There are a lot of annonited songs if we listen. we are all Spirit Driven so that would certainly make since. I have many songs that I would put into that catagory asside from Catholic music and christain music. Some songs fall into a more mainstream setting. God is trying to connect with us all. He will use music from childrens music, symphony’s, jazz,blues,rock whatever to touch our hearts. Heck, someday we will hopefully be singing and praising God in Heaven . 🙂
God gives the gift of writing to these special songs and lyrics for the culture to have, as a gift. And, as an awakening. He blessed people to write them and with the ability to preform them with their beautiful voices. They are God’s blessing through the Holy Spirit. These songs may be in a movie, on the radio, or something.  The words I feel are of love for all of us. They have a double meaning where God is right there.  Below are a few examples that I have felt my Spirit respond to at different cross roads in my life, we all have these moments and connections. 🙂 There are many more songs like these too. 🙂 They help to lift us and heal us during our days here.
Thats how my next account begins. Dan as you are part of the experimental study with Saha or the actual name Veronistat we would like you to visit our Oncology Phychiatrist. I said all right. Never been to one but, if I had to go, then God wanted this appointment to take place. Plus the study info will help others out too.
So, we booked an appt with Dr. V for Dana F. the assistant came to get me and  the Riley clan all went into this large office. 🙂
The doctor was quite lovely, she turned in her chair and smiled very softly, her hand grasped her glasses and said something like Oh, is it okay for them to be here with you and I said they are always with me. like the bible my witnesses and smiled, she said,  I see.  And she  wrote something down on the clipboard. I will not pretend to know what 🙂
She looked a little puzzled like what is this? She began to ask are you depressed? I said no, I feel great, Gods got it. Again, a puzzled look was on her face she was looking at my families faces and they were like this is his natural state.( Thanks be to God) Dr V nodded at them. She bagan a series of cognative tests and I completed them and one highlight was when she gave me a list of items from different catagories and said remember these words. A while later I was asked okay Dan can you give me the list of words that I gave you to remember? Well, I began the list the best that I could and word after word came out she finally said there is one more word do you know what it is ? Very pleasently. I sat there and said, out loud , God ,what is that last word? I sat there and the word daisy came into my head. The Dr. Just looked at me and I said oh, he just said Daisy. She honestly looked shocked. That was the word. My family and I laughed and marveled at God’s being in every moment. That was the end of Session One.
She asked to see me again so I said sure.  Gods knows the reason. The next Session Two, meeting with  Dr. V was close up to me chair to chair and  she asked me more questions a whole lot.. Her eyes were on me like a hawk trying to access where I am at and why. She was very kind, professional and was really working to see that my needs may be met and to measure the effect of the brain cancer on my body and thinking process. She was wonderful and one of these days  If  I bump into her again, I will be sure to thank her for her wonderful devotion to her patients including me.  I just witnessed God and his glory to Dr V. and told her that God loves  US all the same.  She had  watery eyes at times during my witness and I felt her humanity. God Bless her as well. That was my last visit and again God was showing her that he is right here in the moment and always will be.
For All Of Our Doctors, May God Direct Their Hands, minds,and medicines through the Holy Spirit to help all of us that suffer in any way with a medical or mental illness of any sort to be healed. Amen !
Hello, I have been out of treatment with cancer meds and radiation for for well  over 1 year
 This was my regimen back in that day. I hope it helps. I am currently on the lisinorpil 20-25mg, it is considered low dose for water and to make sure my bp stays as good as it is. , also I am still useing the omerprazole 20 mg tablet to coat my stomach. Thats it.
Daniel R-Medication Schedule-5/8/2012  TIME MEDICINE MG # OF TABLETS/CAPSULES  DAYS 6:00 AM SAHA (Vorinostat) 300MG 3 Capsules  1X/Day  (MONDAY-FRIDAY ONLY!)  (clinical trial)  With Food 7:00 AM *Zofran  (Ondansetron) 8MG 1 Capsule  up to 3X/Day  (Everyday)No Food  (prevents nausea/vomiting)  (Every 8 hrs/No More Than 3 within 24 hrs!) 8:00 AM Temodar (Temozolomide) 165MG= 3 Capsules Together  1X/Day  (Everyday)No Food Until 1hr Later (chemo drug)  (1)140MG+(1)20MG+(1)5MG)=165MG  MUST TAKE WITH WATER 9:00 AM  – ALLOWED TO EAT FOOD NOW 9:00 AM Decadron  (Dexamethasone) 2MG 2 Capsules  2X/Day (Daily Total 4MG)  (Everyday) Kino Omeprazole  20MG 1 Capsule 1X/Day  (Everyday) (prevents heartburrn)  Mepron  (Atovaquone) 1500MG 2 Sachets 1X/Day (10ML)  (Everyday)Must Take With Food (prevents pneumonia)  Lisinopril  20-25MG 1 Tablet 1X/Day  (Everyday) (for blood pressure)
Radiation is 12:30PM on 5/8/2012 Radiation is 1:15PM on 5/9/2012 Radiation is 10:15AM starting 5/10/2012-6/18/2012 3:00 PM Decadron  (Dexamethasone) 2MG 2 Capsules  2X/Day (Daily Total 4MG)  (Everyday)  Bed Time:  Simvastatin  10MG 1 Tablet 1X/Day  (Everyday) (for cholesterol)  Zolpidem (Ambien) 5MG 1 to 2 Tablets 1X/Day  (Everyday-As Needed) (for anxiety/insomnia)  (Can Take a 2nd Tablet if He Wakes Up During the Night) Take As Needed:  Colace 100MG 1 Tablet  (Everyday-As Needed) (for constipation)  Senekot  Up to 2 Tablets 1X/Day  (Everyday-As Needed) (for constipation)  *Zofran  (Ondansetron) 8MG He can take up to 2 more doses of Zofran (prevents nausea/vomiting)  daily (no more than 24MG in a 24hour period/    every 8 hrs.) if he develops nausea  8 oz Water/Day……Total of 6 (8oz) Fluids/Day Including Water No Antioxidents/No High Dose Vitamin C
Please note I was fortunate to never need drugs to help me for depression and never received any psychotropic drugs. Because of my clinincal trial study I needed to see a oncology phychologist during my treatment and it  was actually fun and  I will write on this topic soon.
Lets kick Cancer in the back end, pray, believe !!!!!!!!!!!! Â God can do everything ! Faith.
Today, I wanted to stop and speak about a women who effected my life profoundly. I feel that she was brought into my life by God to witness God to me. Her name was Rosie it should have been courage, faith and hope. She was all of these plus more. She would laugh all the time . I met Rosie back in the 1980’s she was a client of my business and was a recent breast cancer survivor.She had her husband and two children. In the eighties she was in her early 50’s she remained in contact with various projects with my families business. She had been  battling cancer that kept changing, she would fight it off and it would re-emerge. I / we in the business were very close to her and we became very good friends with her even coming to dinner at our home etc.
She was so heroic while in battle with cancer and was always laughing, saying this damn cancer and she would stamp her foot. She was so kind and absolutely loved her little dogs and her cat. She had a very tough upbringing of abuse and had a very nice husband and two children. I have never met anyone like her before and suspect that I never will again. She was caring, loving, broken and wanted to just love. We did a lot of projects in her home major and she was so pleased. She did to her house everything that she did not because she liked stuff, but because she was still trying to soothe the child inside who was never at home. She was in remission at this time. One day on a Friday it was the summer a car came into our driveway at work. I was outside the bldg with my brother and we looked it was Rosie she was coming up to us and we said hi Rosie, she responded I am mad as hell, I had to get out of the house, she said! I said whats wrong honey ? You know a few blogs ago when I wrote about the mind setting me off with worry years ago, well she had just found out that the cancer was back on fire again, her mind was wheeling and she coulld not stand it. I said Rosie come on into  the office and sit down we had lemonade in the frig, she said okay. She went on to tell us thay they could not do anything for her cancer  because as she said her bones were like swiss cheese from all of the treatments. She was 73 ( so young)
Looking back at my life I have been by a lot of peoples bed before they passed, and I believe that I was called to make sure that they were at peace. but again that is for another day.
Now, back to Rosie….
She was a remarkable women and only  had an outburst once in front of me about her situation, and I as well as my brothers were honored that she trusted us and felt that we would understand. What people,  everyone of us has to understand is that everyone one of us no matter what we do for work in our lives has a ministry of our own. So, I talked a whole lot about God with Rosie, I could see God in her and she recognized the Spirit in me.  We were in constant contact from that point and I would call to see how she and her family were doing. She came to my home in Oct 2007 for dinner with her husband and I still count that dinner as one of most favorite memories here in our home. She was in constant pain and never complained, She ate very well. After a while she asked if we could go into my family room. She wanted to rest on the couch. I said sure. When we went into that room one of my kids was watching a little kid halloween show and she sat on the couch, my little dog’s took to her right away. They jumped on to the couch as kissed her, they were glued to her. She was laughing at the dogs and laughing at the cute show that was on television. She was a living angel. Her face stays with me and brings me so much joy.
Well, along came the Spring and things got really tough. She was drawing closer to her time and she was sleeping in her room the one room  that never got done in her home. She got too sick, so it looked like the 60’s still.  She had been  insistent at that time to sleep in her bed. She went into the hospital for  around 4 days  days and God spoke so loudly to me, I talked to her husband John and said please I want to re-do your bedroom for Rosie, I have to it at night, if you don’t mind. My schedule was already booked.
I said I would complete it at no cost to them at all as a gift to Rosie. He felt bad, I said no, I really want to so do this, he said thank you. With that I began, I tore that room apart, stripped wallcovering, and completed remade the whole room with paint, new window treatments, assesories and bedding. You see, God called me to lift her and her entire family up in this moment. Rosie came home from the hospital and cried with joy. She called me on the phone a few days afterward and told me how she felt like she was finally at home.
Rosie continued her struggle eventually a hospital bed was brought into her livingroom and a nurse began routine visits. Rosie always fought on and would smile all the time with her beautiful blue eyes just beaming. I would say to her we have to offer the stuff up. We talked about God all the time, Heaven and her mom and a few other loved one that had passed. She had been a regular church goer earlier on in her life but had fallen away for one reason or another. But still loved her parish of St. Jerome in Arlington. She loved Jesus and Her Blessed Mother, too. Unfornutaely the church she attended St. Jerome was closed and property was sold around this time.
Their was one neighbor Mary who was her best friend and could not bare to see Rosie suffering for so many years. Mary was a daily communicant in church in another parish in Arlington, she moved parishes when St. Jeromes closed. Mary tried to get Rosie to go but she never quite got there. Well, Rosie was getting close to the point where God would call her and I said Rosie, would like to see a priest and talk to him? She said okay. When her husband came home, I had been there giving him a break. I said John Rosie would like to see a priest and she responded yes John. So he said okay Rosie, I will call. I said I will see you soon honey and left.
I went home and decided to walk the lake and pray. I got about 1/3 around the lake and my cell phone went off, It was Mary, she said I saw you leave Rosie’s and popped in to see her. She told me about the priest coming so I asked John and he said no she can’t do it she is too weak. Mary said,  Danny can you please call the priest and get him there? My heart was on fire, I lost the breath  in my lungs. I stood on the side of the lake where time stood still and Heaven took over ! I dialed directory assistance, and asked for St. Agnes Rectory in Arlington, they connected me. The secretary answered and I told her the story and Rosie’s desire for confession, eucharist and Holy oil (sacrament of the sick). I gave her home address and they said the attending priest would be there shortly. Next I had to call Rosie’s very strong willed husband John.
I Remember I could not even breathe so my voice was being forced out….This is the conversation with John.
Hi John this is Danny, There is a priest coming to your home very shortly from St. Agnes to see Rosie.. Â He said but she won’t see him, I said John, Â she said that she wants to see him. He said what do I do ? I said John when the priest comes to the door he will ring the bell, you will answer it and show him into see Rosie and if she does not want to see him then she will send him away . He said okay. I hung up and almost died myself. I had been so strong and bold with him which is not my way. But you see God handled him the way that he needed to be handled he was in his late 70’s very much my elder and was a very strong personality.Again God took over ! Thank God, he did !
About 10 minutes later my phone rang again, Mary was on the phone, she saw a black car pull up to Rosies house and a young priest run up the walkway. I hung up Mary had been crying with joy on the phone and I too began to join that celebration with my own tears.
Finally, around 20 or so minutes later John called me,( I was so afraid to answer, but I did) ) he was all excited. He said,  Hi Dan ! I said hi John, he said I wanted to let you know that a very young nice priest came down from St. Agnes. Father G, I said I have heard about him. He then said, Rosie had a nice visit, I left and she had confession, communion and blessing of the sacrament  oil for the sick. He offered to come again and she said great.  He said thank you Dan. That’s Victory through God !
That was it , she then said, she wanted to sleep in her own bed so they took her up to her bedroom she was there for two days before she went to hospice. She was at peace though and that’s all that matters. She was good with God, ask my grandfather would say.
In life God will call us out of our comfort zones, if Mary had not gotten out of her comfort zone and listened to her calling  then I may not have acted  in Rosies best interest and her wishes would not have been met. Everyone deserves to be listened to especially as they are preparing to meet their maker.
I got a call July 4th, 2008 from John saying that Rosie had gone to the Lord.
Later that same morning….
I went down into my garage and was backing out  in my car and I have a retaining wall with a flower bed at level with my eyes to the left. I looked and there was a white lily plant in full bloom. Rosie loved lilly’s, I went right in and told my wife. Rosie  was a miracle in so many lives to so many people and I thank God for my Rosie. 🙂 That plant has never bloomed again.
God Bless You ,
Danny
This was her favorite song:   Heres to Rosie, maybe we can all say a prayer for her. 🙂
I Just stepped out my door onto my deck to let my old puppies outside. It is pouring out and I will tell you my son said dad your getting soaked I said who cares and he laughed. I feel so alive in this moment and we all should. Forget about the clouds and rain that falls in our lives. The next song came to mind so here it is. Rejoice in this day because this moment will pass and we do not want to miss it.Â
In The Beginning of true Spiritual awakening of all of us is a long time in the making. We experience different levels of awareness in God, his existence and supreme gift to us all and I m not talking about life 🙂 That is a Miracle in itself.  I am referring to the gift of The Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit as far as I am concerned is our bridge to the Almighty, he facilitates all that is good, he inspires us, he warns us,he allows God to fill us with joy and allows our conscience to feel guilt for a wrong doing.The Holy Spirit will help to bring us to our knees for repentence before our Lord. The Holy  Spirit that dwells within every one of us is God given and works in concert with our desires, needs and to allow us to fulfill our destiny for God and his people. We need to allow The Holy Spirit to work with us. We need to pray for his assistance in a meaningful way. I mentioned this in one of my recent blog writing that I began praying and commiting myself to God and the holy Spirit with my daily shower and telling all of Heaven that the water was my rededication and reminder of my baptismal water. I say daily to God that I surrender myself to whatever he wants from me and tell the Holy Spirit to please use me to the best of my ability. Lastly, I call on all of Heaven through my prayers for all of the Angels and Saints to please bestow on me any gifts of the Spirit that I may need in the future. Heaven is for real.:) This is a very special time that we are living in, a time like no other. It is a time of Miracles, it is a time of God’s pouring out of The Holy Spirit and Spiritural gifts for eachone of us. We all have our very own special gifts. Some we are born with some we acquire from God in the moment of his choosing. Our gifts can bend and change over a period of time based on what God wants and needs us to accomplish. The one prerequsite that God has for each of us to open our hearts and desire to be an agent of good to be the light to oneanother. It is simple. Through my childhood, adolescence and even into my 30’s I was always searching for my true God and his existence. I could feel him to a certain degree but the picture was still far from focus. During that time for me the 90’s.  Life had a lot of moments of hurts from people you know, daily nonsence. Its hard to see God when you are surrounded by others who are not necessarily in Christ or God based. You are wandering around in a crowd of lost sheep many of which have no idea that they are even lost. I am not judging but  it is indeed a fact.  Well in the latter part of my 30’s I managed to bring my picture into a little more clarity with prayer and the assistance of others through a beautiful retreat know as Cursillo in a retreat house know as St. Basil’s in Methuen, Ma. that was I believe in Oct 1999. My wife went in November of the same year. It was life changing, the focus and picture was now crystal clear! It was an intersection where God made himself and his presence known. It is a Miracle, just as St. Basils is. You should call and look into this retreat house. It will be the best gift that you can give yourself ! So, I came back from that retreat and one of my friends called me the next day and  said, hey Dan, I saw you walking on the water of the lake today 🙂  It was so funny,he knew that I was on Fire .lol Each day that we live sets the stage for the next day and action. So all of the many little or big moments of my daily journey that come out onto this blog journal are always building for a bigger God moment. They are all God moments because he is there with us getting us through. All of our Spiritual Gifts are to be shared. It is not about us. This blog tells my journey through God. It his victory over death (my) and yours. God wants my life psalm #139 shared so that all will see him, and draw closer to our Heavenly Father.  4- 5 years ago, I am not sure of the date, I was called out of the blue into some of the most intense Spiritual experiences that I could ever have imagined. I was blown out of the water, I will just refer to them as writing for my church. The details of those writings were not for us , they are for the church. I will say this anyone with a sense of Spiritural awareness just needs to look at the news or turn on the television to see what is going on. The world is out of balance. This process was stretching myself and family to the max. The Holy Spirit is just so awesome. My spiritual adviser said to me , Dan, lets just see where it goes, and we did. I will explain about this experience at a later date.  My first vision, vivid dream, about 4-5 years ago during the time I was doing the  church writings. I was asleep and had the most vivid dream. God uses our own lifes experiences and will make them part of his message in my case it was based in my lifes work and I have been for over 30 years through the gift of the  Holy Spirit an interior Designer. I have done projects that when I had completed them looked at them and said, God, I did that! I did through God and love alone complete my projects .More on that later too!:) So, I was sleeping and my vision which seemed like forever started. I am giving my account  to you exactly as It happened and was told to my priest, my adviser and friend long ago… This remember was more that 3 years before my cancer diagnosis. I walked up to the door of this house and rang the bell. I had decorating samples in my hand. A women came to the door and opened it, I just remember how pleasant she was, I could hear children laughing and she said, excuse me for a moment and walked away off to the left in the direction of the children. I did not see them but heard them laughing.  So, I stood there and it seemed like a while, I being the type A personality and loving what I did. I said to myself, I will just walk in to the right here and see what she needs. So the interior was very itherial everything was a very soothing white color. It was extremely peaceful. I just kept walking and ahead of me was a hallway with a very bright light people were coming out of the light and passing me again all faces were non descript, everything was very etherial and white. I noticed that there was something on the wall that everyone that came out of the hall seemed to be stopping to look at so, I wandered over to it and looked and was a very pale colored picture I recognized it immediately. It was the shroud of Turin. I have to say this too, I had never given  1 seconds thought to the shroud in my life yet here it was . Well any way I could hear voices from down the end of the long extremely bright hallway and hear a booming voice and laughter it was pure joy. When I got to the entrance I realized, I shouldn’t be here, I had wondered from where I was left to wait. I would never wander around my clients home. So, I returned to where I was waiting by the door. I was getting annoyed and it was like 4 hours. Well, the really pleasant women was back and said she was sorry for the delay and she opened the door to the left of me. The children were quiet now  and she guided me into the room. I stood there and there was a very large white table in front of me. As I stood there the women was standing to the left side of the table looking at me and there was another figure to the right side of the table looking at me  as well. The women looked at me and, I felt love like I had never felt before. She said again sorry for the wait, I remember having been so angry to had to wait 4 hours for her to return and , I just responded its okay and she said to me you are an angel. Of course, I told Father I am certainly not, I am a sinner like everyone. I remember feeling intense love. I knew that it was my Blessed Mother. She without  a word uttered pointed down to the table and moved her hand over the surface as if  she wiped the table and the white milky color left and it now had a clear glass. It was a case.  I could see all kinds of relics, bottles of oils, and religous statues related to my faith and she spoke these words to me, We want you to have many Spiritual gifts. And that was it. I woke up and is as alive today and vivid as the time that it occured.  I have had years to think of why The Blessed Mother would call me an angel, because I am not. So I have a couple of thoughts on that. 1.) She knowing that I was upset with waiting for her which my Blessed Mother would know and yet I told her no problem thought that I was kind? 2.) Everything that I have done in writing including this blog through the Holy Spirit is never about me or any one of us . We are all loved the same. And what mother does not look upon her child at least as  an angel in training?  🙂 Thats the best I can do on that thought last but not least the booming laughter and joy was,  I know, was Our God!  I was given a glimpse of Heaven. I pray everyday to continue to grow for his purpose and into his will completely . Amen. Better Is one day In Your House By Kutless https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jdE03zRJtxw  In Christs Holy Name, Danny
This is a video that I have loved for so long. I think I certainly could relate to the sentiments in this song, life is like this on dad’s, lots of pressure and the way we process stuff is different that our spouces. I touched on this topic yesterday in my blog about looking for stuff too, it represents more that the physical stuff. I truely found God when I was raising my children and the so called sacrafices were selfish desires only. This video and song should be an anthem for all dads. God and Family first they are our most precious gifts.What this world is tomorrow is based on what we do today as dads. The teachers meetings, school plays, birthday parties, bed side stories and family prayer etc are the things and life events that our children need for faith building, family building and allows them to be present in their  own lives. What they will believe and own as theirs . Life is tough, thats a fact so our children need a foundation of their mom and dad to stand in the storm and be comfortable with their own awareness in Christ Jesus. Hope is abounding alway’s. Nothing is ever dire enough, no mistake is ever bigger enough that we as moms and dads cannot love our children through it.
Remember mom and dads are part of what I call a family trinity. Mom, Jesus and dad so we will love and lead them no matter what:)
Just Danny Speaks 