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The Love Of My Mom. Her love for God and Her Miracle Part Three

10 Wednesday Sep 2014

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I wanted to continue with my writing for my mom today. Part two was on Sept 4ths blog. The Saint Agnes Band was a large part of our lives growing up. We had attended the school as well. Some of us went on to Arlington Catholic too . It was a great life.

One of the best parts was that my mom and dad were present in our lives. My dad managed the equipment truck and trained other fathers to get their bus liscences, so that the band members and color guard could get back and forth from parades and competitions. Like I said, my dad was everyone’s dad in the band and they loved him. He loved all the kids too. I would like to remember also in this moment my fathers assistant in the equipment van Mr. Callahan. My dad loved this man as did all of the kids in the band. He was awesome:) He went to the Lord some time ago, God Bless Him too.

My mom was always in the stands with all kinds of food, extra sandwiches etc. When we came off the field of competition, we would change out of our uniforms and get our street clothes on and off we would go into the stands to find her. Each one of us ( her)   kids had extra kids( friends) with us.lol  We were all hungry and my mother was accustomed to that fact 🙂 and had sandwiches and stuff for them too.  She also had jugs of homemade pink leomonade too.If my mom ran out Mrs. H was there with her food and was good for potato chips and chips ahoy cookies too.:)

In the band we would wear uniforms on the parade route and in competition. The uniforms  had wool pants, Satin tops and a cumberbund wrapped  around the middle..  It was topped off by a band drum style hat with a neck strap.We all wore white bucks (shoes) as well.

It could be 100 degrees in a parade or competition and we survived wearing those uniforms. The bottom line is this, we would roll in on the buses sometimes at 11:00 at night at the parking lot from a competition and needed to be back the next morning ready, uniformed and ready to go back out in competition once again or on a parade route somewhere. The uniforms needed to be laundered and ironed. The judges took points off  of our score if things were not perfect. A lot of parents were not engaged with their kids or were unable to be there to  support their kids. So, the kids were upset because they’re uniforms would not be ready for the next morning. It was a big deal.  So My mom, Mrs. R said don’t worry honey, give them to me I will have them ready in the morning. Remember, my mom had 5 kids and worked full time. But you see, she saw a need and offered it up and got the job done. She made those kids feel special, and they were. She was a brick in their foundation as was my dad. I can remember her standing in the kitchen in front of that ironing board ironing one satin shirt after another. They were ready for the judges 🙂 She even carried Kiwi white shoe polish in her bag and was touching kids shoes up, nice and white.

 

My mom’s ilness, She was a Miracle and also showed the Doctors , staff  of several institutions that, God is for real.

 

As I wrote in the past blog about my mom, C.O.P.D. progressed to emphysema and the ability of my mom to go out ,to walk stairs etc was very much diminished. She lived with a constant sense that she could not get breathe into her lungs. She very rarely complained but we understood her daily struggle. She was not going to bring her family down. She was partnered with Christ in his suffering. Like my mother would always say.

4 or so years ago in around June  2010 I think it was ? My mom went into the hospital at Mt Auburn in Cambridge her breathing was reduced even further and she was found to have a 4 to 5 inch tumor attached to her lung, behind her heart and it was obtructing the airway out from the lung. It was found to be inoperable, plus given her very poor respritory system she could not have anesthesia. Because of her strong resolve, faith and fight for life her Dr. R who was her primary for 30 plus years advocated that she should be allowed to try a plan to attack this tumor, my mom was well aware of its dangers and we all supported her and my dads decision in this matter.

She was treated by a wonderful Cancer and respritory  Dr. S from  Mt Auburn Hosp. He is a brain cancer survivor too. She under went chemo and very targeted radiation treatment for the cancer, for the tumor etc and when they were done the tumor still remained. She came home and was home a few days and radiation pneumonitis set in she was rushed into the hospital and ended up in Mt Auburns ER  after she found to be non- responsive at her home. That particular morning, My neice, dad,brother and sister were watching her, and saw a difference in her that they never witnessed before. An ambulance was called, right away.

At the ER, things looked very grimm. we were all there.  She was being given a lot of support she was filled with carbon dioxide , it is called I  think,  black death. It is when you breathe in and cannot expell the carbon diaoxide out of the lungs and body,  so you will get sleepy, your brain and other vital organs can de deprived of oxygen and eventually you will pass away without intevention. Even with help, it is very dicey. The staff ushered the whole family into a room and brought us food and gave us some gentle words of support.  Very beautiful.

 

My mom  was moved up to the Intensive care unit and she was put onto a ventilator,  by her choice, she was not done yet with her Earthly journey . She was there for a good seems like 1 and a half to  2 months if my memory serves me. My father was there everyday before 5 a.m. and stood by here because she would open her eyes and look at him at that time, he was not going to dissappoint her .Asside from that, she just slept a whole lot. He would take her hand and say, Its okay bobby, I am here just keep it in neutral.( Don’t Worry), You are going to get better. He stood there and prayed with her. All day long. All of the family would stream in and out of her ICU bed space and tell my dad to go sit down, food was being brought in by my sister, brother etc for him. We would make a prayer chain around her bed. Dr’s and nurses walked by and just watched the family through the glass windows and witnessed  God in action. Eventually my mom was moved to a regular room at Mt Auburn to get her ready to transition her to  Spaulding Cambrige Street Cambridge because her Dr. R  ran the Vent department there.  Again, God was handling everything.

At this time , It was about 6 months before I suddenly became ill with my Gleo, so I was able to be there a whole lot. Which I am so grateful for. It is what live is all about. Love, support and being there. Very Simple 🙂

 

I will continue with this account shortly.

God Bless You All,

Danny

 

My mom loved this song I am sure she was thinking of my dad when she listened to it and sang it  🙂 xoxo

Bette Midler Wind beneath my wings

enjoy 🙂

Bette Midler From a Distance.

 

 

Age to age , Suicide And Throwing Out The Life Line.

08 Monday Sep 2014

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There is a question that seems to go from Age to Age and generation to generation. It Is … this,

Doesn’t every generation think that the world is losing moral and societal footing. My grand parents did, my parents did, and I am now of the age that I too would have to agree with some aspects of their obversations. They saw it in their day’s and I am seeing it  personally in our lives today. To me years ago my nana and papa were awesome but at that time I was young and when they expressed their concerns seeing what they were seeing in society I figured they were squares and old fashioned. I then watched my mom and dad go through the process of saying that this world was just getting so terrible as they watched their world changing. Well, now it is my turn and I am Watching the direction that society is taking. Guess what?  I see it going in the same direction down hill.

It seems like society is on a voyage to the bottom of the sea! Pretty scary.

Flash forward 30 plus years at I now  look at elements in this world and say OMG, what is going on? I understand why my grand parents said what they said, why my parents said what they said too. I believe that once I began to have children, I began to notice things that were happening with more accuracy.

I understand that times change and “time marches on”, as they say. New technologies have come about to advance and inhance our lives, Heck, I benefitted from these things during my treatment for cancer, I also am benefitting from technology through this blog to spread God’s good news for all of us, but the flip side is the  amount of crap that is prevading our culture, country and world. The kids are being exposed to so much graphic sexual stuff images and language in this culture etc. Foul, foul language, the dumbing down of society as I see it.  Their is domestic violence, broken families,shootings, robberies and murders. We have one scandal after another in government from the top right down to local government, who is telling the truth, who do we trust with our lives? You know,  my feeling is that we will reep what we all sew as a people. As far as the motto that ” time marches on” goes,  Its my opinion,  looking at what is going in in the weather, globally, disease, wars, all the starving  people in this world that we have walked away from God and stopped caring for our brothers in need. I guess that time is marching us off a cliff. Back to tecnology for a second.  Not all technology is good either,  when do you unplug? Sometimes I wish that cell phones and email would end for a least a day or so to allow people to un plug and get reacquainted with oneanother. It is a sad day when neighbors do not know eachother and you cannot eat dinner or take time away without the world barging in. There is always a text coming  and every tv has urgent breaking news! Where is the time for prayer in our lives to listen to God ? We are in a prayer dessert as a country. With music constantly pounding in the background. I don’t get it, thats for sure!

God created us all with free will and desires our relationship with him.The Holy Spirit is working as the Guide for our personal good and for the good of society. Yet so many people are dead to the Spirit of God.

Meanwhile, I have written and said to many people that I know personally that I believe that If your not in God trying to grow towards perfection with him that you are open to fall for the liar ( devil ) and fall for all that he offers (nothing but pain suffering and your loss of your eternal soul.) and accept that everything that we do is okay. There are no boundaries and when struggle or adversity comes to us , and it will,  that you do not have the faith and strenght through God to get ya through.We cannot save ourselves. When darkness comes God brings the light and joy through Jesus Christ. He is the way the truth and the life.  We are then healed.

So, I now really feel that my grandparents were not square nor  that my parents were  incorrect in saying what they said back in their day. They were sick and worried about their children and grandchildren. I see it and feel it now myself. I do worry for my kids and their kids that they too will hold up and stand in the storm of life with a society who is less supportive of Godly values.

Finally today, I would like to touch on a topic. The topic is Suicide. Hopelessness that reaches a point that causes some poor souls to a tragic action. I do not care where a person comes from, money, poverty etc. I am by no way a professional on this topic but have heard and seen so much tradgedy in my life. Suicide knows no age, it can be caused by depression,drug, alcohol and chemical imbalances of their bodies. People lose hope. It is again my personal feeling that,  no loved one or friend is to blame when this tradgedy occurs to their loved one. It is often seems to comes from out of the blue.

Every life is very precious, we need to watch the people in our lives, familiy, friends, co workers etc and get them a lifeline of hope and to get the help they need if they are in trouble. God did not intend for us to be defeated. He conquers all. Another thing that I grappled with when I was younger was, the idea that if someone committed  such an act of suicide that they were destined for hell. Some faiths teach/taught that.

I personally could not accept this so I did seek the knowledge of a dear friend of my faith who was a bible scholar. I loved this man he was in his late 70’s at this time  and I was maybe 35 ish. My friend L was posed this question during my bible study with my group. He was always thoughtful, prayerful and measured in his response. My friend B called him sensi. lol  He said to me as he ran his fingers along the edge of his bible No, only God can judge such a thing and said that He knows the heart of the person and where they were psychologically at the moment that they acted. I felt the truth of that resonnate with me. As always, God knows all and is the just judge. I just realize how tender we all are and how fragile we all are. We are all broken so we need encouragement along our journey. God is my capitan and I am a passenger on his bus of life. Just seeing where he is taking me next. Amen.

 

God bless you all !

Danny

 

Rascal Flats   Why

Hillsong Age to Age

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XAian48rpRA

 

There is nothing so dire in life that cannot be figured out you are all very loved. !

A very important resource link.

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

The Face Of Christ , The Shroud Of Turin

05 Friday Sep 2014

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I mentioned that I had received the face of Christ from a friend in the chapel one rainy night and that my friend was told by the Holy Spirit thay he would get it back when I was healed. As an update to that event. About 4 months ago, I saw F by chance at the church hugged him and said, F God said that when I was healed you would get this back. He looked directly into my eyes and his eyes filled up and I said that this is that time. He wants you to have it back and I took it off, kissed it and  passed it to him he then placed it over his head and kissed it. And we embraced. I am cancer free from the brain cancer and will be going for a scan In a few weeks again to keep at eye on it. But God has got his almighty hands on both you and I all of the time regardless of whatever comes to pass in our lives Soooo

Worry Not ! 🙂

I was down at my church around a year and half ago for a healing service, I stood and prayed with the healing ministers for the sick that were coming in. I at this time was useing a walker. And I remember trying to stand and lean towards the person being prayed over, I wanted the physical contact of my hand to touch that persons shoulder. It was an effort but, God will give you what you need every moment. Well, while I was standing there praying a women walked beside me and stood to the right. I did not focus on who she was. Well, we finished the prayers over the beautiful person who was sitting and being prayed over. So, I looked again at this women to the right of me and she looked stunned and said Danny? I said yes, and then  I said, Oh my God, J. how are you I had not seen her in at least 14 years, she had moved to another town.

She looked at me standing with my walker and said what happened my response was a little cancer. Gods got everything , including my fear 🙂

She looked so distressed , I gave her a hug and asked her what was wrong, she said it is really weird but, I feel like  I can talk to you. You see , she was in that church that night for a reason as was I. Our personal psalm #139 put us there by God’s design. An intersection in life.

She said that she had been in her church on Ash Wednesday and God spoke directly to her that she would be given the gift of healing through Jesus and would see peoples desease’s. She looked so scared, my reaction was, I know its God my Spirit was resonating inside telling me of the truth. She said that as part of this calling was to create plaster art work and they are given to people that God had intended them for with scripture passages attached. Many were people that she did not know.

She also has 5 or 6 kids and they were so frightened as to what she was suddenly compelled to do. You see, she had never done art work before and was suddenly a master at it. I told her I understood because of how God was useing me as well. He uses all of us by the way 🙂 So, I think that she had a lot of peace before she left the church that evening.

So any way’s 🙂 , fast forward maybe 3 weeks or so from that night, my front door bell rang at like 6:30 a.m. on a Sunday morning and I could not get up and move that quicky, my wife was laying there half in a coma from all of her hours of work. We heard a vehicle pull away. About 45 minutes later the phone rang and we did not recognize the number so I did not answer. I fell asleep and when I awoke I took the phone and saw that there was a message. I listened to it and I found that it was J, the women from the church.

One thing that I need to say to set up this miracle was this, I did not sleep well that night a lot of Spiritual warfare was taking place and I began to pray to God and was complaining about my  life.  I was bellying acheing about everything!, a good old fashioned pitty party. That was around 3:00 am and at 4 am I began to do my Holy Rosary and I believe that it has saved my life! It calms me and puts me into union with heaven. Amen.

 

Okay, back to J. I called her and when she answered she apologized for coming by so early and calling, She said she had to. I understand that. When God compells you to do something, it must be done!

She told me that she had been woken up by God  at 4:00 am and was told that she needed to get a plaster peice that she made to me right away. She left it between the storm door and was afraid that it might get broken. It was funny when my wife found out that J had called my wife said as I was dialing J back on the phone, maybe she made an art peice for you. I said nahhh. Well, she had.It is beautiful.

My wife ran down to get it before something happened to it, it had a card with it .

When I pulled it out of the bag it was the face of Christ just beautiful! She did not know about F and the medallion ( Face of Christ ) that I had been given in the chapel nor did she know about my vision where I saw the shroud of Turin either.( Jesus face)

Here is the scripture that God gave her for me in that very moment that went with the face of Christ sculpture.

Galatians 2:20King James Version (KJV)

20 I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.

 

Now If that is not God, then what is???????????

The bottom line :

While I struggled with sorrow ,brain cancer and body failure and was thinking about my plight and that of my family the devil was toying with me all night. I retreated to a safe harbor Jesus Christ at 3 am and began to beseech of him what I needed and by 4 a.m. feeling still a little oppressed I called on My Blessed Mother as well. God heard my silent prayer and pleas and answered me immediately. My Blessed mother aided in that as well. I feel her presence and from time to time smell her roses too. Amen. 🙂 I called out to the Lord and J was sent to respond. Thank God, J listened to God’s call. God bless Her !

 

Isn’t life beautiful, my son showed me this. 

God’s gift.

 

The Face Of Christ, The Shroud Of Turin.

 

God Bless You, Danny

The Love Of My Mom. Her love for God and Her Miracle Part Two

04 Thursday Sep 2014

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My mom as I began to tell you was very engaged in life and very committed to God. Growing in the generation that she did it was a very common practice to smoke. It had a social component too, so many people did. I too confess that being brought up in a family and culture that touted its use, that I too smoked for a while. But, fortunately for me the non smoking message was getting out to my generation. I also had gotten married and my wife did not want to have children and have them exposed to it. So, I gratefully was able to stop the smoking. I was not a heavy smoker , but then again as the years unfolded I came to realize that one cigarette was really one too many.Here’s why,

About I guess 15 years ago, while my wife and children were vacationing on the beach in N.H, my mom and dad took a day trip up to see us. We thought that we would take a walk with our kids and stroller up to the boardwalk for ice cream.

My dad came up the stairs to our unit on the second floor and said Hi, we are downstairs when you are ready. I said wheres mom? He said she could not do the stairs she is not feeling well. I remember running down to see her, she was standing there smiling and said hi, I could see her breathing was labored. I said, mom whats wrong? She said nothing and took out her inhaler that she supposedly had for allergies. Well, I do not think that we got ice cream with her that night because she could not walk 10 feet without being winded.  My family was devestated. She told us it was allergies for the longest time and my father respected her wishes and did not tell myself or my siblings a thing. Finally, we all got together and told her we need to know. She said that she had C.O.P.D. from the smoking. My mother did not want to burden us, typical mom. You see, both my mom and dad smoked probably 40 years of their lives, they had both quit 8-10 years prior to the onset of her COPD. It came from no where. When you smoke the lungs become clogged and you go from breathing okay and suddenly you cannot breathe. As she would say, the damage was done. She would often say darn cigarettes.

My mom showed so much courage through out her battle that it was just so amazing to witness but it was heart breaking to us all. My mom eventually was on oxygen at her home. She had portable tanks that she in the beginning would get into her car and go to the store for short stints. She used to pull up at my work in her car and she would call me from her cell phone and say, Hi honey, are the other boys in the office too? She was referring to two of my brothers that worked with me. She said come out to the car, they had sales at the store so I picked up stuff for all your families with my coupons, hurry because your father is probably getting worried he’s going to kill me .LOL My mom as she would say, just kept on trucking along. So loving, so generous. As she was ready to leave the parking lot she would blow me a kiss and to tell the boy’s the same, I know that there was no way that she could carry those bags and place them in her car, there must have been an angel loading them at the store for her. I would alway’s start to say mom, this is too much and she would flail her hand at me and smile. She then took her index finger put it straight up over her lips and gently shushed me. She then would do a 10 point turn in my driveway before she left. She did it her way 🙂 My brothers would walk into the office and say whats this, meaning all th bags? And, I said mom was here and sends her love eachone of us has bags here and theres chicken packages and stuff in the refrigerator too. My brothers would look at me and would fill up with emotion then each one would call my mom to thank her. She was Christ in motion. The progression of COPD to full blown emphysema was slow and steady. In about 2008 she was now pretty much in the house, she started to attend St. Eulalia Parish for church because it was easier for her to park and get in to the sanctuary. Plus outside of the church is a large statue of the Blessed Mother so when she was too tired to walk etc, my sister would take her up and sit in front of our Blessed Mother and do the Rosary. It brought here so much confort and joy .

My Father, prayed with my mother everday and she was suffering you could see it but she would say I am fine and smile. She would say offer up the stuff. She did her St. Raphael oil from the healing ministry at church and the prayers etc. We did it with her all as a family when we were together. You see, Prayer to us is not an embarassing thing. It was not ackward. It was no accident that God selected my dad for her and gave her the 5 children that she was told that she would never have. We were there to comfort, honor her, and love her in the time of her need as God was preparing her for her salvation and glory that awaited her, God himself. She had her Christian music on and watched a little tv, EWTN etc. She was more of a reader always looking to read something. A very bright women. The last movie that I remember her seeing in the theatre was I belive Jaws. LOL More importantly she had all of her family surrounding her as she so richly deserved.

When I see people regardless of their age smoking, I always think, God I wish those things were outlawed. Especially seeing what it does to beautiful people. My mom did not deserve it thats for sure, I will continue this shortly .

God Bless You !

Dr. Cohen presents  “Smoking Stinks”

 

A song for my mom. We need to remember and celebrate those that we love. Amen 🙂

 

Another Miracle from God happened this evening that I will share shortly. As I have said before God is closing the circle in so many of our lives right know. bringing people back together it is breath taking to watch and experience.

God loves us all so much, and wants the best for us.

Love and Blessings,

Danny

 

 

We are all one !

27 Wednesday Aug 2014

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I would like to attempt on this blog today to bring up a point. I don’t know all , and do not think for a moment that I do. I got a call late morning from my Friend  P ,the deacon from .N.Y this was on Tuesday morning. He said that he was inflight arriving in Boston on business and wanted to visit for an hour or so. He arrived and we went to a local diner for lunch. God was up to something once again.  We had lunch  and during that time I discussed this blog with him. I explained to him that It was in fact work and due  to all my prayer the Spirit is spilling out so much so quickly. Only God knows why.

I will tell you what God had up his sleeve(  in one moment ), it was very funny. God’s having a lot of fun with me lately. LOL

But first let me get back on point. I have been reminded so many times during prayer that we are all one, under God. Many Churches, many Faiths. I am not a theologian. I just know to me, that  we are one through Christ Jesus.

I have heard remarks over the many years that I have lived that some people are not believers or of the same practicing religion etc. My feeling is, that’s okay. That is their personal opinion. Perhaps God has not broken through to them as of yet so they too can believe. We can all be stubborn during our lifes journey. It is easier to go with the flow than to follow Christ. We live without conscience on so many levels. We live unconvicted so we do what ever we want to do and it is great. But, it is not. It is not for us to judge others either. We need to just live a life that they will see something in us and wonder , What is it  that He or She has ? You want them to see in you what might heal their lives.( God) Remember, with every person we help only God knows how many more people that they may help.

None of us is holier that thou! ( found this on the web)

Holier-than-thou
When a person has taken the moral high-ground or are just up themselves, they are being “Holier-than-thou”. Holier-than-thou literally means, holier than me or better than me.
Just because I made one stupid mistake doesnt mean Britney gets to give me this holier-than-thou attitude!
by Dani October 28, 2005
 
There are many reasons why there are so many churches, and my explanation of why would not be substantial enough or 100 % correct.
 
I will say this though, the church that God built, his church,  was upon his Apostle Peter.The first Pope. The church was filled with people just like us. When you have lots of people in any group religious and otherwise, there will  differences of opinions, in fighting, different interpretations of the bible etc. Feelings get hurt , ego’s get hurt  and in this case the church fragmented and new churches came to be. The orginal church, my church has continued to Spread the Gospel. And help so many. All these churches are following the leader Christ/ God. But we as Christians are  acting like they are on opposing teams. It is very silly.
 
For me, I am faithful to my God and love my church, that is how I was raised and rediscovered for myself later on personally my love of the Catholic Church and its sacraments. I then shared that joy with my family and anyone that I possibly could. I do not care if some one is from a different faith or walk. We do not need to hip check other Christians or anyone else for that matter into the boards. It’s not a game, it’s life.
 
I spoke at great length recently to a friend  who has had very deverse thoughts on all faiths and I thought it was refreshing.
 
Our conversation stemmed out of conversations based in the news. Persecutions of Christians, not being allowed to live their faith. They need to convert their faith to another, pay a fee or be murdered. Sometimes both anyway.
 
Everyone, has their God given right, to be who they were born to be and  to seek and find their God through what ever faith gets them there. In my personal belief due to my upbring, that it is through Jesus Christ that is how we get to our Father, God.
 
I can see the writing on the wall here as well  in this country. God is being pulled from the culture and the bedrock is shifting. .We better stick together as Christians because if we don’t, before long we may be facing the same fate as other Christians world wide..   Remember, we are part of a flock not part of a gang. Evil is on the prowl. And the sheep of the flock are running around not paying attention.
 
 
So, in conclusion,  My friend P took me to my schedules PT appt after lunch. He walked in with me into the office. I wanted to introduce him to my PT staff. He is in the medical field also. I  told P you may see V here today too, he is a deacon also 🙂
 
We walked in and he met everyone, and P saw V they knew eachother and immediately engaged in conversation. They were exchanging information about others and ministry stuff.
Meanwhile, I stood at the glass window of reception and my pt therapist was like hi and smiled you do not have an appointment today and laughed. I stood there and knew God wanted these two men P and V to meet today, that is part of why he came from NY to my PT appt, only God could do this. Paul had business but God added my pt visit to his agenda. God wanted P and V to meet for his reason.:)
 
I came right home grabbed my calander and realized that I was looking at next Tuesdays date by accident. God is awesome. it was a great day.
 
God Bless You All !
 
Danny
 
Video below :
 
I really like Joyce  a lot, I spent alot of time trying to find God early on in my life, I saw her years ago then moved on. I told Father I think that  she is really good. When I became ill with Glio Blastoma , I was stuck here in my chair for along time. I rediscovered Joyce again and she really helped me to make it through this life situation  too. I love who she is and what she does. It is God.
 
Joyce Meyers, God’s Love
 
Please watch ! She even mentions psalm #139, no coincidence. God’s talking. Amen!
 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=09rRLFFzuOE
 

In The Beginning and My first Heavenly Vision/ Vivid Dream.

13 Wednesday Aug 2014

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In The Beginning of true Spiritual awakening of all of us is a long time in the making. We experience different levels of awareness in God, his existence and supreme gift to us all and I m not talking about life 🙂 That is a Miracle in itself.  I am referring to the gift of The Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit as far as I am concerned is our bridge to the Almighty, he facilitates all that is good, he inspires us, he warns us,he allows God to fill us with joy and allows our conscience to feel guilt for a wrong doing.The Holy Spirit will help to bring us to our knees for repentence before our Lord. The Holy  Spirit that dwells within every one of us is God given and works in concert with our desires, needs and to allow us to fulfill our destiny for God and his people. We need to allow The Holy Spirit to work with us. We need to pray for his assistance in a meaningful way. I mentioned this in one of my recent blog writing that I began praying and commiting myself to God and the holy Spirit with my daily shower and telling all of Heaven that the water was my rededication and reminder of my baptismal water. I say daily to God that I surrender myself to whatever he wants from me and tell the Holy Spirit to please use me to the best of my ability. Lastly, I call on all of Heaven through my prayers for all of the Angels and Saints to please bestow on me any gifts of the Spirit that I may need in the future. Heaven is for real.:) This is a very special time that we are living in, a time like no other. It is a time of Miracles, it is a time of God’s pouring out of The Holy Spirit and Spiritural gifts for eachone of us. We all have our very own special gifts. Some we are born with some we acquire from God in the moment of his choosing. Our gifts can bend and change over a period of time based on what God wants and needs us to accomplish. The one prerequsite that God has for each of us to open our hearts and desire to be an agent of good to be the light to oneanother. It is simple. Through my childhood, adolescence and even into my 30’s I was always searching for my true God and his existence. I could feel him to a certain degree but the picture was still far from focus. During that time for me the 90’s.  Life had a lot of moments of hurts from people you know, daily nonsence. Its hard to see God when you are surrounded by others who are not necessarily in Christ or God based. You are wandering around in a crowd of lost sheep many of which have no idea that they are even lost. I am not judging but  it is indeed a fact.   Well in the latter part of my 30’s I managed to bring my picture into a little more clarity with prayer and the assistance of others through a beautiful retreat know as Cursillo in a retreat house know as St. Basil’s in Methuen, Ma. that was I believe in Oct 1999. My wife went in November of the same year. It was life changing, the focus and picture was now crystal clear! It was an intersection where God made himself and his presence known. It is a Miracle, just as St. Basils is. You should call and look into this retreat house. It will be the best gift that you can give yourself ! So, I came back from that retreat and one of my friends called me the next day and  said, hey Dan, I saw you walking on the water of the lake today 🙂  It was so funny,he knew that I was on Fire .lol Each day that we live sets the stage for the next day and action. So all of the many little or big moments of my daily journey that come out onto this blog journal are always building for a bigger God moment. They are all God moments because he is there with us getting us through. All of our Spiritual Gifts are to be shared. It is not about us. This blog tells my journey through God. It his victory over death (my) and yours. God wants my life psalm #139 shared so that all will see him, and draw closer to our Heavenly Father.    4- 5 years ago, I am not sure of the date, I was called out of the blue into some of the most intense Spiritual experiences that I could ever have imagined. I was blown out of the water, I will just refer to them as writing for my church. The details of those writings were not for us , they are for the church. I will say this anyone with a sense of Spiritural awareness just needs to look at the news or turn on the television to see what is going on. The world is out of balance. This process was stretching myself and family to the max. The Holy Spirit is just so awesome. My spiritual adviser said to me , Dan, lets just see where it goes, and we did. I will explain about this experience at a later date.   My first vision, vivid dream, about 4-5 years ago during the time I was doing the  church writings. I was asleep and had the most vivid dream. God uses our own lifes experiences and will make them part of his message in my case it was based in my lifes work and I have been for over 30 years through the gift of the  Holy Spirit an interior Designer. I have done projects that when I had completed them looked at them and said, God, I did that! I did through God and love alone complete my projects .More on that later too!:) So, I was sleeping and my vision which seemed like forever started. I am giving my account  to you exactly as It happened and was told to my priest, my adviser and friend long ago… This remember was more that 3 years before my cancer diagnosis. I walked up to the door of this house and rang the bell. I had decorating samples in my hand. A women came to the door and opened it, I just remember how pleasant she was, I could hear children laughing and she said, excuse me for a moment and walked away off to the left in the direction of the children. I did not see them but heard them laughing.  So, I stood there and it seemed like a while, I being the type A personality and loving what I did. I said to myself, I will just walk in to the right here and see what she needs. So the interior was very itherial everything was a very soothing white color. It was extremely peaceful. I just kept walking and ahead of me was a hallway with a very bright light people were coming out of the light and passing me again all faces were non descript, everything was very etherial and white. I noticed that there was something on the wall that everyone that came out of the hall seemed to be stopping to look at so, I wandered over to it and looked and was a very pale colored picture I recognized it immediately. It was the shroud of Turin. I have to say this too, I had never given  1 seconds thought to the shroud in my life yet here it was . Well any way I could hear voices from down the end of the long extremely bright hallway and hear a booming voice and laughter it was pure joy. When I got to the entrance I realized, I shouldn’t be here, I had wondered from where I was left to wait. I would never wander around my clients home. So, I returned to where I was waiting by the door. I was getting annoyed and it was like 4 hours. Well, the really pleasant women was back and said she was sorry for the delay and she opened the door to the left of me. The children were quiet now  and she guided me into the room. I stood there and there was a very large white table in front of me. As I stood there the women was standing to the left side of the table looking at me and there was another figure to the right side of the table looking at me  as well. The women looked at me and, I felt love like I had never felt before. She said again sorry for the wait, I remember having been so angry to had to wait 4 hours for her to return and , I just responded its okay and she said to me you are an angel. Of course, I told Father I am certainly not, I am a sinner like everyone. I remember feeling intense love. I knew that it was my Blessed Mother. She without  a word uttered pointed down to the table and moved her hand over the surface as if  she wiped the table and the white milky color left and it now had a clear glass. It was a case.  I could see all kinds of relics, bottles of oils, and religous statues related to my faith and she spoke these words to me, We want you to have many Spiritual gifts. And that was it. I woke up and is as alive today and vivid as the time that it occured.   I have had years to think of why The Blessed Mother would call me an angel, because I am not. So I have a couple of thoughts on that. 1.) She knowing that I was upset with waiting for her which my Blessed Mother would know and yet I told her no problem thought that I was kind? 2.) Everything that I have done in writing including this blog through the Holy Spirit is never about me or any one of us . We are all loved the same. And what mother does not look upon her child at least as  an angel in training?  🙂 Thats the best I can do on that thought last but not least the booming laughter and joy was,  I know, was Our God!  I was given a glimpse of Heaven. I pray everyday to continue to grow for his purpose and into his will completely . Amen. Better Is one day In Your House By Kutless https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jdE03zRJtxw   In Christs Holy Name, Danny

From Lahey Clinic to Dana Farber part 1

22 Tuesday Jul 2014

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Off we went to Dana Farber for our second consult and my new and current Dr. Dr. R. When we arrived it was via wheel chair for me, we were brought into the exam room. Again, we felt nothing but warmth and compassion from everyone. There were a number of medical /clinical coats in the room standing against the wall, my wife, one of my brothers and my sister were present too. I had been helped up on top of the exam table and was sitting upright on the edge of the table my legs dangling down.( It is funny how life makes us at times feel like a little kid).

Dr. R knelt in front of me on one knee and put his hand on my knee and said we have looked at the reports and biopsy information from Lahey and said we agree with the diagnosis. Glio Blastoma multiforme grade 4, it is non surgical. What I realized as I look down into my doctors eyes from my table edge was that he was a truely compassionate and loving man. He did not make me look up while he was talking to me, he took a position kneeling so he could meet me where I was. I remember the peace of God as still just flowing over me and I announced to all of the staff there that God had told me that I had the cancer, cancer was not of God and that I did not own this cancer, I went on to say that God selected them in this time to help me through God’s medicine, God’s machines, and their hands with are the extension of Jesus Christ. we are all Spirit driven and we need to remember where  the Holy Spirit  is from. God! 🙂

I told them about my spontaneous healing in Dec, 2010 that was discussed with my primary care doctor in January 2011 during a physical. He has confirmed the event to be true. This experience that I am going to begin to share is going to be a bit long and I am finding now in this moment will truely be an excercise emotionally but I will continue in a number of writings because what has happened during this time sounds impossible and is astounding but it is also very true. Witnesses were everywhere during this time and nothing will ever be the same . God is revealing his presence in a very strong way with good reason. He wants a personal relationship with us.

So any way, My Dr R was kneeling down on one knee to comfort me, I announced the message God gave me and tears filled his eyes, I was so tired, I just wanted to go home. not upset like one would imagine I had no energy and just wanted to sleep. The team raced out of the room, and two seconds a women that I will refer to as My scottish friend came in as cool as a cuccumber and said Ok Danny the doctor wants me to get an ekg of your heart. I had been insisting on getting into my wheel chair. She gently laid me back onto the table my legs still dangling off of the table and off came the shirt, and on went the electrodes. She started the eeg and when finished helped me with my shirt. And off she went.  My family was  there all the while in that room with me. Its like the bible I always have witness or as I call the Riley clan with me lol  My scottish friend was rolling out of the room, I was being assisted into my wheel chair by my brother and my wife and Dr R’s head nurse S, came into the door closed it and stood with her back against it and said, We need you to stay, we have made calls and want to get more tests done while you are here. I said no, I said I am too tired and I do not have my afternoon medication, she tried to convince me and my family tried to get me to sway, I said thanks I will come back next week. She said okay and sprinted out of the room, I said c’mon lets go. We left the exam room, I sware to God I was leaning left in the chair, so weak. When all of a sudden I heard something and Dr. R was coming down the hall full seam ahead. I saw him look at my family and went to his knees once again, he put his hand on my left arm and said please Dan we want you to stay, I went through the whole I will come back next week thing , I don’t have my meds, my family had to go to work they have not eaten, I was tired. My family asserted once again that it was okay that they would call in to work. Dr R. said we have made all of the arrangements necessary and our radiologist at brigham and womens was staying as late as he had to accomodate me. He said we have all the medications you need in our unit we have meds for occasions like this he said okay:) Then he said why don’t you get a bite to eat and S, meaning his head nurse will see you in a while. I said okay and he patted my arm and smiled. It was yet another Miracle. There are mericales  like this happening daily in our hospitals and doctors offices, we are a Blessed country. and at times fail  to see them for what they are. God’s people are loving,compassionate and giving.

BTW, my ekg came back with a strange rythmn like there were two heart beats and that is because as my test was being done, and it was a stall tactic, my sister who was so devestated was holding my hand thus two heart beats . Just beauitful !

I am exhausted and need to stop for the moment. I will continue to write from this point tomorrow.

God Bless you, and thank you God for everything that give us all. Amen.

Chris Tomlin Thank you God for saving me

 

 

Amazing Grace

21 Monday Jul 2014

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Last night while lieing in bed my mind went through the days activities and assessed where God was in it . The moments that we learn  something or teach something to one another. Two of brothers and I were together for a brief  time  today to pay respects to a wonderful young man who tragically passed and his family. During our time together we discussed different things going on in our lives, this world, and our culture.

I finished my evening prayers, and laid there on the twilight edge of sleep and listened for Gods voice or word to inspire and soothe me. Well, he did but it had a hint of sadness to it which made me stir a bit.

God uses things that I understand to allow me to understand What he is saying in any given moment to me. It is the same for all of you as well.The Holy Spirit is working with us always. There is a response/ psalm that is used in  my church from time to time which stepped forth in my mind and I could hear it but the word and implication was different.

This is the whole  song version  , so it is longer than the verson we use at my church. It is haunting, and what God was saying to me last night was  why have so many in this world abandoneded him at the foot of the cross?   Is  it good that we wander off to face the wolves alone? I do not think so.  Life can be challenging.

here it is.

Responsorial Psalm 22:

Dandan Soy

 

God is our protection and there are forces darker in the world that would want us hopeless. I strongly feel that if had  not stayed stay at the foot of the cross with Jesus during my life It would have been impossible for God to heal me and build me up one again, my heart was open and hopeful.  Like a branch that falls from that the tree I would be dead not just physically but more importantly I believe that i would be eternally dead in my soul.

So, I needed to share this with you all.  I know it sounds heavy, but to me it is.

I want to always be honest in all my writing irregardless of how fantastic it sounds. bacause God  knows the hows,  why’s and whens. We just need to say yes.

Enjoy this next video, I love it

This video was shot in the ruins of the colisseum where meny Christians were killed by the lions just for amusement and because of their religious beliefs. Remember Daniel and the lion den?

Amazing Grace II Divo

my next blog will re in reference to Beginning treatment at Dana farber.

God Bless You ,

Danny

Sactus Real Something New.

20 Sunday Jul 2014

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Sanctus Real Something New

This song represents so many aspects of my life. Even a Cancer diagnosis as I said before has a silver lining too. I have done so much of what this song and lyrics say. Please look at the lyrics, we all need to purhaps hit the reset button. I know life has done that for me , and I thank God that I was blessed with the adversity that helped me to find my biggest treasure, namely God!

We are all works in progress daily. 🙂

 

For 2 years since my cancer diagnosis my recliner became my place, my prision whatever I deemed it to be moment by moment. As I accepted my new life not knowing if my chair would be permanent location until death do we part. lol  Sorry, I do have a dark sense of humor and it makes me laugh. 🙂

Well I am out of that chair a lot more more often now. It is just my redocking station now 🙂 Praise God!, and the mantra what am I going to do with my life? along with the prayer, God please give me a direction! I said God whatever you want, I will do. Just so long as it pleases you and helps others. I would  be so grateful.. This blog was over  2 years in the making of praying and waiting. Waiting as I came to understand is what God required me to learn before he could answer me. I have so many people, family ,friends and medical people tell me that I needed to share this story, blog, put pen to paper, write a book, whatever. I just felt who am I to do this?  Then I thought it is the truth and for God’s glory. So why would God not have me write of this?  I figured God was useing all of my friends, family and medical people to give me my answer that I had prayed for and to encourage me to step in and respond to his call. I know the writing is helping me to find things hidden in my mind like thoughts,memories,sorrows,love,shame. Do I like all of these things?, Not all of them! But, that is not the point. The point is stuff in the shadows that lirk and play havoc in our lives and our Spirits are not good and are not of God. They are evil and keep us in bondage. We can be healed from these things. Drag them out into the light of God’s presence, pray on them and God will bring the healing to them and you will be made a new creation. Secrets and hurts are cancer in our minds, souls and the Holy Spirit and as a result I believe our physical health suffers.The child inside does not have to anguish forever, we have an obligation to that child to find him and her peace and fix and heal the wounds of this lifes journey. We are the children of the light, we are called by God to radiate our love and faith to all we meet irregardless to our personal story or struggles. Perfection is not required just a heart that is willing to serve. It is in helping others that we are healed.. With healing of our inner child comes a whole host of benefits. We find peace, forgiveness, self love, and allow The Holy Spirit to work in us and through us in a very harmoniously way honoring God and validating his love to those who need him. People are attracted to a peaceful spirit.  I sincerely hope these writings resonate with all of my brothers and sisters out there and that you too can find the healing peace of our Lord Jesus Christ/ God. Amen. These writings are Spirit Driven, with my love and kinship with you all at its core.

You are all in my prayers for whatever your needs might be, God knows who you are and what you need. Please pray for my family and this world we all need them.:)

God Bless,

Danny

Kathy Trocolli

13 Monday Jan 2014

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Before I begin, I would like you please pray for a wonderful young man and his family. Scott was a beautiful young man. God Bless and hold them all always. Amen.

Thank you.

 

During my Cursillo retreat weekend in October of 1999 my eyes we opened to the world of Christian music. I was very familiar with church hymns etc but was totally unaware of this beautiful form of music.

Even after all these years it just amazes me how much beautiful Spirit inspired music there is. It is a very important part of our lives when we  become aware of it.

I can hear music Kathy Troccoli and Beach Boys

Kathy Troccoli & Friends – Love One Another

Water Into Wine- Kathy Troccoli

Go Light Your World – Kathy Troccoli

 

God Bless,

Danny