As I walked the track again on Monday and took my sweet time doing it I remembered my daughter’s words slow and steady dad, you”ll get there.
I was thinking as I was walking that we are responsible for many of own mindsets. If I have a bad moment I sometimes go negative with a phrase. What I have come to understand now is that the thoughts and words that we think and say can truely effect your life in a negative way.
Three terms that I think and say at times from my inner voice are…
1. I’m not.
2. I can’t
3. I won’t
These are not healthy words. We all have them and they are not positive or good for our psyche. That attitude got me into trouble Sunday as I pushed myself around the track.
There is a power that resides in us all that is truth, It is the Spirit of God. Thats what corrected my sour demeanor Sunday and made me push myself to stive for better things.
The three terms that we need to hold, embrace and live are…
1.) I will
2.) I can
3.) I am going to.
See victory
Realize a victory that only God can give you. Jesus is the ultimate healer.
It’s a reality of this life. God ordained that after the creation of Adam that he would also create Eve so that they would have oneanother and not be alone. They then we’re blessed with children and we are those children generations removed.
Part of the reason why I am still here personally is because I am very very stubborn. I do not give myself an inch. I can be foolish at times I know but I choose life and I choose to get myself back into the game where I can contribute to society in a meaningful way.
Yesterday I was home and my wife was down the Cape with a number of her girl friends for the day so I decided to walk the track for the first time since last Fall. I called my brother and he dropped what he was doing to join me. So, I walked a quarter mile lap with him and we headed home.
This Morning , I woke up hopped in the shower and decided I would walk the track. My wife was now at church and I went Saturday so I said I will go now and be done when my wife gets back from mass.
Off I went to the track as I left the garage I saw my eldest daughter and just said I am going to walk the track 🙂 and, away I went.
I got to the track and there were a lot of young kids playing soccer so cute. The parents were all there watching and talking together. I remember those days well with 4 kids my wife and I were always at one field or another.:) Those days were so important for my kids and for us I thank God for every one of the moments there.
Well this morning God protected me from myself once again. I am one hundred percent sure of this fact here’s why,
I began to walk the track and the kids were playing on the field. I was walking and greeting other walkers as they passed by me. It was gorgeous out and it was the day that I have been waiting for. As I walked and looked at the sky I began to pray and talk softly to God so I could hear myself. I wanted my ears to hear what my heart was expressing to God. I began to say I can’t believe that one year ago that I told my physical therapists that I wanted to run the Boston marathon. I was thinking how stupid of me !I became embarassed. WITH that, I thought to myself I can do it! and It’s not because I say that I can , it’s because God can do anything that he chooses to for me. I felt a sense of defiance and got mad at myself for being negative and picked up my pace as I walked I felt empowered. I was finishing the 1/2 mile mark (2 laps) as I rounded the final corner I suddenly felt my left leg begin to falter and I thought oh no ! I am going down. I stopped and used my right hand and pushed on the top of my cane to help support me. I tried to step forward but my knee cap was going up and down fromthe stress and the nerves. all of my wiring from the brain is newon the left side of my body and is being rebuilt over time. I began to take little steps fighting myself not to fall. I looked up and down the track about 150 feet away all of a sudden a figure emerged walking down the track I thought I recognized her but was not sure as she got closer I realized that it was my daughter. She walked up to me and I said what are you doing here? I said I am going to fall. she raised her sunglasses and looked at me and smiled and said dad don’t worry, I got you,I am here. I was on the verge of tears she said lets go and I said I was trying to walk 3/4 of a mile today but my body is rebelling. She was holding my left side steady as we walked and she said how long have you walked ? I said 1/2 mile so she said c’mon lets go you can do it:)
So, we took the final lap her helping me as my leg once again faltered. My daughter became my left side as we walked.
I asked her again how did you end up down here? You were a Miracle to me today!
She said after she saw me in the garage she went to the gym to work out. She said she walked into the gym and said to the person at the desk, I don’t know why I am in here today my dad is walking the track. I should go with him and the girl replied yes you should plus it is beautiful out.
So God sent one of my angels to help me today. I was wrong to have pushed myself to a point of potentially harming myself but lesson learned. Like my daughter said dad, slow and steady your going to get there.
For my beautiful daughter, Dad says thank you and God Bless You Honey.
xoxo me
I saw God today… In my daughter once again 🙂
Thank You God for your mercy and my lifes many blessings. Amen.
When I think of this song I think of the older folks by its beat and orchestration. Being in business for as long as I was gave me a wonderful clientele many of them older and I thoroughly enjoyed them and I feel deeply honored to carry them in my heart and remember their beauty , kindness, and simple life values. May they rest in peace Amen.
First off Happy Birthday to my angel in heaven Brad Michaels birthday is today. He was born 26 years ago today. 🙂 He is with my mom and grandparents celebrating and watching over us. A few of His friends are in heaven with him Benjamin B., Scotty Mac and Alex H. Until we meet again.
I was sitting here today in the silence of my home thinking after my post was completed and my mind drifted off to a deep recess of my mind and pulled out a memory of a conversation that I had when I was a teenager with my mom and dad. It reminded me of a writing on this blog recently about the fears and stressors that kids have in their lives at that time.
I remembered in detail this morning that discussion with my parents some 40 years later. I look back now at that conversation and see clearly that my young uncomplicated 17 year old youth could not get what my parents were saying.
I did what people who cannot defend their position do , I yelled, banged my fist and fled the house. When we are young we sometimes cannot accept the truth and wisdom and the reality check that we receive from those that we love when we ask an opinion of them and do not like the answer that we get.
Fortunately for me, my parents let me come back in good time to them when I was ready to sort things out. Again, the dignity of my own decision.
We as parents deal with this from time to times ourselves. Now that we are in the parenting role we can clearly see what our parents wanted for us. The best. 🙂
I had a good friend Mark when I was a growing boy and he was going through a lot of personal stuff with his parents. His father in particular. I remember telling him Mark your father loves you and thats why he is strict with you.I could see it clearly in Marks family but not in mine because sometimes the perspective is too close.
So in life some lessons are not easy forgotten for a good reason. We may need them In our own families to lead the next generation forward. Amen.
I came across this song quite by accident and when I listened to it I thought how true. I have strong personal beliefs about this subject.
Having lost my 2nd child after 14 days of life I could never understand the act of ending a babies life and existence.
My extended family long ago had a situation that you would think that abortion was tailored for. But by their faith they saw yet another option, life. This child was given an opportunity to live by a couple adopting him. He has had a beautiful and productive life with family, friends, love and faith.
Again, I will say that because of my own personal experience with brain. Cancer that God decides who is born and when we will be called back to him.
So listen to the song and see what your heart tells you.
WE ALL LOOK TO OTHERS TO SHOW US THE WAY. IT IS PART OF OUR LIVES SINCE WE WERE CHILDREN. IN MY DAILY WALK TRYING TO GET MYSELF BACK IN SOME SORT OF SHAPE I SEE EXAMPLES OF STRENTH FROM OTHERS WHO HAVE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH MORE THAN I AND THINK GOD , WHAT AM I COMPLAINING ABOUT ? THE NEXT GENTLEMAN NOAH IS SUCH A EXTRODINARY WITNESS TO THE HUMAN SPIRIT. A TRUE HERO. HE MAKES ME FEEL THAT ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE.
Something that I meant to share earlier this week.
I no sooner completed my blog on Sunday March 22 nd saying that I needed to take a break from my blog and I then took out my bible and this is the immediate reading that was before my eyes. It is amazing that God responds so quickly to us in prayer. This is the reading…
Today is my 53rd birthday. This day marks my first actual birthday since my mom passed so It takes on a special meaning. It is sad but also joyous because she was chosen by God to bring my life into the world with my dad. I know she is still with me and my family watching over and praying for us. Her love was too big to ever just end. Amen.
Also, today marks another milestone. I had my lumbar puncture 3 years ago today at Lahey Clinic in Burlington. During which time I dropped my pocket cross out of my hand onto the floor and the Dr. Put it back into My hand so kindly. 2 weeks after my appointment I received a small yellow,padded envelope in the mail from that Doctor and inside was my cross that I had dropped once again without realizing. What a beautiful act of kindness ,humanity and brotherly love.
My mom fought her own heroic battle with cancer and always said she was here to pray for me too. Our family spent hours in prayer together giving our worries of this life to God and celebrating his love for us all.
/So it is a day of great graditude that God has allowed me to be here in this moment to see a birthday that was not expected due to my diagnosis.
I would also like to say thankyou to all that have prayed for both myself and family over the past 3 years. I will continue to pray for your needs as well.
Day 2 of my week away from my blog I saw a pastor on a program talking about finding your God given gift and living out your life’s purpose. I was glad to be in the moment listening to his words. He said a whole lot of things that resonated with where I currently am at.
The process of living out your purpose begins when we are very young. It could be that we are born with a special need that allows our parents, siblings and families a chance to learn from us.
It could also be that we are born with a very special gift. A very smart young child or prododigy who can play the piano right away that effects the world in a particular way.
we all come with our own very special attributes. None of us have it all though either.
For me I began to ask myself when I was a teenager, whats life and this existence about? All of the heavy duty questions accompanied by the fears of whats goning to happen when we grow up. What would I do? How would I make my living? How would I meet the right girl? etc.
I had attentive parents and grandparents so I was able to weather that period. but it is a scary time when we are young. When my children were born in the back of my mind I remembered my personal experience growing up and watched for the stress signs if they were to arise in my kids. Each child is different but each one has lived through this process to different degrees. You have to love your kids no matter what and let them know that you are with them and will support them as they make their way on their own personal journey. One of the most beautiful parts of a flower is when you watch it bloom. Kids are no different, some flowers take longer to bloom but they all do with love and encouragement. They are all magnificent when they do too. Amen. 🙂
Before you listen to this song next song I would like to say that I do have a personal connection to this song…
It was my first St. Agnes School dance at age 11. I danced with Elizabeth Reagan and although I thought she was nice the magic was not there. lol 🙂 plus, there was like 50 kids at the dance and 85 parents chaperoning us. OMG
I think the fathers all had shotguns too. 🙂
God looks down upon his creation and wants to see us as a brilliant garden of love in service to oneanother.
Just Danny Speaks 