I have been literally dragging my body in and out and up and down. I am by no means a martyr. I feel compelled to try and be a positive witness to anyone that I can help.

As I have found. Helping does not mean that we have all the answers or know what to  say to our loved ones when in need. . It simply means that God has us there at times just to pray and offer quiet support .

This past weekend, I almost missed church. I was feeling the phytigue  that plagues me most weekends. I was eating my breakfast on Sunday and I was  working through the mindset that I am not going all the while feeling a real yearning beconing me to get dressed and to go. I finally went for it and got ready. I wanted to get the Holy Eucharist for our friends Paul and Linda who were at the hospice center and for my dad. My wife was getting lunch to bring for their family also. I did not want my wife to go by herself to visit and wanted to be there for my wife and our friends. Lord knows, My wife had to do that a whole lot during my treatment. out on her own doing everything solo.  So, I sat in church and was literally yawning constantly not because it was boring but because I was so tired. Every time I got up from the bench during mass was an act of will. A couple of times i moaned very softly. my body was shaking with all of my energy to get to a full standing position.

Father next delivered  his homily and I new why I was there. I was seeing something in my life from a different perspective. If I were not there that day then I would not have been fed spiritually  or gained the insight that I needed  had I stayed home in my recliner giving into the fragility of my body. This is just a fragment of what Father said and wrote in the weekly bulletin.

Fr. Ron said,

This Sunday is a good reminder that as Christians, we live with a joyful Spirit. Life may at times be hard and painful but we know that Jesus is Emmanuel, God is with us. We do not walk alone. Jesus is with us with His love and provides our every need. Joy is one of the fruits of the Spirit. As we bring to mind our many blessings, that we are adopted children of God, may the joy of the Lord dwell in our hearts.

the full writing from the bulletion can be found in the following bulletin.

http://www.stjosephwakefield.org/wp-content/uploads/2014/11/2015-12-13.pdf

After mass, my wife and I were going up to visit our dear friends at the hospice house and I told my wife point blank that I could not go into the building and would wait while she ran in with the food and the Holy Eucharist. When I got to the hospice house I said you know what to my wife I am going in. I feel I should. My wife said I will push you in the wheelchair I just felt God say no. I trecked into the facility and made my way through that facility slowly and defiantly. My wife stopped me and said sit here for a minute I again just said that I am fine and progressed forward until I was where I needed to be. I am as I said before no matyr or hero. Gods got me here in this moment to do something bigger that myself. maybe its attonement  I really do not know.

What I do know is this, if we has humans have 12 cylinders I am currently firing on maybe 6 of them.

Today is Monday 12-13-2015 and I saw my dad this morning and i brought him lunch and from thre I went off to see my friends again and brought the Eucharist once again.

I have been given a opportunity to be a blessing at least in a small wasy to people who have blessed so many in a big way. So, thankyou God.

For Paul and family.

There is nothing to worry about.

Mary Did You Know by Go Fish      It is the time of Miracles. 

God Bless You All,

Danny