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Glorify God and watch your life and world change.

09 Wednesday Dec 2015

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I have spent the better part of nearly 3 years paying homage to God for his supreme goodness. I honesty feel that Cancer cautified my personal relationship with my Heavenly Father. He is our only hope. Aren’t we blessed to have hope. We are fortunate to live our lives with Gods promise upon our hearts and resonating in my our souls.

Trust in God

Only Hope . Switchfoot.

 

I spent so much time of the past 3 and 9 months in various states of suffering and growth all at the same time. The main theme has always been to just be better and to figure out what my new life scenario would be or resemble. So I prayed and I prayed for God to reveal to me what I should do when I could physically go and do it safely and with stamina.

I have found the great fulfillment in helping other patients of cancer or any illness for that matter . I believe That God is helping us to find our purpose in helping others. It’s not alone  about money and materialism. That stuff stays behind when we are called. The true treasure in this life is helping each other. Each one has their own special gifts and qualities that only they can share with a person in need.

God did not give me cancer but I do believe he allowed it and expected me in turn to give the situation to him and trust. The sense of peace that he blessed me with has allowed me to be with the sickest of patients even as I was living my terminal illness scenario and I never felt depleted psychologically. I knew what they were thinking, what the Meds they took do to you and how radiation beats the stuffing out of you. I know what is like with a head and body that is being killed by cancer and treatment,  I know what it does to your family, when you beautiful wife has to work, does not work to know, and has to proform at an extremely high level daily. I also know how it effected my children super dad not was not going to live and was a shadow of himself laying in a recliner with a nurse by his side and wires hanging off him monitoring the bodies life signs. I also know  what it does to your career. I realize what it’s like to lay in bed at night wondering if you would wake in the morning. I know what it is like to have an awake brain biopsy done and to comfort other patients and families that it would be okay and that God knows and he has them and loves them .

The most important thing that I know is that God wants us to love one another and to let everyone know that there is always hope. Regardless of what a doctor or diagnosis says.

In so many of my writings over the last five years the common message I get from prayer is that it is the time of Miracles. I then came down with nonsurgical gleo grade 4 and God has sustained me. Everyday we are hearing of more Miracles. Yesterday was Jimmy Carter.

Today I was at the live strong cancer program and my Evaluations were being done to see what improvements I have made physically over the last 12 weeks of the YMCA’S program. After my assessments The staff is comparing my base lines tests done nearly 11 weeks  ago. Thus far I have like all of the other patients made good progress on balance, weight machines and cardio exercise. I have now begun to try and climb up and down the staircase properly. Left and right feet alternating each step. I rely on the railing and very careful and thoughtful placement of my foot so that my knee and foot are lined up so as not damage the joint. I still fear walking in wide open spaces. It is a leap of faith step by step.

I think confidence is beginning to manifest itself in my mind so many things that I thought were unthinkable are now my possibilities. I am so grateful for my healing and even the smallest advancement makes our lives a victory. I also believe that each person along this personal journey whether it be doctors, nurses, the MRI suite, the radiation suite, the physical therapist, the blood labs, the YMCA.even the support staff in the offices and garage attendants were present to the patients/ clients needs. It was not just a job to them it is their calling. More than a paycheck.

Remenber, always be grateful and…….

Jeremy Camp – Walk By Faith – YouTube

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Lifes twist and turns

08 Tuesday Dec 2015

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Today is 12-8-2015 and this post is one of my first writing after establishing this blog. It is amazing to see what God can do in our lives. Amen God Bless you all, Danny

justdannyspeaks's avatarJust Danny Speaks

My illness took me, a type A personality who never stopped and alterered my whole reality and my identity of who I was to myself, my family and the world. I went from super dooer to a person who relied on everyone especially my wife and kids, family and many friends for the majority of my daily needs. I remember the personal guilt of feeling as is if I failed my family and those who relied on me at that time. My mom and dad included. The fact that I could not work, and am  still not to this date, had really weighed on me . All the desires on my behalf of getting out of here have fallen short do to my slow but steady progress of recovery and the  rebounding energy drain from treatment etc. I am a Roman Cathoilc by my parents choice at baptism, by the…

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This is my blog post from back July 15 -2014 back when i began to write about my personal saga.

04 Friday Dec 2015

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So, What is a miracle?

15TuesdayJul 2014

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So, What is a miracle? To me every one of is a miracle from conception to natural death. Even in my toughest personal times I have found that there is always beauty. Yes, it is true that I would not have desired to be striken by brain cancer especially for my family. I have been Blessed with a beautiful wife, four great kids and an angel in heaven. This is not the garden that God had originally intended for us all so it is what it is we all call life. The bottom line to me is that God has already saved us, by the shedding of his son’s blood upon the cross, that is of course my Lord and Savoir.

I personally do not worry about what will happen to me tommorrow. I have had so many wonderful people touch my life since my birth and I people always seemed to me to be a positive thing to my foundation and mind set. I have never felt that  I have had adversity in my life even throuhout this prediciment. People look at me when I say that but i honesty feel that to my core. I am not a victim.  We are all traveling the road of life and we do not always know when we will hit a corner, dead end, traffic light or intersection. Over two years ago with my diagnosis I came to an intersection. I got a sign by God’s stepping in and announcing to me that the cancer was not his and I did not own it. The sign on the road of my life read yeild. It was an immediate command and by Jesus Christ alone was I  placed into such a state of peace that has never left me. The doctors at first were thinking the poor guy is in denial or whatever but as they all came to understand that it is my real personal state not because of me but because of God. I reminded my doctor at  my last scan. God told us that I would be healed and he said yes, you did say that. My wife, while getting ready to go to one of my appointments said I have questions, I said ask the doctor anything that you need to ask him. So, off we went to see My Doctor and when we got into his office after my scan,  I said to the doctor and also to help ease my wife Dr. Janet has questions whatever the answers are don’t worry please just tell her. I am fine whatever the answer might be. It does not bother me. It was all about if the cancer  will come back ,signs to look for etc. The last question was pretty amazing. You know Doctors do not use words lightly mine included. I love my doctor and all of my doctors for that matter. He said he had one of his oldest survivor in the day before it was 16 years. After a few minutes and looking at my clear scan he said I think your one of those, he said he is like you just incredible faith. I took that as a word of knowledge from my Dr’s lips from God.  The bottom line is this and I love this saying,

God does not expect us to do miracles, he expects us to believe that he will ! 🙂

These doctors, nurses and medical people are very special. The are front line in so many peoples life stories in writings  done so long ago under the title love letters from God. These personal life stories were referred to as our own personal psalms. Like the Holy Bible Psalm #139. God know all about our days.Please read it when you have a chance it  gives me great comfort . He is the author of life.  I do believe that that is the truth. The free will of how we decide to handle our life situations will chart where our lives,faith, minds and ultimately where our souls end up.

In my situation, I have learned to see more clearly, yes, I have had down moments, i am a regular guy far from perfect. But, I can see perfection in a different way now. I have been  left with some left side disability. I was in a wheel chair, i then progressed to a walker, then a 4 prong cain and finally a single cain that i use when i go out to safeguard myself from a fall.

 

One thing that I do know is across the board every doctor and physical therapist i have seen has said just how amazing my case and continued healing is. You see God has begun in my mind his time of miracles and i believe they will only become more vivid so to get everyones attention.

I pray for everyone whether I know you or not because part of the silver lining on my journeys is seeing love in everyone, seeing the beauty in nature and the smells of the changing seasons. It is like I lost some mobility and others senses in my body woke up.

one fact that I really do feel and always have since D day (diagnosis) is that whether I live 1 more day or thirty more years is that I would not be one incling less of the miracle that God intended me to be. The same is true for each one of you too

One of the great saying that I was taught early one was this, I honestly cannot remember who but they said,  Yesterday is a canceled check, Tommorrow is a prommisory note, today is ready cash so use it and it just stuck with me.

I am not a writer so I will say this one time for however long this blog goes for, please forgive typos, comma placement, run ons, and popping back and forth between thoughts. It may not be pretty but it is real.  thx

So, in closing use your cash today and stay in the moment. 🙂  God is right here.

 

God bless You,

Danny

i added this song today. 12-4-2012

life is a celebration .

 

The treasure of friendship and its connection.

04 Friday Dec 2015

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Yesterday was a full day for me anyway. I was up early and traveled through the day from live strong to the grocery store for just a few items a full shopping is not physically possible for me. I made it home and was blessed to visit my/ our friend Paul last evening. By the time I got home I just wanted to sit quietly with mself and absorb all of the moments. I was physically, emotionally and psychologically exhausted.

My wife and I spoke a bit and shared our thoughts. I finished the blog entry with much prayer read it to Janet and published the tribute to Paul and family.

As it happens I went to bed and thought about the written words of my post and wanted to make sure that they were good. That they conveyed the beauty that was behind them. I often do this when a writing is very close and personal. I have been to the edge of life so I understand that perspective all too well. It’s not a sense of glee for the person or their family. Another thing that I did not share on the writing last evening because I was too exhausted is that while speaking with Paul and family by his bed I shared my account of a vivid vision that I had about 3 weeks after my terminal brain cancer diagnosis. As I was describing the vivid memory I began to cry and said this is not sorrow behind these tears it because of what I saw and the words I received during that experience overwhelm me when I try to verbalize them. You see, as I said in an earlier writing I did not plan the words the Holy Spirit would guide me in the moment.

Well, in that moment God pushed me forward to share this vision with them. The peace that surrounded it and the message. I wrote at great length about the vision on my blog justdannyspeaks.com early on when I finally began to document this journey. The blog is not about anything more than to glorify God in my life and yours. He gets us through this life and wants us to have grateful hearts of service. We are his hands,feet and heart here in this world.

please go back to my earlier blogs about this vision I have nearly 400 postings since day one.

Today I would ask you please to keep Paul and his wonderful family in your prayers .

please keep Stevie and his family in your continued thoughts.

for:  Marilyn , dementia and physical limitations.

for: Carol and her son this day. This day is an anniversary of importance and beauty.

for Dave R and family Dave is now near death from cancer and his daughter is to be wed this Saturday. Please pray for them during this difficult yet beautiful time. God bless Dave and family and may the Lord bless the young bride and groom. Amen.

for:  for the victims of these radicals murderers  in Colorado and around this world.

for us all, the United States , the hungry, the homeless, and those suffering depression and loneliness. We pray that the Love and healing of our God will touch us and turn us and this world back around and back to him.

 

we pray to the Lord.  Lord hear our prayer.

This song was shared with me recently. i never really listened to it. I remember hearing it years back an knew it was the Golden girls soundtrack.

I like it because it is simple, loving and is what true friendship and fellowship is about. its easy.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jzrq52qaXZI

 

with love and blessings,

Danny

 

Receiving the promise. PAULS BEAUTIFUL WITNESS

04 Friday Dec 2015

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Dec 3, 2015

This writing took days with prayers and reflection. some things are difficult to capture so I pray that it will do justice to my friends . A family who inspires love, peace and joy no matter what life situation they are in.  God Strong! xo

 

 

Today, Wednesday Dec, 2  2015 I am trying to carefully write with my heart, with my faith and with the full knowledge that God is control of every situation in our lives. First off , thank you all for your prayers for my nephew Stevie, it has been a difficult process with his adjustments in his medications. God bless my brother, and sister in law and their daughters for witnessing untiring patience, love and service to him. He is now coming out of the other side of this situation so please keep the prayers coming. Thank you. Amen.

This morning I opened my instant messager and found two beautiful letters regarding my family friend. Paul S. Thank you for the prayers for he and his family. Paul is a firefighter, a son,brother,husband and dad to 3 beautiful kids. Most importantly is the fact that Paul is a man of faith. The way he has stood up to this disease called pancreatic cancer which traveled to his liver is astonishing. He is a hero witnessing God and is rediating a sense of joy in his life and to so many who meet him and his lovely wife for that matter.

I am set to visit him soon and as I prepared and prayed today I was thinking what can I / should I say?  I then felt in my heart that this is not about planning words. I just decided that God knows what Paul needs so he will give me the words that will reassure Paul. So I am at peace with that matter now. I just want to support my friends the way they have supported my family in the past.

From my personal human perspective this disease and situation stinks. It does not make sense that God would take a man in his prime who  is such a harbinger of good, love and service to so many.

Having lost my 2nd son to heart disease and my mom and grandparents too I know the only way this loss can be reconciled is by allowing ourselves to accept the reality of our loss, the time that we need to grieve. God has to be part of this process. Once the initial pain of the loss is less emotional I found that I could then find myself able to not blame God. I began to thank God for having had my loved one or friend in my life. After all, I am a better version of myself because of that love and relationship.

Today was a gray day and I spent a lot of time thinking of him transferring into a hospice facility.

i know Paul and he will smile and crack the jokes with his family and friends until he reaches eternity. Because he is God strong. He lives for his family and any person in need.

Perhaps God has me here still in this moment to be a witness to what God can to do and to shine a light on Paul and his family and the way we can look at how faith in action can and will benefit our families even in the harshest of situations.

i will also say this, This could be me tomorrow. It could be you out of the clear blue, who knows ?  I know one thing I will continue to tread with Paul in defiance to cancer, or any Spirit of defeat. Remember we do not loose when we are called from this life rather we receive the gift of everlasting life with our family and friends that have gone before us.

God has told us that through Jesus taking our sins upon the cross and his sacrifice   For us all that we will receive the gift of Heaven where every tear from this life will be wiped away and we will be restored.

ALSO, Don’t for a minute that God can’t do whatever he wants. It is the time of Miracles. Someone was talking to me recently and asked me what if a person does not get the miracle. I was being challenged to a certain degree because I happen to be in this moment I a Miracle. My response to them was as easy as the air that I breathe.

I said, we are all Miracles just by mere fact of our births. The next thing I said was that I believe that the Miracles in our lives do not always come the way that we want them too. Many happen to us and are unnoticed. My final thought on the matter was that I had read somewhere recently that we do not always get the Miracle that we desire but in that case we should be the Miracle to others.

Guess what, Paul and his family have been unified and turning everything over to God. Showing everyone who is contact with them that their is a God and they believe. So, their witness has effected everyone they have met.

Paul and their entire family are witnessing their faith in God by the way that they live and love.

Thursday Dec, 3 2015

We received word fro Pauls family that he would enjoy a visit so Janet and I went off to the hospice center and it was beautiuful. we were greated by his beautiful wife, children and family. Pauls room is beautifully decorated for Christmas. a bunch of friends surprised him showed up with a tree lights , you name it and it is so beautiful ! Paul was hiumself sitting up in his bed. God, it was so good seeing him. We shared and he is absolutely so God strong. I asked him questions about how he felt. He said great. he was genuine. His family are all in the moment giving it up. obviously no one is happy but then again as humans why would we be .   But what keeps this situation from becomeing totally devistating is God ,his son Jesus and the fact he has given us life beyond this. I call this act one.

My writing of  these words is done as a tribute to their families  unabiding trust in God. We discussed the Miracles that can happen and we prayed to God for whatever healings he may want Paul and his beautiful family to receive.  I actually gave my blog card to them and told them that I was writing of Paul and their journey because it is really a celebration of Gods love in action. This is what this tired world needs more of. Amen

In closing for Paul, Linda and family, Thankyou and God bless you for showing us the way through your brilliant light.

The reason why Paul his family and all of us should have no fear. its almost Jesus birthday.  And he has come to redeem us. Amen.

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Love

Danny , Janet and family.   xo xo