Leslie Stein Robison

September 5 at 7:05am ·

My beautiful wife, love of my life has joined her last battle. Please pray for her and send her your love while she is still with us. Words cannot convey the depths of my sadness.

Tim Robison

Hello All, PLease pray for my friend Leslie, her husband Tim and their lovely daughter. Leslie is  currently in hospice in her home in the surburban Boston area.

I have been soGrateful for companions along my  life’s journey.My friend Leslie who walked a few steps along our life journey here  encouraging me as we gave God the glory.

This another one of my friends that I met during my canccer walk at DanaFaber we bonded quickly do to our faith and optomistic outlooks.

Leslie Stein Robison

September 5 at 7:05am ·

My beautiful wife, love of my life has joined her last battle. Please pray for her and send her your love while she is still with us. Words cannot convey the depths of my sadness.

Tim Robison

Happy Tuesday everyone. Its a brilliant day out there today for sure! I have had a busy couple of weeks so me , for sure . I wrote a few weeks about a friend of our daughter s wedding and the fact that I could not negotiate the venue…. It was a beach wedding Beach nor could my wife and I afford the 2 night rental fee for the hotels down the cape.

I felt better once I explained to our friends truthfully about our situation. Honesty is always the best policy. The wedding was lovely as I have heard. God Bless Becca and Patrick as they embark on their journey as a newly married couple . May their faith grow stronger, their bond become more unshakable.

While I could not make the Cape wedding , a couple of weeks back two of our best friends in this world called Janet and I they asked me if a handicapped scooter would be useful to me. I said yes why? They told that one of their cousins husband had it but never had a chance to use it before he himself passed away.

I felt badly that that he did not get out the way he wanted to I know all too well about being stuck in the house months on end because I do not drive once again. Or if there is ice I do not want to risk a fall that could result in broken bones.

While talking to them they just really wanted us to come to spend the weekend with them quietly and we too wanted to just catch up with one another . So my wife and I decided that we would visit. We did the bus option 2 years ago this Dec. it was 5 hours and was very uncomfortable so that was not an option that we wanted to use again. My wife does not like long distance driving nor does she like City traffic so that too would not work.

Our friends Helen and Paul sent us roundtrip tickets 1st class on the Acela train to NY it also included red cap service so our luggage would be taken care of .They met us at Penn station and we returned to their home for a quiet evening.

Friday was a quiet day I was just relaxing to try and get my energy level back up. Friday evening we went to a steakhouse in NY for dinner with a couple of other mutual friends. and had a wonderful time. Afterward we went to see Jersey boys on Broadway. It was wonderful.

on Saturday we slept in late for us anyway and had breakfast. Helen actually made breakfast for us. Saturday was a quiet day so that I could get a running start into the evening plans. We got ready and went back to Broadway where we saw Wicked. It was another incredible show. My wife and I still could not tell you which show was better they were superb.

In this life things are not easy, for anyone. But I have felt very blessed by my wife, children, dad and my mom, my brothers and my sister the entire family structure. Friends galore from all fazes of our life’s have been present. Many new friends and our church community have brought such joy to our lives and situation.

For or our wonderful friends everyone of you and our dear family.

Thankyou for the love, support and prayers.

My daughter took me to the blood lab today so that I could be cleared for my next round of Ivastin and my chemo cycle as I made my way down the long corridor of the building I saw another gentleman coming out of the blood lab and he too was clearly struggling as he began to walk by me and I said when you do not have your health the rest of the stuff in life is really rediculous and he agreed. Cancer really sticks as is any other physical ailment but the other side of the equation is the lessons we all learn from them. We value things in much different ways once we have been put into the fire. I had some friends who I considered among our best friends who vanished. Some showed up apologetically for things they had done in the past and they were forgiven and we moved on with a clean slate. As the last 4 plus years they went back to their old ways and we have lost contact with them. We wish them well. And thank them for teaching us yet another life lesson. You see, the problem was never ours. It’s theirs. God calls us to forgive and forget that what we do.

For you all. God Bless You All😀

Danny

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lCVo_69Gv4w

https://justdannyspeaks.com/2016/06/05/words-that-make-you-scratch-your-head/

This is moving and beautiful. I have always felt so blessed to always been where my family was or at least within 8 miles. It allows for so many beautiful life memories.

Good Day all its a beauty. I received this letter today from my sister in law Nancy and it is from a lovely women who is very strong in faith and follows my blog. She felt inspired to write me a letter of encouragement. I have always said that if my blog helps one person then I would be satisfied so after seeing this today. I feel like even though life as it was is gutted by my cancer that I am still able to help others in my own capacity

This is the letter that my sister inlaw shared with me today.

God bless this my sister in law and her lovely friend.

Have a wonderful Dayana God bless you all

Dear Danny,

You are so much more to so many of us than Just Danny. You are a guiding light. Through your writings you preach about the gospel and about our saving, loving Lord Jesus Christ. Through you we see that life is riding the relentless waves of the Sea of Galilee along with enjoying the gleaming sunshine and peace of the Lord. In today’s world we need people like you to keep us on the path towards Heaven. Reminding us to always reach for the truth. Amen for you, Danny!! Thank you from the depth of my soul. How blessed are we all to be touched by you and your spirit!
God Bless You.

Well, yesterday’s blog sent out a wave of interest and I received calls from family members and a couple of friends who all know me extremely well. I reassured them tha I was in fact fine. You know I did learn another lesson in this situation though. I would not have understood this had if I not have arrived where I did yesterday. Shortly after Mother, now Saint Teresa passed away she was attached  by some non believers because she had moments of questioning her own faith and existence in God during her many years of heroic service in Gods name to the impoverished people of Calcuta who had nothing but  Mother Theresa and the sisters of her order to help and provide for their needs.

I think that Mother/ Saint Teresa , was literally broken hearted over the people’s plight daily.She could not understand why it was still happening after her many years of service. I am certainly no Saint Teresa  in work or deed. St. Teresa was an angel who comforted the throw always of society. The babies left in the gutters. Etc. she ached to save every life and give each onelove and  dignity. She was Jesus to everyone she met. God calls us according to my faith to be  as Saintly as possible. I understood yesterday with my small effort that I am attempting to make on being the light to the people in interact with that Saint Teresa had lost a bit of hope in humanity. But God called her forward on her daily mission.i think the 4.5 years of cancer has made me more sensitive to seeing the gutter more clearly. When you feel like the cause ahead of you is a little overwhelming. You cry out God, what the heck are people thinking and doing? The nonsense on tv, the horrible divisions in this country that I truly feel is being instigated and on top of that the unGodly candidates that are running for the office in this election . I hit an overload yesterday. Well, I am happy to say that the reset button has been pushed and I am feeling much better today. After a few conversations with family and friends the ability I have to sit, meditate and pray I feel great once again.

Having given to God what I could no longer stand. Lies , hippo racy etc. I do also believe that the Devil is working overtime in this moment to discourage us and to allow us to feel separated from God. Well, I ain’t buying what he is selling.

I do do not care. I gave it to God and that it will stay. It is above my pay grade as one bonehead once said on National television. I never bought his crap either.

My friend, Susan from Tennessee saw  my post and reached out with a message to me and this song. I had never heard of the artist or song before but it is beautiful.

This is world would be such a beautiful place if more people like Sue , and her family existed. Smart, loving, caring and generous people.

Thanks Sue for sharing this with me, now us.

The he picture of myself and my new Candy  red scooter will be up soon. My convertible as I call it. Lol

please keep Sue in your prayers as well like everyone she too has some medical issues in her family.we pray to the Lord, Lord hear our prayer Amen.

God Bless Sue and everyone reading this you are in my prayers. God know who you are😀👍🙏✝

Danny

St. Teresa struggled with her faith but she perhaps did not realize she was Gods Miracle to this world. who served the impoverished with love, prayer and spreading  Gods good news humbly by  her corporal works of mercy done for others in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.

Well, it’s Monday, I had a great weekend and on Friday some dear friends of my wife and I had arrandged for me to receive a handicapped scooter chair that one f their relatives had gotten but unfornatunally did not have a chance to use. His spouse our friends cousin asked if I could use it. I felt badly that the wonderful resonate did not benefit from it but I am grateful to have it. I have not been driving since the reemrgance of the brain cancer on April and surgery on April 27th. I miss it, I do not understand the reasons for it and had no problems driving prior to this. I have had no seizures which s a miracle in itself. Not even a headache. So to be honest I was mad a heck this morning. I have this beautiful scooter in my garage that I got on on Friday and went up the street for the first time in nearly 5 years.

My primary things that I miss about driving is this…

I can’t go down t the church chapel as I would like.

I cannot get to the nursing home patients that I used to visit and bring the Holy Eucharist to. It requires me to rely on everyone else to change their schedules to drive me when I feel great.i also Miss popping in with breakfast for my dad.

The scotter will be able to get me to the nursing home, pt or my dads there are missing side sidewalks to would give me safety.

Now, I have had people tell me you can’t do this and cannot do that so yesterday I was on the phone with the local police station  the non emergency to get all of the questions asked. The scooter will get me to the church and back up the hills hut I need to take one of my kids with me the first time in case I get stuck, I can put it into the trunk of the car.

well, i had prayer time this morning and then thought t myself I am getting out of here. The phone rang and it was wife and I told her that I did need my blood work done .She said how are you getting there? I said, I will drive myself . She sad what are you talking about? I went into a tyraid about…. I sick of everything. Then I said I will take my scooter. I was just so angry at life. She did nothing wrong. I am just sick of cancer taking a hatchet to my life. I ven said when it comes back in full attack mode I will let it run its course. ( in my mind I was think geez, where the hope in that? I have always said that this blog is written from my heart and it is a real representation of how I am feeling this terminal cancer scenario especially this second time around has been totally, mind bending, and it’s like a minute by minute roller coaster. People put me up on a pedestal all the time. My ego does not need that. I know exactly who I am, my strengths, my weaknesses and I have confronted them directly. The Devil used my being a bit blue and turned into, I am done no more. I showered came down and Googled a phrase and then took that phrase to YouTube. Listen to Max Lacado’s take n his new book and think o f m story and what I just wrote. Part of why I was not going to post my bad morning was as I told my daughter people are counting on me usually my writings are upbeat in today’s writing I essentially told my wife that life blows then you go. I think she was a little devastated by my words which makes me feel badly. But again God brought this interview to me and I g centered back where God wanted me to be and know in my heart that Gods got a plan that I cannot see but in time will fully understand.

i just became aware that when you click on justdanny speaks.com link if you follow me it says the the title the Valleyjust below it it has my link. Press that link and it will open up the full page with the links all of my writings have links to music or something so if you are not seeing the links your missing part of the message that I am trying to convey.Thankyou.

God Bless you all.

Danny

Secndly, I cannot get

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=731nb5abhio

I have not written very much over the last few weeks. Not because of any particular reason it has been busy for me in different ways and i just have not had the time or energy to pray on the message and find my starting point well, i guess now is the moment. i feel inspired so, here it goes. 🙂

I continue to be in treatment and the brain cancer is not into remission so I am going to continue my treatment protocol for 1 year if I should continue to need it. So, it’s pill formed chemo and Avastin drip in chemo in an attempt to attack the cancer on two fronts.

my next scan will be towards the end of August and will give mea better view of whether this plan is in fact working if so great if not then I will have choices to make with my family.

I am am not worrying about it at the moment.

today I went to Hanger prosthetics in Woburn  and got my ankle brace because I have a drop foot on my left side that causes me at times especially when I am tired to catch  my toe  on the surface I am walking on causing me to trip forward and gives me the potential of falling down. And, once I am down I cannot get up on my own. I do not have the strength and mobility at this time. I am very tired from the treatment but aside from that I feel very well. Psychologically, being honest I am sick of being sick. I am sick of feeling needy. I need help in much of my life’s needs. My wife and family are picking up all of the slack that I cannot pull myself.

My wife and I were offered last week an opportunity to go up to a friends home in Hampton NH . I spent weeks at a time there as a boy with my family my grandparents ,aunts,uncles and cousins.

The cottage was very nice and was set back 5 blocks from the main boulevard so it was very quiet the sunroom faced onto the marsh which too was beautiful. The sunsets from her from porch were just incredible. You could not capture it with a camera. But my mind holds it very clearly.

My wife is always trying to make things as normal as possible for me and she really wanted to get me onto the sand but the special beach wheelchairs that were available were already lent out with no idea of when they would be returned so the beach idea was not meant to be that day. I was fine at the cottage sitting quietly in the chair and I sent my wife and kids down to enjoy the time that they had. It was my wife Janet’s birthday as well so it was nice. The kids came back and forth depending on their schedules. It was so great to just be together. I disappeared to bed early but my wife and kids were up quite late laughing and playing scrabble so I was so pleased. Our friends generosity made for beautiful memories and a rest bit for us all which was priceless to me.

I went down to the boardwalk twice with my wife and just sat on the bench looking through the railing and down the length of the beach to as I was sitting there I envisioned the boardwalk 40 years ago the old green railing s and seating and thought of my parent grandparents aunts,uncles brothers ,sister and cousins. I could hear and remember through my minds eye those things fused into my my memory that are part of my hearts song.it has all been redone now and is beautiful.

I began to to remember being on the beach until nearly sunset and we would all run home to shower eat and off we went to the bandstand for the music, comic show or magician or 2 once in awhile. 🙂

it was good clean family fun.

On Sundaybmy wife got me into her car and we made it to the boardwalk and I sat again out of the sun looking onto the beach. I watched a young dad playing with his little ones and I looked on remembering my time with my kids

The great thing today at the beach is you do not need your transistor radio with the RadioShack batteries. If you have a cellphone or I phone as I do you can bring your music or whatever you want. As long as you have service your all set

this song came on as I sat looking at the people of the beach and the kids climbing on the small rock formation that to me 40 years ago looked like a mountain. I heard this song and I felt so connected to the past. I swear ton God I could feel my dearly departed with me and felt so good. While I was sitting there I uttered well, close but no cigar. My wife questioned me about it and I said well 5 years was the number that if you reach with this cancer is considered good. I made it 4 years and a moth before the cancer came back into my life. So, my inner mourning found its way out in a under my breath utterance. This song was so popular back in that time. I could picture myself running through the burning sand trying not to step on others beach blankets or kick sand at others as we ran past. I mourn for those days but I also Amos grateful that I had them. Every moment of my childhood,  marriage, and rearing of my children has given me such joy. I sat to my eldest daughter that I feel badly because if and when God blesses she and her husband Chris with children I will not be able to safely pick up the baby like I would want to because my left arm and hand do not work properly in this moment anyway. But, I had to turn that negative thought and statement around and said sorry God, I am blessed to have been able to experience that 4 times around with my children. Plus nieces and nephews. So I know what it is to have a little one who needs comfort food, diaper etc . I have looked at them as they took the pacifier, rubbed their cheeks and fed them you connect with your children by soathing them and gentle connection through the eyes. So, I i won’t be the papa who sitting on the floor or running beside the bike. But, that may not be my role in the grandchildren so lives. I know that I will always try to make them laugh, make them hopeful and they will know that God gave them to us to help them along their life’s journey. I will simply be.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dlv9ucJLCvc

Another song that came up was this. One as I listened to it now 40 plus years later I thought some things in this song have changed others really have not.

Finally for my beautiful sister the oldest of my parents 5 children who is the most loving, and giving sister, generous sister that anyone could ever have. This was the song that she loved so much. For Donna, thanks love you honey ❌⭕️❌⭕️❤️❤️❤️

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EsYnBI2nvHI

God bless you all,

well, off to bed soonDana Farber tomorrow morning very early. 😀

Danny

I had not heard this song for quite sometime and it popped up out of the blue today. I have been talking to so many people living their very own daily struggles whether it is, family, health or work related they are a hurtle physically, psychocially, emotionally and often monetarily. Regardless they are hardships.

This is song after investigating was written to help save lives from suicide and is beautiful.

Keep  the faith and tomorrow is full of possibilities.Amen!

God Blessyou all!

Danny.

well, the end of another week. I am feeling well and honestly feeling blessed.

I spent quite a bit a bit of time out on my deck today with my children, dad and our daughters in laws who are friends of ours too. The grill was going and the kids were in the pool. I was in and out of my home during this time calling my friends who are battling their cancers as well. I am now having difficulty getting through to them. One of my friends Ashwin last left a message when I was away to tell me that he had been in the hospital for 10 days and had just gotten out he had fluid in his lungs and they cannot figure what was causing it. So, he is tired of not feeling well and wants them to figure out how to mitigate this situation. Ashwin was a a receipent of a organ donor . And has had a lot of health issues, pain etc since that life event.

My my second friend that I have yet to hear back from is T. J. And he is just now at his 1 year anniversary of his pancreatic cancer diagnosis. I left another message for he and his family today should they want to talk.

T is a man based in Science. He believes that there is a creator but does not embrace the same rock solid faith foundation. I love both these guys A just clicked with me and I respected that fact that he and I could talk and support one another even thoughts clearly had different perspectives on our faith journeys.

plus, I understand pancreatic cancer too well it is a horrible journey and yet he smiles and keeps going. He asked me at one point if I would like to join he and his friends at a practice in his male choral group. He sang barbershop quartet. I looked at T and said no, I will ruin your music my voice is not what you need. He smiled and said Dan no you would fit in just fine. He is such a kind natured man. Always smiling and is living his victory the best that he could. He may not believe in the moment but kept calling me a Miracle.

For my friend T, I wish now that I said yes to your invite to join in that evening with your barbershop group. God bless you buddy .

Danny

God Bless You All please pray for Ash and for T. Joseph and for one another. Amen.