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Age to age , Suicide And Throwing Out The Life Line.

08 Monday Sep 2014

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There is a question that seems to go from Age to Age and generation to generation. It Is … this,

Doesn’t every generation think that the world is losing moral and societal footing. My grand parents did, my parents did, and I am now of the age that I too would have to agree with some aspects of their obversations. They saw it in their day’s and I am seeing it  personally in our lives today. To me years ago my nana and papa were awesome but at that time I was young and when they expressed their concerns seeing what they were seeing in society I figured they were squares and old fashioned. I then watched my mom and dad go through the process of saying that this world was just getting so terrible as they watched their world changing. Well, now it is my turn and I am Watching the direction that society is taking. Guess what?  I see it going in the same direction down hill.

It seems like society is on a voyage to the bottom of the sea! Pretty scary.

Flash forward 30 plus years at I now  look at elements in this world and say OMG, what is going on? I understand why my grand parents said what they said, why my parents said what they said too. I believe that once I began to have children, I began to notice things that were happening with more accuracy.

I understand that times change and “time marches on”, as they say. New technologies have come about to advance and inhance our lives, Heck, I benefitted from these things during my treatment for cancer, I also am benefitting from technology through this blog to spread God’s good news for all of us, but the flip side is the  amount of crap that is prevading our culture, country and world. The kids are being exposed to so much graphic sexual stuff images and language in this culture etc. Foul, foul language, the dumbing down of society as I see it.  Their is domestic violence, broken families,shootings, robberies and murders. We have one scandal after another in government from the top right down to local government, who is telling the truth, who do we trust with our lives? You know,  my feeling is that we will reep what we all sew as a people. As far as the motto that ” time marches on” goes,  Its my opinion,  looking at what is going in in the weather, globally, disease, wars, all the starving  people in this world that we have walked away from God and stopped caring for our brothers in need. I guess that time is marching us off a cliff. Back to tecnology for a second.  Not all technology is good either,  when do you unplug? Sometimes I wish that cell phones and email would end for a least a day or so to allow people to un plug and get reacquainted with oneanother. It is a sad day when neighbors do not know eachother and you cannot eat dinner or take time away without the world barging in. There is always a text coming  and every tv has urgent breaking news! Where is the time for prayer in our lives to listen to God ? We are in a prayer dessert as a country. With music constantly pounding in the background. I don’t get it, thats for sure!

God created us all with free will and desires our relationship with him.The Holy Spirit is working as the Guide for our personal good and for the good of society. Yet so many people are dead to the Spirit of God.

Meanwhile, I have written and said to many people that I know personally that I believe that If your not in God trying to grow towards perfection with him that you are open to fall for the liar ( devil ) and fall for all that he offers (nothing but pain suffering and your loss of your eternal soul.) and accept that everything that we do is okay. There are no boundaries and when struggle or adversity comes to us , and it will,  that you do not have the faith and strenght through God to get ya through.We cannot save ourselves. When darkness comes God brings the light and joy through Jesus Christ. He is the way the truth and the life.  We are then healed.

So, I now really feel that my grandparents were not square nor  that my parents were  incorrect in saying what they said back in their day. They were sick and worried about their children and grandchildren. I see it and feel it now myself. I do worry for my kids and their kids that they too will hold up and stand in the storm of life with a society who is less supportive of Godly values.

Finally today, I would like to touch on a topic. The topic is Suicide. Hopelessness that reaches a point that causes some poor souls to a tragic action. I do not care where a person comes from, money, poverty etc. I am by no way a professional on this topic but have heard and seen so much tradgedy in my life. Suicide knows no age, it can be caused by depression,drug, alcohol and chemical imbalances of their bodies. People lose hope. It is again my personal feeling that,  no loved one or friend is to blame when this tradgedy occurs to their loved one. It is often seems to comes from out of the blue.

Every life is very precious, we need to watch the people in our lives, familiy, friends, co workers etc and get them a lifeline of hope and to get the help they need if they are in trouble. God did not intend for us to be defeated. He conquers all. Another thing that I grappled with when I was younger was, the idea that if someone committed  such an act of suicide that they were destined for hell. Some faiths teach/taught that.

I personally could not accept this so I did seek the knowledge of a dear friend of my faith who was a bible scholar. I loved this man he was in his late 70’s at this time  and I was maybe 35 ish. My friend L was posed this question during my bible study with my group. He was always thoughtful, prayerful and measured in his response. My friend B called him sensi. lol  He said to me as he ran his fingers along the edge of his bible No, only God can judge such a thing and said that He knows the heart of the person and where they were psychologically at the moment that they acted. I felt the truth of that resonnate with me. As always, God knows all and is the just judge. I just realize how tender we all are and how fragile we all are. We are all broken so we need encouragement along our journey. God is my capitan and I am a passenger on his bus of life. Just seeing where he is taking me next. Amen.

 

God bless you all !

Danny

 

Rascal Flats   Why

Hillsong Age to Age

 

There is nothing so dire in life that cannot be figured out you are all very loved. !

A very important resource link.

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

The beauty of being in a storm.

07 Sunday Sep 2014

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The Beauty Of The Storm:

I had the pleasure of going with my wife and son to my wife’s company outing to Kimballs Farm in Westford today. It was very hot and the threat for thunderstorms were a possibility according to the newscasters.

Well, off we went with sunny skies and arrived to the outing, it is a very beautiful place so being outside even in the heat was fine. We were greated by my wifes bosses, employee’s and their guests. Year after year it proves to be such a nice gathering. One of the nicest groups of people that I have ever met. God blessed my wife with her employer and co-workers. She is so happy. Which, only makes me more happy and grateful.

There was a barbeque running, with a huge ice cream bar. Alway’s amazing. We felt the breeze pick up and we all were saying how good it felt. Kimballs has huge weather proof tents and tables so we were not sitting in the sun. Well within a half hour of that  beautiful breeze’s arrival nature let loose with lightening, torential rain and thunder. We, were all dry and actually stayed dry in the hearvy duty tents. It was wild . The smell of the rain was just so beautiful. Everything smelt so good. It smelt like trees and earth.The rain cleared out about one hour after it began, there was actually a tonado warning issued for where we were. When it was over, we hit the road for home. I said to my wife and son when we got into the car, I hope we got that rain at home and they agreed it has been a little dry lately.  On approach to our home before our exit off the highway there is a movie theatre. I saw that the far end of the parking lot was flooded. It must be pitched that way to keep the cars from sitting in it. I was so happy because I knew that we too benefited from the rain as well.

We all need the rain in our lives no matter what form that it takes. Water and adversity purifies us all.

My final thought that I would like to say yet again is that we need to acknowlege and be grateful to those in our lives daily that make life a beautiful experience. They are a gift !

Oceans  Hillsong

Hillsong At The Cross

The Face Of Christ , The Shroud Of Turin

05 Friday Sep 2014

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I mentioned that I had received the face of Christ from a friend in the chapel one rainy night and that my friend was told by the Holy Spirit thay he would get it back when I was healed. As an update to that event. About 4 months ago, I saw F by chance at the church hugged him and said, F God said that when I was healed you would get this back. He looked directly into my eyes and his eyes filled up and I said that this is that time. He wants you to have it back and I took it off, kissed it and  passed it to him he then placed it over his head and kissed it. And we embraced. I am cancer free from the brain cancer and will be going for a scan In a few weeks again to keep at eye on it. But God has got his almighty hands on both you and I all of the time regardless of whatever comes to pass in our lives Soooo

Worry Not ! 🙂

I was down at my church around a year and half ago for a healing service, I stood and prayed with the healing ministers for the sick that were coming in. I at this time was useing a walker. And I remember trying to stand and lean towards the person being prayed over, I wanted the physical contact of my hand to touch that persons shoulder. It was an effort but, God will give you what you need every moment. Well, while I was standing there praying a women walked beside me and stood to the right. I did not focus on who she was. Well, we finished the prayers over the beautiful person who was sitting and being prayed over. So, I looked again at this women to the right of me and she looked stunned and said Danny? I said yes, and then  I said, Oh my God, J. how are you I had not seen her in at least 14 years, she had moved to another town.

She looked at me standing with my walker and said what happened my response was a little cancer. Gods got everything , including my fear 🙂

She looked so distressed , I gave her a hug and asked her what was wrong, she said it is really weird but, I feel like  I can talk to you. You see , she was in that church that night for a reason as was I. Our personal psalm #139 put us there by God’s design. An intersection in life.

She said that she had been in her church on Ash Wednesday and God spoke directly to her that she would be given the gift of healing through Jesus and would see peoples desease’s. She looked so scared, my reaction was, I know its God my Spirit was resonating inside telling me of the truth. She said that as part of this calling was to create plaster art work and they are given to people that God had intended them for with scripture passages attached. Many were people that she did not know.

She also has 5 or 6 kids and they were so frightened as to what she was suddenly compelled to do. You see, she had never done art work before and was suddenly a master at it. I told her I understood because of how God was useing me as well. He uses all of us by the way 🙂 So, I think that she had a lot of peace before she left the church that evening.

So any way’s 🙂 , fast forward maybe 3 weeks or so from that night, my front door bell rang at like 6:30 a.m. on a Sunday morning and I could not get up and move that quicky, my wife was laying there half in a coma from all of her hours of work. We heard a vehicle pull away. About 45 minutes later the phone rang and we did not recognize the number so I did not answer. I fell asleep and when I awoke I took the phone and saw that there was a message. I listened to it and I found that it was J, the women from the church.

One thing that I need to say to set up this miracle was this, I did not sleep well that night a lot of Spiritual warfare was taking place and I began to pray to God and was complaining about my  life.  I was bellying acheing about everything!, a good old fashioned pitty party. That was around 3:00 am and at 4 am I began to do my Holy Rosary and I believe that it has saved my life! It calms me and puts me into union with heaven. Amen.

 

Okay, back to J. I called her and when she answered she apologized for coming by so early and calling, She said she had to. I understand that. When God compells you to do something, it must be done!

She told me that she had been woken up by God  at 4:00 am and was told that she needed to get a plaster peice that she made to me right away. She left it between the storm door and was afraid that it might get broken. It was funny when my wife found out that J had called my wife said as I was dialing J back on the phone, maybe she made an art peice for you. I said nahhh. Well, she had.It is beautiful.

My wife ran down to get it before something happened to it, it had a card with it .

When I pulled it out of the bag it was the face of Christ just beautiful! She did not know about F and the medallion ( Face of Christ ) that I had been given in the chapel nor did she know about my vision where I saw the shroud of Turin either.( Jesus face)

Here is the scripture that God gave her for me in that very moment that went with the face of Christ sculpture.

Galatians 2:20King James Version (KJV)

20 I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.

 

Now If that is not God, then what is???????????

The bottom line :

While I struggled with sorrow ,brain cancer and body failure and was thinking about my plight and that of my family the devil was toying with me all night. I retreated to a safe harbor Jesus Christ at 3 am and began to beseech of him what I needed and by 4 a.m. feeling still a little oppressed I called on My Blessed Mother as well. God heard my silent prayer and pleas and answered me immediately. My Blessed mother aided in that as well. I feel her presence and from time to time smell her roses too. Amen. 🙂 I called out to the Lord and J was sent to respond. Thank God, J listened to God’s call. God bless Her !

 

Isn’t life beautiful, my son showed me this. 

God’s gift.

 

The Face Of Christ, The Shroud Of Turin.

 

God Bless You, Danny

We are all one !

27 Wednesday Aug 2014

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I would like to attempt on this blog today to bring up a point. I don’t know all , and do not think for a moment that I do. I got a call late morning from my Friend  P ,the deacon from .N.Y this was on Tuesday morning. He said that he was inflight arriving in Boston on business and wanted to visit for an hour or so. He arrived and we went to a local diner for lunch. God was up to something once again.  We had lunch  and during that time I discussed this blog with him. I explained to him that It was in fact work and due  to all my prayer the Spirit is spilling out so much so quickly. Only God knows why.

I will tell you what God had up his sleeve(  in one moment ), it was very funny. God’s having a lot of fun with me lately. LOL

But first let me get back on point. I have been reminded so many times during prayer that we are all one, under God. Many Churches, many Faiths. I am not a theologian. I just know to me, that  we are one through Christ Jesus.

I have heard remarks over the many years that I have lived that some people are not believers or of the same practicing religion etc. My feeling is, that’s okay. That is their personal opinion. Perhaps God has not broken through to them as of yet so they too can believe. We can all be stubborn during our lifes journey. It is easier to go with the flow than to follow Christ. We live without conscience on so many levels. We live unconvicted so we do what ever we want to do and it is great. But, it is not. It is not for us to judge others either. We need to just live a life that they will see something in us and wonder , What is it  that He or She has ? You want them to see in you what might heal their lives.( God) Remember, with every person we help only God knows how many more people that they may help.

None of us is holier that thou! ( found this on the web)

Holier-than-thou
When a person has taken the moral high-ground or are just up themselves, they are being “Holier-than-thou”. Holier-than-thou literally means, holier than me or better than me.
Just because I made one stupid mistake doesnt mean Britney gets to give me this holier-than-thou attitude!
by Dani October 28, 2005
 
There are many reasons why there are so many churches, and my explanation of why would not be substantial enough or 100 % correct.
 
I will say this though, the church that God built, his church,  was upon his Apostle Peter.The first Pope. The church was filled with people just like us. When you have lots of people in any group religious and otherwise, there will  differences of opinions, in fighting, different interpretations of the bible etc. Feelings get hurt , ego’s get hurt  and in this case the church fragmented and new churches came to be. The orginal church, my church has continued to Spread the Gospel. And help so many. All these churches are following the leader Christ/ God. But we as Christians are  acting like they are on opposing teams. It is very silly.
 
For me, I am faithful to my God and love my church, that is how I was raised and rediscovered for myself later on personally my love of the Catholic Church and its sacraments. I then shared that joy with my family and anyone that I possibly could. I do not care if some one is from a different faith or walk. We do not need to hip check other Christians or anyone else for that matter into the boards. It’s not a game, it’s life.
 
I spoke at great length recently to a friend  who has had very deverse thoughts on all faiths and I thought it was refreshing.
 
Our conversation stemmed out of conversations based in the news. Persecutions of Christians, not being allowed to live their faith. They need to convert their faith to another, pay a fee or be murdered. Sometimes both anyway.
 
Everyone, has their God given right, to be who they were born to be and  to seek and find their God through what ever faith gets them there. In my personal belief due to my upbring, that it is through Jesus Christ that is how we get to our Father, God.
 
I can see the writing on the wall here as well  in this country. God is being pulled from the culture and the bedrock is shifting. .We better stick together as Christians because if we don’t, before long we may be facing the same fate as other Christians world wide..   Remember, we are part of a flock not part of a gang. Evil is on the prowl. And the sheep of the flock are running around not paying attention.
 
 
So, in conclusion,  My friend P took me to my schedules PT appt after lunch. He walked in with me into the office. I wanted to introduce him to my PT staff. He is in the medical field also. I  told P you may see V here today too, he is a deacon also 🙂
 
We walked in and he met everyone, and P saw V they knew eachother and immediately engaged in conversation. They were exchanging information about others and ministry stuff.
Meanwhile, I stood at the glass window of reception and my pt therapist was like hi and smiled you do not have an appointment today and laughed. I stood there and knew God wanted these two men P and V to meet today, that is part of why he came from NY to my PT appt, only God could do this. Paul had business but God added my pt visit to his agenda. God wanted P and V to meet for his reason.:)
 
I came right home grabbed my calander and realized that I was looking at next Tuesdays date by accident. God is awesome. it was a great day.
 
God Bless You All !
 
Danny
 
Video below :
 
I really like Joyce  a lot, I spent alot of time trying to find God early on in my life, I saw her years ago then moved on. I told Father I think that  she is really good. When I became ill with Glio Blastoma , I was stuck here in my chair for along time. I rediscovered Joyce again and she really helped me to make it through this life situation  too. I love who she is and what she does. It is God.
 
Joyce Meyers, God’s Love
 
Please watch ! She even mentions psalm #139, no coincidence. God’s talking. Amen!
 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=09rRLFFzuOE
 

Paul, and FiFi

22 Friday Aug 2014

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I had a wonderful client some years ago, He had what you would imagine you wanted financially in life but he lacked one more important thing, he had a very bad heart disease. He was so kind, he had a lovely wife and little dog FiFi, and small white poodle. It was his baby wheras they were unable to have children.

Paul was in his 40’s when he woke up in the middle of the night soaking wet in the middle of a heart attack. His heart was so badly damaged that he could not be helped. He was now permanently disabled. It was very difficult for him and was warned to stay calm. He was a man of faith, and was a real a gentleman. A man who would  shake hands and make eye contact with you, that type of guy. I know he was suffering from pains in his chest all the time but had to except it and keep living. Again, an inspiration to me. A brick in my foundation.

I remember, talking to Paul about life and stuff but I only pray that I was able to help him. I was so young and I am not sure that I was that great of a witness. I just know that he was a loving and kind man Good to his , wife, mom and dad who were quite elderly too.

Paul was away with his wife mom and dad and stepped out to pick up pizza after a while he had not returned they went out and found him lieing beside his car he had gone out and collapsed. I remember his wife calling me and I visited her and Pauls parents to offer my condolences. Going back to my writing on losing something Sacred , the loss of a child . Pauls mom and dad were devestated, this was there baby that was lost.

We need to validate those we love and let them know daily. I remember these beautiful people and also know that they are with God.

I bet Paul loved this song, To Paul.

The Beach Boy’s  Don’t worry baby.

The barber,homemaker and the rum cake

22 Friday Aug 2014

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Back some years ago I was working in a home of a lovely couple in their late 70’s. He was a barber his entire life after getting out of the service, and she was a wonderful homemaker who raised her beautiful family. She at the time was worried that her home would not be completed before Easter. I assured her there was no problem. During that time, there were no cell phones so I needed to answer a page that I received. They had one phone in their house located in the kitchen to use. So, I asked to use her phone she said of course. So, I called my wife and I must have answered a question about birthday plans, she heard the conversation. I hung up and just said thank you for the use of her phone she was in another room. She apparently pulled my brother B asside when he walked by the room and Bob told her yes my bithday was tomorrow. The next day as we were working , they called me into the kitchen and had a italian rum cake from a bakery with candles lit and sang Happy Birthday to me  with my brother joining in.. Now, is that a God moment or what ?

God bless the Maraglia’s they were angels on Earth.   Salt of the Earth.

For them , in their memory.

Etta James

I know they are dancing to this right now in Heaven

In The Beginning and My first Heavenly Vision/ Vivid Dream.

13 Wednesday Aug 2014

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In The Beginning of true Spiritual awakening of all of us is a long time in the making. We experience different levels of awareness in God, his existence and supreme gift to us all and I m not talking about life 🙂 That is a Miracle in itself.  I am referring to the gift of The Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit as far as I am concerned is our bridge to the Almighty, he facilitates all that is good, he inspires us, he warns us,he allows God to fill us with joy and allows our conscience to feel guilt for a wrong doing.The Holy Spirit will help to bring us to our knees for repentence before our Lord. The Holy  Spirit that dwells within every one of us is God given and works in concert with our desires, needs and to allow us to fulfill our destiny for God and his people. We need to allow The Holy Spirit to work with us. We need to pray for his assistance in a meaningful way. I mentioned this in one of my recent blog writing that I began praying and commiting myself to God and the holy Spirit with my daily shower and telling all of Heaven that the water was my rededication and reminder of my baptismal water. I say daily to God that I surrender myself to whatever he wants from me and tell the Holy Spirit to please use me to the best of my ability. Lastly, I call on all of Heaven through my prayers for all of the Angels and Saints to please bestow on me any gifts of the Spirit that I may need in the future. Heaven is for real.:) This is a very special time that we are living in, a time like no other. It is a time of Miracles, it is a time of God’s pouring out of The Holy Spirit and Spiritural gifts for eachone of us. We all have our very own special gifts. Some we are born with some we acquire from God in the moment of his choosing. Our gifts can bend and change over a period of time based on what God wants and needs us to accomplish. The one prerequsite that God has for each of us to open our hearts and desire to be an agent of good to be the light to oneanother. It is simple. Through my childhood, adolescence and even into my 30’s I was always searching for my true God and his existence. I could feel him to a certain degree but the picture was still far from focus. During that time for me the 90’s.  Life had a lot of moments of hurts from people you know, daily nonsence. Its hard to see God when you are surrounded by others who are not necessarily in Christ or God based. You are wandering around in a crowd of lost sheep many of which have no idea that they are even lost. I am not judging but  it is indeed a fact.   Well in the latter part of my 30’s I managed to bring my picture into a little more clarity with prayer and the assistance of others through a beautiful retreat know as Cursillo in a retreat house know as St. Basil’s in Methuen, Ma. that was I believe in Oct 1999. My wife went in November of the same year. It was life changing, the focus and picture was now crystal clear! It was an intersection where God made himself and his presence known. It is a Miracle, just as St. Basils is. You should call and look into this retreat house. It will be the best gift that you can give yourself ! So, I came back from that retreat and one of my friends called me the next day and  said, hey Dan, I saw you walking on the water of the lake today 🙂  It was so funny,he knew that I was on Fire .lol Each day that we live sets the stage for the next day and action. So all of the many little or big moments of my daily journey that come out onto this blog journal are always building for a bigger God moment. They are all God moments because he is there with us getting us through. All of our Spiritual Gifts are to be shared. It is not about us. This blog tells my journey through God. It his victory over death (my) and yours. God wants my life psalm #139 shared so that all will see him, and draw closer to our Heavenly Father.    4- 5 years ago, I am not sure of the date, I was called out of the blue into some of the most intense Spiritual experiences that I could ever have imagined. I was blown out of the water, I will just refer to them as writing for my church. The details of those writings were not for us , they are for the church. I will say this anyone with a sense of Spiritural awareness just needs to look at the news or turn on the television to see what is going on. The world is out of balance. This process was stretching myself and family to the max. The Holy Spirit is just so awesome. My spiritual adviser said to me , Dan, lets just see where it goes, and we did. I will explain about this experience at a later date.   My first vision, vivid dream, about 4-5 years ago during the time I was doing the  church writings. I was asleep and had the most vivid dream. God uses our own lifes experiences and will make them part of his message in my case it was based in my lifes work and I have been for over 30 years through the gift of the  Holy Spirit an interior Designer. I have done projects that when I had completed them looked at them and said, God, I did that! I did through God and love alone complete my projects .More on that later too!:) So, I was sleeping and my vision which seemed like forever started. I am giving my account  to you exactly as It happened and was told to my priest, my adviser and friend long ago… This remember was more that 3 years before my cancer diagnosis. I walked up to the door of this house and rang the bell. I had decorating samples in my hand. A women came to the door and opened it, I just remember how pleasant she was, I could hear children laughing and she said, excuse me for a moment and walked away off to the left in the direction of the children. I did not see them but heard them laughing.  So, I stood there and it seemed like a while, I being the type A personality and loving what I did. I said to myself, I will just walk in to the right here and see what she needs. So the interior was very itherial everything was a very soothing white color. It was extremely peaceful. I just kept walking and ahead of me was a hallway with a very bright light people were coming out of the light and passing me again all faces were non descript, everything was very etherial and white. I noticed that there was something on the wall that everyone that came out of the hall seemed to be stopping to look at so, I wandered over to it and looked and was a very pale colored picture I recognized it immediately. It was the shroud of Turin. I have to say this too, I had never given  1 seconds thought to the shroud in my life yet here it was . Well any way I could hear voices from down the end of the long extremely bright hallway and hear a booming voice and laughter it was pure joy. When I got to the entrance I realized, I shouldn’t be here, I had wondered from where I was left to wait. I would never wander around my clients home. So, I returned to where I was waiting by the door. I was getting annoyed and it was like 4 hours. Well, the really pleasant women was back and said she was sorry for the delay and she opened the door to the left of me. The children were quiet now  and she guided me into the room. I stood there and there was a very large white table in front of me. As I stood there the women was standing to the left side of the table looking at me and there was another figure to the right side of the table looking at me  as well. The women looked at me and, I felt love like I had never felt before. She said again sorry for the wait, I remember having been so angry to had to wait 4 hours for her to return and , I just responded its okay and she said to me you are an angel. Of course, I told Father I am certainly not, I am a sinner like everyone. I remember feeling intense love. I knew that it was my Blessed Mother. She without  a word uttered pointed down to the table and moved her hand over the surface as if  she wiped the table and the white milky color left and it now had a clear glass. It was a case.  I could see all kinds of relics, bottles of oils, and religous statues related to my faith and she spoke these words to me, We want you to have many Spiritual gifts. And that was it. I woke up and is as alive today and vivid as the time that it occured.   I have had years to think of why The Blessed Mother would call me an angel, because I am not. So I have a couple of thoughts on that. 1.) She knowing that I was upset with waiting for her which my Blessed Mother would know and yet I told her no problem thought that I was kind? 2.) Everything that I have done in writing including this blog through the Holy Spirit is never about me or any one of us . We are all loved the same. And what mother does not look upon her child at least as  an angel in training?  🙂 Thats the best I can do on that thought last but not least the booming laughter and joy was,  I know, was Our God!  I was given a glimpse of Heaven. I pray everyday to continue to grow for his purpose and into his will completely . Amen. Better Is one day In Your House By Kutless https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jdE03zRJtxw   In Christs Holy Name, Danny

When you feel alone, even when you are in a crowd.

27 Sunday Jul 2014

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I was thinking over the last few days about all of the worry and thoughts that race through our minds. Have you ever been sitting there relaxing in a chair peacefully and then a thought or worry comes from left field you literally have to get up and walk it off. It used to happen to me me from time to time a couple of years ago. I was also able to happen to me while being in the midst of a gethering of some sort.  For me, it was usually based in business and family related issues.  It all stems from scheduling issues and trying to juggle work schedule with my wife and kids. On top of that my wife and I were helping with the care of her mom and dad. So, things were so busy. I could be in a chair one moment relaxing and a troubling thought or worry based emotion would throw me off the chair like a top. I would some times get out of the chair and try to walk it off. You also cannot run from your mind as I came to learn. These events would essentially make my brain freeze like an overload.( I know we all have them) I needed to get a grip on what was going on!  I think doing too much sometimes makes us feel good and successful. But in hein sight If back in that day I had been more rooted in God and was not trying to be all to everybody and save everbody that it would have been a healthier thing for myself and others. We need to trust in God. If, we are doing things from the heart then God is in it with us. But, we need to know his word, the bible before we can be successful. I was in so much personal pain and nobody really knew what was going on inside of me .Remember I was the face of an A personality. Everything was fine outwardly but inside I was burning out, I was mastering my ship onto the rocks. My drug of choice was food. it became my personal joke. The first one at the buffet table I would laugh but it really was not funny to me, it was shame with a laugh attached to it.

During my healing with this cancer illness and combined with writings I had done for my church. A  calling that I received from God  to sound a horn of a warning to the church and later an email chain from God to his people to turn back to him they were called love letters from God. It was also back at that time that I  began to be enlightened through the Spirit and learned more about who I am the good and the bad aspects.  I have to share it all in this blog as I said before this is my chance to tell God’s story of victory not just for me but for eachone of us personally. Some of the stuff that will come out with blog  is just so fantastic and  it is what it is, the glory of God.You see prior to 2012 and the onset of this illness I was under the wrong understanding of what helping others is all about. I did not realize what I was doing at the time but it was hurtful to myself, my family and yes even to those I thought I was helping.

I  came to realize after many years and once I began to write in the Holy Spirit that I cannot save anyone including myself. Jesus saves us. We are called to be Jesus to oneanother. We need to pray for eachother, support etc, but we also have to give everyone the diginity of their own decisions. We can show a way if asked to help someone  but cannot always drive them there. It is their free will choice. God knows where they are truely at, far better than we do.

God speaks of helping in one of his parables that you can show a man how to fish, but we are not required to feed them forever, meaning that he does want us to help and support them  but we cannot carry them forever. If they are not handicapped and are capable of course. They will never learn to find who they are in God for themselves. God gives everyone very special gifts of their own. Their is so much diginty that a person derives in taking on their destiny and seeing what God has in store for them! While I was playing God with these people they were carried and did not learn, I was handicapping them with love and assistance. It was when I hit the wall, and realized I could not do anymore that they were forced to get up and get on and find their way. My mom and dad would simply say to me you are doing too much! And, it was true, I was.  My wife was trying to stop me but again, me being me I had to learn for myself, I  needed to learn and  be humbled. What I did was done out of love but it was not done with the right understanding of God’s teaching. It also depleated me , exhausted my wife and made life messy.

My wife and I recently had the pleasure of having lunch with  very dear friends, our friend said that she kind of had to retreat from everyone but her family and husband. She was spent at the moment and needed to recharge. She too is a doer, and really tries to help out everyone. They have hearts of gold. So, God Bless them.

I had so many people as I said before in another writing say that I needed to tell this story.  Someone I was talking to a few months ago said Dan it can be a taxing process. So becareful you do not give too much of yourself up in the process. Hearing my friends the other day tell me of their need to slow it down, I understand it and see that what I have to share is my responcibility to help others but they are in fact work. I believe that is what God has ordained for me in this moment so if they do not come everyday they will come in God’s time, for God’s glory.

Well, back to the point 🙂

Like the old saying goes in every life some rain must fall. Today it is pouring out and I woke up happy to see it. Rain cleans and washes the enviornment and gives our plants grass trees and watershed water that is needed to keep things in balance.

I, like all of you need to be replenished by the rain in our lives, Just as Jesus was baptised in the river Jordan by John the Babtist . I too was babtised as a child in my parish at that time of St. Agnes in Arlington. We are one with Jesus.

About 10 or 12 years ago, I attended a meeting of the St Frances DeSalles Society at one of our friends homes. One of the teachings was to everyday when we shower to consider the water  to be a reminder of our baptism. I rededicate myself during that time to God and the HolySpirit everday in prayer that I say yes to do their will to the best of my ability.

With brotherly love,

Danny

Healing Rain

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From Lahey Clinic to Dana Farber part 1

22 Tuesday Jul 2014

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Off we went to Dana Farber for our second consult and my new and current Dr. Dr. R. When we arrived it was via wheel chair for me, we were brought into the exam room. Again, we felt nothing but warmth and compassion from everyone. There were a number of medical /clinical coats in the room standing against the wall, my wife, one of my brothers and my sister were present too. I had been helped up on top of the exam table and was sitting upright on the edge of the table my legs dangling down.( It is funny how life makes us at times feel like a little kid).

Dr. R knelt in front of me on one knee and put his hand on my knee and said we have looked at the reports and biopsy information from Lahey and said we agree with the diagnosis. Glio Blastoma multiforme grade 4, it is non surgical. What I realized as I look down into my doctors eyes from my table edge was that he was a truely compassionate and loving man. He did not make me look up while he was talking to me, he took a position kneeling so he could meet me where I was. I remember the peace of God as still just flowing over me and I announced to all of the staff there that God had told me that I had the cancer, cancer was not of God and that I did not own this cancer, I went on to say that God selected them in this time to help me through God’s medicine, God’s machines, and their hands with are the extension of Jesus Christ. we are all Spirit driven and we need to remember where  the Holy Spirit  is from. God! 🙂

I told them about my spontaneous healing in Dec, 2010 that was discussed with my primary care doctor in January 2011 during a physical. He has confirmed the event to be true. This experience that I am going to begin to share is going to be a bit long and I am finding now in this moment will truely be an excercise emotionally but I will continue in a number of writings because what has happened during this time sounds impossible and is astounding but it is also very true. Witnesses were everywhere during this time and nothing will ever be the same . God is revealing his presence in a very strong way with good reason. He wants a personal relationship with us.

So any way, My Dr R was kneeling down on one knee to comfort me, I announced the message God gave me and tears filled his eyes, I was so tired, I just wanted to go home. not upset like one would imagine I had no energy and just wanted to sleep. The team raced out of the room, and two seconds a women that I will refer to as My scottish friend came in as cool as a cuccumber and said Ok Danny the doctor wants me to get an ekg of your heart. I had been insisting on getting into my wheel chair. She gently laid me back onto the table my legs still dangling off of the table and off came the shirt, and on went the electrodes. She started the eeg and when finished helped me with my shirt. And off she went.  My family was  there all the while in that room with me. Its like the bible I always have witness or as I call the Riley clan with me lol  My scottish friend was rolling out of the room, I was being assisted into my wheel chair by my brother and my wife and Dr R’s head nurse S, came into the door closed it and stood with her back against it and said, We need you to stay, we have made calls and want to get more tests done while you are here. I said no, I said I am too tired and I do not have my afternoon medication, she tried to convince me and my family tried to get me to sway, I said thanks I will come back next week. She said okay and sprinted out of the room, I said c’mon lets go. We left the exam room, I sware to God I was leaning left in the chair, so weak. When all of a sudden I heard something and Dr. R was coming down the hall full seam ahead. I saw him look at my family and went to his knees once again, he put his hand on my left arm and said please Dan we want you to stay, I went through the whole I will come back next week thing , I don’t have my meds, my family had to go to work they have not eaten, I was tired. My family asserted once again that it was okay that they would call in to work. Dr R. said we have made all of the arrangements necessary and our radiologist at brigham and womens was staying as late as he had to accomodate me. He said we have all the medications you need in our unit we have meds for occasions like this he said okay:) Then he said why don’t you get a bite to eat and S, meaning his head nurse will see you in a while. I said okay and he patted my arm and smiled. It was yet another Miracle. There are mericales  like this happening daily in our hospitals and doctors offices, we are a Blessed country. and at times fail  to see them for what they are. God’s people are loving,compassionate and giving.

BTW, my ekg came back with a strange rythmn like there were two heart beats and that is because as my test was being done, and it was a stall tactic, my sister who was so devestated was holding my hand thus two heart beats . Just beauitful !

I am exhausted and need to stop for the moment. I will continue to write from this point tomorrow.

God Bless you, and thank you God for everything that give us all. Amen.

Chris Tomlin Thank you God for saving me

 

 

Amazing Grace

21 Monday Jul 2014

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Last night while lieing in bed my mind went through the days activities and assessed where God was in it . The moments that we learn  something or teach something to one another. Two of brothers and I were together for a brief  time  today to pay respects to a wonderful young man who tragically passed and his family. During our time together we discussed different things going on in our lives, this world, and our culture.

I finished my evening prayers, and laid there on the twilight edge of sleep and listened for Gods voice or word to inspire and soothe me. Well, he did but it had a hint of sadness to it which made me stir a bit.

God uses things that I understand to allow me to understand What he is saying in any given moment to me. It is the same for all of you as well.The Holy Spirit is working with us always. There is a response/ psalm that is used in  my church from time to time which stepped forth in my mind and I could hear it but the word and implication was different.

This is the whole  song version  , so it is longer than the verson we use at my church. It is haunting, and what God was saying to me last night was  why have so many in this world abandoneded him at the foot of the cross?   Is  it good that we wander off to face the wolves alone? I do not think so.  Life can be challenging.

here it is.

Responsorial Psalm 22:

Dandan Soy

 

God is our protection and there are forces darker in the world that would want us hopeless. I strongly feel that if had  not stayed stay at the foot of the cross with Jesus during my life It would have been impossible for God to heal me and build me up one again, my heart was open and hopeful.  Like a branch that falls from that the tree I would be dead not just physically but more importantly I believe that i would be eternally dead in my soul.

So, I needed to share this with you all.  I know it sounds heavy, but to me it is.

I want to always be honest in all my writing irregardless of how fantastic it sounds. bacause God  knows the hows,  why’s and whens. We just need to say yes.

Enjoy this next video, I love it

This video was shot in the ruins of the colisseum where meny Christians were killed by the lions just for amusement and because of their religious beliefs. Remember Daniel and the lion den?

Amazing Grace II Divo

my next blog will re in reference to Beginning treatment at Dana farber.

God Bless You ,

Danny