I have spent the better part of nearly 3 years paying homage to God for his supreme goodness. I honesty feel that Cancer cautified my personal relationship with my Heavenly Father. He is our only hope. Aren’t we blessed to have hope. We are fortunate to live our lives with Gods promise upon our hearts and resonating in my our souls.

Trust in God

Only Hope . Switchfoot.

 

I spent so much time of the past 3 and 9 months in various states of suffering and growth all at the same time. The main theme has always been to just be better and to figure out what my new life scenario would be or resemble. So I prayed and I prayed for God to reveal to me what I should do when I could physically go and do it safely and with stamina.

I have found the great fulfillment in helping other patients of cancer or any illness for that matter . I believe That God is helping us to find our purpose in helping others. It’s not alone  about money and materialism. That stuff stays behind when we are called. The true treasure in this life is helping each other. Each one has their own special gifts and qualities that only they can share with a person in need.

God did not give me cancer but I do believe he allowed it and expected me in turn to give the situation to him and trust. The sense of peace that he blessed me with has allowed me to be with the sickest of patients even as I was living my terminal illness scenario and I never felt depleted psychologically. I knew what they were thinking, what the Meds they took do to you and how radiation beats the stuffing out of you. I know what is like with a head and body that is being killed by cancer and treatment,  I know what it does to your family, when you beautiful wife has to work, does not work to know, and has to proform at an extremely high level daily. I also know how it effected my children super dad not was not going to live and was a shadow of himself laying in a recliner with a nurse by his side and wires hanging off him monitoring the bodies life signs. I also know  what it does to your career. I realize what it’s like to lay in bed at night wondering if you would wake in the morning. I know what it is like to have an awake brain biopsy done and to comfort other patients and families that it would be okay and that God knows and he has them and loves them .

The most important thing that I know is that God wants us to love one another and to let everyone know that there is always hope. Regardless of what a doctor or diagnosis says.

In so many of my writings over the last five years the common message I get from prayer is that it is the time of Miracles. I then came down with nonsurgical gleo grade 4 and God has sustained me. Everyday we are hearing of more Miracles. Yesterday was Jimmy Carter.

Today I was at the live strong cancer program and my Evaluations were being done to see what improvements I have made physically over the last 12 weeks of the YMCA’S program. After my assessments The staff is comparing my base lines tests done nearly 11 weeks  ago. Thus far I have like all of the other patients made good progress on balance, weight machines and cardio exercise. I have now begun to try and climb up and down the staircase properly. Left and right feet alternating each step. I rely on the railing and very careful and thoughtful placement of my foot so that my knee and foot are lined up so as not damage the joint. I still fear walking in wide open spaces. It is a leap of faith step by step.

I think confidence is beginning to manifest itself in my mind so many things that I thought were unthinkable are now my possibilities. I am so grateful for my healing and even the smallest advancement makes our lives a victory. I also believe that each person along this personal journey whether it be doctors, nurses, the MRI suite, the radiation suite, the physical therapist, the blood labs, the YMCA.even the support staff in the offices and garage attendants were present to the patients/ clients needs. It was not just a job to them it is their calling. More than a paycheck.

Remenber, always be grateful and…….

Jeremy Camp – Walk By Faith – YouTube