I will not write my journey in a narrow way on in the narrow margin because our journeys are meant to be shared. We are all part of one humanity and are here to help, support, buildup , love and support. Our lives are canvases of beauty no matter what.we live through Jesus Victory and his breath in our bodies.

Please  thank God this day for our friend Iram L who just had a great brain scan result today which we should all thank God for and stand with him in this moment of peace in this life.

 

also please pray for our friend B W. Who is living his journey with Glio and is in hospice with his wife and children by his side.

We pray to the Lord for all of their needs and healing. Amen

 

 

God Bless You All.

Da

Well, yesterday’s appointment went okay. Unfortunately yesterday’s scan showed more tumor growth in my brain. Cancerreally wants me badly . I hate cancer and the silver lining to this situation is that the conversations that my life situation has brought to my family is only making our love and relationships grow ever more strong. I have had the most deeply intense conversations with my wife, children and siblings. Surrounding life , my long haul outlook statistically based on my Gluo brain cancer diagnosis once again.

As a matter of fact I was out preplanning my funeral in the event that this cancer gets the better of me. Bottom line to me is my wife and family. I do not want to leave them even 1 extra burden. I do not think that I am going to leave any time soon but if things really change I need to know that I did my best for my family.
Yeti me soon. , I need to be realistic as to the possibility of what could come.

The following song when it speaks as to why she had to go I am thing she = my health.

It’s all good. I am grateful for everyday, every breath and the love God has blessed me with. My wife, family and friends are absolutely.incredible.
God Bless You All.

No matter what you are going through believe and reach for the stars. God will pass them down to you as blessings. Amen.

Dannny

 

Today,

i will take on the topic of what cancer or any debilitating diseaease can effect the person in this case me the man.

 

j

This  is not my first rodeo with cancer 4 plus yearswhen Glio first came after me  ago which left me in a chair I was waiting for the chariot to swing low and get me also took my personal identity that I always identified with myself. A successful married man dad of 4 and 1 angel in Heaven, a son, brother and creative person making people’s lives and homes more beautiful by the gift of creativity that God gave me. I loved my life and felt so fulfilled and then along came cancer and hollowed out my self perception and understanding of who I am. I had to forgive myself for something that I really had no control over. As my mom would say, I did not causeit, I did not create it and I cannot cure it. That’s why God being the ultimate healer Is so important to me . He will do what I cannot. And, he will because he has said that he will always be eith us love us and protect us he is the Good Sheppard turn to him for anything. God is aware of our situations and just wants us to expect him to do what we cannot make the Miracles happen in our lives big and small they are all Miracles and gifts. Amen.

 

the following song is so beautiful. 4 plus years ago God met me where I was at on my diagnosis day and truly saved me I was given a peace that has never left me.

 

The night before my brain surgery two weeks ago this past Friday to remove the brain tumor there was a good possibility that I could end up losing my left side use completely.the doctor even questioned if we wanted to go forward. But the hope and peace that God  gave me there was only one possible response of course I am here and Gods got this. My wife was understandably very nervous life has been difficult enough with the mobility issues that I already have my wife is tiny and I am a big guy so she was not sure what would happen if I had any less mobility tha n I already have.

 

So, I laid in bed that night and she laid in the bed next to mine I said to God, please Give Janet the peace that you gave me. She deserves that .

She woke in the morning well rested and she could not believe how peaceful and un afraid of my surgery that she was. Now, that’s God for you. I had my surgery, and was slated to be in the ICU for 3 days I was released the next morning to the step down until and went home that Sunday to a family dinner again, because God ordained it. I have not even had a Tylenol either there is no pain. I am very grateful.

 

Bottom line is is this I am not looking forward to the second time around with this disgusting disease known as Glio. I do not own it, it is not from God.

 

monday is a big day I have Dana Farber to get info on the pathology of the tumor and to see what treatment options are available now. Again I am at peace with the situation knowing that God will be there also. He is my champion, my strong hold.

no matter what we are going through, I don’t care how dire we need to accept that we will get to the other end of the situation stronger, wiser and more strongly rooted in the hopefulness of our faith. This I truly believe.

 

So so please pray for me tomorrow as I begin the decision making phase of my treatment plan.

 

Thank you you and GOD Bless You all always .

 

Danny

 

 

 

Well, it is Monday May 9th we had a wonderful weekend and I had a busy morning with the visiting nurse and Physical therapist all reports and progress has been very good Thank God. My attitude however is a little off. I could not get to church this weekend and I miss the mass and my friends a whole lot.

 

There has ben a general concern with my family that I may get a germ or cold before my appointment next Monday. I honestly am not worried about that personally but appreciate my families concerns. After being limited for 4 years from round one of Glio I cannot stand limitations on my life anymore I feel like a 5 year old and I get cranky.

This song came to mind as I went about my morning.

My my mother liked this song sung by Shirley Bassey.it is a  love the words. It’s a love song but I see ibut it totall resonates with my life right now.  now. I think part of my mood is that I feel like I am embarking on my second journey with cancer and the 1st time there is a sense of not knowing what to expect wheras this time I know the ins and outs of treatment and the daunting routine in and out of Boston we thenhave to deal with the Meds, side effects, constipation.etc.  My  friend Deacon Paul called this morning Paul called me and we spoke he shared the daily reading with me and we prayed the our Father. with me and He said Dan your allowed your and life has really put you through the wringer. feelings feeling you have been through the wringer of life. I have been and I guess finally I am getting mad. So, the reading today was about not worrying about yesterday and life’s lack of perfection. Again, God in the moment through my friend ministering to me. This song was exactly what was called for. I did not cause the cancer, did not create it and I cannot cure it. But, God can.

Live your life accept your plight forget about yesterday and focus on tomorrow and the next better moment. Amen.

Whatever you are currently  going through today except as a temporary situation and expect that something that you will come out of this situation in a better better than you went in. Kiss today goodbye. Point me towards tomorrow. On a happy note, My doctor cleared me to attend church so I will get a ride and go in the morning. ! 😀🙏👍✝place then you are currently.

 

God bless you and us all. Amen.

 

Danny

Beautiful weekend, on the quiet side. Friends were in last night for dinner. Very nice.

I made my way up to bed at nearly 1:00 in the morning and I was tired.

 

I got got into bed and my wife was already sleeping. I got comfortable and just laid there looking out the skylights and the sky was milky and it was lightly raining. Very relaxing.

 

I fell to  eel to sleep quickly after prayer and thought about my life situation. I still feel bad  my wife her life is far more difficult then Mine is.

I found myself in the bathroom at 2 d45am this morning looking at the work that the surgeons had done in putting me back together after the surgery.

 

I am am so grateful for Gods gifts in my life. As I walked back and got back into bed I saw my wife laying there and my heart was so full of gratitude.

Janet and I have been together for 3a0plus years and I was so blessed that God gave me such a beautiful wife for life.

My kindle then played this song from back in the day and it cautified the special moment that I found myself in.

This song is beautiful. I would not change 1 moment in our 30 plus years.

 

well, 1week out from Glio brain   Surgery. I week ago I was intensive care at Brigham and Women’s, Boston. Feeling great by the grace of God my follow up appointment is May 16th for staple removal , stiches and  pins etc. then we can figure out the treatment attack necessary as well.

i love this song it came to me today as I prayed and prepared for this blog.

 

God’s love in my life and that of my wife, family and friends makes this life worth living.

 

Happy MothersDay ladies and to my mom in Heaven holding me in her arms still.

 

Thankyou mom and dad for living and instilling a faith so right planted in the soil of my heart that I can continue on with joy towards my next tomorrow. Amen.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lCVo_69Gv4w

Love and blessings to All,

 

just Danny and family

 

HEllo  all, it is  Thursday May 5th and I just finished up with the visiting nurse and I am doing exceedinglyy well. I am so grateful that my wife picked on my little little flubs that got me to the ER last week. If she had not it could have been a much different scenario for me in this moment  I am sure.

 

thank you God for my wife/  life partner. Amen.

The biggest problem that I have faced thus far is typical bathroom stuff from Meds and antithesis. But with all that is availableon the market now  that too is now less of an item to deal with.With  my blog and any conversations I have with people in need I am very candid and approachable. Because, on a whole illness brings a host of different daily challenges. So, if I am to be true to those that I intend on helping then I need them to know it happens and that it will be okay. I don’t get embarrassed it’s life not the end of  anything .

God Bless anyone struggling this day.

T

I am so excited about my potential future helping people that I am now watching tutorial after tutiorial on public speaking etc.

Dannys presentation needs a little polish I doth think lol , !!😀👍🙏✝😜

 

Please pray for  this day for the wildfires in Canada also, for

J M. And family, Bryan and Mary W. And family. For ourselves and loved ones and for all of the sick and vulnerable in our society . We pray to the Lord, hear our prayer.

 

Forb those who I have helped and lost over the last 2 years including. Donna C. Anne K ZP.S.E.A. and their families

God Bless you and yours,

 

Danny

T

Good day everyone I have been home for two days since yesterday brain surgery on Friday. I feel great my wife family and friends have been incredible as they always are. Gods got an army of angels around each one of us always thank God for them and tell them how much you love and appreciate them Amen. So, Thankyou Angels and God for your, love ,support and prayers. 👍😀❤️✝🙏🌺🌷

 

i met met this beautiful man and his family through my children’s school and my church 20 plus years ago and it was meant to be my friend Paul as are all of you chosen to be in my life and I in yours too. I believe the biblical psalm is literal psalm #139.

 

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;Our lives are predestined by God in my belief events  come at us like cancer but what we do have have control  over  our free will choice of how we deal with the situation. I know in my heart that no Big Bang created us. We are divinely made by a creator who loves us all more that anything else. God is love and a Big Bang does not create love.

So, back on point.

I love people and the hardest part of my journey over the last 4 or so years is that I have talked to prayed with other cancer patients and brought the Holy Eucharistt  o tmany of my friends and then  and I watched as they all were called home to God. I have been trying to help people to see God, to  trust in God and not to feel fearw hen they are feeling weak. God does not need me to be watching HBO all day. I need to serve God and other living human beings especially  when they are in fear and need an uplifting voice giving hope . I need to show up and be present in their lives. If not I would be a selfish person. And God would be disappointed with me. God knows our hearts and what is truly going on with our personaliteis and our own hidden desires.

Gods counting on me as I have countied on him. He did not leave me and I will not ignore and leave a friend in need.that will not ever happen.

 

Well, for the last 4 years I have been trying to build some type of new future for myself that will allow a new path forward for myself, people and my family bering self employed for over 30 years and not really being able to work physicallyanymore requires  me to undergo an extreme Danny makeover.i just lost 20 pounds in an effort to get myself more healthy and along came Glio again.

 

So, I was called about 4-5 years ago to write for the church by God, that I did. Next, was a series of writings called love letters from God that were inspired by the Holy Spirit. Always under justdanny. Because we are all just whoever we are we are just us to ourselves but not to God our our loved ones and friends.said to ourselves but so much more to God and our families and friends that’s Gods love connection.

 

 

anyone who know me knows I have been on a quest to find what my purpose was to become. I don’t have a big background of group connections business or otherwise. I am a guy from a small town who married my small town Girlfriend Janet we graduated from college I met my wife while working at Stop and Shop in Arlington and it was like a paralyzingly lightening strike. She is beautiful inside and out . God had our paths cross and fuse in that moment. We both went on and dated for 4 years then we were wed in June of 1986. During those 30 years my wife has worked night when needed so that I could work in my family business always so that our children had us there. I honesty could not.afford childcare either. There is nothing wrong with childcare as long as your salary supports the need.

 

I said aid to my wife 4 years ago when  I I felt so close to death you know Janet we are now fulfilling almost all of our wedding vows. Richer, poorer, good times bad times, sickness and health. It was a beautiful and soberingrelazation We even lost our second child Brad Michael at 2 weeks from heart des ease but our faith and Gods perfection in our predestined meeting and marriage we have never grown apart we have just been fused in the fire even more in life and love. I i would never change one moment that God has given Janet and my children. That gives me such peace especially were I have been faced 2 times in 4 years with a terminal diagnosis. It good to be grateful, peaceful and I have no regrets to sleep with at night. Amen.

well, Praise GodJanet and I with Gods grace celebrate our 30th anniversary this coming June. # the luckiest guy alive!!!👍😀❤️⭕️❌🙏✝

 

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So, finally yesterday,

 

i got got a phone call from my friend Deacon Paul who helps out prep for my surgery on Thursday night after praying over Janet and I. I had asked Paul over the last few years Paul do you have anything I can do for your company? I knew it was not easy for him his business is light years from where I come from. Office work etc but my heart was searching away to help people. In Time and prayer all questions get answered by God always better that we could ever dream. God wants the best for each one of us. answers it always does.

 

Yesterday, I was sitting here in my docking station( recliner ) lol and my pal brother in Christ Paul called from NY after Paul was with me Thursday, Friday and the weekend and having seen me come through such a heavy duty surgery and speak to the top surgeon who said in his 3000 surgeries and cases he had never seen a case like mine. I was out of intensive care in a flash, I have no pain or painkillers.He was astonished at how I present.

 

Paul said Dan I am in the office with my staff I could tell I was probably on speaker and he said Dan I am working on plans I am not quite sure yet, I am thinking. You are such a Miracle and are always so positive and help everyone you need to be out in a crowd on a stage bringing hope to those who are suffering. You see God was making a way. He knew that I have been searching my path the one in my heart since I was a child washing EstherSullivans floor. God brought the one person into my life 20plus years ago and he is now facitating what God wants me to do .God is perfect Well, my heart was so overjoyed that I began to weep. I have what’s called survivors guilt I guess. I was trying to help the gravely ill one on one without the proper counseling and I bond and love easy with my sick friends. So, I need to learn to accept the losses and not own them. I just loved them and I miss them. Some of them were just short and precious conversations. I cried like a baby as he spoke because my heart was so overjoyed I told him that I missed the people who I have lost and just want to be helpful to the sick and frightened.I do nothing personally, God is working through me because my heart aches to serve.

 

This is song just came to mind. For all of my friends that I have lost,..p

 

iknow it’s a love song but I loved them whether I spoke to them 1 or knew them 52 years. Love is love, love is from good love is eternal.

 

 

 

 

 

without further a due

My dear brother in Christ

Deacon Paul

 

 

 

 

 

This was my moms favorite songs… God makes the way