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In The Beginning and My first Heavenly Vision/ Vivid Dream.

13 Wednesday Aug 2014

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In The Beginning of true Spiritual awakening of all of us is a long time in the making. We experience different levels of awareness in God, his existence and supreme gift to us all and I m not talking about life 🙂 That is a Miracle in itself.  I am referring to the gift of The Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit as far as I am concerned is our bridge to the Almighty, he facilitates all that is good, he inspires us, he warns us,he allows God to fill us with joy and allows our conscience to feel guilt for a wrong doing.The Holy Spirit will help to bring us to our knees for repentence before our Lord. The Holy  Spirit that dwells within every one of us is God given and works in concert with our desires, needs and to allow us to fulfill our destiny for God and his people. We need to allow The Holy Spirit to work with us. We need to pray for his assistance in a meaningful way. I mentioned this in one of my recent blog writing that I began praying and commiting myself to God and the holy Spirit with my daily shower and telling all of Heaven that the water was my rededication and reminder of my baptismal water. I say daily to God that I surrender myself to whatever he wants from me and tell the Holy Spirit to please use me to the best of my ability. Lastly, I call on all of Heaven through my prayers for all of the Angels and Saints to please bestow on me any gifts of the Spirit that I may need in the future. Heaven is for real.:) This is a very special time that we are living in, a time like no other. It is a time of Miracles, it is a time of God’s pouring out of The Holy Spirit and Spiritural gifts for eachone of us. We all have our very own special gifts. Some we are born with some we acquire from God in the moment of his choosing. Our gifts can bend and change over a period of time based on what God wants and needs us to accomplish. The one prerequsite that God has for each of us to open our hearts and desire to be an agent of good to be the light to oneanother. It is simple. Through my childhood, adolescence and even into my 30’s I was always searching for my true God and his existence. I could feel him to a certain degree but the picture was still far from focus. During that time for me the 90’s.  Life had a lot of moments of hurts from people you know, daily nonsence. Its hard to see God when you are surrounded by others who are not necessarily in Christ or God based. You are wandering around in a crowd of lost sheep many of which have no idea that they are even lost. I am not judging but  it is indeed a fact.   Well in the latter part of my 30’s I managed to bring my picture into a little more clarity with prayer and the assistance of others through a beautiful retreat know as Cursillo in a retreat house know as St. Basil’s in Methuen, Ma. that was I believe in Oct 1999. My wife went in November of the same year. It was life changing, the focus and picture was now crystal clear! It was an intersection where God made himself and his presence known. It is a Miracle, just as St. Basils is. You should call and look into this retreat house. It will be the best gift that you can give yourself ! So, I came back from that retreat and one of my friends called me the next day and  said, hey Dan, I saw you walking on the water of the lake today 🙂  It was so funny,he knew that I was on Fire .lol Each day that we live sets the stage for the next day and action. So all of the many little or big moments of my daily journey that come out onto this blog journal are always building for a bigger God moment. They are all God moments because he is there with us getting us through. All of our Spiritual Gifts are to be shared. It is not about us. This blog tells my journey through God. It his victory over death (my) and yours. God wants my life psalm #139 shared so that all will see him, and draw closer to our Heavenly Father.    4- 5 years ago, I am not sure of the date, I was called out of the blue into some of the most intense Spiritual experiences that I could ever have imagined. I was blown out of the water, I will just refer to them as writing for my church. The details of those writings were not for us , they are for the church. I will say this anyone with a sense of Spiritural awareness just needs to look at the news or turn on the television to see what is going on. The world is out of balance. This process was stretching myself and family to the max. The Holy Spirit is just so awesome. My spiritual adviser said to me , Dan, lets just see where it goes, and we did. I will explain about this experience at a later date.   My first vision, vivid dream, about 4-5 years ago during the time I was doing the  church writings. I was asleep and had the most vivid dream. God uses our own lifes experiences and will make them part of his message in my case it was based in my lifes work and I have been for over 30 years through the gift of the  Holy Spirit an interior Designer. I have done projects that when I had completed them looked at them and said, God, I did that! I did through God and love alone complete my projects .More on that later too!:) So, I was sleeping and my vision which seemed like forever started. I am giving my account  to you exactly as It happened and was told to my priest, my adviser and friend long ago… This remember was more that 3 years before my cancer diagnosis. I walked up to the door of this house and rang the bell. I had decorating samples in my hand. A women came to the door and opened it, I just remember how pleasant she was, I could hear children laughing and she said, excuse me for a moment and walked away off to the left in the direction of the children. I did not see them but heard them laughing.  So, I stood there and it seemed like a while, I being the type A personality and loving what I did. I said to myself, I will just walk in to the right here and see what she needs. So the interior was very itherial everything was a very soothing white color. It was extremely peaceful. I just kept walking and ahead of me was a hallway with a very bright light people were coming out of the light and passing me again all faces were non descript, everything was very etherial and white. I noticed that there was something on the wall that everyone that came out of the hall seemed to be stopping to look at so, I wandered over to it and looked and was a very pale colored picture I recognized it immediately. It was the shroud of Turin. I have to say this too, I had never given  1 seconds thought to the shroud in my life yet here it was . Well any way I could hear voices from down the end of the long extremely bright hallway and hear a booming voice and laughter it was pure joy. When I got to the entrance I realized, I shouldn’t be here, I had wondered from where I was left to wait. I would never wander around my clients home. So, I returned to where I was waiting by the door. I was getting annoyed and it was like 4 hours. Well, the really pleasant women was back and said she was sorry for the delay and she opened the door to the left of me. The children were quiet now  and she guided me into the room. I stood there and there was a very large white table in front of me. As I stood there the women was standing to the left side of the table looking at me and there was another figure to the right side of the table looking at me  as well. The women looked at me and, I felt love like I had never felt before. She said again sorry for the wait, I remember having been so angry to had to wait 4 hours for her to return and , I just responded its okay and she said to me you are an angel. Of course, I told Father I am certainly not, I am a sinner like everyone. I remember feeling intense love. I knew that it was my Blessed Mother. She without  a word uttered pointed down to the table and moved her hand over the surface as if  she wiped the table and the white milky color left and it now had a clear glass. It was a case.  I could see all kinds of relics, bottles of oils, and religous statues related to my faith and she spoke these words to me, We want you to have many Spiritual gifts. And that was it. I woke up and is as alive today and vivid as the time that it occured.   I have had years to think of why The Blessed Mother would call me an angel, because I am not. So I have a couple of thoughts on that. 1.) She knowing that I was upset with waiting for her which my Blessed Mother would know and yet I told her no problem thought that I was kind? 2.) Everything that I have done in writing including this blog through the Holy Spirit is never about me or any one of us . We are all loved the same. And what mother does not look upon her child at least as  an angel in training?  🙂 Thats the best I can do on that thought last but not least the booming laughter and joy was,  I know, was Our God!  I was given a glimpse of Heaven. I pray everyday to continue to grow for his purpose and into his will completely . Amen. Better Is one day In Your House By Kutless https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jdE03zRJtxw   In Christs Holy Name, Danny

Where To Start? Why Not Now? Tonights the Night .

12 Tuesday Aug 2014

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With all of my medical treatment that I have received, the one constant that I have found is dedication to service of all my medical staff.. I see Jesus everywhere.  God has given me so much, I look at my moms treatment that she received while she battled Cancer, COPD and emphysema. She had an incredible team of doctors and had treatment at Mt Auburn Hospital in Cambridge With Dr. S at the helm. A fantastic human being also by the way he is  a brain cancer survivor too.

We  God’s children really need to be thankful for what we all have, starting with the love of God, The sacrafice of his son, our savior Jesus Christ for everything.  A lot of us irregardless to what we have as Blessing’s in our own lives feel that we lack something that we may not have. A new car? a vacation, a boat the 50 pairs of shoes, whatever. There are times we don’t know what we really want. Their is a void in our lives and the little kid inside us needs to be pacified. Anyways thinking that the next thing that we get will make us complete.  I am not pointing fingers I too have found myself wanting and acquiring things at different times of my life fortunately for me, I had children and felt my responsibility to care for their needs first. So, I put those things  that I wanted but could not have into the catagory of a sacrafice. I have to be quite frank and say this too, If I had been given great financial success at that time,  I might have ruined my family by giving all. My kids would not be the same today for sure. God knows me,oh so well.  Looking back in time these wants and desires for stupid little things were rediculous. For what? God was very good to me you see , I worked really hard for every penny that we had and  God blessed me with a beautiful wife with 4 awesome kids and an angel in Heaven, things were tight but comfortable because my wife worked harder than me, ( still does ) She worked the opposite shift than me so that she could raise her kids and to be honest if we needed to pay day care we  would not have been able to afford  that either. The other important factor in our marriage was/ is that we were not alone in it. I can be a bone head 🙂 Jesus is standing between us it is our family trinity, My wife, God and Me. My wife is very generous to help others when a need arises  but is a very cautious person with any asset that we may have. She adds water to the hand soap bottle etc. Not cheap, but very careful.Thats where our balance with finances lays, God put us together for that reason as well.  If she had not been like that fiscally all of our marriage then this situation  namely cancer here would have been impossible to cope with financially.  God will provide for each one of us according to our needs and then we need to be good stewards with our  gifts that he gives us. My children did not have designer stuff and who cares, they lived as we lived, pretty good 🙂 My kids took their first plane flight with my wife and I when my son I think was 18 and the other 3 kids the yougest may have been 10. We went to Disney. That was 9 years ago now. By, the way it was my wife and my first plane trip in  19 years at that point since our honeymoon and we have not set foot on another plane ever since our Florida trip. You have to live within your means. We do not feel like victims.  Its just life. If God wanted us to do these things he would open the door for us to do them, supply us with the funds etc. I am happy just being. Travel has never been a big thing to me. Home is just fine usually, I loved working in my yard. etc,when I was capable of it . I would work like a bear, in concert with God, nature,  music, my family, kids, friends and puppies:) I loved being outside just moving and doing. It is a beautiful life, not a perfect life but it is our life so thankyou God for my Blessing’s 🙂 Perfection will come when I am eventually called to God, that is my supreme Desire to meet my God when I am old 🙂 I believe that life here  is a school where we learn and loose all of our rough edges.That we are able to see the  sunrise through the storm and see Christ in everyone and truely  forgive one another. None of us is perfect so we should not be kicking sand up in the air like kids in a school yard. It is wasted emotional energy and hurtful.It destroys us and the person who we are unleashing ourselves onto.

As far as travel goes…

I tell my wife some day when my Spirit leaves my body I will fly over Hawaii and get a look .lol

Their is a Christian money man that is on Fox  news every know and again. Years ago he was on the radio and he would help people with financial issues based on biblical values. His name is David Ramsey.   He motto is  live like no one today so you can live like no one tomorrow. I loved that and it resonnated with myself and my wife. My kids have grown up everyone of them has had to work very hard . And, why shouldn’t they? They are better people for it and are making their liitle money boo boo’s at a young age before their out on their own making huge one’s.  When you owe money to everyone you are powerless and are schackled. In the bible you are a slave to a debtor.  If not for intersections and opportunities to learn lessons like those of Mr. Ramsey, my parents and granparents In our lives  when the Cancer diagnosis hit here  it would have been curtains to us financially if we were mired in endless debt. We had some debt obviously that comes with regular life.  We also were Blessed to have had the Miracle of the fundraiser to assist us, so many beautiful people giving us help quietly. One of our beautiful friends a couple said they were called by God to help us it was a very humbling situation, It was overwhelming to us . But, God was behind it and we understood that 100% by out reach that we have been called to do  ourselves in the past. When God calls, we need to answer!

I never know where these writing will go, but my next writing I do know will be about my first vision that I had around 5 years ago. It will be explained in exact detail as I had told my priest Father R during my confession aand Spititual counceling appt so long ago . It is as vivid in my mind today as when I had it this Blessed event. It is a message for all of us really. Beautiful. Father R had said back at that time to just be sure when you tell this that people are ready and that we are all in different Spiritual places. I understood that when he spoke those words just as I understand those words in this moment. The difference today is that ,  I do have an ubandance of peace today that it’s time and that it is okay. So I will be out shortly with this account.

God Bless You !

Danny 

Lets unite as 1 the way God wants us too, Lets pray for this world and pray for peace and brotherhood. Amen.

So lets start tonight !!  Enjoy the Video below. Its all about love.

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Our Personal Psalm

03 Sunday Aug 2014

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Hi , about three to four years ago, While writing, the Holy Spirit revealed to me a psalm, It is so comforting to me. I would like to share this with you now,

 

I was told through my writings that this is the bedrock of our faith from the human perspective. In other words, we all have our very own personal psalms. The one thing that we do have control over is how we react to our challenges and choices that we make while we live daily.

Read and meditate on each word, he knew that one day, I would be doing this blog he also knew that you would be here reading it, he knows everything. So God has predestined it all.

Enjoy, and God Bless 🙂

Danny

 

It is psalm #139

Psalm 139 English Standard Version (ESV)

Search Me, O God, and Know My Heart

To the choirmaster. A Psalm of David.

139 O Lord, you have searched me and known me!
2 You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
    you discern my thoughts from afar.
3 You search out my path and my lying down
    and are acquainted with all my ways.
4 Even before a word is on my tongue,
    behold, O Lord, you know it altogether.
5 You hem me in, behind and before,
    and lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
    it is high; I cannot attain it.

7 Where shall I go from your Spirit?
    Or where shall I flee from your presence?
8 If I ascend to heaven, you are there!
    If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!
9 If I take the wings of the morning
    and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
10 even there your hand shall lead me,
    and your right hand shall hold me.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me,
    and the light about me be night,”
12 even the darkness is not dark to you;
    the night is bright as the day,
    for darkness is as light with you.

13 For you formed my inward parts;
    you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.[a]
Wonderful are your works;
    my soul knows it very well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you,
when I was being made in secret,
    intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed substance;
in your book were written, every one of them,
    the days that were formed for me,
    when as yet there was none of them.

17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
    How vast is the sum of them!
18 If I would count them, they are more than the sand.
    I awake, and I am still with you.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart!
    Try me and know my thoughts![c]
24 And see if there be any grievous way in me,
    and lead me in the way everlasting![d]

Gateway Worship : Song based on Psalm #139

 

Dana Farber Part two

24 Thursday Jul 2014

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That day of my ekg, lunch etc, Just as Dr. R had said his head nurse S, showerd up with pills at my next scheduled squeezed in appointment. She was around every corner. She is spectacular. I never had 1 concern, all day. I met with I believe my new  radiologist oncologist at Brigham and womens. Dr A , I called him the great!  He is  a young, compitent , kind and awesome doctor  with another superb team of of assistants. from his head nurse S and her assistant , R they treated every patient the same, amazingly.

I would be remis if I did not mention the lovely social worker. N who has been there since day 1 for us. Very Sweet and soft spoken but always professional and helpful.

I had to go in after my consult for either a scan or an MRI , I cannot remember which but they needed to map my brain so they could target the best way to eradicate the tumor with radiation.

The radiology staff  there where great. They have a lot to deal with daily and are responsible for making sure that every patient was comfortable and that their bodies were positioned just perfectly so that the equipment could target the desired location with radiation therapy and nothing more.  They try to only hit the target and not to kill any more healty cells. Quite a responsibility.

Next I went in and My Dr. A had a plaster mold mask made of my  face and head, a mold I guess you could call it. It was made of a plaster.Once the Drs decided the attack plan they mapped and programmed my treatment into their computers. I was ready to begin my radiation therapy on the tumor that I never accepted as mine thanks to Gods word. I had six weeks of radiations 5 days a week monday to friday.

I had it easy in my eye’s compared to my wife and family who took the brunt of the wear and tear, juggling schedules, work etc. Some driving miles to pick me up only to turn around and take me back in the other direction into Boston.  And then once again have to  drive me home from treatment. I would like to say again from the depths of my heart thank you for your sacrafice and constant love. You make life worth living. xo Many friends also offered to help me with rides etc. God in action for sure. Love to you all too.:)

My phantom mask, thats what I came to call  it ( again my sense of humor) , the plaster mask was now a strong perferated plastic mask that fit my face, skull and had snap locks that locked my entire head 100% in the exact position to the treatment bed so there were no slight movements possible.  BTW, I asked for that mask when I finished radiation, they said sure. I said I am a decorator so I will hang it on my wall. they laughed. It currently sit a plastic bag in my garage.

have learned in life that we have a laugh as much as possible. There is healing in laughter God created such a beautiful creation in us. Laughter, is truely a healthy thing it makes gray colorful. so I laugh all the time and try not to ever stop, sometimes it gets me in trouble and I have to hit the confessional. I remember as a kid reading Erma Bombeck she cracked me up. Remember If life is a bowl of cherries , why do I get all the pitts?

Radiation did not bother me physically for a while. And then, my left side arm and leg decided I am taking a break, see ya and I lost most movement and feeling. I also became very very tired Dr. R said I would and I did. On July 4th 2012, I went into the bathroom  while I was at my brother S  at his cookout. I dropped dropped something on the floor. I went to swat a little to get it off of the floor and realized as soon as I did this that it was a mistake. My image disappeared from the mirror as I took position on the floor quietly. Again, I am stubborn so I just laid there saying hum how do I fix this pickle I got myself into?lol  My brother realized that I was missing and came to the bathroom and inquired through the door, I responded I am fine, I am just here trying to get up. he came in and Still says he does know how he got me up by himself.As a closing remark, I has a chance to study the tile and decor and found it very beautiful . lol

 

I truely feel Blessed because I have the peace from God, my incredible wife, kids, family and so many wonderful friends love and support. Everyone rushing to our sides and everyone has lifted us up. The Spirit was and is so still so high. Life is hard at times but it is our families our faith and friends that get us through.

One  day in I guess it was maybe Sept ,2012  my family told me that they were going to gather here together at my home , something not uncommon for our family. You know, food, family it has alway’s worked for us.lol  My mom, dad, wife, kids, 3 brothers and my dear sister and all of those kids my brothers mother in law M where all here.  There were I guess around 20 people in the house. I was in my recliner, very tired but my Spirit was full of peace, my whole family was here! It was so nice.All of a sudden someone came down the hall behind me and was a dear friend and brother in Christ, A and he hugged me and kissed my cheak. He pulled up my desk chair and started to speak to me , what a surprise! i had not seen A for a while. I said to him what are you doing here and he said that he heard that I was not feeling well. He stated that  he was In the area and wanted to say hello. He gave me a Blessing and left. My brothers were sitting on the couch here in my familyroom  with my dad and one of my brothers said who was that?  And I told them. They were astonished by his presence he is a very good and Holy man. The Spirit of God just shines. God Bless A and his family.There were so many prayers being said for our needs that I swear to God you could feel them raining down on us. I still feel them to this very day. Our prayers for one another are the most powerful gifts that we have to give to help anyone.

So, A left and I was happy for the visit and prayer and blessing he gave me. A short while went by and My brother S had gotten up to leave the room and returned, he said Dan can you come in here. I was like ugh, I had no strength, and needed assistance to get down the hall. I went down the hall and turned the corner to the front hall. I could not figure out why I was being led there. What happened next is a Miracle no doubt!

My brother opened my front door, and what I saw was a little piece of  Heaven! Friends who are gifts from God had quietly converged on my quiet street on the side walk and lawn. They had candles on my front steps with the exception of the  top two.Their had to be at least 40 beautiful souls out there. They were holding candles in their hands.One of my brothers helped me out and led onto the the top landing and I sat against the left rail, They wrapped a blanket around me. Then Praise and Worship began, prayers songs, people were driving by and stopping, some people peered from their windows, and then one of our beautiful friends son came out from behind my pine tree and played amazing grace on his bag pipes. It was just so incredible. I remember, God gave me the message and I tearfully passed it on. ( joy was overflowing)   I said tonight is not about me. Thank you. God is healing so many of us right now and in what ever way we need to be healed.  I think my whole neighborhood was Blessed in that evening. God Bless all of our friends and of my home parish of St. Josephs and 2nd parish home in and retreat center of St Basils in Methuen.

My love to you all and  with God’s Blessings.

So anyway, ( I told you I am not an expert writer, back to the point! 🙂

I went to treatment for radiology of my tumor which was sitting over my central nervous system.I was losing ability rapidly which would explain why when I told Dr. R that I would come back next week,  it  would not have been a good choice on my part. The Doctor understood the whole picture, the process and short window for action, so thank God they pushed with love and concern If they had not, I mayu not be here in this moment.

I will give you the list of meds I was on as well. In the not too distant future so people especially who are going through anything similar will know what was used in my treatment. People ask me that question a whole lot. I know every treatment plan is different and there are always new trial med coming out . So the news is great for everyone! There is lots and lots of Hope!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i9xjS6xX35s

Celtic Women. You Raise Me Up.

God Bless You, Your in my prayers alway’s,

Danny

 

 

Sactus Real Something New.

20 Sunday Jul 2014

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Sanctus Real Something New

This song represents so many aspects of my life. Even a Cancer diagnosis as I said before has a silver lining too. I have done so much of what this song and lyrics say. Please look at the lyrics, we all need to purhaps hit the reset button. I know life has done that for me , and I thank God that I was blessed with the adversity that helped me to find my biggest treasure, namely God!

We are all works in progress daily. 🙂

 

For 2 years since my cancer diagnosis my recliner became my place, my prision whatever I deemed it to be moment by moment. As I accepted my new life not knowing if my chair would be permanent location until death do we part. lol  Sorry, I do have a dark sense of humor and it makes me laugh. 🙂

Well I am out of that chair a lot more more often now. It is just my redocking station now 🙂 Praise God!, and the mantra what am I going to do with my life? along with the prayer, God please give me a direction! I said God whatever you want, I will do. Just so long as it pleases you and helps others. I would  be so grateful.. This blog was over  2 years in the making of praying and waiting. Waiting as I came to understand is what God required me to learn before he could answer me. I have so many people, family ,friends and medical people tell me that I needed to share this story, blog, put pen to paper, write a book, whatever. I just felt who am I to do this?  Then I thought it is the truth and for God’s glory. So why would God not have me write of this?  I figured God was useing all of my friends, family and medical people to give me my answer that I had prayed for and to encourage me to step in and respond to his call. I know the writing is helping me to find things hidden in my mind like thoughts,memories,sorrows,love,shame. Do I like all of these things?, Not all of them! But, that is not the point. The point is stuff in the shadows that lirk and play havoc in our lives and our Spirits are not good and are not of God. They are evil and keep us in bondage. We can be healed from these things. Drag them out into the light of God’s presence, pray on them and God will bring the healing to them and you will be made a new creation. Secrets and hurts are cancer in our minds, souls and the Holy Spirit and as a result I believe our physical health suffers.The child inside does not have to anguish forever, we have an obligation to that child to find him and her peace and fix and heal the wounds of this lifes journey. We are the children of the light, we are called by God to radiate our love and faith to all we meet irregardless to our personal story or struggles. Perfection is not required just a heart that is willing to serve. It is in helping others that we are healed.. With healing of our inner child comes a whole host of benefits. We find peace, forgiveness, self love, and allow The Holy Spirit to work in us and through us in a very harmoniously way honoring God and validating his love to those who need him. People are attracted to a peaceful spirit.  I sincerely hope these writings resonate with all of my brothers and sisters out there and that you too can find the healing peace of our Lord Jesus Christ/ God. Amen. These writings are Spirit Driven, with my love and kinship with you all at its core.

You are all in my prayers for whatever your needs might be, God knows who you are and what you need. Please pray for my family and this world we all need them.:)

God Bless,

Danny

Like a baby – I will finish up treatment plan1 treatment

19 Saturday Jul 2014

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Hi, I thought the song selected below fit very well with my situation as well as all of yours., We need to go through the bad times (valleys) to get to the mountain. It is like a baby that must crawl before he or she can stand and walk. it is a process. They end up falling and sitting down alot so cute.  Life is like that for everyone.We are  like a baby who keeps trying to stand up and yet we fall, have disappointments, illness, addictions whatever life can pick up and throw at us. We are human and make mistakes. It is part of free will.

It is my personal belief that God is on the mountain and he is in fact our Father. I believe when  he looks at us he see’s the child only, not the baggage and wrinkles or the years of ageing. The same way we reach as a baby for our parents hands to find our legs and stand, so to do we need to reach up to our Heavenly Father to keep us stable and upright. This is why prayer and talking to him and requesting this help and commfort is so important. He knows our issues, problems and needs even the things that we do pull out of the shadows.  What he is waiting for us to do is to ask him. If you needed your dad to help you, wouldn’t you calll out to him.? Of course! You donnot have to shout to get Gods attention, a simple silent interior prayer anywhere will work just fine. He wants us to rely and believe that he will in fact respond. He is our one true constant from this life into eternal life.

As i am sitting here I just looked at a placque up on my mantel.You know simetimes as a parent you wonder how much of what we try to teach our kids sticks? Well one day one of my daughters came in and said dad look what I bought . She valued what it meant and purchased it, that too me was Heaven. I love to see my children all coming into their own. And taking Jesus along with them. it reads…

Let your FAITH  be bigger that your fear.  The word faith is very over sized.

in an earlier writing I spoke how my parents chose my Roman catholic upbringing. That is true but having said that, I did go out in search of my truth and after a few years found myself back where  my roots were planted, The catholic Church and the sacraments that I truely love. And, having said that I totally believe that  there are a lot of beautiful communites and faiths outthere that  gather and honor God in with their  own traditions.

Fininshing up where I left off with my experience at The Lahey Clinic,The doctors there were wonderful as were the staff nurses everyone. God made his presence  known to all of the people involved with my case. Again, it is not because I am special, God is useing me as what I believe  ia a witness and reminder of his presence here. As I stated in an earlier writing that I believe that this is the time of Miracles. I can see them. And, I wonder how many  miracles happen daily where Gods angels intercede on our behalf. Like my shoulder and knee,” dawn did not break on marble head” for a while after I was healed of what I had received and the appreciation that i should have had to offer the praise not to the word Miracle but to the word God. All Praise goes to God.

There were truely amazing events that took place at Lahey, interactions ,events etc that I will share sometime in the future. I don’t write what I do not think that God wants to share . I feel now is not that moment.

 

During my appointment with the doctors my family met with myself and doctors and we decided that based on my situation Dana Farber would be the best solution to help me because of the number of clinical trials that they offered. I felt peace. During the consult Dr. D my Lahey surgeon said we need to get David on the phone right away. He took out his cell phone his assistant  called right there on the spot  and got an emergency appointment with Dr. D R in Dana Farber.. They said on the phone they had to meet me I was an excellent candidate because of my Faith and demeanor. I knew it was God, working in my life through these wonderful doctors and their staff. They were sensing the Holy Spirit that we all have, it guides us, soothes us, makes us feel bad when we are not good and it our own personal teacher. The Holy Spitit also rushed in with love that is immeasureable at times. Tears of joy! He helps to heal our hurts and is love.

 

I have to go my back is bothering me see, i am human too. lol  just danny 🙂

Peace and God’s love.

 

The Mountain of God. Third Day.

 

Love this song: casting Crowns East from the West

 

Lifes twist and turns

16 Wednesday Jul 2014

Posted by in charity, Creator, faith, God, Holy Spirit, hope, inspirational writer/speaker, lifes journey, love, miracles, Mother, motivational writing/speaking, sacrafice, Uncategorized, wisdom

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My illness took me, a type A personality who never stopped and alterered my whole reality and my identity of who I was to myself, my family and the world. I went from super dooer to a person who relied on everyone especially my wife and kids, family and many friends for the majority of my daily needs. I remember the personal guilt of feeling as is if I failed my family and those who relied on me at that time. My mom and dad included. The fact that I could not work, and am  still not to this date, had really weighed on me . All the desires on my behalf of getting out of here have fallen short do to my slow but steady progress of recovery and the  rebounding energy drain from treatment etc. I am a Roman Cathoilc by my parents choice at baptism, by the sacrament of Holy Communion , Confirmation etc. Having said that,  I do believe is at some time in everyone’s life we are all born again. What I am trying to convey however clumby it may be is this. To me God, My personal God is waiting for us to personally meet him with a heart that yearns for him. I had always done the works before I had cancer. When I was a very young child I was a paperboy. On Thursday evenings I would go out deliver my evening route and collect the money from the customers, hopefully with a tip.:) I am guessing I was nineish. On Glen Ave in Arlington I had a number of clients, one inparticular has stayed in my heart and mind all theses years. Her name was Esther Sullivan. She lived in a second flloor apartment of a two family home. i would go up to her door ring the bell and there would be a buzz and the door would up lock for me. it was like Star trec or something. She could not do stairs easily anyway so, I would bring her paper up to her and her siamese cat would hiss at me.i though he was scary and exciting. His name was Tao. But, I digress. lol So anyways, during my visits. I would carry things in the kitchen because she was by herself and i wanted to. I began to spend a few more minutes there just talking to her about what ? maybe worms :)I then began to wash her kitchen floor her, I then went home and told my mom about Esther or in that day Mrs. Sullivan 🙂 My mom was making a cake at the time so I said mom can you make a little cake out of a small chicken pot pie tin, she was very compliant with my request and taada, Esther was getting a small cake weekly delivered in my mail bag on my stingray bike. The bottom line to this saga is this as a child our love and innocense guides so much. it is like the right thing to do is easily less complicated. Were just guided by God’s goodness and the Holy Spirit. As I got older personally doing good works and deeds became also combined with the fun of the crowd social aspect etc. Sorry was it really for God? The jury is still out. During my time here in a recliner ,I have had a lot of time to evaluate everything, not by emotion but by the Gold standard God, his teaching, commandments and what is this whole thing about meaning life. I do not know all the answers, i suspect I never will but I know the most important thing. God! He call us to love eachother the way that he loves us. God wants us to go to him for forgiveness , in my case that would be the confessional. because, I have learned that I need to forgive myself what i felt was my failure by getting sick and altering my whole families world. through my prayer, my confessional visits and a wonderful Priest, God has healed much more of my life that my body, my Spirit is awake and aware and the vision of myself as danny the person can love himself a lot more and accept that i did not bring this on myself. neither did God but he getting me through it one way or the other. He is the boss! He doing the very same for you all and always has. Well, One day I made my way to Esthers stairway rang the bell and there was no response after a few minutes, a man opened the screen door on the first floor and I said i was looking for mrs. Sullivan and he said she does not live here anymore. I still miss her today.Some times I wonder If she was sent as an angel into my life to see if I would respond to God’s calling. On a kind of sillier note I hope she was allowed to eat sugar and my little cakes were not leathal. Well in closing in Danny’s world here, I have made an effort whoever clumbsy to find God and it took diagnosis day when the Good Shepperd met me where I was at. We need to work our faith and pray even when we cannot feel anything. God will not fail to respond. And furthermore he will always meet us in the moment. Here is here. Feel the breeze on your face look at the beauty of a baby that you encounter it is that easy.

Carrie Underwood/ Vince Gill “How Great Thou Art” – YouTube

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NW0QkOUjweM

 

Bless You and Yours, Danny