I just got off the phone with a very good friend a few minutes ago” He calls everyday to touch bases and to read his reading from his Jesus calling devotional book. It was so nice. I have spent part of this weekend with my God mother who is in hospice after fighting a very hard case of cancer where she has suffered a whole lot. Coupled with my own struggle I found myself getting a little down and not so upbeat. I am writing this today because I need to be honest in my writing. Life is not easy no matter who you are. I told my friend that people on a whole look at me like I have a special relationship with God that makes me impervious to my plight. The bottom line is this. I am just a guy who is broken, and God does not love me or hear one more word that I or you speak or pray on to him.

In this moment my entire family is feeling the phytigue of the 2nd time around.

I go in a few weeks to get a scan to see where the cancer is at in my skull. I have no outward signs of anymore loss of mobility etc so that is encouraging. Cognatively, I am right where I should be with memory etc. the bottom line is that I am grateful to God for supporting me and helping me to be peaceful in this storm. But for anyone who thinks that I am happy about my situation and the ripples in my families life, I am not and if you feel upset in your life that’s okay. There is nothing wrong with being human . Just keep looking up and give everything back to God . Remember that he will give you what you need always, we are never alone.

Please pray for my beautiful aunt Jeanne D and her beautiful family who are now together at the hospice center.

Thank you you and God bless you all.

Danny