Well, it’s Monday, I had a great weekend and on Friday some dear friends of my wife and I had arrandged for me to receive a handicapped scooter chair that one f their relatives had gotten but unfornatunally did not have a chance to use. His spouse our friends cousin asked if I could use it. I felt badly that the wonderful resonate did not benefit from it but I am grateful to have it. I have not been driving since the reemrgance of the brain cancer on April and surgery on April 27th. I miss it, I do not understand the reasons for it and had no problems driving prior to this. I have had no seizures which s a miracle in itself. Not even a headache. So to be honest I was mad a heck this morning. I have this beautiful scooter in my garage that I got on on Friday and went up the street for the first time in nearly 5 years.
My primary things that I miss about driving is this…
I can’t go down t the church chapel as I would like.
I cannot get to the nursing home patients that I used to visit and bring the Holy Eucharist to. It requires me to rely on everyone else to change their schedules to drive me when I feel great.i also Miss popping in with breakfast for my dad.
The scotter will be able to get me to the nursing home, pt or my dads there are missing side sidewalks to would give me safety.
Now, I have had people tell me you can’t do this and cannot do that so yesterday I was on the phone with the local police station the non emergency to get all of the questions asked. The scooter will get me to the church and back up the hills hut I need to take one of my kids with me the first time in case I get stuck, I can put it into the trunk of the car.
well, i had prayer time this morning and then thought t myself I am getting out of here. The phone rang and it was wife and I told her that I did need my blood work done .She said how are you getting there? I said, I will drive myself . She sad what are you talking about? I went into a tyraid about…. I sick of everything. Then I said I will take my scooter. I was just so angry at life. She did nothing wrong. I am just sick of cancer taking a hatchet to my life. I ven said when it comes back in full attack mode I will let it run its course. ( in my mind I was think geez, where the hope in that? I have always said that this blog is written from my heart and it is a real representation of how I am feeling this terminal cancer scenario especially this second time around has been totally, mind bending, and it’s like a minute by minute roller coaster. People put me up on a pedestal all the time. My ego does not need that. I know exactly who I am, my strengths, my weaknesses and I have confronted them directly. The Devil used my being a bit blue and turned into, I am done no more. I showered came down and Googled a phrase and then took that phrase to YouTube. Listen to Max Lacado’s take n his new book and think o f m story and what I just wrote. Part of why I was not going to post my bad morning was as I told my daughter people are counting on me usually my writings are upbeat in today’s writing I essentially told my wife that life blows then you go. I think she was a little devastated by my words which makes me feel badly. But again God brought this interview to me and I g centered back where God wanted me to be and know in my heart that Gods got a plan that I cannot see but in time will fully understand.
i just became aware that when you click on justdanny speaks.com link if you follow me it says the the title the Valleyjust below it it has my link. Press that link and it will open up the full page with the links all of my writings have links to music or something so if you are not seeing the links your missing part of the message that I am trying to convey.Thankyou.
God Bless you all.
Danny
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