My last blog  got 2 different responses most were like keep going and you got this I also received one comment from a very good friend asking me to be sure that my desire is in my heart from God. I spend so much time in prayer and feel so at peace helping others. It was suggested to me that my wanting to step out and help may be self activated by my own personal desire. I responded back via email to the best of my ability that yes, I know it’s a calling from God just as I know that my personal desire to be active and be a positive influence in people’s life is definitely contributing my trying to get baby steps going beyond my blog.

God puts desires in our hearts and if he wants something then he will make the way for it to happen, because in this life it not just about ourselves. We are fisher of men for God and a whole lot of people are lost, alone or frightened. There is no need for this.

so, I have a burning in my heart that I will not deny. It’s my work for Gods glory as I see it.

I am still considered to be terminally ill. The only thing that I know is that sometime in my future I will before God answering to him about my life and what I failed to do and what pleased him. I will not deny one thing that I feel God asks of me. I told my priest and friend years ago with my first bout of brain cancer that I would be the best handicapped version of myself that I could in the last year or so I started to pout a bit about my health precidiment. That’s when my truest a best friend s and my family one by one said a few words to me that helped me to see that I was setting myself up for failure by my own negative self talk. As they called it and it was. I am sure Evil the Devil was thrilled that I was a bit discouraged. God sent in the Angels in my life to stop that train on the tracks and turn it around. We I am back stronger than ever with even more zeal to get to my goal. Leave no one behind that God leads me too.

 

I am am finding my òwn way back to God carrying a torch of light with me, so aren’t you so, smile and pull your cross behind you. It will all end well! We are all related to our one God and Brother Jesus. Amen.