Hi this post is for those who are particularly young and are following my daily post. I posted todays blog, God of wonders. I then sat back in my reclined and listened and watched it once again. I wanted to be in the moment with what I had just posted. I had very deep thoughts while listening and when the video was over got up and let my dogs Jessica and jerrimiah out. I walked outside on my deck and stood there for a few minutes taking in the sights, sounds and the beauty of the day. And up cropped a sorrow in my heart , I thought of all the young kids that are searching for God, the truth and what it means to you. Just remember its okay and God meets us all where we are at and their is not one life problem that is too big that God to handle. He is with you alway’s.
I just wanted to say that I know what is going on out there with the culture, tv,news, what it is being tought and how hard it is for you all to see and absorb.. I know parents who’s children want to go to church and the parents are aware and tell me they are lost in their day and it does not happen. What I will say to you young ones is number one , I am not a priest, I am not a deacon, I am a human being just like you , and you count! I have 4 kids, and their friends are like my kids too. I have a very noisy house LOL. I will try and select things that may help you make your way to your faith. Remember, you guys as children may be able to open your parents up to the concept of their faith as well. Thats why God created families to love and take care of oneanother. Parents are so busy, working tending to your needs, bills, shopping, sports etc. Sometimes we as parents me included have difficulty carving out time for church and for themselves. So, maybe you can share this blog so they can too see my blog too. It is always important to share internet stuff with your parents.:)
Off we went to Dana Farber for our second consult and my new and current Dr. Dr. R. When we arrived it was via wheel chair for me, we were brought into the exam room. Again, we felt nothing but warmth and compassion from everyone. There were a number of medical /clinical coats in the room standing against the wall, my wife, one of my brothers and my sister were present too. I had been helped up on top of the exam table and was sitting upright on the edge of the table my legs dangling down.( It is funny how life makes us at times feel like a little kid).
Dr. R knelt in front of me on one knee and put his hand on my knee and said we have looked at the reports and biopsy information from Lahey and said we agree with the diagnosis. Glio Blastoma multiforme grade 4, it is non surgical. What I realized as I look down into my doctors eyes from my table edge was that he was a truely compassionate and loving man. He did not make me look up while he was talking to me, he took a position kneeling so he could meet me where I was. I remember the peace of God as still just flowing over me and I announced to all of the staff there that God had told me that I had the cancer, cancer was not of God and that I did not own this cancer, I went on to say that God selected them in this time to help me through God’s medicine, God’s machines, and their hands with are the extension of Jesus Christ. we are all Spirit driven and we need to remember where the Holy Spirit is from. God! 🙂
I told them about my spontaneous healing in Dec, 2010 that was discussed with my primary care doctor in January 2011 during a physical. He has confirmed the event to be true. This experience that I am going to begin to share is going to be a bit long and I am finding now in this moment will truely be an excercise emotionally but I will continue in a number of writings because what has happened during this time sounds impossible and is astounding but it is also very true. Witnesses were everywhere during this time and nothing will ever be the same . God is revealing his presence in a very strong way with good reason. He wants a personal relationship with us.
So any way, My Dr R was kneeling down on one knee to comfort me, I announced the message God gave me and tears filled his eyes, I was so tired, I just wanted to go home. not upset like one would imagine I had no energy and just wanted to sleep. The team raced out of the room, and two seconds a women that I will refer to as My scottish friend came in as cool as a cuccumber and said Ok Danny the doctor wants me to get an ekg of your heart. I had been insisting on getting into my wheel chair. She gently laid me back onto the table my legs still dangling off of the table and off came the shirt, and on went the electrodes. She started the eeg and when finished helped me with my shirt. And off she went. My family was there all the while in that room with me. Its like the bible I always have witness or as I call the Riley clan with me lol My scottish friend was rolling out of the room, I was being assisted into my wheel chair by my brother and my wife and Dr R’s head nurse S, came into the door closed it and stood with her back against it and said, We need you to stay, we have made calls and want to get more tests done while you are here. I said no, I said I am too tired and I do not have my afternoon medication, she tried to convince me and my family tried to get me to sway, I said thanks I will come back next week. She said okay and sprinted out of the room, I said c’mon lets go. We left the exam room, I sware to God I was leaning left in the chair, so weak. When all of a sudden I heard something and Dr. R was coming down the hall full seam ahead. I saw him look at my family and went to his knees once again, he put his hand on my left arm and said please Dan we want you to stay, I went through the whole I will come back next week thing , I don’t have my meds, my family had to go to work they have not eaten, I was tired. My family asserted once again that it was okay that they would call in to work. Dr R. said we have made all of the arrangements necessary and our radiologist at brigham and womens was staying as late as he had to accomodate me. He said we have all the medications you need in our unit we have meds for occasions like this he said okay:) Then he said why don’t you get a bite to eat and S, meaning his head nurse will see you in a while. I said okay and he patted my arm and smiled. It was yet another Miracle. There are mericales like this happening daily in our hospitals and doctors offices, we are a Blessed country. and at times fail to see them for what they are. God’s people are loving,compassionate and giving.
BTW, my ekg came back with a strange rythmn like there were two heart beats and that is because as my test was being done, and it was a stall tactic, my sister who was so devestated was holding my hand thus two heart beats . Just beauitful !
I am exhausted and need to stop for the moment. I will continue to write from this point tomorrow.
God Bless you, and thank you God for everything that give us all. Amen.
I came upon this video after completing my blog entry today and after reciting the Chaplet of Divine Mercy. Thats God showing he is in the moment once again. when you hear what father Clifford has to say you too will understand 🙂
Please watch and listen this video it is 7 minutes long and it is amazing. Amen to this! I choose to live life God’s way.
Last night while lieing in bed my mind went through the days activities and assessed where God was in it . The moments that we learn something or teach something to one another. Two of brothers and I were together for a brief time today to pay respects to a wonderful young man who tragically passed and his family. During our time together we discussed different things going on in our lives, this world, and our culture.
I finished my evening prayers, and laid there on the twilight edge of sleep and listened for Gods voice or word to inspire and soothe me. Well, he did but it had a hint of sadness to it which made me stir a bit.
God uses things that I understand to allow me to understand What he is saying in any given moment to me. It is the same for all of you as well.The Holy Spirit is working with us always. There is a response/ psalm that is used in my church from time to time which stepped forth in my mind and I could hear it but the word and implication was different.
This is the whole song version , so it is longer than the verson we use at my church. It is haunting, and what God was saying to me last night was why have so many in this world abandoneded him at the foot of the cross? Is it good that we wander off to face the wolves alone? I do not think so. Life can be challenging.
here it is.
Responsorial Psalm 22:
Dandan Soy
God is our protection and there are forces darker in the world that would want us hopeless. I strongly feel that if had not stayed stay at the foot of the cross with Jesus during my life It would have been impossible for God to heal me and build me up one again, my heart was open and hopeful. Like a branch that falls from that the tree I would be dead not just physically but more importantly I believe that i would be eternally dead in my soul.
So, I needed to share this with you all. I know it sounds heavy, but to me it is.
I want to always be honest in all my writing irregardless of how fantastic it sounds. bacause God knows the hows, why’s and whens. We just need to say yes.
Enjoy this next video, I love it
This video was shot in the ruins of the colisseum where meny Christians were killed by the lions just for amusement and because of their religious beliefs. Remember Daniel and the lion den?
Amazing Grace II Divo
my next blog will re in reference to Beginning treatment at Dana farber.
Before I begin, I would like you please pray for a wonderful young man and his family. Scott was a beautiful young man. God Bless and hold them all always. Amen.
Thank you.
During my Cursillo retreat weekend in October of 1999 my eyes we opened to the world of Christian music. I was very familiar with church hymns etc but was totally unaware of this beautiful form of music.
Even after all these years it just amazes me how much beautiful Spirit inspired music there is. It is a very important part of our lives when we become aware of it.
Just Danny Speaks 