Good afternoon everyone it’s been a little delay in getting this post done. My energy continues very low, I sleep a lot but thank fully feel great my family is constantly here cith me here so tha is is so beautiful. I tell them please don’t feel that they don’t need to come back and forth constantly with work and other responsibilies I don’t want them racing and not living their own lives. Plus, I worried yesterday about the ice etc and they all insisted on coming uanyway. today they are all driving through the snow which I do not like # dad and moms worry. But, ultimately they are adults and We  raised them to be positive and to live in faith so again it’s their choice. Amen.
Janet has not left my si. Being in Hosppice out side of my home full time is the best decision that I have made. For sure not being redundant but any one who may be. Wondering. I will be posting pictures on this post of my experience here. That will show that My experienc w

Lent this year with the terminal brain cancer and the beauty of th Advent
lights and the Christmas 🎄The the Advent Season Early. This year began very early with music anyway. I found out in Oct the Octbrr quite by accident about a free App known as I heart ❤️ radio and it covers basically anything you would want to listen to I saw. a station that saidChristms o c
Clicked it and really began to enjoy it as did my familyit brought a littlejoy back into our lives. Like I say illness does not effectjust the sick but the whole family every generation. regardless of what. Love ❤️ is love and we all bleed for oneanother when we are in a tough patch whatever it may be.Everyone in this life has something going on in their lives it is the human condition.
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Ourfriend Jean Marie who I wrote about earlier on a blog post sold their home in NorthAndoverto go off and to and puRchase their retirement home in N.H She then was moved by her job abroad so off she offered Janet her Christmas tree ours had lost it lights and our our original tree 🌲that was in our first home was about 7.5 ” tall and our new home has 10′ ceings in the living room so it definitely looked like a Charlie Brown 🌲We had purchased a new tree back 3-4 years ago it was the right height but it just did not fit the space. When we got home 🏡 from the hospital in Dec from my last tumor which is currently in my head that has no treatment available.Janet has been with me non stop.At home when I began my Hospice journey she was afraid to leave me I am a big guy she is tiny and once the falls began and my first seizure. I again said I need to go now. I was right as was the hospice professionals. Janet is here with me every moment not be cause she is afraid of me getting hurt she just wants ever second to because She is afraid it’s because she is very very loving person and wife who is just here and spending every precious moment plus while the family has got the center here getting supported by the center” with my children, family and many of our closest of friends who have been so wonderful to us over the last many years. We could not be in a better place honestly. I am a very blessed man. I have no feared pain what so ever. And have love abounding.Janet was squuzing into my hospital bed at home just to hug and talk to me. Now, she is here doing then same thing at night here. S o, it’s good to have this time together as I have said before and totally believe it’s easier for the person to go to God than the families that are left to grieve. I honestly do not think I am going anywhere too quickly. Again, I believe Gods got continued work for me to do. But who knows. Everyday people are losing their loved ones here and a new person gets that call that they have an ambulance on the way.
When I arrived home from the hospital on The ambulance company said your home looks so pretty the lights are beautiful. I could not see them I was looking downhill after the ambulance backed into my driveway I saw what a amazing job my kids did in I was so happy to see them and their significant others and that my kids and their awesome significant others. took out all of our old decoratiions and some probably 25 to 30 years old and threw out a lot of themWhat was really cool is that they found our original star that we had not had up for years because the top branch of support either was too weak so it was crooked or .But, the tree that Jean Mariegave to us held the star perfectly and the tree 🌲 was so beautiful and perfect  actually🎄👍❤️️. It, made Janet so pleased which is really what it is all about to me if my family is happy Everyone of them from my dad , my siblings, Janet and I then am in a good place
Whatever was gone they threw out
We are all so thankful for your love ❤️ and prayers. They went out and purchased one of those new projector lights that projects small laser like orbs around in the air that float around that also make little patterns on the 🏡 It They decorated the family room and even decorated our old ficus tree 🌲 that was in our family room it looks so nice My kids after I left for The gang put everything back into storage for us too. I am going home for a dinner with my family too. My kids need it and it will great for us as a family. So, I will set it up here with their social worker here who is here and will my outing for my get together arrange together home 🏡The chair company will be lined up to be at my home and they can safely get me up and in. It will be my children and their significant others if they are available and my siblings, my dad.Wehave nvited one of our couple friends too who are coming in from New York who have scheduled a trip to visit us on ce again. So, We are getting excited for this like I always say I am making yet another fun goal to reach. I am certain I/ we reach it too.

Finally, As proof that Hospice is not scary.

Myself and my beautiful Janet with one of our fur babies Jerry. He was visiting us pups are welcome as long as you supply the paperwork from your vet showing that all shots are updated.

This is of my son and I taking a walk around the beautiful property. They have a koi pond and meditation .

The picture below of my youngest daughteRachael  and her awesome boyfriend Austin is considered our son. He is incollege in Boston. Rachael met Austin met years ago at St.Basils in Methuen Ma. Awstn is from N.H. And he and his family have stood with us every inch of the way. Again, we are so blessed.

This is the blog card that my son made for me… please share the blog if you think it will help other people.

Here’s the song for today. God Bless you all, thanks for your prayers!

Good Morning-all, just Danny Live here from my new temporary home A Hospice Home North ofof my family home It is a beautiful Sunny day. I feel great Praise God!

We found out yesterday about my scceptance to this particular Cener and we had less than 45 minutes to get packed and get out. The ambulance that e Center uses had already been sent out for me by the HospiceCenter. JanetI had nd some of our children there and two of my siblings were there. So, they all jumped up and got I of m
of family that were was a my 🏡 Got us ready. The ambulance came and arrived human and off we went. My children said that after Janet and I left the pups tails all drooped and they wandered off how cute are they ? Like, I told my kids I will be back at least for a family dinner or something. I said I can get a lift home ambulance service that carry in can bring me in safelythe cay in service up to be there once again. Plus, only Godknow if and when. So, I will just forge forward and make the memories take place with Gods blessing.
Wait untilI get home 🏡 again!
I will be blogging next on my unique Advent journey.

My new Hospice room is only two in this complex to have a skylight. I have written about the love ❤️ of skylights between the sound of the rain ☔️ on them and then. On a clear night the stars. The rain last night was healing to me and I woke up to a morning 🌅. I never asked for it nor do I expect one. But, As I say God always gives us better than we expecct or deserve. This place is beautiful serene and that’s the way thatit to be. Their are awhole lot of people here with grieving families here and for that reason
They askedallnresidents including us to keep it primarily tomfamily here. Especially,here at night which I truly understand. A lot of my friendsbnhererebThey are nowvfollowing my blog now and have been moved by it.sSo, I think they may be concerned about a crowd louder that what they can handlehere.I will be writing soon about the ins and outs for anyone who is or may bebin transition to an outside facility we have learned a lot about ththisci his process that will definitely benefit you all.
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This is how I feel this morning. Gods got this! It’s going to be 50degresses and I have family and patio so I am going out tart ISO fresh air and a little natural vitamin D 👍👍👍❤️❤️❤️

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FscIgtDJFXg.This next song is my personal anthem since my diagnosis in 2012. I believe that My attitude of gratitude and my desire to fight for life is a gift that I needed needed to fight on so here is that Here is the song I love this artist his style and music

The lovely hospice nurse was here yesterday as was my Personal Care attendant and I was talking to them. They all follow the blog at this point which is beautiful because they know I am sharing my truth in a situation that can help others. We talked as a family the ones that were here about something that awhole lot people who are ill or feel lGuilt like we are upsetting and ruin lives by our illnesses. Like we are This is one thing again that Hospice said because of their serviceIt has been a constant thing for me over the last over I say I am sorry constantly. I feel as if I could have controlled the cancer or prevented it in some way which is totally irrational but very common in a case like any cancer patient. I also said I feel guilt over the people out there that don’t have all the support that I have had always. I was at least visiting people when I was driving bribpnging flowers, candy, a smile a kind word and the Holy Eucharist if they wanted to receiveit. I just worry about the people who have not. The Staff from Hospice said Dan if they come through Hospice at some point we will be there. They said Dan you have no idea how many people you are helping through your blog . Those words were healing to me for sure. I am trying to meet God through myPrsyer, meditating on his word and waiting upon his inspiration and direction on what was next this writing is directly based on my conversations that my sweet Hospice nurse St. Mary as I call her spoke of. 👍👍😂❤️️Happy, healthy and a prosperous New Year for you and yours. Iour prayers. Love, justdanny and family. Amen.Everyone.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nRo6cKkujmcj

Go live your day with joy and zest. Count your blessings Andes always look with a thankful to your Heavenly Father 👍❤️️😁Amen.

This has been my own personal anthem since getting cancer 4.6 years ago I love it, I loveMichal Bouble and this song represent my tenacity.tat God gave me through my faith. With love just Danny and family thank you for your continued prayers also. Ours are coming your way of.

First off, It’s official. 2017 has arrived so once again Happy New-years Day and it is a beautiful one to boot.

I have described my situation with Glioblastoma as feeling like a man running with a speeding bullet right behind my head trying to get me. I have been blessed with the gift of peace and not fear since my original diagnosed. After my 3rd Glio tumors arrival and the nature of it people have been more nervous with no treatment. I always remind people that I was blessed to have had over 4 years free from the cancer, which is not the norm for a Glio. I come from a place where it’s always about attitude and gratitude. Attitude. Always remembering that. All good is from God. So, I always give him my thanks and, all glory goes back to him. You 😊 at Glory always.

Well, yesterday on New Year’s Eve Day the bullet hit my head I guess you could call it. I seem to have had a small seizure for the first time. And it caused such upset here. I felt so bad. I have had my first small cold with a dry cough that has kept me from sleeping well or almost 1 week. I think that the cold plus the tumor in my head helped to wipe me my toral physique resulted in my inability to really move my left side and it became an issue real fast. I had my wife, my son ,the men in my amazing kids lives who I love they are ours. And, I we feel we are theirs, Eternally. I had decided that I wanted out patient hospice if and when the time came. We set guidelines on. My wife is just over 100 pounds. She is tiny and I am a pretty big guy, I had her and the men trying to move and place me on the bed so that I would be safe. We had decided with Hospice that for us my inability to go to the first floor bath here would be a transitional pointed begin to get a hospice bed in a facility lined up.

Hospice suggested not to do the lift because they felt that my condition even though they were amazed at my additude and the way that things could change on a dime, based on my tumor and their past history in the industry. Well, yesterday the dime changed. Their fear was that putting the chair lift in that it would not be usable should My walkability change. I would not be able to get to it safely. Well, yesterday became a fact too and I thank God that we listened to them and took their advice. They are amazing at what they do for

So today, Janet is busy touching bases with who’s available during the long weekend. I have had one place in mind but, I need to be accepted by they were correct yesterday. In their advice and my home is now not Danny doable. My wife and children are not my Hospice workers and very shortly I will be where God wants me and they too will have their needs met while I am taken care of too. The sadness in their eyes yesterday spoke volumes to me. I called my sister and 2 of my brothers thus far. My brother went to see my dad and speak to him personally. He is my primary concern in this moment. It’s a horrific situation for any parent to lose a son or their child. So, I really feel terrible for him. He grieved terribly over the loss of our son Brad Michael to this day. He is an amazing man of such strength and compassion . The man that I always wanted to become. I am still a work in progress. For what it’s worth, my children all say dad, you are the best Father ever and thank you for everything that you and mom have done for us, particularly their faith which means the world to us. I told the children once again that love never dies, I will always watch over them and I will. I believe that God has a plan. I/we believe also that miracles happen and that God does not expect us to do Miracles. He expects us to believe that he will. I have confidence that Gods got me Here when he calls me. I sit with peace, family, and not one worry. The following song came to me last night as I said my prayers. We all have terrible situations in our lives. This song is from Whitney Houston. It is the last song that I am aware of. If you listen to the words they are incredibly touching. Its I look to you. She had been through so much in her life with actual drugs and alcohol which, damaged her voice and she was working to regain her ability to sing.

This song resonated with me and this is what I have been doing. It’s all that I have left to do that is to reach up to God. He will meet me/ our family in the window that we are currently in. On a very happy development while writing my brother, brother in law and my dad arrived, so I am thrilled to be here.

Enjoy this song, Whitney Houston, I look to you.
Look up to God he is waiting to connect with you. I think that she sounded and looked great too. God Bless her may she Rest In Peace.