer, chemo and radiation treatment that I have received.

I was out yesterday doing a brief errand that my dad asked me to do. The 1st such request in more than three years. As I walked down the isle of that store I saw a few people that knew me. One stopped about 75 feet ahead of me  and looked at me as I approached like she was seeing a ghost. She looked dazed and confused. Finally, her name came into my mind and I said hello Jackie, how are you? and give me a hug. Her eyes filled with tears she said how are you? I said good and smiled. I then said I am still in therapy and it has been a long journey. She went on to tell me that a girl Kelley that we both had known about 3 years ago had become ill with brain cancer and she did not make it. I felt very badly that I had not known. I walked towards the register with my dad’s item and ran into yet another man that I have not seen for 3 or more years. He engaged me in conversation and he looked at me and said man, your a Miracle. He said I asked one of the guys that I used work with what ever happened to Dan?  They assumed that you succumbed to the disease as well. So, my dad’s request for me pick up an item in the store was ordered as far as I am concerned by Heaven for a bigger purpose to witness to others at a core level. I am still here, I am still struggling physically but I feel so alive. God has his ways and his reasons. I loved seeing these people they brought my old life forward to meet my life today.

I was grateful to find out about Kelleys passing  because I could now pray for her and her family. Perhaps that was the other reason for my being there yesterday. God knows.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P8PLBQrzWQ8

That’s it, please remember Paul S. in your prayers as he is in on his pilgrimage to find a cure for his cancer. (Medjugorje)

Also, please remember Kelley and her family whereas she passed from her brain cancer.

God Bless You,

Danny