Getting cocky and impatience can be dangerous. Follow all directives for your own safetyifyou are in hospice or under a doctors orders. This is what I did Christmas morning that was not good and caused fear and mass upset in my home with my family. My intentions were good but I just did not want to put anyone else anid in my minds eye I saw it done so I stupidly did this….I have just found this song and it is perfect for any of our lives situations Patience,is always prudent especiallyif you are a type A personality which is exactlywhat I am it has served me well in life. I kept the balls in the air. I keptmultiple clients busy at one time and was present to my family.

It will never happen again I can assure you and my family of that.
I am totally sure of that because I could have had a very bad injury that would have had me in the hospital or worse a nursing home. I have always said I accept hospice out patient but I never want to being in a nursing home I just do not like them at all I think for an older person who is safe and are well taken care of they are great but being fiercely independent in my mind that would be real suffering of which I would I am sure not do well. You have to know who you are.

Christmas morning was so beautiful my Janet and children and their significant others thwhether they are married or not Married or they are ous.We love them all so much. They are our family. others for the most part love them all They have been with we Most have them have been here since my diagnosis 5 yearsago to support our family and my children. Janet and I always asked God to bring our children good people for their life’s journey. Every step no matter what the need their entire familieshave been present with us as well. . God has blessed us so abuntly here. God is so good to us As, I have said Janet does not stop for a moment 99:/: of everything falls on her including working a difficult and highly technical job with little errors being tolerated so after 5 years of cancers do the current situation that cancer has left me I I feel so badly that she barely sleeps and is now dealing with everything hospice and what Meds I do or do not need filling out all kinds of forms towards my eventual transition to the Hospice home that I selected.As I say that I have said my family wanted me here. I could not do that. I have said I want to privacy and professionals managing my personal needswhile the hospice supports my family. I have seen this in action and want my family particularly my wife children siblings and my dad to be okay. Right now, it’s about me per usual. When I leave this home, if I do it is mainly about my family not about me I love them so much.My family ar my life and I will do anything always to protect them.My mother always taught us to say what you mean, mean what you say just do not be mean when you say it and I will speak to a couple of people who have been less than loving over the years. It’s part of my life so, I need to just put things justly and kindly into place. When you get closer to the end of your journey you begin to want things to be neatened up.
Christmas Morning I woke up and everyone was here.Cooking and Janet was up and running per usual with little to no sleep. I wanted to get freshen up before dinner.Plus I decided that I had to go to my brothers for the family gathering to see my dad, siblings and my entire family. Especially because we do not know what tomorrow will bring. We all just wanted to be with them as one
Janet said I am going up to get ready. I said go ahead honey. She said, I can help you later to freshen up. I felt so bad for her I said thanks honey yOu never have 5 minutes take care of yourself. I thought I was being helpful Not!
After she went up I decided I can do this without bothering anyone. My strength on my right side is strong my balance is good which allows me safety in the restroom when I am in there.
I went into the bathroom quietly Janet had already brought down my bath items and is extremely organized. I went in and began to freshen up. I sat on a large towel that I placed on the cover. My left leg is hard to deal with it is dead weight. In order to put my sock on or sneaker on for safety. I need to lean forward and grab my left leg with my right hand and pull it up across my right knee in order to get my sock and sneaker on. This time as I went to get up my towel spun on the toilets plastic cover and I flew off on the floor slip and my right shoulder hit the door making a large bang. Everyone screamed. Poor Janet who was upstairs screamed and raced from upstairs to check on me. She ran down the stairs and pull her back muscles which just stopped hurting her yesterday.As I say I was trying to be considerate and loving but my careless decision almost hurt the one that I love so much. My fall resulted in a small scratch on my knee but nothing more thank God only. I did not him my head which is a major concern with the doctors, nursesand my family a fall like that where my head gets impacted because of surgeries, treatments could easily cause a stroke an aneurism or death. So, yes I have learned a lesson that I will never forget. My Personal care attendent who is awesome read me the riot act when he was here yesterday. My hospice nurse Mary too was kind but stern. Like I say hospice is about love and safety preventing further injury. I again am so grateful for my VCA service providers.
So, if you are feeling impatient in a situation such as mine wait.
Fortunately cease guys were here and the fact that I no longer able to get up on my owne he boys were able to get my door open and slide me. They sat me up stood me up and dressed me so. I was all set.
Later on that afternoon because I threw off the whole day’s schedule. My siblings, their children and my guys here brought up my wheel chair strapped me in and carried me out my front door and took me to my brothers home where they carried me directly into Steves living room so I needed to use no energy. It was a blessing to me to be there. We had not called the chair car early enough to set up their service. The Christmas Holiday is one of their busiest days which totally makes sense. I am not the only person who needs assistance. Now,
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