Janet woke me up at around 2:am on Monday morning she had the window treatments open and the rear lights on so I could see the snow flakes coming down. It felt so nice seeing it like it was  a rebirth of some kind. I would not leave New England for this reason.i love the change of Seasons they are all beautiful and just add such a new perspective to your life, your day and they help to elevate my Spirits.

Plus, once I move I have moved. It’s a huge decision for me to go any whereespecially now. Time for moves and vacations are over thank God we are very simple and content people. hat’s a very big decision. My dad and family are here, my parish and the majority of my friends are here. I  am not up to a reboot of my whole existencequite yet. I am here feeling blessedwith no pain ever and I have to give all thanks to God for his goodness always in my life. My energy is still my issue but i am working on that as well. Nothing is too big. I am very happy. Thankyou for your prayers,love and support they are carrying us through each day with peace and joy.

5 years ago next March my whole life as a man, provider etc taking care of my home, yard work the whole thing just came to an end while making breakfast for my family. No warning signs no headaches nothing. I was at that time day  fror my 50th birthday on April 6.on April 6th I actually. Had a lumbar puncture to help determine what exactly I had developed they checked for MS or any other neurological diseases.

They then did an awake biopsy to the tumor that was detected. Band they graded it as grade 4 terminal. It could not be removed so I dust began my protocol at that time of my tamedor ( chemo) and my radiation. Which was 6 weeks and 5 days a week.Ialso accepted 1 of the clinical study that was offered. I told the Dr’s that it is the only one that God gave me peace over using. So, I received the new clinical drug of the time known as Veronstat the knickname was S.A.H.A I went through it and ended up cancer free for 4 years from the treatment. To the best of my knowledge I made longer on the trial than anyone else and its result with the other Meds per God. All glory always go directly to God. I am just Danny like you are all just… The bottom line is we are all equal in Gods eye each one precious each one with their own unique genetic code. Then came April 27th cancer came back. The one constant that I have struggled with for nearly 5 years is who am I? How can I help anyone. Without driving visiting nursing homes my sick friends or my dad has been so difficult.

Well, I prayed I reachedout to anyone who may be able to help to find a path forward to help someone. Meanwhile my blog began and I suddenly felt like great I am helping somebody now. I was receiving a whole of info that people loved that I took a difficult subject and made it a more understandable event that can help others. Patients with cancer etc tracked me down and asked me t share my journey with them in person and

 

 

One of them asked me into her Dr’s meeting t speak . I represented life and hope so people wanted to hopefully get to where I was at. The Dr,looked shocked as he walked in and saw me there. A spoke up and said its okay for Danny to be here and what was there to support her. It was such a honor to be there with her daughter and dear friend.

Well, the jobs I inquired about really would not work because how would I get there I cannot walk safely even at that time. Getting onto a bus or train is scary stuff.

 

Someone said how about call center work from your home many companies have companies who over call in centers. So, I waisted about 3 months going endless lists of jobs digging reading and finally. One of my brother in laws mentioned a large corporation that may be an option I looked into and saw the horrible comments of the people who had tried it. I immediately discussed with my family they were like dad you do not need this crap you have broken your tail all of these years just except the reality and stop stressing. My need to be the man was bringing dis-harmony.

I also, thought of through prayer my public speaking desire to help others and honestly to help my own self worth. I need to be honest because knows every thought and desire and where it is rooted from.

I talked to one of my best friends on the planet and one of his associates and they thought it may be a good fit, at least my friend did. But then April came and brain cancer surgery. It became painfully aware that I just could not travel in a way that I would need to safely especially with terminals air, bus whatever and pull my suitcase that I may need. I went to visit my friends and painfully apparent that I just could not I would need a person with me at all times to assist me with just about everything. Plus anyone who would see me in a large setting could perceive me as an easy target too.I need to keep it real. So, the dream was soon gone. I accepted knowing that option was now not in Gods plan.

God knows my heart my desire that is honestly the only thing that I care about now. I am content to sit now prayerfully and pray for those who are not well. For many that I do not know. God knows who you are! My love is with you.

 

if I could ask you for your continued prayers it would be very appreciated also for our friends and family who are now living with an empty chair at the table this Christmas Season

 

This song is one that I take to heart and truly believe that is why I am so at peace because he has heard my cry and he answers all prayers BT W I just had a personal care angel here to me is name is Guy and was one of the kindest and Holy men that I have met I told him he was my Christmas Angel. He has been in the field for 15 years and truly was amazed at my appearance, my faith and my positive point of view I just pointed up and said its God. We talked and he was off. Again, God is so good to us here. May God Bless Guy and his family too Amen.This is the song that Carries  me through the tough times and gives me hope on the journey.

please enjoy and keep the family of Matt S. in your prayers he rentlybwent to the Lord after a long struggle with Copolon cancer at age 27. Very tragic.This song really means that I am where God wants me to be to help others. My old life was my personal per suit and God helped me to make my personal aspirations become reality with Janet to fulfill my need. But now is act two any graces that are gained I am giving my graces to God to use for anyone who needs them.so, act two is about serving others. God got me right where he wants me in this moment and I accept it as my reality the lord sent me to complete this blog with a message of love, hope, faith and joy to help others. What better ashbiration could I ever have then to serve God and his simple calling. Amen.🙏🙏🙏

 

 

 

 

 

With much love,

 

just danny and family

 

 

 

 

well, yesterday this is a beautiful day was so busy with paperwork and the Hospice that is set up I had their staff in and out. Friends in from out of state to help us with some of my medical decisions my friend is in the industry so he was able to cut to the QuickTime get our questions so God Bless him for being in our lives and being that person to help alleviate our concerns so as my care needs accelerate and I would need to be moved the transition will be an easier one. Gods got everything covered he knows our needs and our desires so I just don’t worry. Janet wants what I want and is technically wired so she wants what I desire because they are MY wishes and she does not want to let me down. I honestly could never be let down by anything that Janet does. No one has done more for me our many others that she knows and continues to smile through her tears. Like I have said… Life is difficult yet it is beautiful.

God Bless You All, with love,

 

justdanny

 

you ou are in my prayers please my family and my needs in yours as well.

 

Hello Everyone, I have had a whole lot of reach out calls and pm on Facebook about how I was, where I was and if I was okay. Truth be told I feel great as ausual.

 

i still continue to terminal with my Glio Blastoma diagnosis so, no change there. I hit yet another side effect of the Glio diagnosis last week which required me to be transported into Brigham and Women’s by ambulance to the ER to be checked. They found that a new tumor had grown adjacent to the location of my last one that was removed last April 27. That tumor was orange sizedat that time  and was removed as best as possible and my treatment regimen began. My treatment was working and apparently has stopped so I have now got a monster tumor that covers my brain and is acutually so large that my brain is being pushed  side ways. The doctors cannot believe how well I present and the facthat my faculties are still so acute.

 

one of my friends asked if I had stopped treatment. I sai d no I would never cend my care it was my honor and gift to have my doctors they were given to me to help me through this time and I love them all so much! My nurses and Heath care providers.that have taken me all this way since Marchof 2012 I have out lived my many Glio encounters thanks number one to God, my medical, physical therapy team and the YMCA.and all of my loving family members.

 

When, I woke on Saturday morning my Dr. David Reardon was kneeling by my bed with his hand on my right arm.

i heard his soft voice speaking I open my eyes and exclaimed Dr. Reardon Thankyou for coming. God bless you he explained the tumor image to us and explained its severity to us he explained that the treatment protocol was no longer working, surgery was no longer possible and I have hit my maximum limit for radiation to my brain he said that we should stop treatment because the only chemo left gives very little healing is guaranteed to make me vohmit constantly so he thought was not good. It’s about quality of life, family ,love ,friends faith and keeping joy for my amazing family who have bared so much over the last 4 plus years.

my cancer journey began March of 2012. With months to live God my medical team family and my many Facebook friends and blog world have prayed for me as I prayed for them. So, I love you all, I Thankyou all.

i was sent home to begin in home hospice until I can no longer be handled hereand will end up eventually at Kaplin Hospice in Danvers. When the time is deemed appropriate.

 

This blog is never suppose to be a bummer nor is the poor Dannynewsletter . Neither of those things describes me at all.This all about faith home and remind everyone who is going through a difficult time that it is okay. We are never alone or forsake. By our Creator/ God. By my faith Roman Catholic. I understand their are other faiths and traditions out there so I appreciate each and everyone is free to chose. But please find comfort in the knowledge that every prayer is heard and will be

 

answered.

 

i am home extremely comfortably with peacefulness as I live my life’s journey on my way to the cross. with peace and joy . Once again Thankyou for all of your prayers past,present and future I will continue to pray for you all as well.

 

i have been fighting a fight a long time but the war was already wine by God sending his only begotten son to give his life for us all. Death is no longer eternal thanks be to Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior.

 

This song that I have chosen tonight for this blog I shared before. It is perfect in this moment to accompany my feelings of this blog…

 

This is not  a goodbye  it’s is primarily a love kiss and huggy you all..

I continue upon my journey with hope faith knowing that Gods got me eternally and you all too.MerryChristmas to everyone. Love,

 

if if I may ask for a bit of privacy at our home at this time for my family The Hospice worker explained the families need for quiet time as we settle into this transition time and we see that it will be a challenge for us. God bless you and Thankyou for caring and unsterndind our time for down time as well

One of the most things that Dr. Reardon said to me before he left is how much I helped all of the otherhelped his other r patients / my dear friends through my speaking praying with them and my blog. I loved each one of my friends that I have eat with prayed with  lost and know they are always with me In Spirit supporting me also We all feel so independent but we are truly connected through love and brother hood. We are all more alike then different. Life is a glorious symphony. With its drama and its lofty notes. I love the phapsody that I

just Danny.

 

i will continue to work my post. If and when my ability is not there my son Dan will jump in take over and update you all. And will attach to my Facebook wall as well😀👍🌲🙏

 

This song one sent with loveliest to God for his Divine Goodness in my life always to all of my ffamily, friends,  l friends whoever they maybe my Facebook friends and my fello blog friends. I have the best life a peaceful joyful loved filled journey of hope. I keep praying for a continued Miracle. I know we are all Miracles just by our births we are divinely made by a superior creator God that loves us all immeasurably.

 

with that the song is this.

 

life is hard ,but is always but is also beautiful too.

my faith and victory in my life is only one

 

 

 

 

 

I had wonderful grandparents all four were ever present in our lives. Over for dinner all the time etc.

 

My mothers fathers Richard Flahertywas a very strong mans man. He had great success in his life with his beautiful wife Ilene ( my nana❤️❤️❤️❤️)

During the Great Depression he and my grandmother gave a lot of their wealth up to keep families in their homes which my grandparents owned. My grandfather also owned an ice or coal business that he provided those families neccesettiestoo.  families. When it was over he needed to get another job so he worked for the at the time MTA. He worked their until his retirement he worked so hard of his life and was so proud of his family faith and friends.

 

He he was simply the best.

i was was in bed this morning looking out the window and was thinking of a memory that I will never forget the New Years Eve when a number of our elder family members passed away. I swear to God we were in the same funeral home 6-8 times in the same year. Me always in my 1 suit. Which I will tell you I always hated.

 

But, I digress.

This NewYears Eve after all of their losses my mom, grandmother and grandfather were standing side by side watching Guy Lombardo back in the day watching the ball drop and my grandfather began to cry it touched me so much.

 

Love and loss stink and hurt a whole lot.

 

this is the song that was playing.

So, I began to think of all of my friends with cancer etc that have died and thought to myself as we all begin to enter into the Holidays of  Thanksgiving and most importantly Christmas. To please remember those who may have experienced a loss and Remenber them in some waperhaps a call, a card or an invite to dinner.we need to be the light to thoseindividuals. This moment seeing my grandfathers heart revealed shaped the man that I would become as well.

 

God old bless you all, with love,

 

 

Danny

And, life is just rolling along day by day, week by week ,month by,month and year by year. Life feels like this a whole lot. You feel like time drags but it is really just evoparating so quickly. I have had to to stop myself once in a while and say to myself stop and breathe in this moment. I have always done this. I am glad that I did and still do this same thing these special moments so deeply embedded in my mind and one memory that touched my heart and is so real even now in this case this event took place 28 years ago .

 

This is an event that happened 28 years ago with my son Danny who is now almost 30 years old now. DJ was a little tike who was very alert, bright ,silly and busy. My family My mom always thought that his big brown eyes and lashes were so cute.people also thought that he had AD.D. but he didn’t he was just an active kid with a large personality and very creative imagination.o

It was after our second son Brad Michael had passed away from heart disease. My wife stopped at the cemetery and was sitting in her car my son DJ was in his car seat behind my wife. AndJanet described the situation that unfolded.  She was quietly mourning in the front seat as she looked at Brads grave.All of a sudden DJ said don’t worry mom , don’t worry be happy. That moment touched my heart so much. Janet said she actually got into the back and just hugged him.

 

these are our golden life moments that make our lives fully rounded out. I grab these memories daily to get over the bumps in my day.

 

 

this song is the song that DJ sang to her.

This is why I always say that I love children. They are generally loving, innocence and are down right. Caring.

By the way Dan just got married and he still dances this way 28 years later.

 

God bless you all,

Amen.

 

 

I went to bed fairly early on Sunday night I had a busy weekend with my siblings on Saturday night Thankyou for prayers for my brother Steve his knee replacement went well and he is home on the mend. Praise God.

So, we converged upon his home for dinner and desserts. I came home late and eventually made my way up to bed.

it was great to spend my time with my siblings and have my brother the center of concern for a change. I told my siblings our spouces that if my sister Donna could get myself and my brother into a double stroller that she would push us all around the neighborhood all day. We were laughing as I asked my wife if we still had our gray co double stroller. My sister is loving and dotes over her family all the time.

I woke at around 2:00 am and I was just laying looking up at the milky sky through the skylights and my room was chilly the way I like it my widow was open around 1/2″ just to get the breeze and fresh air. I was laying in bed warm and my face was cold from the fresh air. Janet was sleeping and I fell back to sleep thinking over how our lives have changed. Well, I will tell you I had one of the most amazing memories of all of the changes and how the changes occurred. The catalyst was cancer.

I woke up once again amazed at how amazing the mind had just built the whole ordeal. And packaged it up. One phrase kept going through my head as I laid in bed it was ” Going to bed as I person and walking up as another person that is what essentially happened to my life the end of March 2012 I went to bed feeling great just Danny and woke up the next day dropping everything from my hand while making my families breakfast. Same man with different capabilities. And on a new tredgectory in my life. Everything had changed. But peace was carrying me through this crappy situation.

My dream encompassed every facet of my life and reinforced how difficult Janet’s life is which I always acknowledge to her. I have tried to put myself into her daily shoes as I know she tries to do with my life what we both agree upon is that it stinks it certainly was not what we could ever have imagined. But the stuff in our lives lift us up. Our family my dad, siblings, our children our friends and our harmony together all these years adds up to a very happy life.

A few hours later Janet was up and running around getting ready for work and I was still laying in bed. She put on her perfume kissed me good bye and flew out of the room saying have a good day❤️ When she leaves after being together for a couple of days I felt a bit sad and missed her. I could hear her as she left from the garage and

The bottom line is this we are never alone and life ,love and Hapiness are comprised truly of the simplest yet most important of things. So, life has changed so much for us that it is ybig deal it has caused yet transformation in itself.

 

God bless you all and Thankyou God for your intervention through my sleep to help topic  things back into perspect ive once again in my life. Amen our God is an amazing God. Please pray also for Brendan who is in a terrible battle with leukemia and Bob and his family Bob passed away after a long battle with a respiratory disorder. He and his beautiful wife attended the same weekly mass my wife and myself.Thanks once again.

First off, Thankyou for your prayers for my brother Steve who had a knee replacement at New England Babtist hospital. He is home now starting the recovery process.

On a sad note please pray for a young manThis young man Matthew Silvano who went home to God at age 27 from colon cancer. There is no way anyone cannot rationalize such a horrendous loss of a young strong good man.

 

Fortunately for Matt his family instilled faith in him where even in his toughest moments he lived to radiate, hope faith and trust. His family and friends are stunned by his loss so please keep the family and everyone effected in your prayers.

 

we need to hold on his promises. God bless the Silvano family and friends Amen.

Thanks and God Bless you all too,

just Danny😀

Last evening I went to bed I put my kindle on with my Pandora running. I never know what song will pop up and I love that:) I often hear songs that I have not for many many years. The sky was black the stars where bright and sharp as I looked up through the skylights. (So pretty)

I began to pray and remember all those who are now gone from this world.

This song came on and I thought of my friend Paul S. He was a awesome man, human being friend and family”man and firefighter.

i was thinking about his attitude and how unexpectedly silly he was even during his toughest days. He was a role model to everyone. When, I would talk to him or see him his response was to say when how he was feeling he would say as he cocked his eyes like Charlie Scheen Winning! Lol

 

Paul succumbed to his pancreatic cancer nearly 1 year ago. On Dec 19th 2015 in Kaplan hospice house with his room fully decorated for Christmas. It was incredibly touching.

You see, Paul did not give up or lose to cancer because he did not get down or drag his family down with him. Even his funeral mass was one a celebration of a life very well lived. By living his victory he helped to set his beautiful wife Linda and their three children up for success. Paul and I connected on a very unique way around family , cancer and our feelings about what was next. We were in the trenches together so to speak with cancer trying to pull us down to drown.

I am still here by only by the grace of God.Daily life is not easy but it is beautiful nonetheless.

All of of the people that I knew that sick were faith based and i f I felt they were not I took the faith and reached out to offer them a ligh jacket of hope. Paul and I spoke often about our beliefs and plights as he we moved along our life journey. There were no words unsaid. No expression of support not shared. We are all simply people of God on a journey that can be difficult. He found joy in his day because it helped his family and friends. He was a quiet fisher of men witnessing his faith in what God promised. So, when this song came on I smiled and thanked him for his goodness. You see Paul I truly believe is in a Far superior place. Healed and with all of his family and friends that were waiting on him.

 

Here is the song

 

The next song that came on was this another fitting song this one more from a human perspective when we lose a loved one family or friend we are dust in the wind from birth the bible speaks of ashes to Asher and dust to dust life does in fact in my faith have a destination. It’s like the wind we are carried back to God and his safe haven of Heaven as far as I am concerned.

 

please everyone pray for eachother for Paul and his family Mary W. And her family they lost their Bryan this year. For Alici, and her lovely family who lost Jack M this year for Tim and his lovely daughter they just lost their wife and mom Leslie. Also, last but not least for a friend K who lost a dear friend from cancer. For Anne K and family for Nancy s family and friends will need prayers to make it through. For Mick and family who lost their beautiful wife and mother Donna C Please just ask God to help to comfort everyone and give them peace during the up coming Season. Amen. God knows who were are praying for we are all connected. So, my prayers will arrive at the needed destination. By Gods perfect way . Your will too!👍😀🙏

 

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g0zSB2WEtwU

God Bless you all.

 

love,

 

Danny

I find such joy in mass. I feel very connected to God, the readings and the gospel. Fr. Ron always delivers a great sermon as well. It often seems like he is speaking directly to me and whatever is going on in that moment. As a matter of fact my wife and I have been astonished when he was speaking and looked at one another. That’s another gift from God. Proof of his existence in our lives.

 

I am am sitting here trying to remember the song that the young man sung today. I love the song and thought how perfect with Fathers Sermon.

 

The song that I love so much I have shared before. Casting crowns Who Am I. The title of the group comes from the fact that we all at times think we are the kings of our life’s etc. yet, things happen to us that humbles and reminds up that we need to throw our crowns down and give our stuff to God.

 

This song

 

Who Am I is written from the perspective that Jesus could have said no to God about the crusi fiction and saved himself from the pain and suffering on the cross.

 

This is song asks the question and to us God counts us all as uniquely beautiful and individual his love is beyond our understanding.

 

God loves us unconditionally and just wants us to try to live the commandments of love and relationship with him.

 

In in my church and tradition we have confession and I believe in that sacrament and go to confession at least 1 a month.

 

This song mentions us dropping our crowns at his feet.

God Bless you all have  a wonderful week. Please pray for my brother S who is having knee surgery this week.  Thankyou

God Bless you/ us all.Amen

 

Danny