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Brotherly Love And That of My Siblings

30 Friday Jan 2015

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I WILL BE MY BROTHERS KEEPER

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=m5Npnsag5nQ

 

I love my siblings, thankyou for all that you have always done for me. You are bricks in my foundation. .:)

I was blessed in this life with 3 brothers, 2 are older than me and 1 have one that is younger. My parents had 5 children the eldest being my sister and then us four guys. I was 3rd out of 4 boys.

My second brother and I are Irish twins and are separated by only 9 months.

We as younger brothers had our typical stuff we rumbled, wrestled  and whacked each other. We  took the house apart as we raced the hallway skidding and tackling one another. It was liked the wild west early on. My mom and dad did what they needed to and got the reigns on all of us very early on.. My mom was not a shrinking violet. She was as smart as a whip and had a true second sense. She knew and felt anything regarding her entire family. She would often say, I don’t know, I have a funny feeling. One night my brother went out and  when he returned early in the am around 2 ish  my brother no sooner quietly came in the rear door but my mom said S. Are you okay what happened? She had woken up and knew he had an accident with her car. She just always knew stuff.

At times it was difficult to be her kid because she was so darn intuitive. 🙂 thank God for my mom .

My brothers and I are All different and yet we are all the same. God’s design for families is perfect despite our imperfections. You know, It is said that you can pick your friends but you cannot pick your family.

I do not think that this  is a sentiment that applies to my brothers and sister or for yours either. Sure there were times in my younger days that I may of felt that way  to a certain degree. They are as imperfect as I am  so why should there not be a little conflict?

As we get older and hopefully wiser we grow and get more comfortable in our own skin at that point sibling rivalry can find a back seat to the true sibling relationship.

You know young guys so often wear masks. We cover up our feelings and act cool even though inside we are filled with fear, doubts and insecurity. As 1 out of 4 boys in my home in that day, we were all different with different likes and abilities. So at times one boy out shined the others. In time each one of us boys had our own moments in the sun as we learned what it was that we excelled at.

All the while my mom and dads support and guidance would keep us in check. They demanded for us to respect and not to degrade one another. They had zero tolerance for that nonsense.

My parents complimented us when it was justified but did not give false praise. My mom and dad knew that we could not all get the same awards and trophy. Some made the honor roll some did not. My mom and dad did not apologize for celebrating one siblings award if we too did not receive it. That’s was life. We had to deal with that.

You know that type of upbringing was very healthy. As we got older the true green monster of jealousy and competition between us stayed in a very healthy place. My brothers and I were all involved at one point in a family business that the four of us purchased and we had  many good years together in. The best part of that business though not perfect was creating a start up with my brothers. my parents hard work paid off as they watched their boys work in unison to make a dream come true. It was in that moment that each one of used our different strengths and combined them to make 1 very beautiful,professional , and consumer satisfaction based family business.

John Lennon

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=oxphDGam5Rw

Each one shined with their own gifts. We all lined up and ego and competition did not rule the day. These are moments that I will always cherish.

Over the years my younger brother decided that he had realized another dream for himself and he moved on from the business, we had grown substantially and he frankly was tired of doing his daily job.

The bottom line is this, families need to support one another. I know its hard when your younger to see and appreciate this fact  but if you can it will make the adult years together all the better. And, as you then have the next generation of family members they too can learn lessons from watching how you relate to your siblings.

LEAN ON ME.

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=N5jlPL1tNDY

When I became ill with cancer it was a true shocker here  in this house and all of my families home too. I was absolutely a massive doer.My feet and hands never stopped. I was everywhere doing stuff for everybody. I would hit the bed and fall asleep and would awake in the morning with no alarm and get out of bed with a song in my heart to start the day.

When, I could no longer be me 3 years ago, my song and life  lost its beat and my family and friends became my new song.

My brothers and my sister who I will write about soon just started a new song for me one of love, compassion and understanding. They knew Danny the sibling well because they had been part of my personal psalm #139 . They are part of the fabric of my life.

There has been nothing that they have not done here at my home from huge amounts of yard work, painting,  repairs, cleaning etc. They know how I lived and how things bother me. My dad’s very fussy even at the age of 87 . I am the same as my dad in that regard.

My family has driven me hundreds if not thousands of miles for treatments, mystery rides to get me/us out. If I looked kind of ratty or they thought it would perk me up they shopped with their coupons and got me things that they thought would make things nice. My sister was doing shopping at stores for all natural foods for me to have to build my immune system up.

My sister in law called and she showed up to remove my hair that was falling out from the treatment. I never asked, I was just cleaning the hair strainer in the shower and cleaning the hair up off of the bathroom floor . But, she thought it would be better and N was right. By us removing the hair it took the power of that side effect away. It became my choice.

I will continue with this soon.

I WILL BE THERE

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=Xg2vMrDzoXM

Went with the wind.

29 Thursday Jan 2015

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Well the snow is gone for the moment. I really enjoyed having the kids around during the storm unable to go anywhere. It was fun. Moments that are few and far between these days with my wife and kids schedules being what they are. I was happy  that we could all just be here together. And, I know many of your families enjoyed this time as well.

Fortunately my wife and kids got milk and bread and we did not lose power so it was not bad at all. 🙂

It’s funny, there is so little on television that my family will watch these days. I keep saying to my wife lets get rid of the cable. My wife keeps saying let’s get rid of the phone. We just get junk calls. Our friends and family have our cell #

It seems like life has gotten so much more expensive. When I was a kid we had free tv ,we did not have cell phones, or personal computers. These days, everything costs us monthly. And yes, some technology is good. But not all.

I have spent a whole lot of time alone here over the last almost 3 years.

I would look to find something to watch and kill a little time. I could not read and pray 24 hours a day. :).

My son has Netflix so I watched a few things there too. I sought out things from my childhood, movies etc. It was interesting seeing what was on tv back in the day. Often things were much different to see  as an adult then with a child’s perspective. I was like God no wonder my parents would not watch them with me. They were very corny. I remember watching bat man and thinking gosh I could see things now that as a child I  does not notice. Like the jokers mustache that is under all the caked on makeup.

Although corny,these old shows did have a positive message. It created role models for the kids, the hero’s . 🙂

So many of the shows today are not like that. The subject matter today for the kids is pretty terrible. Everything is heavy duty I think for kids. Kids cannot be just kids anymore.

F.TRoop. very funny.

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=xW8zpeqfEy4

Netflix was good with older series. It also had good Christian movies when you searched that term and they popped right up.

My brother and I were talking one evening probably 6 months  ago and he told me about the station’s up tv, cozy tv and ME tv which has classic tv shows. So, I found them and have found some good shows and some that I had never actually watched before.

Yes, some of these shows are a little corny but they were well intentioned and humorous without the vulgarity, sleeze and they Don’t insult you like so many of the programs do today.

I just recently found the Carol Brunette show. I heard of it years back but never had watched it. I think my grand parents use to watch her.

Like I say, we need healthy diversions in our lives. So keep laughing.

Carol Brunette the kidnapping.

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=ojMFk18Z0Bs

Went with the wind. 🙂

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=pjUYw2HKB7o

 

FUNNY OLDER MAN LAUGHING.

if this does not make you laugh, nothing will. 🙂 I have a nephew that can laugh like this. He brings such joy to our lives.

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=tkH1uldKg1A

God Bless You,

Danny

I Saw God Today

26 Monday Jan 2015

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For Anne and Family:

Still Hillsong United.  Still.

 

 

I have become accustomed to seeking God out daily particularly since my cancer diagnosis. I had searched for him prior to cancer. But that diagnosis made my personal relationship so much more authentic and more substantial.

I think life can be very confusing, when we know God our personal decisions become easier but we still battle with our own thoughts on a given matter, or we are swayed by our upbringing of how we were thought and finally we have emotions that do not want us to do the right thing. I have learned that we are best when we die to self and do as Jesus would do and show love even in a unlovable situation.

I had the opportunity to speak to a friend yesterday, I would ask you to please pray for A.K.  Anne too suffers from the same diagnosis that I was diagnosed with. She has currently out lived the doctors diagnosis. But, she is apparently now unable to speak and is basically laying in bed.

I told her family friend C yesterday as we spoke. That God’s got Anne and he know where she is at. I also told C. That Anne is not a victim she is a beautiful teacher as she lies there she is showing her loved ones the way of the cross, she is allowing others to serve and learn.

Now, does anyone want to see our loved ones in Anne’s situation ? No.

But, the bottom line is this, God users all situations to help us all.

The final thing I would say is this through personal experience.

Anne could rally and turn around if that is  God’s will. I was very ill and God has pulled me out from my illness for the moment. God has his reason for this. Its not because I am a Saint either.

So, where there is life there is hope and if Anne is called by God, guess what .Anne’s hope is not dashed. God’s got her and she will be reunited with all of her loved ones.

Having lost my mom a year and 1/2 ago, I understand every moment of the vigil and emotions that go when we are loving our dear ones until they take the Lord’s hand.

So, I do not take lightly the difficult process for the family members.

It would be great to just have days of beauty, of joy of moments filled with endless possibilities but that is not life here. We have situations that are out of our control that can dictate where our lives, emotions and hopes will go.

That’s why seeing  through the eyes of faith makes all the difference in the world. We can see the hope regardless of the situation.

So again, Please keep Anne in your prayers. I will perhaps someday give you more information on the person that she is. She has brought much joy to many of the year’s. A gift from God him self. This song suits Anne well, she her….

I Saw God Today-George Strait(With Lyrics)

WRONG NUMBER. laughter is so good for us.

24 Saturday Jan 2015

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In our lives we need to laugh I know that this is a common theme on my blog but the reason is because it is so true. We as a society are very much challenged by our days and all of the sadness that is around us. News, regular life stuff.

We need the balance of laughter to make life joyous. So my attempt to bring humor to my blog here is to show the different types out there. They may not be your style so look for what is and laugh. It makes a big difference in your day. It chemically changes your mood too naturally. God made us wonderfully. Amen.

 

 

Wrong Number with Carol Burnette

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=YCtZu7r6Xyk

Carol Burnett  no frills airline

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=QCz8he36hsk

 

Carol BURNETT

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=ITM0cU3GlZ8

Carol BURNETT

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=LUKYH3jtDMM

 

Young man on pain meds in hospital. Very funny.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WSUs0LhYMaU

 

God Bless You,

Danny

 

WHAT A DIFFERENCE A DAY MAKES.

23 Friday Jan 2015

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I had to laugh last night when I was sitting in my chair talking to my brother by phone about life in general I said that I felt so much better. The last two and 1/2 weeks have been my most difficult physically and emotionally that I have ever had. As I wrote during the last two weeks exactly how I felt. Being real in the moment is what it takes to be honest and to help anyone who reads this blog.

I spoke to my  physical therapy practice today, I have not been there  for 3 weeks and my insurance is denying my treatment now. So tomorrow , I will be on the horn to try and get  that decision changed. In the meantime , I have my son setting up my tread mill for my use because I have lots of time to make up for and muscle that needs to be built.

My mind is clear, my resolve is back, it’s about feeding myself.

My action plan is this…

1.) I need to feed myself  spiritually. I need to be grateful to God daily.

2.) I need to feed my body with great nutrition. Low fat, low sugar, and balanced carbs.

3.) I need to step onto the treadmill everyday no matter how I am feeling and walk for as long I can walk. No excuses.

4.) I need to love myself and cannot look at my current physical level of ability and appearance and dislike myself.

YOU KNOW,

God is fully aware of how I feel whether I verbalize it or not. He knows where I am at even better than I do.

But, what he does expect me to do in this moment is to accept this situation, to continue to try and bring my new vision of myself to fruition with positive action all the while knowing that I am called to love myself. GOD expects us to greet each day with hope and a overwhelming sense that God is meeting us and bringing us to where we are to go. We need to show up, for him to work with us.

So, I will begin Danny training again tomorrow and see where I am as we go, I will do my own therapy Danny style as well at Casa del Danny. 🙂

For the record , I must say my physical therapist has never denied me service and I truely love them. I just feel unable to go and take advantage of any one. They are my dear friends and I cannot do that .

So, I will again try the doctors once again tomorrow and insurer and see what happens. I feel so great again, I am on the mountain top ready to go once again.

As I was talking to my brother this evening and said how great I was feeling and

I had  to laugh because a song from my grandmother’s era came into my head and kept playing. Lol    My grandmother was inspiring me and helping me along my road . 🙂

So hear it is..

 

How true these words are. When we are down, just wait, things will right themselves. Hope is abounding if we believe.

WHAT A DIFFERENCE A DAY MAKES.

THANKS NANA ILENE 🙂 xoxo

 

Dinah Washington

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=OmBxVfQTuvI

AND HOW ABOUT THIS ONE? You’ve  got to smile. 🙂

Tomorrow Annie

http://m.youtube.com/#/watch?v=5PzL8aL6jtI

 

God Bless You,

Danny

What Faith Can Do. Miracles/Everything.

22 Thursday Jan 2015

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God is good.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EPRFqGNuMfY

Boy talks with God sad but beautiful. This little boys parent have done something very right. Amen.

Faith = God.  God= Miracles. Amen

Catholic Miracles. 

Incorruptables, God’s Glory!

What Faith Can Do Cutlass

 

God Bless You,

Danny

KANSAS And DR. MICHAEL DAVIDSON. BRIGHAMS AND WOMENS

21 Wednesday Jan 2015

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Kansas

Good morning, today, I was up at 5:30 and the cold that has been on me for over two weeks seems to finally be leaving. I am very grateful for this.

Last night was a busy night here with my youngest daughter getting her next semester of college underway. It was good stuff though. I got into bed and began my evening prayer and was looking out of the skylight at the very black sky. It was  like a blank black canvas devoid of any stars. Not a typical night sky.

I was laying there thinking about the day and all that went Into it. I saw some news, as always it seems to be increasingly more depressing.

The story of that day that I found so very sad was the murder of Dr. Michael Davidson at Brigham and Women’s Hospital. I cannot accurately answer the question of why a person would ever hurt  a doctor who is attempting to save lives. Clearly ,the perpetrator had to have been mentally imbalanced. But it is still tragic for everyone especially his family.

During my writings on this blog, I have covered my relationship with my doctors and all of my health Care providers. I as a patient love them as far as I am concerned they are on my team seeking the best outcome for me that they humanly can provide.

That’s right I did say humanly.  Doctors  are just people like us and are subject to everything that we are. I detailed in my writing months ago about the loss of my son Brad Michael that there was an issue with the suctioning technique while removing fluid from his lungs, which triggered his cardiac arrest. After Brad passed from those complications of that error. I made the comment with the Doctors , Now what do we do? They looked at my wife and myself and looked a little worried. I realized my words were not well selected for that moment but I / we were in shock over his loss.

I looked into their eyes and realized the reality of the moment and said , no,no I am not blaming you. I know how hard you worked on Brads behalf. I was just talking out loud about my wife and I being able to pick up the pieces and going on.

After I said that they understood it was my mind trying to keep the situation in a place where emotions can be watched carefully. I was trying to lead my wife through this horrific emotional loss.

You see, Dr.s are amazingly gifted individuals who have a very special calling, they have the same problems that we do but they also feel the weight on their shoulders when it comes to aspect of human life.

For instance, could you imagine waking up on a beautiful April morning going into the hospital as my doctor did and having to then drill into My skull ( his patients)  and then to put a probe deep into my brain to get a biopsy sample of the tumor to grade my cancer  with his hands knowing that one slip could kill me his patient? I could never have done that. And you know , I as the patient understood that there were no guarantees. The only thing that we can rely on is the fact that God, the author of life is there with us.

So, God Bless Dr. Michael Davidson and family may they be comforted by God in this moment.

Also, let us pray for that man that perpetrated this desperate and horrible act. He and his family need prayers now too.

Dr. Michael Davidson

https://commonhealth.wbur.org/2015/01/davidson-brigham-bio

Gratitude Nicole Nordeman

God Bless,

Danny

THE KISS

20 Tuesday Jan 2015

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I AM THE BREAD OF LIFE.  John Michael Talbot

What I truely have missed the last two weeks while being sick Is being able to attend mass in my parish church.. During the  Roman Catholic mass the beauty of the mass opens like a flower before your eyes through prayer, song and scripture and  during the mass we believe that Heaven opens up and joins us in our celebration of the last supper table and its narrative. The priest or Deacon will then say the sacred words that will change the common wine and common unlevin bread through the Eucharistic Miracle, into the  body and blood of Christ.

Like Fr R says, if you want to see a Miracle it’s happening every time you attend mass . I do believe that. I feel the presence of Heaven with me at that moment and as I mentioned in my writing a few days back that at times my mind can wander during mass particularly if I am tired but when that beautiful part of the mass begins I am pulled out of my mind wandering back to the heart of Christ and his life giving gift known as the KISS. /  EUCHARIST as a reminder of what he did and that Jesus considers us his brothers and sisters, we are not the sinners that we could truely be seen as but as part of his father’s ( GOD) family AMEN.

When you recognize that the mass becomes part of the last supper narrative by useing Jesus words. We are united as one. It is a beautiful symbolism that takes a historic event from thousands of years ago and makes us one with our ancestors of faith 1 eternal community.

THE LAST SUPPER SCENE

 

So remember this the next time you sit in your parish church. You were chosen by God to be there.

The alter of marble, wood ,and is equipped with fine chalice s and linen was originally set for us all. We are all around that alter/ table United with Christ. HOW AWESOME IS THAT!

Sweet Sacrament Divine.

Eucharistic Miracles and there are many !

Science Test Faith :Eucharistic Miracle

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vz9L2EYjjsc

The mass is available on television and online , so I/ we can still spiritually connect and be fed when we cannot attend our church. Eucharistic ministers are available to bring the  consecrated Eucharist to your home so to can receive this blessed gift. Call your local parish if need be.

I am fortunate also that the Blessed Eucharist is brought home for me.Amen.

 

But nothing replaces being right there in church.

God Bless You.

Danny

 

 

DR. Martin Luther King Jr.

19 Monday Jan 2015

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Happy Martin Luther King Jr. DAY

I believe this became a National Holiday back when I was in grade school. He was an amazing man that was for sure fighting without violence to have his people who are just like us except they had a deeper skin pigment. Dr. King was seeking out the equality that given to all men despite their skin color by our creator, God. DR. King  had a calling and a mission that he  lived. God called a Dr King answered that call.  DR. King died in the process but I assure you his Spirit lives on today.  He was and is a hero. Amen.

Dr. King was a noble and Holy man, so let’s pray for his cause . Let people come together in peace and acceptance, and may those that he fought for stand up and move forward with opportunities that are available to them that at one point were denied. Amen.

What the world needs now.

This is a song from that era.  And we still need it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fahg2q9IrAs

Now, Danny’s world…

Well I have had a cold that began on a day or two after my nieces NewYears Eve wedding. Everyone seems to have it and it takes weeks and boxes of tissues before it leaves. The cough lasts for even longer.

During this time I have had my wife’s 2nd cousin pass away and another friend that has Gleo that I reached out to support and I never received a  response back. I have to assume that the fight is hard and she does not have it in her to call . So, I accept that and  have begun to pray even harder for her and her family. Please pray for A. And her family as well. Thanks

When you are in a situation like I find myself currently ( trying  to start anew ) having pushed myself to get my 5 foot 11″ body to gain a small step forward . I have by the grace of God rallied back every inch of person gain is held sacred to me . And when you  are knocked off stride and  have downtime like a cold that knocks you off your feet . I finding it difficult to get up and go again. When I stop moving my body starts losing strenght and ability quickly. Muscles that took a long time to build and stamina that I was beginning to see return seems to have been lost.

Well cutting to the chase, along with this cold has meant since New Year’s I have been in the house everyday. I have not even attended mass. I have not received confession either.

The point being this, life is rough. Sometimes we have too much time on our hands and  the evil one wants to pull you down. What has been so important to me during this time was the lesson that God and life has taught me over the last nearly 3 years.  That our faith walk and prayer life are  truely life giving, mind saving, and allows God to save us, renew us and give a peace and hope through the guidance of the Holy Spirit.

This afternoon as I sat in my chair I received a phone call from a dear friend R. I told her where I was at and how hard it is in this time for me to keep smiling. She has had  her own challenges in this  life too.

R. Spoke words of the heart about my life, what I do to help others, and that the blog was important for many because it expresses the reality of what so many of them are going through.

Those words that R. spoke were not solicited by me. But, where exactly what I needed to hear in that moment and served as a reminder that this blog is about others as well and that as I said if it helps others thats all that truely matters to me.

With those words , I got off the chair and went into the shower. During my shower I sat on my bench and made the water hotter. I wanted to feel. The water was pouring over me and I felt the heat, my sences and body aware of the moment that I was in and the fact that I needed to choose once again to accept this situation as a temporary situationon my road. So, I took that corner and will see where it goes.

Come Holy Spirit.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HTbJmCTqgkg

I then told God that I am using this water as a reminder of my baptismal water.

Finally I said a prayer and got out of the shower.

You know, I mentioned that I have not gotten out to church in 2 weeks and have not been to confession for even longer than that. It was actually right before Christmas if memory serves me that I made my confession. Sure, I tell God all the time that I am sorry for the stipid stuff I think,say and do. I just love the sacrament of reconciliation.

For me during my shower God met me where I was at and while in prayer  I was given the revelation that although I was in a Spiritual dessert without church and my Holy friends there.

 

 

I came to release that God has been so good to me because my relationship with God is father and son, my relationship to Jesus is he is my brother who saved me and you.

And lastly ,

I have my best friend the Holy Spirit who is many things to me, my counselor, heavenly messanger. The Holy Spirit is capable of only good works, and only teaches us the ways of Heaven.  Amen.

Fernando Ortega – I Need Thee Every Hour

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DUXM6pOvkVw

God Bless You,

Danny

A Doctors Message, Delivered.

16 Friday Jan 2015

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I have been sitting here for nearly 3 years with one of the most magnificent experiences that I have ever personally experienced and witnessed.  It was GOD IN ACTION.

I need not give out the doctors name for he too is reading this blog. I have waited until I felt God wanted it to be shared for his glory. What God wanted him to know was delivered by the Holy Spirit.

Shortly after my diagnosis, I was called to a doctor’s office to be seen. I knew this doctor over the years I would visit him for medical care. As I have stated before I had to be dragged to a doctor. My wife is tough like that. 🙂 And looking back ,how foolish I was.

 

Jeremy Camp, This is my Desire.    How true these words are Amen !

Well, I arrived and the nurse I would generally meet with there  was all set to go. She smiled as she came down the hall. I got up with my walker in front of me and began making silly jokes as I followed her. A defense mechanism of sorts.

She escorted me into the exam room and did blood pressure and pulse stats etc. She chatted with me as she helped me with my clothing.

 

She is a wonderful professional. She is compassionate and if you have eyes of faith you can see Jesus in her. Her beautiful eyes were watering , she knew me and I was pretty beaten up looking. But I was still smiling like it’s no big deal. People are always  trying to figure how someone in such peril could be so joyful. It is the peace of Christ not me. I am a fractured person for sure.

I have had people say to me well I am glad that you aren’t afraid of death, and you look forward to dieing. I have to then set that record straight with them.

I love life, I love my family and would love to be here for a very long time. As humans we are creatures of what we know, we believe we are important to each other and want to ride shotgun in our loved one life’s to protect them. My kids will always be my kids whether they are 3 or 93. My wife will always be my girl from the grocery store that I married when we were both 24. She is mine eternally.

The reality of my life situation is this, for years I walked around calling on God trying to find him. I did not always feel him but as I learned he was always with me. He was making me work at my relationship with him. You cannot learn without struggle and  adversity. Well along came cancer and in the exact moment of diagnosis. God revealed himself to me and peace has been the order of the day in my life. His peace, not mine.

Train Calling on all angels.

B left the room and within a minute there was a soft kinock on the wood door. In came my doctor he wanted to make sure that I would keep him  involved with my treatment regimen. I told him sure, and I then authorized that action with my Dr. R. ( cancer oncologist)  I thanked him for his care over many years, when I actually showed up for appointments.

He stood a few feet away and asked how are you ? The sorrow was on his face, I could see it. I said I was fine.  By this time he worked his way towards the foot of the bed looking at my face with his clipboard in hand. He was about 5 feet away.

If you remember my writing about Spiritual events of the Holy Spirit at both Lahey Clinic and Dana Farber well the Divine Spirit of God as I call it took that room and ministered to that doctor. He was so shocked but stood there staring at me , I told him things about his ministry work as a doctor. God used my mouth and the Holy Spirits message to tell the Dr. about how pleased he was of him and his patient care. At one point my doctor said my God , it is the Holy Spirit and Dan is a messanger. The Holy Spirit said yes and conversed with him, meanwhile I was so touched by the Love that God had for him I was crying.

Well, the doctor was beginning to cry and said excuse me, the door opened and he left the room and his nurse  B. was standing there with eyes swollen red with tears she entered the room and tried to keep her emotions in check. She then helped me dress. She obviously was waiting to dress me and heard my booming voice inside the room while standing in the hall. The Holy Spirit spoke a few very beautiful words to her too.

With that B left and my Dr. Came back in and said Dan, whatever you our your wife need please let me know. I mean anything. He was so sincere in his offering and I just remember being embraced by the Love and overflowed with tears once again. I said I am okay, its only joy overwhelming me. I said please pray for me and I will pray for you and your family. Well , I had been useing  lots of tissues by this point  and he went to leave and shake my hand and I sad no Dr, my hand is germy.  Can I have a hug?   He learned over and gave me a beautiful brotherly hug. As he left the room he had his hand on the door and it was half opened he gave me a big smile and came back to me and shook my hand. It was a very beautiful moment that I will never forget. I started down the hallway with my walker and greeted and smiled at everyone as I went.  Word had spread to everyone there that something Heaven sent was happening there.

It was not  me, it was God saying to everyone of us, I love you and I am here. God expects us to rely on him. Miracles are God’s gifts to us an they happen everyday.

Now, I do not think that I have touched on this complete story before  but with 209 plus blog entries thus far, I may have appeared or been eluded to before this writing.

What happened  that day to that office and its staff the whole building  was nothing less than a Spiritual explosion you could feel and see the  love. It was a Miracle that built up a lot of foundations of faith for sure.

I had not seen this doctor or staff for over 2 years since that date until recently and I will tell you about that appointment very soon.

Third Day – “I Need A Miracle” (Official Lyric Video)

 

God Bless You,

Danny

My next post will be Monday 🙂