Times have changed so much. When I was a young boy my neighborhood had the nicest mailman. Everyone knew him and the kids and dogs thought he was great.
Sam would drive and walk his mail route. He used to take a couple of kids on his lunch break with their parents approval for a hot dog and ice cream. Then we would ride around in his US postal jeep and watch him deliver the mail.
Sam was married and did not have children. He was kind and always had dog cookies for the dogs on his route. He was giving out cookies to the dogs even through the mail slots. I remember he was missing the top part of his index finger. He told me that a dog thought it was a cookie. Lol
There was a huge saint Bernard dog that was so excited to see him and the mail truck on the street so he would bark, run off his porch to see Sam and he would climb into the jeep for a ride. Sam would laugh and give him cookies. On our way back out of the neighborhood he would stop and get the dog out and back on his porch. Looking back 99 percent of the things that Sam did 46 years ago would never be allowed now. But it was awesome. Sam also let us chew his green apple gum that he had. 🙂
This is the type of dog,full grown of course.
I am grateful for the memory of this kind man. He listened to each kid that took a ride in his jeep or walked the route with him. He was a great role model for each kid that he took along for a short while on his route. We were not invisible to him. When we went to the dairy bar down the street for the hotdog,the man behind the counter would say hello Sam, who’s your friend today. So nice. 🙂
This scripture was from my bible ap. I could not have picked a better reading for this wonderful man. He did not have children of his own so he helped to raise others. What a great man. God Bless Him. 🙂
13 Who is there among you who is wise and intelligent? Then let him by his noble living show forth his [good] works with the [unobtrusive] humility [which is the proper attribute] of true wisdom.
It was an innocent time when I grew up where families were generally large and we ran all over the neighborhood and played. Our mothers and fathers had to get a check in call if we at a friend’s house. The parents knew each other and called each other as well. It was a great time where we as young children seemed somehow safer to move around.
I believe each one of us is the sum total of our life experiences. I believe that the kindness that I learned from my family and people like Sam the mailman equipped me with an awareness and need to let people know that they matter. In even the smallest way.
Life is beautiful and the people that we are encountering during our day should be validated. I don’t care if it is a check out person at the store, the person you hold the door for or the person on the bus. Everyone is lifted up just by being recognized. Just the fact that someone cared enough to share a kind word just means so much
What is there in life that is more important then to bless another person. To be Jesus to a young one on the road trying to find their way.
This song is for Sam who I am sure went to God many years ago.
The weather is changing, the days are longer and life is so beautiful so why not laugh. Just laugh and let the Spirit of joy lighten your heart and mind. Amen.
Just a quick blog, I am sitting here at home all by my onesies, and was thinking about my blog. I have had so many conversations over the last two years about documenting this journey. What I get now more than ever is just how much people are enjoying the witness of my journey and that of my family. Its causing my family to re-live certain events that were tramatic in that day and I guess this journey,of hearing it and reading about it in this manner will bring more closure and healing to us all.
My intent for this blog is very simple, I want to help even just one person. We are all the same to God precious. This blog is his victory story. To everything there is a purpose.
The byrds
When it comes down to it, by the grace of God all that we have in the life really is eachother, and that is really the most important thing anyway. Material stuff is really so unimportant. We need to celebrate and support oneanother. Amen.
Hi All, I used these songs to end my day on Monday. I was lead to them after prayer and decided that they would be nice to share in this moment. Enjoy this beautiful Day. 🙂
Beautiful songs just enjoy. God is so good.
Yesterday: by , Mary / Mary
Laren Hill and Tanya Blount
This song reminds me of a lovely women that went to the Lord . God Bless you . C
I will not get into my day yesterday, in too much depth . Let me just say this. We are Blessed with so much. Through connections that only God can create. My story made its way through different health professionals and lay people prior to even starting this blog. It culminated with my being picked up at my home by a new friend that I knew only by voice. C, and she took me to Dana Farber because a very dear of friend of hers has been diagnosed with Glio Blastoma , brain cancer and she asked me to support her. My Dr. R, as God would have it is treating her/ my new friend as well. A is a very lovely lady with a beautiful family to support her.
God is connecting all the dots all the time. Connecting us all in a web of Mercy with relationship to oneanother. When I was not with A today while she had her scan etc, I found myself just sitting there. I thought to myself what are you doing? I began to pray for her and every person that crossed my path. I asked God to heal them from Cancer and all these deseases.
Sometimes we feel powerless, blue and like life is a non stop stuggle but I will tell you one thing. We are all so powerful because of our prayers. God answers everyone one of them. Life is once again in control. We have hope.
The woman today, A. her daughter C, and friend C were so lovely, I had never met anyone of them in person prior to today. But that is God for you ! They were all wonderful. I even had the pleasure of speaking to A’s husband on the phone for quite a while. What a wonderful man.
So in closing keep looking up and look for the opportunities that God sends you. In my responding to a request to support another human being, I was the one who was truely Blessed.
Back some years ago I was working in a home of a lovely couple in their late 70’s. He was a barber his entire life after getting out of the service, and she was a wonderful homemaker who raised her beautiful family. She at the time was worried that her home would not be completed before Easter. I assured her there was no problem. During that time, there were no cell phones so I needed to answer a page that I received. They had one phone in their house located in the kitchen to use. So, I asked to use her phone she said of course. So, I called my wife and I must have answered a question about birthday plans, she heard the conversation. I hung up and just said thank you for the use of her phone she was in another room. She apparently pulled my brother B asside when he walked by the room and Bob told her yes my bithday was tomorrow. The next day as we were working , they called me into the kitchen and had a italian rum cake from a bakery with candles lit and sang Happy Birthday to me with my brother joining in.. Now, is that a God moment or what ?
God bless the Maraglia’s they were angels on Earth. Salt of the Earth.
For them , in their memory.
Etta James
I know they are dancing to this right now in Heaven
Today, my heart was full of memories, It seems like a Fall day even though we are heading into the middle of August. While praying over the last day and my blog writing my parents were in the front of my mind and stirring my heart. My mom which I will introduce you to shortly went to the Lord Aug, 7 ,2013.
Today, I would like to give honor to my 86 year old Dad. He is referred to by everyone as Bill. He is just like his Father before him a family man, A Man Of God and led our family with strenght, and yet a gentle demeanor. My dad is a Marine and forever will be. My dad had responsibility far beyond his wife and 5 children. I am #4 out of 5. My dad worked very hard at his job and got extra work a second job to make sure that we were okay financially . My dad, as my mom always told us would come home with his pay and give it to her so she could juggle and handle the family budget. Back in that day it was common for the guy’s to get paid on thursdays and go have drinks after work. Not my dad, he was not one of those men. My dad donated time and materials and built an equipment box for the parish van and drove the equipment van to all band practices, and competitions that we had. All of his kids me included belonged to the St. Agnes Marching Band, concert band and we did plays with that orginazation as well. 12 total years of it. My father even lost two teeth with something falling out of the truck onto his face. Dedication! He volunteered all the time. For his kids #1, but also Mr’ R was everyone’ s dad, a lot of dads just were not there, so we were very proud of my dad and, proud that he is ours !!
Today, he is engaged in all of his family’s lives with quiet support but has never been envasive in our lives. His faith has been a beacon to our family bringing the Divine Mercy Chaplet to our home before the prayers were really common. St. Faustina. And, St. Michael is his best friend. 🙂 His faith is yet another reason that I have been able to weather this storm( cancer) so well in my life. Jesus and Faith are who we are, it is part of our family constitution. Our foundation is strong. And that is due to my dad too 🙂
My Dad is the dad that worked so much yet, he was always present. When he came home from work he met 5 screaming kids on the driveway. He would pull into the driveway and park at the end so we did not go into the street. He would get out of the car with his black baracuda jacket slung over his arm. He would hug us and in his hand was a little brown bag and he give us a peice of candy. I cannot forget how hansome he was/ is dark black hair and sky blue eyes. That was a Miracle to me My dad was there and just loved us so much. We had the first and only backyard skating rink in the neighborhood, that my dad made. all the neighbors down the block were good friends then !!! lol Oh, by the way, we were all Marines he cut all his 4 boys hair regulation crew at his work bench, my mom would walk by and say. ooh Bill they look so good ! Beautiful memories! My sister went for the dorothy hamel look, so my dad did not dare to attempt that cut. LOL Girl’s get crabby! 🙂
Even after all of the hours he worked, I was insistent on becoming a newpaper boy so my parents helped me to make my dream come true. 🙂 By the way, I was 9ish…I was just like the Beev on the television show. Well the Sunday Globe was big in that day. Heavy.They had to be put together and stuffed and they also needed to be delivered by a certain time. Well , the papers would get dropped and I do mean dropped hard onto the front stoop at 4a.m. I needed to get down shortly after 5 to stuff them and my dad would load them into his car and he would deliver them with me. Need less to say you know who stuffed them most of the time dear old dad. LOL
But thats my dad always willing, never yelling at us he would just instruct you that this is not right. You see, when parenting you can lead without screaming and giving outbursts. And, when you choose to speak you measure your words, people listen. That is my dad. Not me, I start off carm and then the lid flips !!!
My father retired just in time to spend all of his time when not with us sitting by his dads bed in one hospital, his mothers bed in another hospital, my other grandfather that was yet in another facility. He left the crack of dawn on a bus, returned hours later to get his car and go up to his dads then off to peabody for his father in law my papa. They were all end of life illnesses. My mom was working, when she got out of work she came home and got us kids dinner. My healthy Nana Ilene got into the car with my mom and they were gone to make their hospital visits. This was every day for a really long time! My dad then came home to be there for us. He never complained he just did out of love and was necessary and right to support his elders that he loved so much.You know, what families use to be like. He has witness Jesus to us all over all these years including my mom, she adored him and he cherished her too. Thats why when I say stuff like I have had no advirsity in my life including my cancer people think, how could he ever say that? This account of who my dad is one of the reasons why. Love so strong, that it can right my ship. In essence, I was made a Marine by my dad by his standard and my haircut as a little boy 🙂 So, I can lay in a fox hole now with bullets flying that I have full confidence that I will make it out and into the hands of my Heavenly Father.
My Dad met my mom when he was 21 years old at a cookout he was on a blind date. He saw my mom and just knew that he really liked her. She was 16 and was at Matigon Highschool in Cambridge, Ma. My mom kept getting double promoted and was graduating early from highschool.
She was very mature for her age. So they related well even with the age difference of 5 years.
They were together married for I believe 59 years but knew eachother longer than that. A marriage made in Heaven and kept together because God was right their in the middle.
When my mom took ill 3 years ago, she had COPD for a number of years but the last three were full of infections of the lungs an in operable tumor in her lung and heavy treatment, hopitals etc. Again, I will be writing soon on what an amazing Spirit that she possessed.:) And she was a miracle too !
My Dad jumped in and just took over her home care, my brothers, sister, neices and nephew were there doing anything that was required. I could not be there physically because I had my cancer treatment in progress. I got there almost weekly, but we spoke a couple of times a day by phone and she was a beaming light and a rock firmly devoted to God and Adored Her Blessed Mother. She was no victim either, She did it her way for God’s glory. Amen.
My father stopped every activity that would take him from my moms side, he prayed with her, comforted her, cuddled her, and did it all. Christ in action! It was something that I could never fully describe.
I will say this, I hope someday to be one tenth the dad to my kids that my dad has been for myself, brothers and sister.
To my dad ,
Love, The Pizza Man, and lots of other names.LOL right dad!
This is just a glimpse of who my dad is, Thankyou God for My Dad 🙂
Earthly Father Enjoy
Ray Orbison In Dreams , For you Dad I know know how much you both loved Ray and this is reminds me of mom and you, Love beyond measure. D, S, B
Our fathers carry half of our genetic makeup. Our relationship with our father plays a huge part of who we will become. In many segments of society, people grow up without ever knowing their fathers. This is unfortunate because fathers should play as important a role in raising their children as mothers. A father is the model of a man for his daughter and she will choose a man who is like him. A father is the model for his son as well. Fortunately, there is a trend for fathers to be more active in their children’s lives.
Again, below poem is from familypoems.com Karen K Boyer
He never looks for praises He’s never one to boast He just goes on quietly working For those he loves the most His dreams are seldom spoken His wants are very few And most of the time his worries Will go unspoken too He’s there…. A firm foundation Through all our storms of life A sturdy hand to hold to In times of stress and strife A true friend we can turn to When times are good or bad One of our greatest blessings, The man that we call Dad.
In The Beginning of true Spiritual awakening of all of us is a long time in the making. We experience different levels of awareness in God, his existence and supreme gift to us all and I m not talking about life 🙂 That is a Miracle in itself. I am referring to the gift of The Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit as far as I am concerned is our bridge to the Almighty, he facilitates all that is good, he inspires us, he warns us,he allows God to fill us with joy and allows our conscience to feel guilt for a wrong doing.The Holy Spirit will help to bring us to our knees for repentence before our Lord. The Holy Spirit that dwells within every one of us is God given and works in concert with our desires, needs and to allow us to fulfill our destiny for God and his people. We need to allow The Holy Spirit to work with us. We need to pray for his assistance in a meaningful way. I mentioned this in one of my recent blog writing that I began praying and commiting myself to God and the holy Spirit with my daily shower and telling all of Heaven that the water was my rededication and reminder of my baptismal water. I say daily to God that I surrender myself to whatever he wants from me and tell the Holy Spirit to please use me to the best of my ability. Lastly, I call on all of Heaven through my prayers for all of the Angels and Saints to please bestow on me any gifts of the Spirit that I may need in the future. Heaven is for real.:) This is a very special time that we are living in, a time like no other. It is a time of Miracles, it is a time of God’s pouring out of The Holy Spirit and Spiritural gifts for eachone of us. We all have our very own special gifts. Some we are born with some we acquire from God in the moment of his choosing. Our gifts can bend and change over a period of time based on what God wants and needs us to accomplish. The one prerequsite that God has for each of us to open our hearts and desire to be an agent of good to be the light to oneanother. It is simple. Through my childhood, adolescence and even into my 30’s I was always searching for my true God and his existence. I could feel him to a certain degree but the picture was still far from focus. During that time for me the 90’s. Life had a lot of moments of hurts from people you know, daily nonsence. Its hard to see God when you are surrounded by others who are not necessarily in Christ or God based. You are wandering around in a crowd of lost sheep many of which have no idea that they are even lost. I am not judging but it is indeed a fact. Well in the latter part of my 30’s I managed to bring my picture into a little more clarity with prayer and the assistance of others through a beautiful retreat know as Cursillo in a retreat house know as St. Basil’s in Methuen, Ma. that was I believe in Oct 1999. My wife went in November of the same year. It was life changing, the focus and picture was now crystal clear! It was an intersection where God made himself and his presence known. It is a Miracle, just as St. Basils is. You should call and look into this retreat house. It will be the best gift that you can give yourself ! So, I came back from that retreat and one of my friends called me the next day and said, hey Dan, I saw you walking on the water of the lake today 🙂 It was so funny,he knew that I was on Fire .lol Each day that we live sets the stage for the next day and action. So all of the many little or big moments of my daily journey that come out onto this blog journal are always building for a bigger God moment. They are all God moments because he is there with us getting us through. All of our Spiritual Gifts are to be shared. It is not about us. This blog tells my journey through God. It his victory over death (my) and yours. God wants my life psalm #139 shared so that all will see him, and draw closer to our Heavenly Father. 4- 5 years ago, I am not sure of the date, I was called out of the blue into some of the most intense Spiritual experiences that I could ever have imagined. I was blown out of the water, I will just refer to them as writing for my church. The details of those writings were not for us , they are for the church. I will say this anyone with a sense of Spiritural awareness just needs to look at the news or turn on the television to see what is going on. The world is out of balance. This process was stretching myself and family to the max. The Holy Spirit is just so awesome. My spiritual adviser said to me , Dan, lets just see where it goes, and we did. I will explain about this experience at a later date. My first vision, vivid dream, about 4-5 years ago during the time I was doing the church writings. I was asleep and had the most vivid dream. God uses our own lifes experiences and will make them part of his message in my case it was based in my lifes work and I have been for over 30 years through the gift of the Holy Spirit an interior Designer. I have done projects that when I had completed them looked at them and said, God, I did that! I did through God and love alone complete my projects .More on that later too!:) So, I was sleeping and my vision which seemed like forever started. I am giving my account to you exactly as It happened and was told to my priest, my adviser and friend long ago… This remember was more that 3 years before my cancer diagnosis. I walked up to the door of this house and rang the bell. I had decorating samples in my hand. A women came to the door and opened it, I just remember how pleasant she was, I could hear children laughing and she said, excuse me for a moment and walked away off to the left in the direction of the children. I did not see them but heard them laughing. So, I stood there and it seemed like a while, I being the type A personality and loving what I did. I said to myself, I will just walk in to the right here and see what she needs. So the interior was very itherial everything was a very soothing white color. It was extremely peaceful. I just kept walking and ahead of me was a hallway with a very bright light people were coming out of the light and passing me again all faces were non descript, everything was very etherial and white. I noticed that there was something on the wall that everyone that came out of the hall seemed to be stopping to look at so, I wandered over to it and looked and was a very pale colored picture I recognized it immediately. It was the shroud of Turin. I have to say this too, I had never given 1 seconds thought to the shroud in my life yet here it was . Well any way I could hear voices from down the end of the long extremely bright hallway and hear a booming voice and laughter it was pure joy. When I got to the entrance I realized, I shouldn’t be here, I had wondered from where I was left to wait. I would never wander around my clients home. So, I returned to where I was waiting by the door. I was getting annoyed and it was like 4 hours. Well, the really pleasant women was back and said she was sorry for the delay and she opened the door to the left of me. The children were quiet now and she guided me into the room. I stood there and there was a very large white table in front of me. As I stood there the women was standing to the left side of the table looking at me and there was another figure to the right side of the table looking at me as well. The women looked at me and, I felt love like I had never felt before. She said again sorry for the wait, I remember having been so angry to had to wait 4 hours for her to return and , I just responded its okay and she said to me you are an angel. Of course, I told Father I am certainly not, I am a sinner like everyone. I remember feeling intense love. I knew that it was my Blessed Mother. She without a word uttered pointed down to the table and moved her hand over the surface as if she wiped the table and the white milky color left and it now had a clear glass. It was a case. I could see all kinds of relics, bottles of oils, and religous statues related to my faith and she spoke these words to me, We want you to have many Spiritual gifts. And that was it. I woke up and is as alive today and vivid as the time that it occured. I have had years to think of why The Blessed Mother would call me an angel, because I am not. So I have a couple of thoughts on that. 1.) She knowing that I was upset with waiting for her which my Blessed Mother would know and yet I told her no problem thought that I was kind? 2.) Everything that I have done in writing including this blog through the Holy Spirit is never about me or any one of us . We are all loved the same. And what mother does not look upon her child at least as an angel in training? 🙂 Thats the best I can do on that thought last but not least the booming laughter and joy was, I know, was Our God! I was given a glimpse of Heaven. I pray everyday to continue to grow for his purpose and into his will completely . Amen. Better Is one day In Your House By Kutless https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jdE03zRJtxw In Christs Holy Name, Danny
With all of my medical treatment that I have received, the one constant that I have found is dedication to service of all my medical staff.. I see Jesus everywhere. God has given me so much, I look at my moms treatment that she received while she battled Cancer, COPD and emphysema. She had an incredible team of doctors and had treatment at Mt Auburn Hospital in Cambridge With Dr. S at the helm. A fantastic human being also by the way he is a brain cancer survivor too.
We God’s children really need to be thankful for what we all have, starting with the love of God, The sacrafice of his son, our savior Jesus Christ for everything. A lot of us irregardless to what we have as Blessing’s in our own lives feel that we lack something that we may not have. A new car? a vacation, a boat the 50 pairs of shoes, whatever. There are times we don’t know what we really want. Their is a void in our lives and the little kid inside us needs to be pacified. Anyways thinking that the next thing that we get will make us complete. I am not pointing fingers I too have found myself wanting and acquiring things at different times of my life fortunately for me, I had children and felt my responsibility to care for theirneeds first. So, I put those things that I wanted but could not have into the catagory of a sacrafice. I have to be quite frank and say this too, If I had been given great financial success atthat time, I might have ruined my family by giving all. My kids would not be the same today for sure. God knows me,oh so well. Looking back in time these wants and desires for stupid little things were rediculous. For what? God was very good to me you see , I worked really hard for every penny that we had and God blessed me with a beautiful wife with 4 awesome kids and an angel in Heaven, things were tight but comfortable because my wife worked harder than me, ( still does ) She worked the opposite shift than me so that she could raise her kids and to be honest if we needed to pay day care we would not have been able to afford that either. The other important factor in our marriage was/ is that we were not alone in it. I can be a bone head 🙂 Jesus is standing between us it is our family trinity, My wife, God and Me. My wife is very generous to help others when a need arises but is a very cautious person with any asset that we may have. She adds water to the hand soap bottle etc. Not cheap, but very careful.Thats where our balance with finances lays, God put us together for that reason as well. If she had not been like that fiscally all of our marriage then this situation namely cancer here would have been impossible to cope with financially. God will provide for each one of us according to our needs and then we need to be good stewards with our gifts that he gives us. My children did not have designer stuff and who cares, they lived as we lived, pretty good 🙂 My kids took their first plane flight with my wife and I when my son I think was 18 and the other 3 kids the yougest may have been 10. We went to Disney. That was 9 years ago now. By, the way it was my wife and my first plane trip in 19 years at that point since our honeymoon and we have not set foot on another plane ever since our Florida trip. You have to live within your means. We do not feel like victims. Its just life. If God wanted us to do these things he would open the door for us to do them, supply us with the funds etc. I am happy just being. Travel has never been a big thing to me. Home is just fine usually, I loved working in my yard. etc,when I was capable of it . I would work like a bear, in concert with God, nature, music, my family, kids, friends and puppies:) I loved being outside just moving and doing. It is a beautiful life, not a perfect life but it is our life so thankyou God for my Blessing’s 🙂 Perfection will come when I am eventually called to God, that is my supreme Desire to meet my God when I am old 🙂 I believe that life here is a school where we learn and loose all of our rough edges.That we are able to see the sunrise through the storm and see Christ in everyone and truely forgive one another. None of us is perfect so we should not be kicking sand up in the air like kids in a school yard. It is wasted emotional energy and hurtful.It destroys us and the person who we are unleashing ourselves onto.
As far as travel goes…
I tell my wife some day when my Spirit leaves my body I will fly over Hawaii and get a look .lol
Their is a Christian money man that is on Fox news every know and again. Years ago he was on the radio and he would help people with financial issues based on biblical values. His name is David Ramsey. He motto is live like no one today so you can live like no one tomorrow. I loved that and it resonnated with myself and my wife. My kids have grown up everyone of them has had to work very hard . And, why shouldn’t they? They are better people for it and are making their liitle money boo boo’s at a young age before their out on their own making huge one’s. When you owe money to everyone you are powerless and are schackled. In the bible you are a slave to a debtor. If not for intersections and opportunities to learn lessons like those of Mr. Ramsey, my parents and granparents In our lives when the Cancer diagnosis hit here it would have been curtains to us financially if we were mired in endless debt. We had some debt obviously that comes with regular life. We also were Blessed to have had the Miracle of the fundraiser to assist us, so many beautiful people giving us help quietly. One of our beautiful friends a couple said they were called by God to help us it was a very humbling situation, It was overwhelming to us . But, God was behind it and we understood that 100% by out reach that we have been called to do ourselves in the past. When God calls, we need to answer!
I never know where these writing will go, but my next writing I do know will be about my first vision that I had around 5 years ago. It will be explained in exact detail as I had told my priest Father R during my confession aand Spititual counceling appt so long ago . It is as vivid in my mind today as when I had it this Blessed event. It is a message for all of us really. Beautiful. Father R had said back at that time to just be sure when you tell this that people are ready and that we are all in different Spiritual places. I understood that when he spoke those words just as I understand those words in this moment. The difference today is that , I do have an ubandance of peace today that it’s time and that it is okay. So I will be out shortly with this account.
God Bless You !
Danny
Lets unite as 1 the way God wants us too, Lets pray for this world and pray for peace and brotherhood. Amen.
So lets start tonight !! Enjoy the Video below. Its all about love.
My illness took me, a type A personality who never stopped and alterered my whole reality and my identity of who I was to myself, my family and the world. I went from super dooer to a person who relied on everyone especially my wife and kids, family and many friends for the majority of my daily needs. I remember the personal guilt of feeling as is if I failed my family and those who relied on me at that time. My mom and dad included. The fact that I could not work, and am still not to this date, had really weighed on me . All the desires on my behalf of getting out of here have fallen short do to my slow but steady progress of recovery and the rebounding energy drain from treatment etc. I am a Roman Cathoilc by my parents choice at baptism, by the sacrament of Holy Communion , Confirmation etc. Having said that, I do believe is at some time in everyone’s life we are all born again. What I am trying to convey however clumby it may be is this. To me God, My personal God is waiting for us to personally meet him with a heart that yearns for him. I had always done the works before I had cancer. When I was a very young child I was a paperboy. On Thursday evenings I would go out deliver my evening route and collect the money from the customers, hopefully with a tip.:) I am guessing I was nineish. On Glen Ave in Arlington I had a number of clients, one inparticular has stayed in my heart and mind all theses years. Her name was Esther Sullivan. She lived in a second flloor apartment of a two family home. i would go up to her door ring the bell and there would be a buzz and the door would up lock for me. it was like Star trec or something. She could not do stairs easily anyway so, I would bring her paper up to her and her siamese cat would hiss at me.i though he was scary and exciting. His name was Tao. But, I digress. lol So anyways, during my visits. I would carry things in the kitchen because she was by herself and i wanted to. I began to spend a few more minutes there just talking to her about what ? maybe worms :)I then began to wash her kitchen floor her, I then went home and told my mom about Esther or in that day Mrs. Sullivan 🙂 My mom was making a cake at the time so I said mom can you make a little cake out of a small chicken pot pie tin, she was very compliant with my request and taada, Esther was getting a small cake weekly delivered in my mail bag on my stingray bike. The bottom line to this saga is this as a child our love and innocense guides so much. it is like the right thing to do is easily less complicated. Were just guided by God’s goodness and the Holy Spirit. As I got older personally doing good works and deeds became also combined with the fun of the crowd social aspect etc. Sorry was it really for God? The jury is still out. During my time here in a recliner ,I have had a lot of time to evaluate everything, not by emotion but by the Gold standard God, his teaching, commandments and what is this whole thing about meaning life. I do not know all the answers, i suspect I never will but I know the most important thing. God! He call us to love eachother the way that he loves us. God wants us to go to him for forgiveness , in my case that would be the confessional. because, I have learned that I need to forgive myself what i felt was my failure by getting sick and altering my whole families world. through my prayer, my confessional visits and a wonderful Priest, God has healed much more of my life that my body, my Spirit is awake and aware and the vision of myself as danny the person can love himself a lot more and accept that i did not bring this on myself. neither did God but he getting me through it one way or the other. He is the boss! He doing the very same for you all and always has. Well, One day I made my way to Esthers stairway rang the bell and there was no response after a few minutes, a man opened the screen door on the first floor and I said i was looking for mrs. Sullivan and he said she does not live here anymore. I still miss her today.Some times I wonder If she was sent as an angel into my life to see if I would respond to God’s calling. On a kind of sillier note I hope she was allowed to eat sugar and my little cakes were not leathal. Well in closing in Danny’s world here, I have made an effort whoever clumbsy to find God and it took diagnosis day when the Good Shepperd met me where I was at. We need to work our faith and pray even when we cannot feel anything. God will not fail to respond. And furthermore he will always meet us in the moment. Here is here. Feel the breeze on your face look at the beauty of a baby that you encounter it is that easy.
Just Danny Speaks 