In life their are songs that you remember that were meaningful to others in this case my mom. As a kid she would say to us I love this song and then would tell me why it meant so much to her.
At around 2:30 this morning I was in bed with my kindle on and it was playing random songs. This song came on and I thought of my mom. I never payed attention to the words as a kid. My mother and father were very much in love and shared over 60 years together 57 of which they were married and had their 5 children. They had all of the stress issues of a family and my dad almost passed when he was in his 40’s
My mom passed away almost 2 .5 years ago and my dad is still coping with the loss.
This morning at 2:30 I became aware of the words and understood why my mom loved this so much. I laid in bed looking at my wife and thought of all she has been through with my dire cancer diagnosis, having to figure out the house hold finances, support our 4 children emotionally and work full time to handle the bills and obligations.
I believe that song was meant for that quiet moment to remind me of my mom and dad and the common treads shared by my life walk and theirs.
I am sure for many of you as well.
Our significant others are our treasures, gifts from God and should be valued and recognized as such.
For my parents, my bride smile emoticon and all of yours smile emoticon
YouAre Music – http://youare.com Music with “you are” in the title or lyrics. Gladys Knight & The Pips (1974) “You’re the Best Thing That Ever Happened To Me…
The following is a Re blog of my blog post dated 8-13-2014
I chose this blog to be republished today because of my recent loss of my friend Paul and because of a show that I saw on Chronicle tonight talking about near death/ afterdeath experiences. I went to search out the first vision writing because these things do happen. They are incredible and never fade.
I was able to share my experiences with Paul and many other people who were preparing to meet God. Its been nearly 4 years since diagnosis and i was then told that i had only months to live. I was truly dieing. I was on the very edge of life and was unafraid. at total peace. There is no fear necessary, beauty lies beyond this life and beyond our comprehension.
Jesus does not lie. He went before us to make straight the path for those who love him and follow his ways.
The doctors are miffed as to why I have done so well with a terminal braincancer diagnosis. I feel that God has me here now as a witness to help others who need hope and help them see their God there waiting to receive them.
I am a regular guy with a Miraculous story. Not because of me but because God wants me to help others. My job is not done yet. Furthermore, I am a miracle currently, but life is far from easy on me daily. Any suffering I have is offered up for God to use for others. Perhaps this is my pennance , God knows.
Again this writing is from 8-13-2014
In The Beginning of true Spiritual awakening of all of us is a long time in the making. We experience different levels of awareness in God, his existence and supreme gift to us all and I m not talking about life 🙂 That is a Miracle in itself. I am referring to the gift of The Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit as far as I am concerned is our bridge to the Almighty, he facilitates all that is good, he inspires us, he warns us,he allows God to fill us with joy and allows our conscience to feel guilt for a wrong doing.The Holy Spirit will help to bring us to our knees for repentence before our Lord. The Holy Spirit that dwells within every one of us is God given and works in concert with our desires, needs and to allow us to fulfill our destiny for God and his people. We need to allow The Holy Spirit to work with us. We need to pray for his assistance in a meaningful way. I mentioned this in one of my recent blog writing that I began praying and commiting myself to God and the holy Spirit with my daily shower and telling all of Heaven that the water was my rededication and reminder of my baptismal water. I say daily to God that I surrender myself to whatever he wants from me and tell the Holy Spirit to please use me to the best of my ability. Lastly, I call on all of Heaven through my prayers for all of the Angels and Saints to please bestow on me any gifts of the Spirit that I may need in the future. Heaven is for real.:) This is a very special time that we are living in, a time like no other. It is a time of Miracles, it is a time of God’s pouring out of The Holy Spirit and Spiritural gifts for eachone of us. We all have our very own special gifts. Some we are born with some we acquire from God in the moment of his choosing. Our gifts can bend and change over a period of time based on what God wants and needs us to accomplish. The one prerequsite that God has for each of us to open our hearts and desire to be an agent of good to be the light to oneanother. It is simple. Through my childhood, adolescence and even into my 30’s I was always searching for my true God and his existence. I could feel him to a certain degree but the picture was still far from focus. During that time for me the 90’s. Life had a lot of moments of hurts from people you know, daily nonsence. Its hard to see God when you are surrounded by others who are not necessarily in Christ or God based. You are wandering around in a crowd of lost sheep many of which have no idea that they are even lost. I am not judging but it is indeed a fact. Well in the latter part of my 30’s I managed to bring my picture into a little more clarity with prayer and the assistance of others through a beautiful retreat know as Cursillo in a retreat house know as St. Basil’s in Methuen, Ma. that was I believe in Oct 1999. My wife went in November of the same year. It was life changing, the focus and picture was now crystal clear! It was an intersection where God made himself and his presence known. It is a Miracle, just as St. Basils is. You should call and look into this retreat house. It will be the best gift that you can give yourself ! So, I came back from that retreat and one of my friends called me the next day and said, hey Dan, I saw you walking on the water of the lake today 🙂 It was so funny,he knew that I was on Fire .lol Each day that we live sets the stage for the next day and action. So all of the many little or big moments of my daily journey that come out onto this blog journal are always building for a bigger God moment. They are all God moments because he is there with us getting us through. All of our Spiritual Gifts are to be shared. It is not about us. This blog tells my journey through God. It his victory over death (my) and yours. God wants my life psalm #139 shared so that all will see him, and draw closer to our Heavenly Father. 4- 5 years ago, I am not sure of the date, I was called out of the blue into some of the most intense Spiritual experiences that I could ever have imagined. I was blown out of the water, I will just refer to them as writing for my church. The details of those writings were not for us , they are for the church. I will say this anyone with a sense of Spiritural awareness just needs to look at the news or turn on the television to see what is going on. The world is out of balance. This process was stretching myself and family to the max. The Holy Spirit is just so awesome. My spiritual adviser said to me , Dan, lets just see where it goes, and we did. I will explain about this experience at a later date. My first vision, vivid dream, about 4-5 years ago during the time I was doing the church writings. I was asleep and had the most vivid dream. God uses our own lifes experiences and will make them part of his message in my case it was based in my lifes work and I have been for over 30 years through the gift of the Holy Spirit an interior Designer. I have done projects that when I had completed them looked at them and said, God, I did that! I did through God and love alone complete my projects .More on that later too!:) So, I was sleeping and my vision which seemed like forever started. I am giving my account to you exactly as It happened and was told to my priest, my adviser and friend long ago… This remember was more that 3 years before my cancer diagnosis. I walked up to the door of this house and rang the bell. I had decorating samples in my hand. A women came to the door and opened it, I just remember how pleasant she was, I could hear children laughing and she said, excuse me for a moment and walked away off to the left in the direction of the children. I did not see them but heard them laughing. So, I stood there and it seemed like a while, I being the type A personality and loving what I did. I said to myself, I will just walk in to the right here and see what she needs. So the interior was very itherial everything was a very soothing white color. It was extremely peaceful. I just kept walking and ahead of me was a hallway with a very bright light people were coming out of the light and passing me again all faces were non descript, everything was very etherial and white. I noticed that there was something on the wall that everyone that came out of the hall seemed to be stopping to look at so, I wandered over to it and looked and was a very pale colored picture I recognized it immediately. It was the shroud of Turin. I have to say this too, I had never given 1 seconds thought to the shroud in my life yet here it was . Well any way I could hear voices from down the end of the long extremely bright hallway and hear a booming voice and laughter it was pure joy. When I got to the entrance I realized, I shouldn’t be here, I had wondered from where I was left to wait. I would never wander around my clients home. So, I returned to where I was waiting by the door. I was getting annoyed and it was like 4 hours. Well, the really pleasant women was back and said she was sorry for the delay and she opened the door to the left of me. The children were quiet now and she guided me into the room. I stood there and there was a very large white table in front of me. As I stood there the women was standing to the left side of the table looking at me and there was another figure to the right side of the table looking at me as well. The women looked at me and, I felt love like I had never felt before. She said again sorry for the wait, I remember having been so angry to had to wait 4 hours for her to return and , I just responded its okay and she said to me you are an angel. Of course, I told Father I am certainly not, I am a sinner like everyone. I remember feeling intense love. I knew that it was my Blessed Mother. She without a word uttered pointed down to the table and moved her hand over the surface as if she wiped the table and the white milky color left and it now had a clear glass. It was a case. I could see all kinds of relics, bottles of oils, and religous statues related to my faith and she spoke these words to me, We want you to have many Spiritual gifts. And that was it. I woke up and is as alive today and vivid as the time that it occured. I have had years to think of why The Blessed Mother would call me an angel, because I am not. So I have a couple of thoughts on that. 1.) She knowing that I was upset with waiting for her which my Blessed Mother would know and yet I told her no problem thought that I was kind? 2.) Everything that I have done in writing including this blog through the Holy Spirit is never about me or any one of us . We are all loved the same. And what mother does not look upon her child at least as an angel in training? 🙂 Thats the best I can do on that thought last but not least the booming laughter and joy was, I know, was Our God! I was given a glimpse of Heaven. I pray everyday to continue to grow for his purpose and into his will completely . Amen.
One one of my favorite pictures off of Facebook in 2015
They say a picture is worth a thousand words. This one is that to me completely.
This picture says it all so effortlessly and quietly. The Giant love in all of our lives is God/ Our Lord Jesus Christ and the Blessed Trinity.
God is this to me personally so I do not worry about this life. Like this picture his presence in my life and families Gives us peace and joy beyond measure.
Happy and Healthy 2016 may God be the Giant in your life above all other things. amen😀
I have written so much over the past year. My topics are pretty basic although the subject matter that is written is not. As I am writing tonight the Hallmark channel is on and my wife is in and out of the room half watching. The puppy wants to be played with and was just placed back in her crate. So cute, she loves her mother 😀
The kitchen that was immaculate is now not so immaculate. My youngest daughter has her good friends in for a little Yankee swap tonight. They made their recipes and moved on to the living room. Where they are knitting, there is contemporary christian music playing and someone is playing a harmonica .
Life is good. I am personally struggling with a massive energy drain of my body. I know it is not cancers return because I was told that should the brain cancer return that I would lose mobility very quickly. That has not happened. Praise God.
My doctors prescribed a medicine that may jump start the body. I got it and as I began to use it, a sense of unease set in and I prayed on it. I read everything that I could and did not like the possible side effects associated with its use. I stopped using it because God did not give me peace about using it rather I got peace in not using it.
We need to do our due diligence in any big decision that we need to make in our lives.
I think that my exhaustion is due to fact that I have stepped up my daily activity. I have been very aggressive (for me).The activity combined with the Christmas Season and all of the fun things that it involves with it has left my body with the need to catch up.
The other thing that is definitely an energy drain is that a very dear friend passed away last week and was buried this week. I had been back and forth to see him at the hospice center.
Paul was a treasure. He had so much faith and showed us all the way of the cross and left this world peacefully and joking with everyone. He is now free from the bondage of the life and is healed.
His family is wonderful and they too are strong in their faith.
The big but is this…
His family is missing him so much. He was so young. We as friends even with our faith are grieving his loss so I think that this loss is effecting my energy whereas I have been emotional over his loss and want to be there for his family.
2015 for me personally has been a good year whereas I have thus far outrun my terminal brain cancer diagnosis. But, in other ways it has been a very human year of worries ranging from the everday stuff to friends that were lost to their illnesses and friends that I continue to support in their battles.
So, like you all, life is a little bitter sweet. The bottom line is this. I know the only reason why I am where I am, alive in this moment is because of God and my faith that he has us all no matter what.
My friend Paul was such a wonderful witness to everyone and that’s the model that I want to show this world as well. Victory over this life, Victory through God.
We need to remember these truths , we are all connected. We are all from one creator. We all will live and we all will love. Life is not easy but live is always beautiful from our first breath to our last. Finally, we know that someday God will call us back to himself.
We are born out of love, given love by our God. That life love is to be shared and lavished on everyone regardless of how they treat us. When love hurts us then we need to give that to God and he will restore us. When we are weakened in our bodies or our psychological health suffers we need to continue to love eachother and give the suffering that we are experiencing back to God and he will send us love back through others and by his healing grace.
Trust in him who gave us life and thank him everyday for his goodness to us all.Amen.
Today was every bit if not more of what I had inticipated for Pauls celebration of life funeral mass at my our home parish this morning. This mass had all of the traditions of a firemans send off including the last call bells that means that his shift here was done.
There were 4 vested priests on the alter and the mass was absolutely beautiful from the music, the eulogy , the readings right on through.
The family shared very special memories of Pauls family life. It was an honor being in the moment with them.
Paul was the Miracle to many because he witnessed in the simplest ways while living, working and during recreation that there is something bigger than self and there is an everlasting component to living a great life.
This mass covered every aspects of the our lives journeys, the pain of separation that we who are left behind feel and the joy that Paul is now experiencing being with all who have gone before him including his infant son Steven.
The mass ran over 2 hours and included the distribution of the Holy Eucharist.
The prosession from the church was huge and they were then inviting everyone back to an establishment for lunch . There were arleast 900 people at the funeral. At the end of mass and Pauls departure from the church I looked at my wife and said honey, I don’t have the energy to go to the cemetery or the luncheon. So, we watched the procession leave and we came home.
Like I told my children who were with us, We were there for Paul, Linda and family always, praying with them and their family. If God wanted me there after the mass was done he would have given me the ability to do so. I had already been fed anyway. The mass and Holy Eucharist is what I truly needed today so I am all set 🙂
one of the songs they played outside the church was called Going home a song that I particularly love.
The final song sung inside the church was he Irish Blessing. It was a beautiful and a fitting song for Paul.
I will miss him most sincerely during my days, I was so honored to be by his side when he most needed me to hold his hand and pray and give him the Holy Eucharist. God gave me that honor and privilege. As, I sat with Paul I quietly thought to myself that if my time were here I wish that he would be with me too. Then I realized that he would be in a different way. Yet another friend there to greet me.
Rest in peace my friend/ brother Paul worry not, a lot of people including my family are watching over Linda and your children always…
Its hard to believe that Christmas is next week. I was out yesterday at my last Livestrong program session at the YMCA cancer survivor program. I then did an errand that I needed to get done and what stood out to me is this. First off, the weather has been so mild. I thought it has been great. I have not been out and about the week before Christmas in 3 years. This is my first Christmas back behind the wheel since my cancer diagnosis almost 4 years ago.
Another obversation that I made from being out is that there were a whole lot of older seniors in the store and I took the opportunity to say hi to them. They were all thrilled with the weather and the fact that there was no ice. Cancer has allowed me to become I think a better informed individual surrounding the needs, and obstacles of individuals with handicaps and the elderly. I see the barriers that are present in my day. I find myself watching other people struggling and am waiting to assist them all the while realizing that I probably end up on the ground myself.
I can see why some people go South for the winters. (Snow birds) they escape the cold for 3 months they avoid the ice and fall hazards too.
The next obversation that I made was that there was so much traffic I began driving again last January and have been happily driving anywhere and everywhere. I remember writing back then how different the road was back then. There was a lot of people rushing and were very impatient with the elderly. I felt bad as people motioned them and bombed their horns. I actually find on the road around here the elderly to be cautious, and they follow the speed limits they really should not be treated with hostility.
Isaiah 46:4 – Even to your old age I will be the same, And even to your graying years I will bear you! I have done it, and I will carry you; And I will bear you and I …
This is a lesson to live by. How we treat the children and elderly in this society says alot about our future and our demise.
Senior citizens are older versions of us. We are in route to where they are now. We should treat them as the treasures that they are. You know God expects us to be good and kind to one another always. Right now it the height of the Christmas Season and some people are still not always acting in a joyful way.
In my travels yesterday I needed to stop to get a few items and while I was in line I found that a few of the things in my cart were out of my reach. as I try to wedge by body between the cart and register isle to reach them an arm came from the other direction into my cart. It was an elderly women on a cane herself with a big smile she said here ya go. I was so grateful she then struck up a conversation with me. I thought to myself in the last year that I have been out on lets just call them , made up missions. I needed these shot trips to escape my routine because I could not stand it. It is always the older individual who tries to elevate my day. I can count the number of times that a younger person has even picked up my cane when it has fallen.
i was on my way out of the store and they had a kettle collection for the Salvation Army I told the man on my way in I get you on the way out. So, on my way out I went out through the door behind a tiny women all of 100 pounds she was holding onto the carriage just as I do so as not to fall. She stopped to get her offering out to put in the kettle. I was behind her biting my wallet and using my right hand ( my left does not work )to get a couple of dollars out and I got hit from behind by a carriage a man in his late 50’s said c’mon move in it in a loud voice. I moved forward as far as I could without hitting this cute old women. He squeezed behind me muttering and shaking his head. This all transpired within 10 seconds.
God expects us to shower each other with love just as he does for us. We are his hands, his feet and his love personified.
The older women was startled she was attempting to do a good gesture and got yelled at her hand was shaking. I said no honey I am behind you waiting to contribute as well. He was not mad at you. I said God bless you enjoy the beautiful day. Next the man working the kettle was standing there stunned by the mans explosive actions and as I put the offering into the kettle I connected with eye contact and said do not let that man or anyone bother you. I thanked him for being there and wished him a Merry Christmas.
That mans actions were not of God.
Gods counting us just as he counts on us to love and serve one another.
Life is a school as I am truly understanding. I have kinda developed a philosophy over time though . If you cannot do something nice do not do anything at all. Because if you do something unkind to someone then you are not being an agent of good. Your sinning against man and God.
I have been literally dragging my body in and out and up and down. I am by no means a martyr. I feel compelled to try and be a positive witness to anyone that I can help.
As I have found. Helping does not mean that we have all the answers or know what to say to our loved ones when in need. . It simply means that God has us there at times just to pray and offer quiet support .
This past weekend, I almost missed church. I was feeling the phytigue that plagues me most weekends. I was eating my breakfast on Sunday and I was working through the mindset that I am not going all the while feeling a real yearning beconing me to get dressed and to go. I finally went for it and got ready. I wanted to get the Holy Eucharist for our friends Paul and Linda who were at the hospice center and for my dad. My wife was getting lunch to bring for their family also. I did not want my wife to go by herself to visit and wanted to be there for my wife and our friends. Lord knows, My wife had to do that a whole lot during my treatment. out on her own doing everything solo. So, I sat in church and was literally yawning constantly not because it was boring but because I was so tired. Every time I got up from the bench during mass was an act of will. A couple of times i moaned very softly. my body was shaking with all of my energy to get to a full standing position.
Father next delivered his homily and I new why I was there. I was seeing something in my life from a different perspective. If I were not there that day then I would not have been fed spiritually or gained the insight that I needed had I stayed home in my recliner giving into the fragility of my body. This is just a fragment of what Father said and wrote in the weekly bulletin.
Fr. Ron said,
This Sunday is a good reminder that as Christians, we live with a joyful Spirit. Life may at times be hard and painful but we know that Jesus is Emmanuel, God is with us. We do not walk alone. Jesus is with us with His love and provides our every need. Joy is one of the fruits of the Spirit. As we bring to mind our many blessings, that we are adopted children of God, may the joy of the Lord dwell in our hearts.
the full writing from the bulletion can be found in the following bulletin.
After mass, my wife and I were going up to visit our dear friends at the hospice house and I told my wife point blank that I could not go into the building and would wait while she ran in with the food and the Holy Eucharist. When I got to the hospice house I said you know what to my wife I am going in. I feel I should. My wife said I will push you in the wheelchair I just felt God say no. I trecked into the facility and made my way through that facility slowly and defiantly. My wife stopped me and said sit here for a minute I again just said that I am fine and progressed forward until I was where I needed to be. I am as I said before no matyr or hero. Gods got me here in this moment to do something bigger that myself. maybe its attonement. I really do not know.
What I do know is this, if we as humans have 12 cylinders I am currently firing on maybe 6 of them.
Today is Monday 12-13-2015 and I saw my dad this morning and i brought him lunch and from thre I went off to see my friends again and brought the Holy Eucharist.
I have been given a opportunity to be a blessing at least in a small way to people who have blessed so many in a big way. So, thankyou God.
For Paul and family.
There is nothing to worry about.
Mary Did You Know by Go Fish It is the time of Miracles.
With life’s twists and turns there is only one constant as my mom and dad would say and that is God.
During my prayer time today I came by this scripture reading and it gives me so much comfort.
No matter what has been going on in our lives or whatever may befall us we have God’s word that is his promise to us all. We need to love him with all of hearts and to give him his thanks and our concerns.
I had the honor today of speaking to a new friend Brian from Ohio who is also living his life as a Glio brain cancer just as I have/had. I am always so grateful to talk to such wonderful people. He and his wife Mary are rooted in their faith. Our daughters are friends hense our meeting. Anyone who knows me knows that I absolutely believe in the scripture Psalm#139. Where God has predestined our meeting in this life. Brian and I spoke for a bit about our specific case details. I was able to discuss the medications including the experimental one that I had used.
From that point my wife, my daughter and I went to visit with Paul and his family at the hospice center. When we arrived Paul had family and a number of fire fighters in his room watching the Pats game . I did not want to disturb them, that’s for sure. Paul was in bed and was very much at peace. I announced to the men who we were and they couldn’t have been any nicer. I told them that we were there to pray with Paul and Linda and deliver the Holy Eucharist. We then left the room . One very beautiful thing that I will always remember is that all in Pauls room participated in our prayers for Paul and his entire family. You can bet that Heaven was thrilled with what happening in that room. That’s a miracle as well as Gods love for us and ours for each other.
Life is so beautiful, people are beautiful. I wish there was no cancer and that Paul, Brian,myself and so many others afflicted with cancer were just living our lives as friends having fun times rather than having our friends struggling.
But, the other side to that statement is that I feel blessed to be meeting people who I can help and that also are helping me through my life’s journey.
I am finding a beautiful common denominator. Despite our lives struggles and illnesses for the most part we stay pleasant and caring to others needs.
In each cases that I have mentioned we were all glad that we were the ones who would be afflicted by this disease cancer and that our spouse’s and children were not the victims. Thats was a blessing to us. Amen.
If I go away and prepare a place for you, I will come back and receive you to Myself,… And if I go and make ready a place for you, I will come again and take you to be… and if I go on and prepare for you a place, again do I come, and will receive …Nor can any man draw nigh God as a Father, who is not quickened by Him as …
So, What is a miracle? To me every one of is a miracle from conception to natural death. Even in my toughest personal times I have found that there is always beauty. Yes, it is true that I would not have desired to be striken by brain cancer especially for my family. I have been Blessed with a beautiful wife, four great kids and an angel in heaven. This is not the garden that God had originally intended for us all so it is what it is we all call life. The bottom line to me is that God has already saved us, by the shedding of his son’s blood upon the cross, that is of course my Lord and Savoir.
I personally do not worry about what will happen to me tommorrow. I have had so many wonderful people touch my life since my birth and I people always seemed to me to be a positive thing to my foundation and mind set. I have never felt that I have had adversity in my life even throuhout this prediciment. People look at me when I say that but i honesty feel that to my core. I am not a victim. We are all traveling the road of life and we do not always know when we will hit a corner, dead end, traffic light or intersection. Over two years ago with my diagnosis I came to an intersection. I got a sign by God’s stepping in and announcing to me that the cancer was not his and I did not own it. The sign on the road of my life read yeild. It was an immediate command and by Jesus Christ alone was I placed into such a state of peace that has never left me. The doctors at first were thinking the poor guy is in denial or whatever but as they all came to understand that it is my real personal state not because of me but because of God. I reminded my doctor at my last scan. God told us that I would be healed and he said yes, you did say that. My wife, while getting ready to go to one of my appointments said I have questions, I said ask the doctor anything that you need to ask him. So, off we went to see My Doctor and when we got into his office after my scan, I said to the doctor and also to help ease my wife Dr. Janet has questions whatever the answers are don’t worry please just tell her. I am fine whatever the answer might be. It does not bother me. It was all about if the cancer will come back ,signs to look for etc. The last question was pretty amazing. You know Doctors do not use words lightly mine included. I love my doctor and all of my doctors for that matter. He said he had one of his oldest survivor in the day before it was 16 years. After a few minutes and looking at my clear scan he said I think your one of those, he said he is like you just incredible faith. I took that as a word of knowledge from my Dr’s lips from God. The bottom line is this and I love this saying,
God does not expect us to do miracles, he expects us to believe that he will ! 🙂
These doctors, nurses and medical people are very special. The are front line in so many peoples life stories in writings done so long ago under the title love letters from God. These personal life stories were referred to as our own personal psalms. Like the Holy Bible Psalm #139. God know all about our days.Please read it when you have a chance it gives me great comfort . He is the author of life. I do believe that that is the truth. The free will of how we decide to handle our life situations will chart where our lives,faith, minds and ultimately where our souls end up.
In my situation, I have learned to see more clearly, yes, I have had down moments, i am a regular guy far from perfect. But, I can see perfection in a different way now. I have been left with some left side disability. I was in a wheel chair, i then progressed to a walker, then a 4 prong cain and finally a single cain that i use when i go out to safeguard myself from a fall.
One thing that I do know is across the board every doctor and physical therapist i have seen has said just how amazing my case and continued healing is. You see God has begun in my mind his time of miracles and i believe they will only become more vivid so to get everyones attention.
I pray for everyone whether I know you or not because part of the silver lining on my journeys is seeing love in everyone, seeing the beauty in nature and the smells of the changing seasons. It is like I lost some mobility and others senses in my body woke up.
one fact that I really do feel and always have since D day (diagnosis) is that whether I live 1 more day or thirty more years is that I would not be one incling less of the miracle that God intended me to be. The same is true for each one of you too
One of the great saying that I was taught early one was this, I honestly cannot remember who but they said, Yesterday is a canceled check, Tommorrow is a prommisory note, today is ready cash so use it and it just stuck with me.
I am not a writer so I will say this one time for however long this blog goes for, please forgive typos, comma placement, run ons, and popping back and forth between thoughts. It may not be pretty but it is real. thx
So, in closing use your cash today and stay in the moment. 🙂 God is right here.
Yesterday was a full day for me anyway. I was up early and traveled through the day from live strong to the grocery store for just a few items a full shopping is not physically possible for me. I made it home and was blessed to visit my/ our friend Paul last evening. By the time I got home I just wanted to sit quietly with mself and absorb all of the moments. I was physically, emotionally and psychologically exhausted.
My wife and I spoke a bit and shared our thoughts. I finished the blog entry with much prayer read it to Janet and published the tribute to Paul and family.
As it happens I went to bed and thought about the written words of my post and wanted to make sure that they were good. That they conveyed the beauty that was behind them. I often do this when a writing is very close and personal. I have been to the edge of life so I understand that perspective all too well. It’s not a sense of glee for the person or their family. Another thing that I did not share on the writing last evening because I was too exhausted is that while speaking with Paul and family by his bed I shared my account of a vivid vision that I had about 3 weeks after my terminal brain cancer diagnosis. As I was describing the vivid memory I began to cry and said this is not sorrow behind these tears it because of what I saw and the words I received during that experience overwhelm me when I try to verbalize them. You see, as I said in an earlier writing I did not plan the words the Holy Spirit would guide me in the moment.
Well, in that moment God pushed me forward to share this vision with them. The peace that surrounded it and the message. I wrote at great length about the vision on my blog justdannyspeaks.com early on when I finally began to document this journey. The blog is not about anything more than to glorify God in my life and yours. He gets us through this life and wants us to have grateful hearts of service. We are his hands,feet and heart here in this world.
please go back to my earlier blogs about this vision I have nearly 400 postings since day one.
Today I would ask you please to keep Paul and his wonderful family in your prayers .
please keep Stevie and his family in your continued thoughts.
for: Marilyn , dementia and physical limitations.
for: Carol and her son this day. This day is an anniversary of importance and beauty.
for Dave R and family Dave is now near death from cancer and his daughter is to be wed this Saturday. Please pray for them during this difficult yet beautiful time. God bless Dave and family and may the Lord bless the young bride and groom. Amen.
for: for the victims of these radicals murderers in Colorado and around this world.
for us all, the United States , the hungry, the homeless, and those suffering depression and loneliness. We pray that the Love and healing of our God will touch us and turn us and this world back around and back to him.
we pray to the Lord. Lord hear our prayer.
This song was shared with me recently. i never really listened to it. I remember hearing it years back an knew it was the Golden girls soundtrack.
I like it because it is simple, loving and is what true friendship and fellowship is about. its easy.
Just Danny Speaks 