Hello, today I wanted to present to you my second vision/ Vivid Dream that I had back over two years ago. I will draw the canvas through the Holy Spirit and tell you in exact detail what I told Father right after this blessed event took place back over two years ago.
Okay, here we go…..
Back to the day in May 2012, I had been diagnosed with the inoperable brain cancer. I was feeling so tired I honestly did not really care if I passed away or not. I know it sounds strange. Obviously, I want to live as long as possible to be present for my wife, kids, dad and family. But I was feeling a fatigue that I could never fully describe. Also, God put me into such a peaceful state that I was not and am not worrying about it.
Well, that day I was sitting down in my family room and just wanted to go upstairs. My bedroom is a place of real serenity,(truely a prayer room) It has skylights, a door out and large window that look out into my rear yard. I have a massive Beech tree with a 12 foot trunk. It has a massive canopie of leaves. God’s masterpiece. In my prayer/ bedroom I can see God and connect with him through his stars at night just by looking up through the glass in the sky lights. At night, The beech tree is constantly moving in the air and looks so majestic. If you have seen the picture Jesus Wept, I can envision him in that moment and can relate to his agony to a certain degree, I could never have done what the Lord had done for us all. That, I do know.
I told one of my kids, I need to go up and lie down and made my way upstairs with one of my kids. I was fully dressed and layed on the bed. I was on my side looking out the window it was a windy day and the tree branches were swaying. I was praying and said, God, I am so tired. How can I take care of my family? I was not crying I was just asking. I was too exhausted for emotion. I drifted off to sleep and the next thing that happened was this. It is a message for all of us! He loves us all so much 🙂
I was suddenly laying in a small boat, It did not have a sail. I was laying on my left side in the center of this small boat and I could hear water lapping off the side of the boat. I was again laying on my side so my right eye was able to see over the top edge of the boat and off into the distance. I heard in my head the word, Galilee. It was a male voice and was deep, soothing, and a little dragged out. I felt such exhaustion yet so peaceful laying there and was just listening to the lapping water, again, so peaceful. I saw on the distant shore a stone ruins coming up and it had green vines climbing it. I could see off white and white stone the slabs that the wall had been made from. I then noticed trees above the stone ruins. along the ridge. The trees were unlike anything that I had ever seen. My eyes now looked above and notices a pretty blue-ish sky with little birds flying around. It looked like a sky we would see here.
I could not move due to the fact that I was so weak, I remember so vividly that I decided to try and look in front of me all the while I was thinking, what am I going to do to help my family? Again, it was not desperation, just quiet surrender I guess. I managed to turn my neck upward a bit and caught the view of two legs and feet in sandels, The man was sitting sideways but looking ahead of the boat. So, I worked very hard to turn my neck further yet to see more. I saw that this man was wearing a robe and it was very heavy looking, heavy texture with beige, white and gray looking fibers like from a lambs coat. I just remember straining my neck forward further and I saw that the man was looking forward away from me. His hood was on. He had dark hair, with a reddish color to it ( maybe the sun effect ?) and it was blowing back in the breeze. He then turned his head to the right showing me the profile of his rugged tanned face.
I then got this message in the silence of my mind yet they were words again, a gentle authoratative male voice. Do not worry,God created you, He knows the ending. I felt such peace I remember that I put my head down and was resting my neck. We just drifted along in this boat and it was so beautiful, once again I decided I need to look again so I turned my neck once again passed the tanned medeterranean feet and legs up the coat to the gentleman again he was still looking to the right andthen he turned directly to me and smiled. It was Jesus Christ ! As, I sit here The Holy Spirit is leaping inside me .
When Jesus Christ looked at me as I said to Fr. so long ago, His smile was the most beautiful smile, his skin was that of a fisherman from all the sun, his beard and hair where different colors dark black with red tone mixed in. When he smiles his peircing blue eye’s exploded this feeling of love in to me that I will never be able to ever accurately depict. Just know one thing, this is awaiting all of us when we met our Lord 🙂
I awoke when my wife came in to the bedroom to let me know that she had soup for me to eat. I told my wife and the next person I spoke to was Fr. R. I made my way down to the rectory shorty after this miraculous event for confession and to speak with Father. I sat on the chair and said to Father, I want to tell you about a Dream/ Vision that I had and as I began to recount the experience that is detailed above, God filled that room and our Spirits with so much joy that I exploded from the love and was crying so deeply! I could not sit up straight. When I looked up Father was crying a bit too and said, Danny this a very special and rare gift that God has given you.
You see, I am, at my heart a very square conventional person, if you know what I mean. Anything extraordinary that I achieve is through the Holy Spirit.
Getting myself to understand that God would use me to write for his church, write for his people would not be something that I could easily accept. I was not worthy.
Father said, God is confirming that you are doing all they he wants. It was a gift !
I will say this,
Thank you God for telling me otherwise, I really think that I would have perrished from the thought of being disraspectlful to my God and My Lord Amen.
Thank you God for loving us so much. And anyone that might read this, just trust and know that if you are doing good that you feel God is compelling you to. Just pray and do it in the glory of God and he will know !! He will bless you for it as well.
In Gods Love,
Danny
I came across this video just now, led by the Spirit. This young prodegy has done a painting it is the closest to what I can describe Christ as looking like from my vision.
When you go to the link below watch and it is about 1:41 on the link you will see her painting of Christ.
I had a wonderful client some years ago, He had what you would imagine you wanted financially in life but he lacked one more important thing, he had a very bad heart disease. He was so kind, he had a lovely wife and little dog FiFi, and small white poodle. It was his baby wheras they were unable to have children.
Paul was in his 40’s when he woke up in the middle of the night soaking wet in the middle of a heart attack. His heart was so badly damaged that he could not be helped. He was now permanently disabled. It was very difficult for him and was warned to stay calm. He was a man of faith, and was a real a gentleman. A man who would shake hands and make eye contact with you, that type of guy. I know he was suffering from pains in his chest all the time but had to except it and keep living. Again, an inspiration to me. A brick in my foundation.
I remember, talking to Paul about life and stuff but I only pray that I was able to help him. I was so young and I am not sure that I was that great of a witness. I just know that he was a loving and kind man Good to his , wife, mom and dad who were quite elderly too.
Paul was away with his wife mom and dad and stepped out to pick up pizza after a while he had not returned they went out and found him lieing beside his car he had gone out and collapsed. I remember his wife calling me and I visited her and Pauls parents to offer my condolences. Going back to my writing on losing something Sacred , the loss of a child . Pauls mom and dad were devestated, this was there baby that was lost.
We need to validate those we love and let them know daily. I remember these beautiful people and also know that they are with God.
Back some years ago I was working in a home of a lovely couple in their late 70’s. He was a barber his entire life after getting out of the service, and she was a wonderful homemaker who raised her beautiful family. She at the time was worried that her home would not be completed before Easter. I assured her there was no problem. During that time, there were no cell phones so I needed to answer a page that I received. They had one phone in their house located in the kitchen to use. So, I asked to use her phone she said of course. So, I called my wife and I must have answered a question about birthday plans, she heard the conversation. I hung up and just said thank you for the use of her phone she was in another room. She apparently pulled my brother B asside when he walked by the room and Bob told her yes my bithday was tomorrow. The next day as we were working , they called me into the kitchen and had a italian rum cake from a bakery with candles lit and sang Happy Birthday to me with my brother joining in.. Now, is that a God moment or what ?
God bless the Maraglia’s they were angels on Earth. Salt of the Earth.
For them , in their memory.
Etta James
I know they are dancing to this right now in Heaven
I would like to remember someone wonderful that graced my presence years ago. A wonderful client that touched my heart.
I will start with Mrs. Genese
I had a client around 30 years ago that hired my brother B and I to do some decorating in her home. She had to have been around 90 at the time. She was an adorable old Italian women wearing her little cotten flower dress with a small lace apron over it. She had one leg shorter than the other, so one shoe was taller than the other. My brother and I were working and she appeared and said to come in to the kitchen. She had very broken english. We walked in and she said sit down. On the table was fine china cups with coffee and homemade biscotti. She would not take no for an answer. It was a moment that I will never forget. She stood there with her hands clasped and smiling. She was relishing the moment of us enjoying her service and delicious cookies. That was one of lesson that we learned early on in life by my parents. It was instilled in us how valuable our seniors are and should never be forgotten. I guarantee you that she did not feel 90 either she was maintaing her home like she probably had been doing for 50 or 60 years at that point. God is good. Amen.
God Bless Her lovely Soul.
In memory of Mrs. Genese A song from her generation.
This is a very true account and as you will see it contains more that one Miracle.
On a very rainy evening complete with lightening back at the end of April 2012, My wife came home late afternoon after work and it was not raining to badly at that time she asked me, would you like to go down to adoration at the chapel/church today? Adoration for a Roman Catholic is when the Holy consecrated Eucharist is put into a monstrance to hold it and protect it. The monstrance is then placed on the alter of the church or chapel, my parish has both. It allows us to sit in the presence of our Lord. The priest or deacon will normally handle it. We as congregants would not touch it, I certainly do not feel worthy to.
This is a picture of a monstrance, in the center of monstrance the Priest or Roman Catholic Deacon would place the consercrated Euchrist in the center it is protected by glass.
In our Roman Cathoilic tradition and faith in adoration we believe that Christ is present with us, and he is.. It is a beautiful gift to us as believers.
The chapel is very relaxing and generally you can hear a pin drop, a very, very peaceful place.
Fr. Leo Clifford The Blessed Sacrament
Very well done.
Well, my response to my wife was, I don’t know. I was in the midst of treatment , I was tired, did not care about food etc. My wife was trying to get me to eat something . She is a very good cook but nothing appealed to me. By this time the whole family was sitting there with their appetites waiting and my wife said we have a gift certificate that was given to us for the 99 restaurant. But, I said that I did not feel like going out. They do pick up orders as well she said 🙂 So, she asked my daughter to go pick up the food and she said sure. Next, I took about 20 minutes staring at the menu again looking for something that would possibly appeal to me. Finally, I selected the country chicken with brocolli and garlic mashed potatos 🙂 My daughter drove over to pick it up I was sitting here waiting to strap the feed bag on . LOL It arrived home here and One bite later, it was someone’s left overs. lol.,My poor wife. You see, the meds for my cancer treatments made everything taste like 100% salt to me. Don’t worry, I survived and lived to eat another day:) That dinner now tastes good once again too, so way to go 99! and yeah, no more meds!
One very stange thing that I told my Dr. R was my wife was so desperate to get me to eat that she stopped one evening and bought Chinese Food for dinner, a mixture of stuff and came home and said, I have a surprise for you! I said no thanks,( She calls me a brat for good reason) So funny! The smell made my stomach feel a little sick after a while she coaxed me into the kitchen and made me a plate. I ate the whole thing, with lots of mustard sauce. My food was so spicy and it hot! Not usually my choice in foods but as I told my Dr on more than one occasion that It was so hot that my whole head was tingling and nose ran. But the sensation did not scare or bother me. The salt in the food did not bother me either. It was like I was drawn to it and loved the food.Very Strange. Everyone is always telling me some foods are healing by their natural properties which, I do believe. God created a masterpiece in nature and we added chemicals etc. The doctor kind of chucked but I said, I know it sounds weird but I think that it acted in aiding my body to fight the cancer, I may be wrong. But twice over a lengthy period of time I felt compelled to announce this to my doctor. So who knows? Here is the information on the hot mustard sauce, I guess you can decide if it has any medicinal purposes on your own.
The following is off the web.
What makes hot mustard hot? Readers frequently ask this question. I can understand their confusion. After all, the recipe for hot mustard is quite simple: dry mustard, cold water, perhaps some rice wine. What is it about this seemingly simple preparation that gives China’s most popular table condiment its strong bite?
The answer lies in the chemical properties of mustard seeds. Mustard seeds come from the mustard plant, a member of the cabbage family. They contain two sulphur compounds, myrosin and sinigrin, as well as an enzyme, myrosinase. When the seeds are broken and water is added, the enzyme breaks down the sulphur compounds. The result is the sharp tasting oil that gives mustard its pungency, and helps explain why the name mustard comes from the Latin words mustum (much) and ardens (burning).
So anyway, back to that night, it was now thundering and pouring out. It was around 8:00 at night and the phone rang. It was my friend from NY the deacon once again checking out how everything in Danny’s world was going. 🙂
We spoke, I hung up and said, I want to go to the chapel. My wife said Dan, it is so late it was about 8:15 p.m. I said I have to go, she oh, alright. Remember my wife left for work at 6 am in the morning and was still serving me. She started down the stairs she in front of me carrying my walker, and heard the rain outside and said , Dan, this is crazy. It is pouring buckets and thundering out there. I responded I need to go again. So she relented, sighing. Down we drove to the church in horizontal rain. We pulled up in the handicapped spot, there were plenty of cars in the church lot. My wife said, lets wait until it slows down a bit. And, I just said J take the umbrella for yourself I don’t care about the rain as I got out of the car. She came around the car and got my walker out of the rear of the car and was covering me with her umbrella. She is an amazing wife, I said no, cover youself honey, I am fine, it is healing rain, I love it. So we crossed the parking lot through huge puddles of water. When we stepped into the chapel there were a lot of people there for Adoration,to our Lord. They were reciteing the Rosary etc. Just resting in the Lord. very Beautiful.
People saw us come in and it was like the parting of the sea, a very beautiful gesture, a couple of the older parishoners got up to give myself and my wife two rocking chairs next to one another towards the back of the chapel and took seats elsewhere in the chapel.
You see Miracle # 1 of this account was set to take place. I did not know why I had to go in that moment to the Chapel , or why my wife had brought it up that day but, God did.
So, my wife and I were sitting in our rocking chairs, I was focusing on the body of Christ exposed on the alter in the monstrance. It was so peaceful. My eyes were closed listening for God and I heard the word Holy. I remember being at such peace. I opened my eyes and heard Holy once again. My head turned slightly to the right looking ahead of me and there was a person sitting off to the right of me about I guess 4-5 feet away. Again, I received the word Holy. I began to pray and was trying to figure out the words to a prayer that I felt I should say and suddenly my wife without a word passed me a prayer card she had and had been useing herself and It was the prayer that I was silently attempting to think of and recall. 1 card after another the same story, came from her hand. It was breathe taking for me to see my wife praying these prayers on the these prayer cards and passing them to me. She had no idea what she was doing in conjunction with Heaven. She looked to me and saw that something was happening my face I am sure was in awh. I just leaned to my wifes ear and said unbelievable. God uses us all to help one another and my wife is by far my greatest God given gift. We were there at the church and it was now 10 pm the church bells were sounding and the rain was pounding the roof of the chapel. I tapped my wife on the knee as said are you ready ? She said yes, So, I stood up and my wife passed me my walker. As I began, to move the man that God had told be was Holy popped out of the rocker in front of me and now was face to face with me. My wife and I knew F. from an Arise meeting at my church and he is a very nice person. This was our exact exchange while standing in the chapel.
He was talking at a whisper being in the chapel but when its quiet everyone hears everything crystal clear. Plus I have a voice like a fog horn it is a strong voice. Lol There are times that when I am in the confessional Father has to quiet my voice a little bit, I think the old ladies outside the confessional were dropping like flies. lol Sorry, I could not help myself. 🙂
I am sure God wanted everyone in the chapel to witness his presence in that moment through us. You know psalm #139, He new we all would be here in this moment by his will. Amen.
F said,
Dan, I felt called by God a few weeks ago to get this medallion. I have been in prayer on my knee’s asking for Gods guidance he said, this is for you. It is the face of Christ.He put it over my neck and gave my wife the papers that came with it. I said no F, I cannot accept this. And, In that very moment my wife and F can attest that the Holy Spirit took over and out of my mouth came, thank you F, you will get it back when Dan is healed. With that he hugged me prayed a prayer for healing over me, hugged my wife and we said God Bless You. We still marvel at this event. That is a Miracle in itself.
When the Holy Spirit speaks whether verbally or through writing He speaks declarations to us and there is authority to it, there is a sted fast resolve to get it right for God. The Holy Spirit through us gives life to God’s words to one another. Through testimony and witnessing. Everyone of us does it if we are in Christ Jesus. THe Holy Spirit is not wishy washy. He brings only good and only the truth. It is very simple.
At this time I was in my 6 week radiation schedule, it ended around 6-16-2012. So this event that I will detail took place at around the end of May /the beginning of June. I went into the radiation room as I did so many times for treatment they swiped my card and loaded my radation therapy program into the computer like they did everyday. I always took off my cross and anything medal for my wife and brothers to hold before treatment. it was always done without fail.
The attendants rolled me in my wheelchair up to the treatment bed and I got on with their assistance . They were a wonderful group of people.They made me comfortable and strapped my body down to prevent my body from moving accidently. They snapped the mask that was made to tarket the cancer for treatment to the table tightly,so again, I could not move my head by accident. They exited the chamber and said as they did okay Dan , see you in a few. I thanked them all as usual. The machines started in an auto sequence with my treatment. This machine was just doing a ballet around my head the full circumference shooting radiation into the center of my brain to get this in operable brain tumor. Suddenly, I said awh OOOOOOO, to myself. I realiized that the cross was around my neck still as was the face of Christ Medal. It sounds crazy but I stayed calm and in prayer, I knew God had it. No matter what ! I still feel that way ! I did not create the universe, he did. Meanwhile, my wife was outside the vault with my brother and said S, did you get Dannys cross? S said no. They jumped up and ran to the desk to inform them. They said do not worry, his radiation is above the neck so its okay.
Meanwhile back in the Vault as I call it, The treatment only took a few moments and I had my prayers down to the second, I was praying fast and with such fervor, for everyone that needed prayers, giving my stored graces in Heaven to God for others who may need them etc. Thats what I was called to do then and I am still a prayer warrior for God that is my current. job and responsibility.
Well back to the the night before for a second. sorry, I was praying for hours and was finally going to bed.I had shut off the light and was getting out of my chair. I noticed this folded white paper. I thought ,what is this? I opened it up and it was the paperwork given by F in the chapel to my wife, the night that I was given the face of Christ medal. I turned the light back on and sat down. It is from the Holy Face society. I read about what it means it origin and and the protection it gives the wearer. They medals wear extremely popular during World War Two.
Another thing, I would like to say right now as the Holy Spirit is guiding me. A number of years ago, I had an employee a wonderful worker, and a christian man and a good family man. For some reason he would come against me from time to time and say you know, you do not have to wear a cross. I said, I know that T but I am conforted by it . It is a reminder of what God and Jesus did for me. That was it. he would badger me from time to time. I will say this, no peice of medal, wood etc has magic powers. What they serve as is a reminder for the wearer of an event that happened a sacrafice beyond our true comprehension. The face of Christ that I was wearing for instance that was given to me was prayed with to God, was given to me in the chapel for a reason I might add, I then prayed with it and it found its way around my neck and was there for my radiation treatment, it had never happen before that metal was ever in that room with me. It is the prayers of that beautiful man F, my prayers and the faith that God gave me that the following account could ever be possible in my life.
The next Miracle….
I was getting ready to complete my treatment, the medal was around my neck I knew the machines by the way they were moving that I was almost done( the machines mades like a robot sound as it spins turns and swivels around my head. It was always amazing to listen to.( relaxing ) God inspired so much through the Holy Spirit to some very beautiful scientists. So, I was wrapping up my prayers to Heaven, as God as my witness, All of a sudden in my head I heard Face Of Christ Protect Me. And, There was a huge flash so bright with my eyes shut and mask on that my head lit up inside I just remember white light I said thats not good to myself. The staff came back and said okay Dan your all set, I did not say one word to them getting off the table , I just said thank you and God bless you as I always did. You see I was seeing my radiology oncolgist next. God had me in such a peaceful place. He was in charge! No hesteria it was like breathing , no big deal. So, I came out and my wife said Dan, you have your medals on, I said, I know. She said , we got so nervous and told the secretary and she said no worry they are below the neck. We had always been instructed to remove them and I had. We rolled out of the radiology suite and started down to the doctors appointment my wife said Dan are you all right? Your face is all red. I said yah, the machine screwed up and I can’t see out of my left eye. My wife and brother were like what !? I said its okay, my left eye was a very soothing white whirlpool type of vision. I said I will talk to the Dr. We waited in the waiting room my wife fed me a yogurt because I have 1 hand to use, so it made it easier for me. she was calm considering the circumstances but not thrilled obviously. Meanwhile,I was sitting and facing the television and eating the yogurt and I said hey to my wife, somethings happening with my eye, it seems to be clearing. She said really? I said yes. My brother S went up to the desk and said my brother Dan has an appointment with the Dr. The secretary said, let me check and and my brother said he does, it was canceled yesterday on him so they changed it to today instead. She responded oh yes, we will bring you in to the office shortly. We were brought into the room and by that time my eye was back to normal. The Dr. A came in with his head assistant they were both awesome.My wife, brother and myself were there and the doctor asked me how I was and the Holy Spirit spoke directly to him, Dan was just blinded in his radiation treatment, he looked shocked, his mouth literally fell open, they both did as a matter of fact. The doctor panned over in disbelief at what he was hearing to my brother and my wife and they said it is true. Again, their eyes were fiiled with concern and were watery, I said that I can see now I would say that it was about 25 minutes before it cleared from when the machine malfunctioned.
They excused themselves and ran out of the room right away.I was sure they went to the radiology lab to check the machine and the event that had occurred. I will continue this tomorrow.
In The Beginning of true Spiritual awakening of all of us is a long time in the making. We experience different levels of awareness in God, his existence and supreme gift to us all and I m not talking about life 🙂 That is a Miracle in itself. I am referring to the gift of The Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit as far as I am concerned is our bridge to the Almighty, he facilitates all that is good, he inspires us, he warns us,he allows God to fill us with joy and allows our conscience to feel guilt for a wrong doing.The Holy Spirit will help to bring us to our knees for repentence before our Lord. The Holy Spirit that dwells within every one of us is God given and works in concert with our desires, needs and to allow us to fulfill our destiny for God and his people. We need to allow The Holy Spirit to work with us. We need to pray for his assistance in a meaningful way. I mentioned this in one of my recent blog writing that I began praying and commiting myself to God and the holy Spirit with my daily shower and telling all of Heaven that the water was my rededication and reminder of my baptismal water. I say daily to God that I surrender myself to whatever he wants from me and tell the Holy Spirit to please use me to the best of my ability. Lastly, I call on all of Heaven through my prayers for all of the Angels and Saints to please bestow on me any gifts of the Spirit that I may need in the future. Heaven is for real.:) This is a very special time that we are living in, a time like no other. It is a time of Miracles, it is a time of God’s pouring out of The Holy Spirit and Spiritural gifts for eachone of us. We all have our very own special gifts. Some we are born with some we acquire from God in the moment of his choosing. Our gifts can bend and change over a period of time based on what God wants and needs us to accomplish. The one prerequsite that God has for each of us to open our hearts and desire to be an agent of good to be the light to oneanother. It is simple. Through my childhood, adolescence and even into my 30’s I was always searching for my true God and his existence. I could feel him to a certain degree but the picture was still far from focus. During that time for me the 90’s. Life had a lot of moments of hurts from people you know, daily nonsence. Its hard to see God when you are surrounded by others who are not necessarily in Christ or God based. You are wandering around in a crowd of lost sheep many of which have no idea that they are even lost. I am not judging but it is indeed a fact. Well in the latter part of my 30’s I managed to bring my picture into a little more clarity with prayer and the assistance of others through a beautiful retreat know as Cursillo in a retreat house know as St. Basil’s in Methuen, Ma. that was I believe in Oct 1999. My wife went in November of the same year. It was life changing, the focus and picture was now crystal clear! It was an intersection where God made himself and his presence known. It is a Miracle, just as St. Basils is. You should call and look into this retreat house. It will be the best gift that you can give yourself ! So, I came back from that retreat and one of my friends called me the next day and said, hey Dan, I saw you walking on the water of the lake today 🙂 It was so funny,he knew that I was on Fire .lol Each day that we live sets the stage for the next day and action. So all of the many little or big moments of my daily journey that come out onto this blog journal are always building for a bigger God moment. They are all God moments because he is there with us getting us through. All of our Spiritual Gifts are to be shared. It is not about us. This blog tells my journey through God. It his victory over death (my) and yours. God wants my life psalm #139 shared so that all will see him, and draw closer to our Heavenly Father. 4- 5 years ago, I am not sure of the date, I was called out of the blue into some of the most intense Spiritual experiences that I could ever have imagined. I was blown out of the water, I will just refer to them as writing for my church. The details of those writings were not for us , they are for the church. I will say this anyone with a sense of Spiritural awareness just needs to look at the news or turn on the television to see what is going on. The world is out of balance. This process was stretching myself and family to the max. The Holy Spirit is just so awesome. My spiritual adviser said to me , Dan, lets just see where it goes, and we did. I will explain about this experience at a later date. My first vision, vivid dream, about 4-5 years ago during the time I was doing the church writings. I was asleep and had the most vivid dream. God uses our own lifes experiences and will make them part of his message in my case it was based in my lifes work and I have been for over 30 years through the gift of the Holy Spirit an interior Designer. I have done projects that when I had completed them looked at them and said, God, I did that! I did through God and love alone complete my projects .More on that later too!:) So, I was sleeping and my vision which seemed like forever started. I am giving my account to you exactly as It happened and was told to my priest, my adviser and friend long ago… This remember was more that 3 years before my cancer diagnosis. I walked up to the door of this house and rang the bell. I had decorating samples in my hand. A women came to the door and opened it, I just remember how pleasant she was, I could hear children laughing and she said, excuse me for a moment and walked away off to the left in the direction of the children. I did not see them but heard them laughing. So, I stood there and it seemed like a while, I being the type A personality and loving what I did. I said to myself, I will just walk in to the right here and see what she needs. So the interior was very itherial everything was a very soothing white color. It was extremely peaceful. I just kept walking and ahead of me was a hallway with a very bright light people were coming out of the light and passing me again all faces were non descript, everything was very etherial and white. I noticed that there was something on the wall that everyone that came out of the hall seemed to be stopping to look at so, I wandered over to it and looked and was a very pale colored picture I recognized it immediately. It was the shroud of Turin. I have to say this too, I had never given 1 seconds thought to the shroud in my life yet here it was . Well any way I could hear voices from down the end of the long extremely bright hallway and hear a booming voice and laughter it was pure joy. When I got to the entrance I realized, I shouldn’t be here, I had wondered from where I was left to wait. I would never wander around my clients home. So, I returned to where I was waiting by the door. I was getting annoyed and it was like 4 hours. Well, the really pleasant women was back and said she was sorry for the delay and she opened the door to the left of me. The children were quiet now and she guided me into the room. I stood there and there was a very large white table in front of me. As I stood there the women was standing to the left side of the table looking at me and there was another figure to the right side of the table looking at me as well. The women looked at me and, I felt love like I had never felt before. She said again sorry for the wait, I remember having been so angry to had to wait 4 hours for her to return and , I just responded its okay and she said to me you are an angel. Of course, I told Father I am certainly not, I am a sinner like everyone. I remember feeling intense love. I knew that it was my Blessed Mother. She without a word uttered pointed down to the table and moved her hand over the surface as if she wiped the table and the white milky color left and it now had a clear glass. It was a case. I could see all kinds of relics, bottles of oils, and religous statues related to my faith and she spoke these words to me, We want you to have many Spiritual gifts. And that was it. I woke up and is as alive today and vivid as the time that it occured. I have had years to think of why The Blessed Mother would call me an angel, because I am not. So I have a couple of thoughts on that. 1.) She knowing that I was upset with waiting for her which my Blessed Mother would know and yet I told her no problem thought that I was kind? 2.) Everything that I have done in writing including this blog through the Holy Spirit is never about me or any one of us . We are all loved the same. And what mother does not look upon her child at least as an angel in training? 🙂 Thats the best I can do on that thought last but not least the booming laughter and joy was, I know, was Our God! I was given a glimpse of Heaven. I pray everyday to continue to grow for his purpose and into his will completely . Amen. Better Is one day In Your House By Kutless https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jdE03zRJtxw In Christs Holy Name, Danny
I had just completed surgery at the Lahey Clinic, the awake surgery as it is called. I did very well by the grace of God only. The doctor addressed me and then stepped out to tell my wife and daughter that things went well. He told her what he had told me. I was taken up to a room shortly thereafter. I went to the restroom in my room and got into bed. remember, I had no surgical meds in me so I felt great and was busy with my family coming in and out visiting me. I had a tv on the swivel arm it was a whole new world to me. lol I know my nephew Stevie when he was in the hospital some time ago told his parents he wanted one for his room at home . Kids are the best!
I ate dinner, and relaxed, I ordered my family to go home 🙂 My wife was exhausted and I felt great. So they agreed and I was left with the tv, it had a radio too lol. My cell phone was sitting on the little table. I got quiet and began to pray and reflect on the day. The doctors and nurses where in and out and there was nothing to report. Everything was hunkey dorey. 🙂 Well my cell rang at around 730 ish, I am guessing it was and My friend who happens to be a Catholic deacon and lives in the big apple said , Danny how are you? I responded never better, So I told him what had happened that day and he said just amazing, Dan what your telling me is just reinforcing my faith so much. He understands this is not the norm and he works in the medical field. So, I hung up with my friend and began to pray my rosary once again and I received a text. One thing that I have come to understand is that God is working Spiritually on every one of us literally every second that we are here on Earth. The only requirement on our account is to work at our personal relationship with him. God has perfect timing after all he is the author of life. This next account would give anybody shivers.
So, I am laying their minding my own p and q’s as my mom would say. I get a text hey danny, how are you ?
I responded hi how are you ? I am doing great!
she responded can I call ? I said sure
One other point that I would like to share before I continue is that the only reason that my friend at this time had my cell # is that we worked together. I had changed jobs into her department and schedules were staggered for arrival time and I felt bad she was juggling two boys and work. I had offered to come in on all of her 5 am shifts and cover for her, For the record she never took me up on the offer, she gets things done. We also never spoke outside of work. You see God knew that she needed that number for just this moment! So she had it and I had her in my address book, I do not answer calls that I do not recognize.
My phone rang, I answered and she said Danny, did you end up having surgery? I said yes, and that I was in the hospital overnight . I said, God has it, I feel great…
Now some background on how I met this person. Because of the slowing economy one year prior to my diagnosis which would have been the spring of 2011 I took a job at a local Home Depot part time to close the gap and to try and stay ahead of our monthly expenses here. I would be up at 330am and punch in before 5 am. I would work until 10 am , then go off to my clients homes to complete their work usually working to around 7pm. Speaking as a man, I have always believed that a father has to lead his family by example, so work and sacrafice should be the norm. My father witnessed that to me and is the finest man I know. And finally, by nature of my Catholic Faith, I am called by God to lead my family Spiritually.morally and ethically. God does have a standard. It does not mean that I have always hit that mark but God knows, I do try.
Let me state for the record my wife always lead with me, and when I was at my weakest SHE took everything over ! So women can do exactly what a man does without the ego of course! LOL, I don’t think I’m getting back any of that power back either! So funny! she is small but fiesty. xoxo
Well, during my time at home depot I met so many wonderful people from all walks of life. I met a very nice person , I/we value her as a wonderful family friend now. This person worked side by side with me at work for the last think about 4- 6 months or so while I was at home Depot prior to my illness. She has/had a really protective shell, she is very bright, witty,smart and tough. I am easy going but agreesive in sales and I love to work. My typeA personality really shows up. I honesty love working with people and love to fulfill the clients needs. To give them more than they barganed for so they will build on that relationship with me. You have to be sincere all the times. So, things were tough a lot of people there were having their own worries, doesn’t everybody? I would walk around the building on breaks and connect with others supporting them, offering my prayers. Their we’re lovely people there doing the same for me.
My friend, foe at that time called me Danny sunshine or something to that effect. She called me a phony on more than one occasion. I just did notlet it bother me. I was always giving it up for God and would tell everyone offer up the stuff and suffering. She would say to me ,you piss me off. LOL . I would laugh with my co workers and say, you love me, she would snap no, I don’t. You know what, I appreciated that she was /is authentic she said what she felt and that was great, I said God tells me different. So this continued for a few months, I was always hugging everybody, it my nature and way anyway. She saw me with clients in action. You have to practice what you preech, people are watching and listening. As a matter of fact, I feel that if a person is phony with people and proclaim that they are God fearing that this action not only does harm your relationship with God and our soul but this action can also destroy what people who are searching for God the opportunity of meeting God through you! I believe that we are accountable for our failures of not helping others. We are the fisher of men after all.
So any way this person and I really ended up having a good relationship at work, I loved her for who she was and respected her. She could not figure me out and thought I was nuts and that too was fine with me. 🙂
God had ordained this situation for us both to learn. And, back to the account , She calls, and we are speaking about surgery and she broke out in the most beautiful deeply routed tears from her soul, it is called a healing, another miracle as far as I am concerned.. She continued to cry, and said you don’t understand Danny its because of you that I believe in God. You told me that you had to go through this and were not afraid, I can’t believe, well any way that conversation was beautiful and we hung up. I sat there on my bed and said oh, I still have not finished my prayers yet . I said a special prayer for my friend. With that my cell phone slipped on to the floor so I did what any brain surgery patient would do, I rolled onto my side stretched down to the floor to retreve it. How stupid that was now that I am remembering it but, it was for a purpose. after I finished my prayers I thought of my friend and I had a message from God for her, It was now around after 9:00. I sent a text hey-, I just finished the rosary and before you go to bed tonight say a special prayer to God,The Holy Spirit and the Blessed Mother ask them to reveal to you that they are in the moment with you.They will.
She called right back saying OMG. As, I sent the text she was on the knee’s beside her bed asking for God’s presence she had not done this for years, so my text and her action proved that God and heaven were indeed there in that exact moment. Joy burst her heart . and she was on the road again towards the cross. Our God is an Awesome God! He loves us all so much 🙂
Finally believe it or not…..
A man came into my room at around 10 ish, I was suppose to be in a slumber by now. But, I was still going strong. I guess you could say that I was God strong. 🙂 He said, hi I hope I am not disturbing you, I said no. He said he was the head Chaplin. I said oh that’s good could I get the Eucharist please, he apologized and said he was not Catholic, I said okay:) So he said can we speak? I said sure , he grabbed the chair and sat beside me. He said there are a lot of people who are talking. They are upset, patients, staff here etc, can you tell me what happened earlier downstairs, what they had witnessed. I said nothing, I had surgery and smiled. That is the moment that God through the switch on in my head to realize what God was truely doing through me. I declared to him that it was God, and we spoke for a few more minutes about the events. He thanked me and gave me a Blessing and he left.
As a side note, a few months later a women approached me in my church who is a eucharistic minister at Lahey and said her boss, the one I was talking to that night had been speaking about my witness to him and she said I know him. You see we are all connected.
I will be putting a very special psalm onto my blog in the next day or so . God revealed this psalm to me nearly three years ago in writings I had done in the Holy Spirit. It makes all the peices of our lives fall togeather. We really have no worries.
The day after surgery, I got up put the shower cap on to protect my wound and hopped into the shower, all by my onesies, I survived but the nurse said, I should of just let know. oops That does make since but then again, I felt so well. I was going to be discharged and the bride was coming to get me.lol
I ate my breakfast, watched the news, the team of doctors came in and one was a women she was so lovely her presence was very kind. I am guessing she was assisting the doctor or surgeon the day before in the OR. You know with the gowns , breath masks and hats it is hard to deceifer who is who .lol
What happened next is the gospel truth,
The doctors came in and they were assessing me, and I said I don’t think I can go back to what I was doing before. ( meaning work) because, I realized my left side was effected and I said do you think that there might be a job here somewhere for someone like me? I need to make money, and I want to help others, they all looked shocked, I had surgery not 24 hours before but God is hope, God is our protector the Holy Spirit was helping me look forward by his grace to a future and I was not living my diagnosis!
She started to get emotional and said, I told my husband last night what happened in the hospital yesterday. Then she said excuse me and left the room. She came back from her office with some information that I could look into, she said you can’t think about work right now you have to fight this illness thats what matters. I thanked them , God Blessed them and they departed the room. I sat on the bed my wife was there by my side the whole time. After a short while the nurse came in with my discharge instructions. He was a very kind person also and after I signed the discharge papers and he hugged me , I thanked him and said God Bless You , he hugged me again and said no one wanted me to leave. What God was doing through my illness was showing his glory. People were not responding to me. What they were responding to was the Spirit of God it is just that simple.
God Bless You All!:)
Danny
p.s, I am taking a couple of days away from the blog to recharge, God’s time.
Today I am going to share some down right Miracles witnessed my many people including my Surgeon Dr. D included at Lahey Clinic in Burlington back in 2012. I wrote of my Lahey experience back a week or so ago. I also said at that time that there were things that I could not devuldge at that time, again it is per what I feel God wants to speak of. He knows the why,I am accustomed to it now. God is always right. I feel peace from God and I know that today is the day to begin the account.
I will list the events and you will see God in them all.
Some of this stuff might be graphic to illustrate what the events were. So a little warning, I am not working from a script or draft of any kind, I am working through the Holy Spirit and he is live from heaven lol. I assure you he will get this account right, he was with me then and and he is responsible for my making it through this process and witnessing God to everyone. I personally take no credit for the following factual account. He is with us all and always has been.
For my brain biopsy procedure to get the grading of my cancer. which was a grade four Gleo and it was non surgical. Meaning, it could not be removed.
1.) I was brought down to the pre surgical unit to have a surgical metal crown installed on to my skull, It was heavy and had two peices. I was backed in on my gurney into the small prep area. It had a wall behind me, a curtain that drew to either side of my bed and the corrider in front of me that was wide open. There were people in the other beds and parking spaces all around me sorry, I told you I have a dark sense of humor. So any way, I was cranked up to a sitting position. The doctor and assistant were behind me. There was a nurse standing at the foot of my bed to the right side watching me. She had a very almost sad look on her face probably because she knew what was to come. The doctor said okay Dan we need to get going sorry we can’t do anything for the pain I am sorry, The Holy Spirit was there and responded it’s okay,
Next, I felt the weight of piece number one of the crown being placed on my head and then the sound of the drill. He said okay Dan and I felt the screws going into the back of my skull. I could be wrong but I believe there were four screws around the circumference of my head. I remember feeling the pain and what God and the holy Spirit did was amazing .I said oh, I can feel it and next the pain was gone and out of my mouth came Oh, its okay I am fine praise you Jesus, thank you Mary. I am speaking of My Most Blessed Mother. As I said before their is one God and many different churches. I as a Roman Catholic we do not worship Mary but we do venerate her and Honor her because she was chosen by God above all women to be The Savior Jesus Christs Mother which happily makes The Blessed Mother my mom too .It gives me great comfort, and I pray the rosary and chaplet with her daily for you all too.
Each screw went in and the same thing happened I could feel it announce the pain and The Holy Spirit would announce the same, its okay now and begin Praise to God, and thanked The Blessed Mother for her assistance. The nurse looking at me was fighting tears back. She was actually backing away from me a little into the curtain behind her.
If you know me you know my voice does not require a microphone. What I did not realize at this time , but then again, why would I have? This pre-op department was not just for brain surgical procedures alone the man laying directly across from me was witnessing the crowning and the praise and worship service directly. He looked like he was frightened and yet mesmerized by what God was doing. There was a women beside mecurtain # 1 to my left, sorry again for my humor, who was saying to her staff whats happening to him they were trying to calm her. Apparently everyone in the unit was listening and heard it all .( I will explain later in detail )
The next thing after part 1 of the crown went on my head they said Dan we are going to put the top of the crown on now. it screws into the bottom of the crown.The Spirit responded okay.Not one tear was ever shed.
Well I was crowned and the doctors said okay we are ready So, out of the bed space I went and as I was rolling out with the medical team the doctor said Sorry Dan the crown is heavy, we will try to help support it. The Holy Spirit announced through my mouth no problem, I have a strong neck. The Holy Spirit greeted everyone in that pre op ward. I rolled by like it was in a parade and Blessings were coming out of my mouth through the Holy Spirit The people were all in shock seeing me smiling they looked like they had seen something out of this world and guess what ? They did! Not because of who I am but because of Who God is. The evil of cancer picked on me, and God decided to show everyone that he is here with us all. I will say this yet again, This is to me the time of miracles for all of us.
My miracle is not again about me. God loves us all and as far as to why I am here and why God has not taken me yet, I feel honestly that perhaps he has granted me extra time to get myself ready to meet him. Perhaps it will be tommorrow or 30 years from now. I do not know and who does ? What I do know is he loves us more deeply than we could ever understand.
Into the hallway we went on our way to MRI. You see the crown that was placed on my head is necessary so they can do an MRI on my brain to map how to go into my skull to get a biopsy sample from the brain tumor. The Holy Spirit even gave a God Bless You greeting as they rolled me down the hall. There was a staff electrician changing light bulbs in that hall that stepped asside so we could pass. He looked shocked as I greeted him. We got to the MRI suite and the staff went in to give the information to the staff inside the unit that two minute window where my wife and I were waiting in the hallway my cell phone went off, my wife had it with her, I nonshalontly said to her who is it? She said its mom, (my mother) I said, I’ll take it, I will never forget the conversation , Hi mom , how are you she said good darlin , My mom said I just thought I would check into see how your day was going. I said good mom, I am just on my way into the store to get a few things it was getting late in the day, so she bought it. She said okay honey, I let you go, she told me she loved me and I responded the same to her and we hung up. What was really something is that while I was talking to my mom the MRI staff had come out and was waiting to bring me in for the test and heard everything that came from my mouth and their hearts were on fire. You see, God shows courage, kindness and love all the time the Holy Spirit was giving me the grace necessary to do Gods will to help others in a very special way. The Holy Spirit was in control with God. You see my parents were not told a word about me until we were certain of what was going on. My mom when she realized later on that I was actually in the hospital at the time of her call to me cried and said that she did understand why I did it, but please never do it again.
So, the staff took me in and transferred me from the gurney to the MRI bed and the test was done, my brain was mapped. They were all thanked and Blessed as I left by the Holy Spirit, (sounds crazy huh ). But it is true.
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They took me directly down to the surgical suite, I gave my wife a kiss and one of my children had come to be with my wife, everything was happening at lightening speed.
I got into the OR there was Dr. D and another surgical associate standing with him above the head of my table. There was an anesthesiologist at the foot of the bed. It was explained to me again, sorry Dan this is called the awake surgery, we need you to be awake so you that you can respond to our voice commands. Because damage can happen to your brain we need to know if our probe is damaging the brain or something to that effect. We cannot for that reason give anesthesia for this reason for this surgury. I remember the Holy Spirit was in control and I was very calm. He responded to them okay. The Holy Spirit went on to say to the doctors and all the medical staff, thankyou, for helping me, God chose them in this time to help me. The anesthesiologist was looking at my face and I could see that she could sence something not of this world taking place and was filled with joy, and perhaps a little fear only God knows. She broke in and said don’t worry Dan, when the doctors complete the biopsy, I can give you some meds like they use when you have a colonoscopy they are like twilight drugs that help you forget some of what you went through. okay, I said that sounds good thankyou. The next thing that happened was they put a mask over my face/ visor it was clear like a window.
The doctor D then said Dan, we are going to be cutting into your skull a spot that is what you will hear and feel okay, again I was calm they were monitoring my heart and everything stayed on an even keel. They took a small piece of black fabric and covered my clear visor, obviously they were going to making small hole into my skull and they did not want to get my viser dirty which potentially could upset me.The little saw or drill started and they again kept talking to me softly to soothe me, they were all wonderful. God had put me into such a deep peaceful state.The doctor said I am sorry Dan I am now going down behind your eye it is going to hurt, I felt that pain for sure. The Holy Spirit took over he announced it okay the pain is gone and out came the Holy Spirit just like in the pre -op department saying Praise you Jesus, Praise you Jesus , thankyou my Blessed Mother and so on , the doctor said okay Dan please move your fingers, and a couple of other commands. I said okay, made the rquested movements and he said good. At that point I laid there with no drugs, no pain and I was doing Praise and worship and thanking them all for helping me. I could not see the doctors faces the whole time but I did see the face of the anesthesiologist she was beautiful and extremely moved by what God was showing her and God only knows what the doctors faces were doing behind me. She could see them. In those units they can talk a language with their eyes without uttering one word .
So anyways, I was laying there the doctors were putting in stitches to close the wound. I am laying their with the black cloth on my face mask and I could look down on an angle and make out the person still at my feet. Out of my mouth I swear to God, I said Luke, I am not your Father from the Starwars movie, thats what I felt like with my black mask on Dark Vader. Everyone began to laugh and the anesthesiologist had tears in her eyes. She reached forward, and removed the fabric and my visor was then clear once again. A few minutes later she announced that they would not bother to give me the twilight medicine because it was possibility that it may make me feel lousy or tired. I had done so well and they did not want to do that to me. i said okay, I felt great.
When the surgery was over,stitches etc the Dr. D came over to me and said, incredible Dan in 30 years I have never had a patient not cry, and behave in this manner during this surgery. I said it was God not me, again it is my feeling that that God was useing my illness not just to mend me but to show others he is here. With God anything is possible. He is shaking people up and I am just so fortunate to be as I have called it a passenger on the bus where God and The Holy Spirit are allowing me to witness things in a much different way than I normally would have been able to .Why God is allowing me to witness and experience this is only for him to know. It is not because I am any different than all of you my brothers and sisters out there.
I was thinking over the last few days about all of the worry and thoughts that race through our minds. Have you ever been sitting there relaxing in a chair peacefully and then a thought or worry comes from left field you literally have to get up and walk it off. It used to happen to me me from time to time a couple of years ago. I was also able to happen to me while being in the midst of a gethering of some sort. For me, it was usually based in business and family related issues. It all stems from scheduling issues and trying to juggle work schedule with my wife and kids. On top of that my wife and I were helping with the care of her mom and dad. So, things were so busy. I could be in a chair one moment relaxing and a troubling thought or worry based emotion would throw me off the chair like a top. I would some times get out of the chair and try to walk it off. You also cannot run from your mind as I came to learn. These events would essentially make my brain freeze like an overload.( I know we all have them) I needed to get a grip on what was going on! I think doing too much sometimes makes us feel good and successful. But in hein sight If back in that day I had been more rooted in God and was not trying to be all to everybody and save everbody that it would have been a healthier thing for myself and others. We need to trust in God. If, we are doing things from the heart then God is in it with us. But, we need to know his word, the bible before we can be successful. I was in so much personal pain and nobody really knew what was going on inside of me .Remember I was the face of an A personality. Everything was fine outwardly but inside I was burning out, I was mastering my ship onto the rocks. My drug of choice was food. it became my personal joke. The first one at the buffet table I would laugh but it really was not funny to me, it was shame with a laugh attached to it.
During my healing with this cancer illness and combined with writings I had done for my church. A calling that I received from God to sound a horn of a warning to the church and later an email chain from God to his people to turn back to him they were called love letters from God. It was also back at that time that I began to be enlightened through the Spirit and learned more about who I am the good and the bad aspects. I have to share it all in this blog as I said before this is my chance to tell God’s story of victory not just for me but for eachone of us personally. Some of the stuff that will come out with blog is just so fantastic and it is what it is, the glory of God.You see prior to 2012 and the onset of this illness I was under the wrong understanding of what helping others is all about. I did not realize what I was doing at the time but it was hurtful to myself, my family and yes even to those I thought I was helping.
I came to realize after many years and once I began to write in the Holy Spirit that I cannot save anyone including myself. Jesus saves us. We are called to be Jesus to oneanother. We need to pray for eachother, support etc, but we also have to give everyone the diginity of their own decisions. We can show a way if asked to help someone but cannot always drive them there. It is their free will choice. God knows where they are truely at, far better than we do.
God speaks of helping in one of his parables that you can show a man how to fish, but we are not required to feed them forever, meaning that he does want us to help and support them but we cannot carry them forever. If they are not handicapped and are capable of course. They will never learn to find who they are in God for themselves. God gives everyone very special gifts of their own. Their is so much diginty that a person derives in taking on their destiny and seeing what God has in store for them! While I was playing God with these people they were carried and did not learn, I was handicapping them with love and assistance. It was when I hit the wall, and realized I could not do anymore that they were forced to get up and get on and find their way. My mom and dad would simply say to me you are doing too much! And, it was true, I was. My wife was trying to stop me but again, me being me I had to learn for myself, I needed to learn and be humbled. What I did was done out of love but it was not done with the right understanding of God’s teaching. It also depleated me , exhausted my wife and made life messy.
My wife and I recently had the pleasure of having lunch with very dear friends, our friend said that she kind of had to retreat from everyone but her family and husband. She was spent at the moment and needed to recharge. She too is a doer, and really tries to help out everyone. They have hearts of gold. So, God Bless them.
I had so many people as I said before in another writing say that I needed to tell this story. Someone I was talking to a few months ago said Dan it can be a taxing process. So becareful you do not give too much of yourself up in the process. Hearing my friends the other day tell me of their need to slow it down, I understand it and see that what I have to share is my responcibility to help others but they are in fact work. I believe that is what God has ordained for me in this moment so if they do not come everyday they will come in God’s time, for God’s glory.
Well, back to the point 🙂
Like the old saying goes in every life some rain must fall. Today it is pouring out and I woke up happy to see it. Rain cleans and washes the enviornment and gives our plants grass trees and watershed water that is needed to keep things in balance.
I, like all of you need to be replenished by the rain in our lives, Just as Jesus was baptised in the river Jordan by John the Babtist . I too was babtised as a child in my parish at that time of St. Agnes in Arlington. We are one with Jesus.
About 10 or 12 years ago, I attended a meeting of the St Frances DeSalles Society at one of our friends homes. One of the teachings was to everyday when we shower to consider the water to be a reminder of our baptism. I rededicate myself during that time to God and the HolySpirit everday in prayer that I say yes to do their will to the best of my ability.
That day of my ekg, lunch etc, Just as Dr. R had said his head nurse S, showerd up with pills at my next scheduled squeezed in appointment. She was around every corner. She is spectacular. I never had 1 concern, all day. I met with I believe my new radiologist oncologist at Brigham and womens. Dr A , I called him the great! He is a young, compitent , kind and awesome doctor with another superb team of of assistants. from his head nurse S and her assistant , R they treated every patient the same, amazingly.
I would be remis if I did not mention the lovely social worker. N who has been there since day 1 for us. Very Sweet and soft spoken but always professional and helpful.
I had to go in after my consult for either a scan or an MRI , I cannot remember which but they needed to map my brain so they could target the best way to eradicate the tumor with radiation.
The radiology staff there where great. They have a lot to deal with daily and are responsible for making sure that every patient was comfortable and that their bodies were positioned just perfectly so that the equipment could target the desired location with radiation therapy and nothing more. They try to only hit the target and not to kill any more healty cells. Quite a responsibility.
Next I went in and My Dr. A had a plaster mold mask made of my face and head, a mold I guess you could call it. It was made of a plaster.Once the Drs decided the attack plan they mapped and programmed my treatment into their computers. I was ready to begin my radiation therapy on the tumor that I never accepted as mine thanks to Gods word. I had six weeks of radiations 5 days a week monday to friday.
I had it easy in my eye’s compared to my wife and family who took the brunt of the wear and tear, juggling schedules, work etc. Some driving miles to pick me up only to turn around and take me back in the other direction into Boston. And then once again have to drive me home from treatment. I would like to say again from the depths of my heart thank you for your sacrafice and constant love. You make life worth living. xo Many friends also offered to help me with rides etc. God in action for sure. Love to you all too.:)
My phantom mask, thats what I came to call it ( again my sense of humor) , the plaster mask was now a strong perferated plastic mask that fit my face, skull and had snap locks that locked my entire head 100% in the exact position to the treatment bed so there were no slight movements possible. BTW, I asked for that mask when I finished radiation, they said sure. I said I am a decorator so I will hang it on my wall. they laughed. It currently sit a plastic bag in my garage.
have learned in life that we have a laugh as much as possible. There is healing in laughter God created such a beautiful creation in us. Laughter, is truely a healthy thing it makes gray colorful. so I laugh all the time and try not to ever stop, sometimes it gets me in trouble and I have to hit the confessional. I remember as a kid reading Erma Bombeck she cracked me up. Remember If life is a bowl of cherries , why do I get all the pitts?
Radiation did not bother me physically for a while. And then, my left side arm and leg decided I am taking a break, see ya and I lost most movement and feeling. I also became very very tired Dr. R said I would and I did. On July 4th 2012, I went into the bathroom while I was at my brother S at his cookout. I dropped dropped something on the floor. I went to swat a little to get it off of the floor and realized as soon as I did this that it was a mistake. My image disappeared from the mirror as I took position on the floor quietly. Again, I am stubborn so I just laid there saying hum how do I fix this pickle I got myself into?lol My brother realized that I was missing and came to the bathroom and inquired through the door, I responded I am fine, I am just here trying to get up. he came in and Still says he does know how he got me up by himself.As a closing remark, I has a chance to study the tile and decor and found it very beautiful . lol
I truely feel Blessed because I have the peace from God, my incredible wife, kids, family and so many wonderful friends love and support. Everyone rushing to our sides and everyone has lifted us up. The Spirit was and is so still so high. Life is hard at times but it is our families our faith and friends that get us through.
One day in I guess it was maybe Sept ,2012 my family told me that they were going to gather here together at my home , something not uncommon for our family. You know, food, family it has alway’s worked for us.lol My mom, dad, wife, kids, 3 brothers and my dear sister and all of those kids my brothers mother in law M where all here. There were I guess around 20 people in the house. I was in my recliner, very tired but my Spirit was full of peace, my whole family was here! It was so nice.All of a sudden someone came down the hall behind me and was a dear friend and brother in Christ, A and he hugged me and kissed my cheak. He pulled up my desk chair and started to speak to me , what a surprise! i had not seen A for a while. I said to him what are you doing here and he said that he heard that I was not feeling well. He stated that he was In the area and wanted to say hello. He gave me a Blessing and left. My brothers were sitting on the couch here in my familyroom with my dad and one of my brothers said who was that? And I told them. They were astonished by his presence he is a very good and Holy man. The Spirit of God just shines. God Bless A and his family.There were so many prayers being said for our needs that I swear to God you could feel them raining down on us. I still feel them to this very day. Our prayers for one another are the most powerful gifts that we have to give to help anyone.
So, A left and I was happy for the visit and prayer and blessing he gave me. A short while went by and My brother S had gotten up to leave the room and returned, he said Dan can you come in here. I was like ugh, I had no strength, and needed assistance to get down the hall. I went down the hall and turned the corner to the front hall. I could not figure out why I was being led there. What happened next is a Miracle no doubt!
My brother opened my front door, and what I saw was a little piece of Heaven! Friends who are gifts from God had quietly converged on my quiet street on the side walk and lawn. They had candles on my front steps with the exception of the top two.Their had to be at least 40 beautiful souls out there. They were holding candles in their hands.One of my brothers helped me out and led onto the the top landing and I sat against the left rail, They wrapped a blanket around me. Then Praise and Worship began, prayers songs, people were driving by and stopping, some people peered from their windows, and then one of our beautiful friends son came out from behind my pine tree and played amazing grace on his bag pipes. It was just so incredible. I remember, God gave me the message and I tearfully passed it on. ( joy was overflowing) I said tonight is not about me. Thank you. God is healing so many of us right now and in what ever way we need to be healed. I think my whole neighborhood was Blessed in that evening. God Bless all of our friends and of my home parish of St. Josephs and 2nd parish home in and retreat center of St Basils in Methuen.
My love to you all and with God’s Blessings.
So anyway, ( I told you I am not an expert writer, back to the point! 🙂
I went to treatment for radiology of my tumor which was sitting over my central nervous system.I was losing ability rapidly which would explain why when I told Dr. R that I would come back next week, it would not have been a good choice on my part. The Doctor understood the whole picture, the process and short window for action, so thank God they pushed with love and concern If they had not, I mayu not be here in this moment.
I will give you the list of meds I was on as well. In the not too distant future so people especially who are going through anything similar will know what was used in my treatment. People ask me that question a whole lot. I know every treatment plan is different and there are always new trial med coming out . So the news is great for everyone! There is lots and lots of Hope!
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