My six month visit.

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Today was a day of anticipation. This morning I was up at 4:00 am and got ready for my Boston visit to Dana Farber. This was my first scan in 6 months which is a miracle in itself. I remember being there in Dr. Reardons office last July and him saying to me after that scan result. You know Dan, your out of treatment over two years now . He said with a smile. He said, you know what that means?

My response was no. He said that it was absolutely astounding that with my particular Glio that there had even been the slightest step back or recourrance of the disease. I just said its God. He does not want me yet.

Well , today I went to Dana and was the first person in the garage at 5:15 am just me, myself and I sitting in the quiet palatial front patient waiting area. I began to do my personal inventory, I missed my wife sitting with me there but had decided last Dec when I had my license to drive reinstated that I needed to go this alone. Every appointment that I attended at Dana Farber had at least 4-5 family members there to support us. I used to say here comes the  Riley gang.

I I told the doctors , it’s like the bible they are my witnesses. They laughed and always go the chairs needed for everyone.

Today, I was alone. Just me and my cane. No more wheel chair, no more walker just a slow and sure walk towards the blood clinic at 6:00 am and the off to the lab for my 45 minute brain scan finally I made my way to Dr. Rear dons office for my 8:00 am meeting and results.

He was great as always and said the result was great and there is no tumor activity nor is there any scar tissue. He asked me about my life and what issues I may be having. I told him that I am pushing myself. He was thrilled to hear that I followed through with the Livestrong program at the Ymca.

i just said that I am phytigued a lot. He said we can try to do something to help the body. So he prescribed something and I went to get it and was told that he would have to call the insurer and have them approve the reason and need for it.

My wife currently pays into her plan  and it is part of her work benefit  the insurance cost my wife and her employer pay is 24,000 a year.

So, we wait and see how this shakes out. 🙂

in the meantime thank you all for your prayers.

i am truly grateful to my God for allowing me this time with my wife, dad, children and my family and friends. This will truly be a joyous Thannksgiving and blessed Christmas season.

its funny this morning as I laid in bed before getting up at 3:30 I turned my kindle on and it was playing Christmas music. It was a tad early but the music brought moments of long ago, my mom, grandparents and friends who not await me when I join them. I thought that was a beautiful sign that they were there and know my own personal fears, doubts and securities as to what might have happened today at that office. I feel the prescience so offen of the Blessed Mother with me , a sense of comfort to me.

none of us is ever alone , love surrounds us.

God Bless You All,

Danny

The average Joe.. :). There is no such person.

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This is a term that I have heard said many times in my life. Not necessarily at me but was used as a term meaning the same as everyone else. I was thinking about this today as I pushed on through my workout at the live strong program at the Y.

People are always amazed at what I do, or how I do it. What effect or to what extent I push myself. What people do not realize is that all of the other patients there are feeding and inspiring me to do my best. The staff there, my friends Dan, Sophia and Trish are such a source of motivation and source of such goodness and service to everyone that is there in that program.

God does not count even one of us as being average, I am sure of that. God looks at each one of us as unique. As a matter of fact not more that 1 of us has ever had the same exact genetic code. We are all unique. Now, that’s God for you he is magnificent.

We are all born to greatness. Greatness in what ever we are doing. Each person and station in life is looked upon by God in the same measure. God from how I feel just wants us to be the best of whatever we choose to be all the while serving others.

For quite a while  during the time frame of my illness I sat here in my recliner where I have spent so much time. I remember in confession with Father that I can’t stand not being able to do anything or to help others. What I have finally come to realize is that I am helping others and adding value to people lives.

God has me here in this moment to witness his sovernty in this world and in our lives. It is the time of Miracles. I am not the only one but so are you all. Just stop and meditate for a moment on your breath. Feel your heart beat in your chest, listen with your ears and look with your eyes at your surroundings . God is in every element of our lives sustaining us. Giving us what we need in every moment.

We should all be aware of this fact in each moment of our day and give God his glory. We should give one another love and hope in whatever life’s situation that we find ourselves. We need each other, young and old, sick or healthy affluent or indigent.

 

love , love, love

 

God Bless You All,

Danny

 

 

 

A man that will totally inspire and lift you.

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I had this gentleman on my blog back in July. He is such an inspiration.

I had to share his story once again. It puts our lives issues into perspective too.

Nick is God strong.

Love this Guy!

God Bless You,

Danny

A beautiful message from a humble Holy man. 

This was in my bulletin on line this week and I wanted to share it.
God bless us all. Amen.
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Pastor’s Reflection for November 8, 2015

by Fr. Ron

Dear Parishioners,
Spotlight, the movie, was released this past Friday. It is about The Boston Globe’s coverage of the child abuse scandal in the church. The investigative unit at The Globe reported a widespread pattern of abuse and cover-up in the Archdiocese of Boston. I feel that it is important to see the whole picture for a better understanding. First of all, any child abuse is horrendous. It is a shame that priests entrusted with the tender care of children violated them and caused grievous harm. Why was this cover- up allowed to happen? A big reason points to the culture in the 50’s – 70’s. Do you ever look back at some of the pictures of your past? I can’t believe the clothes I wore or the haircuts of that time but in those days, it was the fashion. Additionally, in those days, if a priest committed anything that would bring scandal to the Church, it was hushed up by the Church, the police, the families, and anyone in authority. Child abuse was looked upon as a sin that was committed by the priest. The bishop would send the priest on retreat, he would confess his sin and then be reassigned and told not to act out again. Those in authority did not see this as a sickness at that time and did not understand that the perpetrator needed to be away from children. A bishop never intended for the priest to go out and molest again. He was ignorant of the behavior as were many at that time. Unfortunately some of those in authority failed in their responsibility to act correctly as we grew in the knowledge of such behavior. It is important to understand that the Church is now in a very different place than at the time of the tragic occurrences of abuse in the past.
There was a convocation for clergy on Tuesday, October 20, and we met with the Cardinal. I wish to share with you some of the statistics that were given to us. In May of 2011, the John Jay College of Criminal Justice published a summary of the history of the occurrence of child abuse in the life of the Church. The report documented that there was a steady increase in reported cases of clergy abuse in the U.S. from the 1950’s through the 1970’s. Abuse cases peaked in the mid 70’s and began to decline every year thereafter. 80% of all known clergy abuse cases occurred before 1985. Presently, victims who are now reporting cases of abuse are almost exclusively reporting events that happened before 2002. Also, the work of the Archdiocesan Review Board provides an important demonstration of our commitment to the safety of children and justice for those who are affected by the occurrence of abuse. The Review Board is made up primarily of lay persons with experience and professional expertise in the areas of sexual abuse, law enforcement, child psychiatry, social work and the needs and concerns of the survivor community. Today, all clergy, employees and volunteers are required to be trained in Protecting God’s Children. We are focused on child safety and creating safe environments.
All claims that the Archdiocese have paid (since 2003 is 215 million) were generated from real estate property sales, rental income, and insurance funds. Neither the Catholic Appeal nor parish funds are being used to pay settlements.
We, as a Church, continue to ask forgiveness from those who were harmed by the Church. We pray that our efforts may contribute to the protection of children in all settings and circumstances. We ask that those who left the Church to consider returning. Do not let the sins of a very small percentage of priests disrupt your relationship with Jesus by neglecting to receive Eucharist. In truth, you empower the abusers to not harm you physically but spiritually. As an adult, you have the power not to make yourself the victim.
May we all continue our journey to the kingdom with love for others.
I will be available for confession this week on Tuesday, November 10, from 2:30 p.m. – 3:00 p.m.

May Jesus continue to shepherd you in all of your needs.
God love you,
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Living life not reinventing it.

God created life, everything for that matter. It is his splendid works that we enjoy everyday. Many unseen miracles. Just the fact that our planet is held in tact while floating in a huge galaxy shows Gods Devine design meant for us.

Gods miraculous working are evident from the largest of items in our universe to the smallest details of our daily existence. Like a true loving father he cares and wants us to care for him as well. It is simple. It’s a relationship. Nothing extravagant. Just hi dad, I love you and thank you for everything good in my life. My life, my family friends, my home , food everything that I am blessed with this day.

Finally, we need to acknowledge when we have made mistakes and sinned against God and other human beings. We need to say sorry, forgive one another and ask God for forgiveness.

This is a season for change for us as we enter Fall. It can also be a Season that ushers in a new awareness of Gods presence in our daily lives. A presence that will allow us to focus on the true meaning of this life.

We are heading into the beautiful Season that ushers in Thanksgiving. We should all be so grateful for everything in our lives. We will then will enter into the Advent Season / Christmas season. Let us stay focused on what a young maiden named Mary did so long ago with her husband Joseph a Shepard who tended their flock.

They allowed Gods plan for our salvation to be fulfilled through the Holy Spirit. Jesus the savior of the world was born that we all would have life. Amen.

So, as my mom used to say Keep it Simple. We need to serve God, one another and live with a robust joy knowing that Gods got everything.    Thanks Mom. Xoxo

God Bless You All 🙂

Danny.

How Great Thou Art with lyrics performed by chris rice – YouTube

At The Cross, The Best Place To Be.

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Thank You Jesus.

God Bless You,

Danny

 

Do You Know Him?

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After my live strong program I came home and when I became settled in I prayed the chaplet of Divine Mercy for all of us.

I then came upon this short 7 minute video and I loved it.  God gives us all and i know him. he holds my/ your destiny.

God bless you,

Danny

Going with the flow.

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I think that life has served me up what has been the best life lessons  in terms of my personal health issues. I have personally been forced to mind bend, and stretch my understanding of my everyday existence on such a personal level. 

I personally before cancer went about my day and thought how I would achieve my next goal. I worried about the stuff. I walked around smiling and all the while inside I worried about the tomorrows, the kids, the house, the college stuff. The list goes on and on. I was the master of my ship. The ships name was Ego. I perhaps did not see it that way at that time but that is what it was.

When I attended my Cursillo  retreat at St. Basils  back in 1999 Fr. Martin spoke to the whole group of men who were on the retreat about how men wear masks to cover their feeling and are not particularly opened to others and I realized during that time how right he was.  It’s not that men are deceiving the world so much as that they are deceiving themselves. We are raised in a culture that tends to push us to be quiet put your head down and excell forward towards a successful future full of stuff. Having stuff is not bad but it cannot be our reason to live.

With my cancer diagnosis back in 2012. I began a very long road of true self discovery not because I chose to but because I had to. I was not instantly enlightened and understood what I have come to know today. It’s been a long and grueling 3.5 years of living, suffering, being joyful, angry, and appreciative at the same time.a twilight zone of sorts. Prayer is Gods gift to me.

My past, childhood, family and more friends that I could ever count coupled with an embedded faith gave me the courage to say the heck with this and call on God with a deep seated heart felt prayer while I was told to prepare for death I gave it to God, he gave me my peace. In that moment God took pitty upon me and spared my life.

You see, I came to really understand and believe that the battle is his alone. We are called by God to make good Free Will choices. To pray and discern everything. To trust  in his plan . I have learned that I honestly have been forced to due to cancer to realize that I am not going to live forever. Also, that if I do in fact believe in eternity with my Heavenly Father and all those who I love then I need to do some soul searching and find out who I really am. Well, my mask hit the floor recently and my vision is now even clearer.

I never take credit for anything anymore. I thank God for the good things in my life, my  family, friends, and all of the daily items that I need. It began with him and it belongs to him.

God Bless You All,

please pray for.

Elayna, back issues.

Jeanne cancer.

Teddy cancer,

andrew upcoming knee surgery.

jenn, brain cancer.

for each other and our needs.

for the earthquake victims in Afghanistan and people suffering from wars, hunger and homelessness.

We pray to the Lord.

. Lord hear our prayers.

The Winans “Trust in God” – YouTube
Video for Trust in god site:youtube.com▶ 6:13
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Sep 23, 2010 – Uploaded by Lakemillha
Clips to express the classic song “Trust in God” By the legendary Winans.

The reality of murder! or in this case attempted murder.

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Today, while going through a pile of papers  I  came upon this. As a person who has fought to maintain my life all the while working with Doctors , nurses and their staff to heal I find this next video very disturbing. You watch and you decide.  God bless.

An interesting. Side note to this video that my pastor shared in our weekly bulletin Is that I share the same birth date of the women in video April 6th.

While I was home on my birthday April 6 th , I was 10 years old and eating cake and ice cream she was being murdered in her mother’s womb.  I guarantee you one thing God will have the last word my friends.

Abortion Survivor to Cecile Richards: ‘I Am So Thankful to Be Alive’

God bless us all and may God forgive us collectively for what we have done and are doing. Amen.

The beauty of The Day. People, Nature and Connection.

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Hello All Danny Here 🙂

Please pray for Elayna this day . She is having sever back pain that is now effecting her legs. 

Today was another beautiful and exhausting day and its only 3:00 pm.

Let me start with this song…..

First off  in Danny world, I woke up today and my bedroom was freezing cold. I left the window open a bit last evening. My wife said oh my God I am freezing as she jumped up and I said yeh its great. lol. There is something about a warm bed and your cheeks are cool. the breathe of God in the breeze touching you. To me its a reminder of Gods assesibility to us always. For that reason my bedroom window is rarely fully closed regardless of the temp outside.

I want and need  that personal closeness with God.

Off I went to the Livestrong program at the Y and had a great workout. ( for me that is). The facilities, the people who are assisting us cancer patients and survivors are truely amazing. their loving and caring nature is so incredible. Our group is working together to rebuild our bodies, our minds, our attitudes and Gods with us putting it together.

As I have said time and again read Psalm # 139 and you will see that God knew that we would be there and meet one another. We are all pilgrams on a journey back to God. Its not what we have but what we do to help oneanother that really matters.

Like I say all the time no body wants illness or strife in their lives. My belief is that it has made me a better version of myself. Eyes and heart wide open.

Speak Victory in your life. God does not expect us to do Miracles but he does expect us to believe that he will.

God Bless You All,

With Love,

Danny