In this life the challenges that we face can make us into hostages. We go negative and get fearful. That is exactly how I have found myself in the past as recently as today.

Faith can move mountains. We need to love ourselves.  It is only  then that we can see God and the hope in this life.

This song today is one that I had never heard before and it was perfect for todays writing. Its about love. In this case cutting myself slack but pushing through my daily life situation to bring about a change that I can see but need to bring to fruition.

Here is the song….,

We can move mountains personally because GOD loves us and has faith in us too. 

Nat King Cole Faithful.

Today, I overslept. I got up and got moving . I headed to my dads and spent  some beautiful time with him. He’s awesome. I said to my dad as I left, I think that I might stop and walk the track on my way home. My dad cautioned me to be careful. I assured him that I would be.

An inner battle began to wage as I rolled out of my dads driveway.  Oh, just go home. Your tired and have being doing too much lately I thought to myself. As, I drove home I resigned myself to the fact that I was going home and then it happened. I saw the track and made a right into the parking lot. The track was empty and I said I am going to walk. I shut off the car and took a deep breathe. I was tempted to start the car and leave But, I did not.

I call my car a geriatric geloppy lol. I have my cain in the front seat, my walker in the back seat and my wheelchair in the trunk. So, no matter how I am feeling I have no excuse to stay on the sideline. Life is for the living.   🙂 And, I am going to go for the gusto as they say. !

So, anyways, I was losing energy very quickly. I got out of the car,opened the rear door and got the walker out. I opened it up with my one hand and pushed it and lifted it up onto the sidewalk. I then got up on the sidewalk useing my front hood as a support to lean on. Once up on the sidewalk I strapped my arm onto the walker for safety as I walked the 100 foot or so sidewalk to the track gate. Once I was in that gate I took my hand out of the strap and put the walker against the track fence. I walked with the fence by my right side with the fence as my safety net. I was just soaking up the beauty of the day. I said, thank you for my life to God as I willed my body forward. i looked down the length of the track and thought to myself I can’t do it today. I turned my head to see my car it looked so far away. So, I turned forward once again and headed down the track holding the fence. I began to pray the Our Father , Hail Mary, and the Glory Be in repetition. My version of praise and worship to God for his goodness in my life. After some time I was in the final stretch and I was very tired. I stopped when I got back to my walker . I leaned on the fence and watched some young kids play soccer on the next field and 4 young boys were playing basketball in the far off distance.

The sun was shining , the breeze was so soft and gentle. the birds were flying around. It was so peaceful. I began to remember childhood memories of Bishop field in Arlington. I could picture the playground full of kids and the swings were swinging with 7 or 8 kids riding them. I could hear the sqeaking and squeeling  that they made. It was a beautiful and restorative memory for me. I love life even in its smallest detail.

Then, I became aware that my legs wanted to buckle so I qiuickly strapped on my walker to bare my weight. I began the slow 100 foot journey back to my car. I took my time and took breaks and made it safely back to the car.

The problems that I am experiencing with the walking is really my own fault.I was angry one day and was walking so fast that my body reacted adversely and I almost fell.

The mind can if you let it criple you with fear . So, we need to work on that nasty emotion called fear and push through it. If you have a bad day you donnot become a failure. you just remain a human 🙂The key is to get up and try again. One day you will take 0ne step then two and you will be on your way  towards your own personal victory.

This song reminds me of my situation that I caused with fear of falling. But, I need to let the Faith of my healing God to rain down on me. I will get there because God is my victory. 🙂 He yours too.

I have caused some of my own sorrow and pain.

God Bless You all.

Danny