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My Mom,Mary, Michelle, Dotty , Georgie part 2

18 Thursday Sep 2014

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Cuntinued from Sept 13 , 2014….

In my last writing on Sept 13th I was sharing the story of two very special people really. The relationship that my mom and Mary had was what legends should be made from. Everyday hero’s, if you will. Both my mom and Mary were suffering in their own ways and both became such witnesses to what success ( Victory ) in God is all about. Mary was kind like my nephew from yesterdays writing. A Special person too:)  Just beautiful. And my mom was beautifully heroic in her life. She always carried her cross) just like Jesus. When her physical body was going in for a crash, her faith was so well developed because of prayer that she was able to reach out of the wreckage of her body, beyond her pain and touch Mary’s life in a profound way. She was God strong and everybody witnessed it and we are all better for having experienced it. Every cloud no matter how dark has its silver lining. Mary is a special gift from God to the world and My mom offered up her sufferings to God for his  purposes and for Mary. Also during their stay together in that room at Spauling, Mary gave my mom a purpose, and Mary gave my mom a vision of what a real angel is.

My mom did everything that medical science said she could not do, but God, told her that she would. After leaving here home in early May she returned home 2 days before Thanksgiving.

She hosted all 25 or so of her family for coffee and desserts on Thanksgiving night. She sat at that table in her diningroom looking beautiful as usual in her Fuscia, silk blouse. God is so very good. She survived and did very well for over two years after that day too.

I will continue writing on my mom shortly, but in the meantime. 🙂 Mary to this day is home with her sister Dotty and Elizabeth who helps with her care. Her baby Michelle is well and my sister hunted down new clothes to fit her doll. And they had a birthday party for Mary at some point too. She was as my mom would say tickled pink. 🙂

Now to Georgie, Georgie was Mary’s special friend that Dotty would bring in to the rehab. You to see, Mary’s Georgie is a stuffed animal fashioned after curious George a monkey. Dotty would announce to Mary look who ‘s come to visit from home! Marys would be so excited to see him, Dotty would say Georgie has been getting into everything. 🙂 Mary would say Georgie you have been naughty? And hug him. Her world was beautiful in that regard, God had been given her wonderful family to support her and great medical care. Something we should all be grateful for.  Curious George was one of the books that Dotty and the Spaulding staff would read to Mary every night. Very beautiful.

Curious George , or as May calls him Georgie 🙂

One Of Mary’s movie 🙂

The Sound of Music, Julie Andrews

Again, The Sound of Music

God You All. Danny

The Courage , The awareness, and keeping what you have.

16 Tuesday Sep 2014

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One important thing that came to me as I ate my 1/’2 sandwich for lunch on Monday was a conversation that  I had with an older friend of mine years back. She was a walker. She walked 365 day’s a year with a friend who was committed to doing it with her.

She had various illnesses that were possible if not probable of effecting her due to genetics. He physician told her to use it or she could  lose it. He was speaking about her body. I can attest to that point as I sat here side lined with this cancer that I have never owned.

The bottom line is this according to her doctor, and I agree 100%, once the legs go then the rest of the body follows.

When cancer took my left side. I went from 150 miles per hour to 5 miles an hour physically. When my legs could not walk , my arms did not move involuntarily either, my lungs shrunk from sitting and my bodies energy withered too. When we walk, all of our muscles are involved stomach, back, legs, arms, chest, buttocks, heart and lungs included. Your mind is renewed by what it is sensing in smell, sight and sound it is a win, win for life. Your mind and Spirit can connect easily.

What I did have was God’s Peace, Faith and the knowledge that when this curtain falls on my life here that Act two with God and Jesus Christ will be absolutely Beautiful and will never end. Being united with all who have gone before me, including my pets. Love just does not die, thats my belief anyway. Last but not least, God gave me the Holy Spirit and the will to see things in my life through a magnificent prism. I love my wife, children, family and friends so much that my desire to live and conquer my  adversities to be physically whole once again is as large as a mountain. I can see it. .  My goal makes life, a sheer joy. If I get an inch forward , I will stretch that gain to   a mile. It is very simple. I can only imagine what God could use me for if He blesses me with my physical healing that I see.. God has already peirced my heart, humbled my life and has grown me in relationship with him. Its the same for you all too 🙂 The Holy Spirit has transformed and renewed my mind and has convicted me of my sins and any of the the crap that was in my life. That stuff was left on the confessional room floor. So in life bring the stuff to God and he will heal that wound. I have said it before yet, I feel once again compelled to write these words so, I would love to live and be here to love and support my wife, to love my kids and witness who they grow to become, weddings grandchildren the works but none of us truely knows what God’s plan is.  So, I take comfort in knowing that I am doing everything in my power now to faciltate that desire to happen. But, I also am grateful to know that should God call me to him then he knows the reason, and I believe that I will still be with my loved ones and friends, watching over them and perhaps in my purified state having accounted for my lifes errors To God . My prayers will be even more valuable for my loved ones and all of you 🙂

So, Sitting down constantly was not an option. By Gods grace, I fought to my feet and dragged my left side up and down the stairs with me. I began to try and empty the dishwasher and vaccuum the hard woods on the 1st floor. If I have a little energy I try to expell it and to cause my body to have to rise to the occasion and make more energy, I made a roasted chicken dinner for my family complete with vegetables that hit the kitchen floor. Too heavy for one hand, but I was hours in the kitchen doing what I used to do cooking and it was a labor of love. We all had a wonderful dinner too 🙂 What they did not know, did not kill them:) Everyone was raving about it. I must keep that recipe! LOl.  I began to walk the track when someone can drive me down and be with me, a safety net. I must say the first time I looked at the 1/4 mile track I almost stayed in the car. Question?, what if I in that moment I had said no, I can’t do it ? I probably never would have walked. I have walked two laps now which is 1/2 mile so again, my legs were moving my arms were moving and my lungs were talking deep breathes because I was winded. What a wonderful feeling that is. I have been taking it to the limits because God has called me to be bigger than myself! He has called me to be God strong for everyone. If I can do this, then you can too. 🙂

Below is a photo of myself and brother in law at the relay for life, Cancer walk this past May 2014. I walked the survivor lap with my brother in law C, he is another one of my hero’s 🙂 Oh BTW, I am on the left, no wheelchair, no walker, no 4 prong cane. God wants the best for all of us !!!!  Amen !

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I am on the road to recovery and like I said it is a long and winding road, I have my family and friends who see me in the down moments that I may have and  they give me a kind word or a  slap on the rear end LOL and I am back in the saddle again. So we are all helping oneanother 🙂

The Eagles  Take it to the limit! I am always running back to God !

 

God adores us All, Don’t leave him standing there !!

Believe in the Miracle that you are and see the the day of endless possibilties that lies ahead !

Even if you move one inch further on your road  today  then you are gaining your Victory through God. Amen !!

The Long and Winding road  The Beatles

Gene Autry. Back In The Saddle Once Again 🙂  Try not to smile, I double Dare You !!!

 

With The Love of Christ,

Danny

 

 

 

My Mom,Mary, Michelle, Dotty , Georgie Part 1

13 Saturday Sep 2014

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During my mothers hospitalization at Spaulding Cambridge in the ventilator unit she was very sick, very weak and  slept a whole lot.  Remember, her prognosis was not good. My mom did not have a private room and I think it was a great thing for my mother and for her roomate Mary.

You see my mothers roomate Mary was not wanted in any other persons room in that unit. She was put in my mothers room because she was loud at times and dilsruptive to her roomates and the staff.

My mom was pretty much sleeping at first so they figured my mother would not be affected by Mary’s outbursts etc. God had a purpose for this situation and my mom was selected in this time to witness Christ and unconditional love to so many in that hospital during this time. And she was! My mother listened to the daily goings on in that room with Mary and  My mom continued to get  stronger by the day. When my mom was weined from the ventilator and was able to speak once again as I wrote in my last blog. At this point my mother looked like she was a Miracle that was on the road to a recovery, and she was. Right away the staff said, I am sorry to my mom,  Mary has her moments. We will try and find her a new room, she is hard to place with others. My mother said don’t be silly, its fine. Due to Mary’s health condition it can be 24 hours of non stop action. The staff one after another came in and thanked my mother, my mom just felt that Mary was an angel, and just needed a calm reassuring hand. It was scary for Mary being there alone with all the machines, noises etc.

You see, Mary is a beautiful women in her late 50’s I am guessing and she is very bright. Something happened at her birth and her brain was deprived of oxygen and she was like a child from that point. This was prior to my cancer diagnosis so, I was able to be there daily too. My dad was there every morning and stayed until late afternoon with my mom and we (her children and family) coodinated so we would all be there at different times. Well, my mom would be helping from her bed fordging a relationship with Mary. Mary is just a beautiful person who would get upset and did not always have an ability to understand. I looked at her and saw a beautiful child there in that bed. Innocent and she needed to rely on everyone to survive. She too was on a ventilator off and on depending on her respritory needs. She had her older sister Dotty coming in daily, late in the day and would read Mary her childrens books, help her with some private care issues etc. Mary loves all her old movies and watched them all the time the sound of music, Judy Garland etc. Mary was living in the past speaking about her mom and dad who were her life.They both passed when they were in their 90’s. Mary has an identical twin who is healthy.

My mom , dad and family grew very tight bonds with Mary and her family. My mom would get Mary to talk, calm her down and help the staff to work with her when she was having a bad day. My mom prayed and talked about Jesus with her. When Mary’s sister Dotty could not come and Mary was waiting She had a private nurse Elizabeth come in . Elizabeth had helped and assisted her over the years at her home too. She is family to Mary:) She too would be praying with Mary, just beautiful.A gift to Mary and I believe Mary is a gift to her too.

Mary had her baby ( a doll) named Michelle. She had a toy baby bottle and she would be feeding that doll burping it and the doll slept with Mary every night. Mary would tell the baby its okay and she would tell my mom that Michelle was crying.  My mom was involved when Mary was in a bad place my mom would end up feeding the doll and burping the doll, it made Mary so happy. My mom had such compassion for  Mary and she loved her. My dad was there all the time so he could see her struggling, trying to eat. The staff was helping but she did not want them for whatever reason so my dad would say Mary, would you like me to help ? She would say yes, and my dad would help to cut things up etc. The staff was so happy to see Mary content and it really helped to calm the unit down.  There is a saying, If you cannot do something nice then do not do anything at all. Service to others is an honor as far as I am concerned. It is not alway’s easy but there is nothing more rewarding.

I will continue with this shortly,

God Bless You,

Danny

A dedication to all the special needs kids around the world.

Bob Carlisle

The Love Of My Mom. Her love for God and Her Miracle Part Four

12 Friday Sep 2014

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My Mom was at Spaulding Rehab Cambridge,  in the Ventilator unit for quite some time and it was decided that they needed to try and withdraw the vent and the likelihood of her coming off it was not good because when you are on a ventilator for an extended period of time your body becomes use to the machine doing the work and sometimes will not pick up the function of breathing on its own, once again. My mom was awake and alert and the weining process began, slowly seeing if her body would in fact support her, The weing was a slow process,  took several days of reducing the ammount of support that the ventilator was doing and then she was off the ventilator, breathing on her own. Praise God!  Dr.S and all of us in our family were just so happy! God is faithful to those who love him. Amen !

The next obstacle that she tackled was that she could not speak. Her doctor explained that when the ventilator is in place  you cannot talk and it was in her throat for so long that damage could have been done to the vocal chords etc. Doctor S.  removed the plug in her neck,  I  guess you call it? She began to speak immediately words from of her mouth. The doctor was so impressed and we were so happy hearing moms voice once again. It had been months! The Holy Spirit of God took care of that need immediately. Like I said, it was and is the time of Miracles for all of us. 🙂 This whole health crisis/ event that occurred started at around April in her home and  it was now the Fall of 2011, She had been in Mt. Auburn, and at Spaulding this whole time with a very low expectation of survival. But, she had the peace of Christ and did not think that way. She saw Hope and had such Faith, She saw Victory. She was very ill, but still saw Victory through Christ/ God. Her Rosary was always in hand and her friends St. Michael and St. Raphael were right there with her .

I will continue shortly with my blog entry…. Mom, Mary, Michelle, Dotty, Elizabeth and Georgie what a beautiful story to share, God is just amazing in all that he is doing.

God Bless You,

Danny

Newsboy’s Jesus Paid It All.

The Love Of My Mom. Her love for God and Her Miracle Part Three

10 Wednesday Sep 2014

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I wanted to continue with my writing for my mom today. Part two was on Sept 4ths blog. The Saint Agnes Band was a large part of our lives growing up. We had attended the school as well. Some of us went on to Arlington Catholic too . It was a great life.

One of the best parts was that my mom and dad were present in our lives. My dad managed the equipment truck and trained other fathers to get their bus liscences, so that the band members and color guard could get back and forth from parades and competitions. Like I said, my dad was everyone’s dad in the band and they loved him. He loved all the kids too. I would like to remember also in this moment my fathers assistant in the equipment van Mr. Callahan. My dad loved this man as did all of the kids in the band. He was awesome:) He went to the Lord some time ago, God Bless Him too.

My mom was always in the stands with all kinds of food, extra sandwiches etc. When we came off the field of competition, we would change out of our uniforms and get our street clothes on and off we would go into the stands to find her. Each one of us ( her)   kids had extra kids( friends) with us.lol  We were all hungry and my mother was accustomed to that fact 🙂 and had sandwiches and stuff for them too.  She also had jugs of homemade pink leomonade too.If my mom ran out Mrs. H was there with her food and was good for potato chips and chips ahoy cookies too.:)

In the band we would wear uniforms on the parade route and in competition. The uniforms  had wool pants, Satin tops and a cumberbund wrapped  around the middle..  It was topped off by a band drum style hat with a neck strap.We all wore white bucks (shoes) as well.

It could be 100 degrees in a parade or competition and we survived wearing those uniforms. The bottom line is this, we would roll in on the buses sometimes at 11:00 at night at the parking lot from a competition and needed to be back the next morning ready, uniformed and ready to go back out in competition once again or on a parade route somewhere. The uniforms needed to be laundered and ironed. The judges took points off  of our score if things were not perfect. A lot of parents were not engaged with their kids or were unable to be there to  support their kids. So, the kids were upset because they’re uniforms would not be ready for the next morning. It was a big deal.  So My mom, Mrs. R said don’t worry honey, give them to me I will have them ready in the morning. Remember, my mom had 5 kids and worked full time. But you see, she saw a need and offered it up and got the job done. She made those kids feel special, and they were. She was a brick in their foundation as was my dad. I can remember her standing in the kitchen in front of that ironing board ironing one satin shirt after another. They were ready for the judges 🙂 She even carried Kiwi white shoe polish in her bag and was touching kids shoes up, nice and white.

 

My mom’s ilness, She was a Miracle and also showed the Doctors , staff  of several institutions that, God is for real.

 

As I wrote in the past blog about my mom, C.O.P.D. progressed to emphysema and the ability of my mom to go out ,to walk stairs etc was very much diminished. She lived with a constant sense that she could not get breathe into her lungs. She very rarely complained but we understood her daily struggle. She was not going to bring her family down. She was partnered with Christ in his suffering. Like my mother would always say.

4 or so years ago in around June  2010 I think it was ? My mom went into the hospital at Mt Auburn in Cambridge her breathing was reduced even further and she was found to have a 4 to 5 inch tumor attached to her lung, behind her heart and it was obtructing the airway out from the lung. It was found to be inoperable, plus given her very poor respritory system she could not have anesthesia. Because of her strong resolve, faith and fight for life her Dr. R who was her primary for 30 plus years advocated that she should be allowed to try a plan to attack this tumor, my mom was well aware of its dangers and we all supported her and my dads decision in this matter.

She was treated by a wonderful Cancer and respritory  Dr. S from  Mt Auburn Hosp. He is a brain cancer survivor too. She under went chemo and very targeted radiation treatment for the cancer, for the tumor etc and when they were done the tumor still remained. She came home and was home a few days and radiation pneumonitis set in she was rushed into the hospital and ended up in Mt Auburns ER  after she found to be non- responsive at her home. That particular morning, My neice, dad,brother and sister were watching her, and saw a difference in her that they never witnessed before. An ambulance was called, right away.

At the ER, things looked very grimm. we were all there.  She was being given a lot of support she was filled with carbon dioxide , it is called I  think,  black death. It is when you breathe in and cannot expell the carbon diaoxide out of the lungs and body,  so you will get sleepy, your brain and other vital organs can de deprived of oxygen and eventually you will pass away without intevention. Even with help, it is very dicey. The staff ushered the whole family into a room and brought us food and gave us some gentle words of support.  Very beautiful.

 

My mom  was moved up to the Intensive care unit and she was put onto a ventilator,  by her choice, she was not done yet with her Earthly journey . She was there for a good seems like 1 and a half to  2 months if my memory serves me. My father was there everyday before 5 a.m. and stood by here because she would open her eyes and look at him at that time, he was not going to dissappoint her .Asside from that, she just slept a whole lot. He would take her hand and say, Its okay bobby, I am here just keep it in neutral.( Don’t Worry), You are going to get better. He stood there and prayed with her. All day long. All of the family would stream in and out of her ICU bed space and tell my dad to go sit down, food was being brought in by my sister, brother etc for him. We would make a prayer chain around her bed. Dr’s and nurses walked by and just watched the family through the glass windows and witnessed  God in action. Eventually my mom was moved to a regular room at Mt Auburn to get her ready to transition her to  Spaulding Cambrige Street Cambridge because her Dr. R  ran the Vent department there.  Again, God was handling everything.

At this time , It was about 6 months before I suddenly became ill with my Gleo, so I was able to be there a whole lot. Which I am so grateful for. It is what live is all about. Love, support and being there. Very Simple 🙂

 

I will continue with this account shortly.

God Bless You All,

Danny

 

My mom loved this song I am sure she was thinking of my dad when she listened to it and sang it  🙂 xoxo

Bette Midler Wind beneath my wings

enjoy 🙂

Bette Midler From a Distance.

 

 

Yesterday, Eye On The Sparrow, You Are I Am

09 Tuesday Sep 2014

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Hi All, I used these songs to end my day on Monday. I was lead to them after prayer and decided that they would be nice to share in this moment. Enjoy this beautiful Day. 🙂

 

Beautiful songs just enjoy. God is so good.

Yesterday:  by ,  Mary / Mary

Laren Hill and Tanya Blount

This song reminds me of a lovely women that went to the Lord . God Bless you . C

Mercy Me, You Are I Am

Matt Maher Lord I need you

 

God Bless You All.

Danny

The beauty of being in a storm.

07 Sunday Sep 2014

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The Beauty Of The Storm:

I had the pleasure of going with my wife and son to my wife’s company outing to Kimballs Farm in Westford today. It was very hot and the threat for thunderstorms were a possibility according to the newscasters.

Well, off we went with sunny skies and arrived to the outing, it is a very beautiful place so being outside even in the heat was fine. We were greated by my wifes bosses, employee’s and their guests. Year after year it proves to be such a nice gathering. One of the nicest groups of people that I have ever met. God blessed my wife with her employer and co-workers. She is so happy. Which, only makes me more happy and grateful.

There was a barbeque running, with a huge ice cream bar. Alway’s amazing. We felt the breeze pick up and we all were saying how good it felt. Kimballs has huge weather proof tents and tables so we were not sitting in the sun. Well within a half hour of that  beautiful breeze’s arrival nature let loose with lightening, torential rain and thunder. We, were all dry and actually stayed dry in the hearvy duty tents. It was wild . The smell of the rain was just so beautiful. Everything smelt so good. It smelt like trees and earth.The rain cleared out about one hour after it began, there was actually a tonado warning issued for where we were. When it was over, we hit the road for home. I said to my wife and son when we got into the car, I hope we got that rain at home and they agreed it has been a little dry lately.  On approach to our home before our exit off the highway there is a movie theatre. I saw that the far end of the parking lot was flooded. It must be pitched that way to keep the cars from sitting in it. I was so happy because I knew that we too benefited from the rain as well.

We all need the rain in our lives no matter what form that it takes. Water and adversity purifies us all.

My final thought that I would like to say yet again is that we need to acknowlege and be grateful to those in our lives daily that make life a beautiful experience. They are a gift !

Oceans  Hillsong

Hillsong At The Cross

The Rain, The Chapel, The Medal and The Miracle Part 2

23 Saturday Aug 2014

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The doctors were informed that I had an incident in Radiation with the equipment malfunction and left the room quickly, I had said to the doctors that  I was okay and could see from my left eye again. Although, like I said to my wife, brother and the few who have heard  about this account over the last year or so .I had to complain 🙂 I said hey God, my vision returned in my left eye to what it was before I was blinded, you think that you would make it perfect when vision was restored.:) I have told you before God must be rolling his eyes all the time over me. LOL Father said that God has a sense of humor , So, I choose to believe him 🙂

Going home in the car my wife was like, Danny we need to know what happened, my brother tried to just say it would be a good thing to know even for others. My feeling was at that time, Its fine, it happened and it is over. They know how firmly God has placed me into a peace that is not of this world. In my mind I hear  all ll the time like a whisper. “Be Still and Know, I Am God”. So, I understand why people have a hard time understanding me. But ,know in their hearts it is true. So that night was filled with every living family member of my family calling me to say Dan, you have to ask them what happened.  My brother B and my wife were taking me  the next day for treatment.

We got up the next morning, my brother was in our driveway here at around 5:30a.m. as usual. And off we went to Dana Farber, we went to the radiology unit    at Brigham and Williams, that is where my radiation treatment was done, and checked in. My wife said again, Dan find out what happened when you go in. Bob said the same thing.  They were ganging up 🙂 lol

Just kidding, again no one was wrong in their comments that I should find out what happened. I just announced to them it is not about me everything is happening as it should. I just had peace. You will see and read why shortly. I was the only one allowed in the radiology treatment area so the staff came and got me again the Spirit was right their to great them. Big smile as always, I gave the staff my as I called it my golden ticket like Willy Wonda, it was a red card actually that would allow my program to run on the radiation equipment. They took me  to the treatment vault by the massive solid door and rolled me  around the corner in view was the treatment bed and the 3 or so staff members that were normally there. They all greated me with smiles as normal. No one mentioned the day befores event.  And what the Holy Spirit did in this moment was just astounding. When I say in my writings that I am merely a passenger on the bus watching God work his Miracles it is very true! I am so serious about that fact, and it is not because of me, I am, just me. God used what the devil was attempting to do to me which was to silence me so that I could not continue my ministry and giving Gods good news. God can do anthing!  It as plain as day to me. And when God wants me and my witness for him is done. I will be taken to him. I will then be judged too for my shortcomings.  Just a plain and simple fact of life.

So anyways, I am sitting in my wheelchair facing  all of these people. There was a new face that I never seen standing there before. In a second,  God took over and The Holy Spirit emerged. Out of my mouth came. Hello, to the new worman in the lab coat , This is the Holy Spirit everyone in the room was polarized and staring at me. I saw tears in the eyes of the believers that had been treating me over the last 5 or so weeks daily. He said you are in charge of the equipment correct? She said yes. The Holy Spirit said then you know what happened to Dan yesterday when the equipment malfunctioned and he was blinded in his left eye. She was so stunned, He said Dans doctors came right down to check the equipment to see what happened, again she said yes. The final question he asked was this, Dan should not be able to see with the amount of radation that he received  is this true, he is a miracle  she hesitated, he said, it is true isn’t it? She said yes, I saw the faithful in the room just totally wrapped up in Gods amazement and glory.

There was a young  person working in that room as well that was an intern finishing up her studies in college. Everyday during my treatment she was generally there. Her name was L and she reminded me of my daughters very sweet. Everyday when my treatment was done before I left the vault as I call it. They would grab my  treatment card and hand it to me. Then, away they would take me to my family in the wheelchair. Well everyday, I would  say, God Bless You as  I was leaving that area and I could tell she hated it, never said a word to me but she would turn away.

Well, God healed this situation in about 10 seconds one of the most breathe taking things I have ever witnessed and guess what it was not about me, all of the radiation staff were still there including the women responsible for the machine. God established that I was a Miracle and then turned directly towards the young lady L.  I felt the Holy Spirit through me lock eyes with  her and  God reached out with such love,

L you are not a believer. Just a simple loving statement made by a father, she responded softly yes, I do. Again, God through the Holy Spirit was talking to her with such love all the faces in the room were locked on my eyes. God said, you don’t and thats okay. Dan tells you everyday, God Bless You and that is only because he is thankful  to you for your helping him. With that her face lit up and you could see joy. Hear heart melted and her presence was light and she now believed in God. This is only the tip of the iceberg on what God is doing in this time through many people. Love heals, truth breaks deception, God triumphs over everything with Love. He is the just Judge. He knows all, like psalm #139 say’s We cannot hide from him, he knew that in this second before I ever came to be that I would be declaring his victory. His God News! today right now ! And, you would be here reading it. We are all connected.

I then layed on the treatment table and was strapped in. I had  no concern based on what happened the day before, I had my job and that was to offer up everything for whatever God wanted. It was simple. Treatment went well and I as always felt great and thankful.

The Bottom Line :

You see my appointment with my doctor that was scheduled for the day before was switched to the day of the incident. So, God new that in that day this malfunction would happen, he also knew that I would be seeing my doctor on that afternoon. He also  knew that  L would be in my treatment room as a student and witnessing the whole thing. And, then the next day God declared Victory to the staff in Radiology that I was a Miracle building all of their faith. He then turned around and saved L. right before our eyes. She saw the truth, so her eyes open to Heaven and God. As the bible says the Scales fell from her eyes. If that’s not magnificent then, what is? God handles everyone of our lives everday, I am  having a hard time with typing and dictating so, you know where I stand.  🙂 

By the way L’s last day as a student ended on my last day of threatments in June 2012.No coincidence either.  She always said God Bless Me with a big smile on her face, she rolled me out of the room that day and hugged me. I introduced her to my wife and brother and my doctor was in his office so, the fog horn(me) opened my mouth and I yelled hey Dr. A. LOl He came out and greeted me, what a great guy! 🙂 I said, L here is finishing her studies when she comes for a job please help her out, she’s great !They all laughed. I often wonder how she is. Like the bible say’s, Jesus will go after the one lost sheep to protect it. And, he did 🙂 Also, I cannot imagine the wonderful things that L will do in her life. Just beautiful. Amen !

God Bless You All,

Danny

Third Day Children of God

Hillsong With All I Am

In The Beginning and My first Heavenly Vision/ Vivid Dream.

13 Wednesday Aug 2014

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In The Beginning of true Spiritual awakening of all of us is a long time in the making. We experience different levels of awareness in God, his existence and supreme gift to us all and I m not talking about life 🙂 That is a Miracle in itself.  I am referring to the gift of The Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit as far as I am concerned is our bridge to the Almighty, he facilitates all that is good, he inspires us, he warns us,he allows God to fill us with joy and allows our conscience to feel guilt for a wrong doing.The Holy Spirit will help to bring us to our knees for repentence before our Lord. The Holy  Spirit that dwells within every one of us is God given and works in concert with our desires, needs and to allow us to fulfill our destiny for God and his people. We need to allow The Holy Spirit to work with us. We need to pray for his assistance in a meaningful way. I mentioned this in one of my recent blog writing that I began praying and commiting myself to God and the holy Spirit with my daily shower and telling all of Heaven that the water was my rededication and reminder of my baptismal water. I say daily to God that I surrender myself to whatever he wants from me and tell the Holy Spirit to please use me to the best of my ability. Lastly, I call on all of Heaven through my prayers for all of the Angels and Saints to please bestow on me any gifts of the Spirit that I may need in the future. Heaven is for real.:) This is a very special time that we are living in, a time like no other. It is a time of Miracles, it is a time of God’s pouring out of The Holy Spirit and Spiritural gifts for eachone of us. We all have our very own special gifts. Some we are born with some we acquire from God in the moment of his choosing. Our gifts can bend and change over a period of time based on what God wants and needs us to accomplish. The one prerequsite that God has for each of us to open our hearts and desire to be an agent of good to be the light to oneanother. It is simple. Through my childhood, adolescence and even into my 30’s I was always searching for my true God and his existence. I could feel him to a certain degree but the picture was still far from focus. During that time for me the 90’s.  Life had a lot of moments of hurts from people you know, daily nonsence. Its hard to see God when you are surrounded by others who are not necessarily in Christ or God based. You are wandering around in a crowd of lost sheep many of which have no idea that they are even lost. I am not judging but  it is indeed a fact.   Well in the latter part of my 30’s I managed to bring my picture into a little more clarity with prayer and the assistance of others through a beautiful retreat know as Cursillo in a retreat house know as St. Basil’s in Methuen, Ma. that was I believe in Oct 1999. My wife went in November of the same year. It was life changing, the focus and picture was now crystal clear! It was an intersection where God made himself and his presence known. It is a Miracle, just as St. Basils is. You should call and look into this retreat house. It will be the best gift that you can give yourself ! So, I came back from that retreat and one of my friends called me the next day and  said, hey Dan, I saw you walking on the water of the lake today 🙂  It was so funny,he knew that I was on Fire .lol Each day that we live sets the stage for the next day and action. So all of the many little or big moments of my daily journey that come out onto this blog journal are always building for a bigger God moment. They are all God moments because he is there with us getting us through. All of our Spiritual Gifts are to be shared. It is not about us. This blog tells my journey through God. It his victory over death (my) and yours. God wants my life psalm #139 shared so that all will see him, and draw closer to our Heavenly Father.    4- 5 years ago, I am not sure of the date, I was called out of the blue into some of the most intense Spiritual experiences that I could ever have imagined. I was blown out of the water, I will just refer to them as writing for my church. The details of those writings were not for us , they are for the church. I will say this anyone with a sense of Spiritural awareness just needs to look at the news or turn on the television to see what is going on. The world is out of balance. This process was stretching myself and family to the max. The Holy Spirit is just so awesome. My spiritual adviser said to me , Dan, lets just see where it goes, and we did. I will explain about this experience at a later date.   My first vision, vivid dream, about 4-5 years ago during the time I was doing the  church writings. I was asleep and had the most vivid dream. God uses our own lifes experiences and will make them part of his message in my case it was based in my lifes work and I have been for over 30 years through the gift of the  Holy Spirit an interior Designer. I have done projects that when I had completed them looked at them and said, God, I did that! I did through God and love alone complete my projects .More on that later too!:) So, I was sleeping and my vision which seemed like forever started. I am giving my account  to you exactly as It happened and was told to my priest, my adviser and friend long ago… This remember was more that 3 years before my cancer diagnosis. I walked up to the door of this house and rang the bell. I had decorating samples in my hand. A women came to the door and opened it, I just remember how pleasant she was, I could hear children laughing and she said, excuse me for a moment and walked away off to the left in the direction of the children. I did not see them but heard them laughing.  So, I stood there and it seemed like a while, I being the type A personality and loving what I did. I said to myself, I will just walk in to the right here and see what she needs. So the interior was very itherial everything was a very soothing white color. It was extremely peaceful. I just kept walking and ahead of me was a hallway with a very bright light people were coming out of the light and passing me again all faces were non descript, everything was very etherial and white. I noticed that there was something on the wall that everyone that came out of the hall seemed to be stopping to look at so, I wandered over to it and looked and was a very pale colored picture I recognized it immediately. It was the shroud of Turin. I have to say this too, I had never given  1 seconds thought to the shroud in my life yet here it was . Well any way I could hear voices from down the end of the long extremely bright hallway and hear a booming voice and laughter it was pure joy. When I got to the entrance I realized, I shouldn’t be here, I had wondered from where I was left to wait. I would never wander around my clients home. So, I returned to where I was waiting by the door. I was getting annoyed and it was like 4 hours. Well, the really pleasant women was back and said she was sorry for the delay and she opened the door to the left of me. The children were quiet now  and she guided me into the room. I stood there and there was a very large white table in front of me. As I stood there the women was standing to the left side of the table looking at me and there was another figure to the right side of the table looking at me  as well. The women looked at me and, I felt love like I had never felt before. She said again sorry for the wait, I remember having been so angry to had to wait 4 hours for her to return and , I just responded its okay and she said to me you are an angel. Of course, I told Father I am certainly not, I am a sinner like everyone. I remember feeling intense love. I knew that it was my Blessed Mother. She without  a word uttered pointed down to the table and moved her hand over the surface as if  she wiped the table and the white milky color left and it now had a clear glass. It was a case.  I could see all kinds of relics, bottles of oils, and religous statues related to my faith and she spoke these words to me, We want you to have many Spiritual gifts. And that was it. I woke up and is as alive today and vivid as the time that it occured.   I have had years to think of why The Blessed Mother would call me an angel, because I am not. So I have a couple of thoughts on that. 1.) She knowing that I was upset with waiting for her which my Blessed Mother would know and yet I told her no problem thought that I was kind? 2.) Everything that I have done in writing including this blog through the Holy Spirit is never about me or any one of us . We are all loved the same. And what mother does not look upon her child at least as  an angel in training?  🙂 Thats the best I can do on that thought last but not least the booming laughter and joy was,  I know, was Our God!  I was given a glimpse of Heaven. I pray everyday to continue to grow for his purpose and into his will completely . Amen. Better Is one day In Your House By Kutless https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jdE03zRJtxw   In Christs Holy Name, Danny

To God Be The Glory , God Took Over

28 Monday Jul 2014

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To God goes the Glory! That is for sure.

Today I am going to share some down right Miracles witnessed my many people including my Surgeon Dr. D included at Lahey Clinic in Burlington back in 2012. I wrote of my Lahey experience back a week or so ago. I also said at that time that there were things that I could not devuldge at that time, again it is per what I feel God wants to speak of. He knows the why,I am accustomed to it now. God is always right. I feel peace from God and I know that today is the day to begin the account.

I will list the events and you will see God in them all.

Some of this stuff might be graphic to illustrate what the events were. So a little warning, I am not working from a script or draft of any kind, I am working through the Holy Spirit and he is live from heaven lol. I assure you he will get this account right, he was with me then and and he is responsible for my making it through this process and witnessing God to everyone. I personally take no credit for the following factual account. He is with us all and always has been.

For my brain biopsy procedure to get  the grading  of my cancer. which was  a grade four Gleo and it was non surgical. Meaning, it could not be removed.

1.) I was brought down to the pre surgical unit to have a surgical metal crown installed on to my skull, It was heavy and had two peices. I was backed in on my gurney into the small prep area. It had a wall behind me, a curtain that drew to either side of my bed and the corrider in front of me that was wide open. There were people in the other beds and parking spaces all around me sorry, I told you I have a dark sense of humor. So any way, I was cranked up to a sitting position. The doctor and assistant were behind me. There was a nurse standing at the foot of my bed to the right side watching me. She had a very almost sad look on her face probably because she knew what was to come. The doctor said okay Dan we need to get going sorry we can’t do anything for the pain I am sorry, The Holy Spirit was there and responded it’s okay,

Next, I felt the weight of piece number one of the crown being placed on my head and then the sound of the drill.  He said okay Dan and I felt the screws going into the back of my skull. I could be wrong but I believe there were four screws around the circumference of my head. I remember feeling the pain and what God and the holy Spirit did was amazing .I  said oh, I can feel it and next the pain was gone and out of my mouth came Oh, its okay I am fine praise you Jesus, thank you Mary. I am speaking of My Most Blessed Mother. As I said before their is one God and many different churches. I as a  Roman Catholic we do not worship Mary but we do venerate her and Honor her because she was chosen by God above all women  to be The Savior Jesus Christs Mother which happily makes The Blessed Mother my mom too .It gives me great comfort, and I pray the rosary and chaplet with her daily for you all too.

Each screw went in and the same thing happened I could feel it announce the pain and The Holy Spirit would announce the same, its okay now and begin Praise to God, and thanked The Blessed Mother for her assistance. The nurse looking at me was fighting tears back. She was actually backing away from me a little into the curtain behind her.

If you know me you know my voice does not require a microphone. What I did not realize at this time , but then again, why would I have? This  pre-op department was not just for brain surgical procedures alone the man laying directly across from me was witnessing the crowning and the praise and worship service directly.  He looked like he was frightened and yet mesmerized by what God was doing. There was a women beside mecurtain # 1 to my left, sorry again for my humor, who was saying to her staff whats happening to him they were trying to calm her. Apparently everyone in the unit was listening and heard it all .( I will explain later in detail )

The next thing after part 1 of the crown went on my head  they said Dan we are going to put the top of the crown on now. it screws into the bottom of the crown.The Spirit responded okay.Not one tear was ever shed.

Well I was crowned and the doctors said okay we are ready So, out of the bed space I went and as I was rolling out with the medical team the doctor said Sorry Dan the crown is heavy, we will try to help support it. The Holy Spirit announced through my mouth no problem, I have a strong neck. The Holy Spirit greeted everyone in that pre op ward. I rolled by  like it was in a parade and Blessings were coming out of my mouth through the Holy Spirit The people were all in shock seeing me smiling they looked like they had seen something out of this world and guess what ? They did! Not  because of who I am but because of Who God is. The evil of cancer picked on  me, and God decided to show everyone that he is here with us all. I will say this yet again, This is to me the time of miracles for all of us.

My miracle is not again about me. God loves us all and as far as to why I am here and why God has  not taken me yet, I feel honestly that perhaps he has granted me extra time to get myself ready to meet him. Perhaps it will be tommorrow or 30 years from now. I do not know and who does ? What I do know is he loves us more deeply than we could ever understand.

Into the hallway we went on our way to MRI. You see the crown that was placed on my head is necessary so they can do an MRI on my brain to map how to go into my skull to get a biopsy sample from the brain tumor. The Holy Spirit even gave a God Bless You greeting as they rolled me down the hall. There was a staff electrician changing light bulbs in that hall that stepped asside so we could pass. He looked shocked as I greeted him. We got to the MRI suite and the staff went in to give the information to the staff inside the unit that two minute window where my wife and I were waiting in the hallway my cell phone went off, my wife had it with her, I nonshalontly said to her who is it? She said its mom, (my mother) I said, I’ll  take it, I will never forget the conversation , Hi mom , how are you she said good darlin , My mom said I just thought I would check into see how your day was going.  I said good mom, I am just on my way into the store to get a few things it was getting late in the day, so she bought it. She said okay honey, I let you go, she told me she loved me and I responded the same to her and we hung up. What was really something is that while I was talking to my mom the MRI staff had come out and was waiting to bring me in for the test and heard everything that came from my mouth and their hearts were on fire. You see, God shows courage, kindness and love all the time the Holy Spirit was giving me the grace necessary to do Gods will to help others in a very special way.  The Holy Spirit was in control with God. You see my parents were not told a word about me until we were certain of what was going on. My mom when she realized later on that I was actually in the hospital at the time of her call to me cried and said that she did understand why I did it, but  please never do it again.

So, the staff took me in and transferred me from the gurney to the MRI bed and the test was done, my brain was mapped. They were all thanked and Blessed as I left by the Holy Spirit, (sounds crazy huh ). But it is true.

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They took me directly down to the surgical suite, I gave my wife a kiss and one of my children had come to be with my wife, everything was happening at lightening speed.

I got into the OR  there was Dr. D and another surgical associate standing with him above the head of my table. There was an anesthesiologist at the foot of the bed. It was explained to me again, sorry Dan this is called the awake surgery, we need you to be awake so you that you can respond to our voice commands. Because damage can happen to your brain we need to know if our probe is damaging the brain or something to that effect. We cannot for that reason give anesthesia for this reason for this surgury. I remember the Holy Spirit was in control and I was very calm. He responded to them okay. The Holy Spirit went on to say to the doctors and all the medical staff, thankyou, for helping me, God chose them in this time to help me. The anesthesiologist was looking at my face and I could see that she could sence something not of this world taking place and was filled with joy, and perhaps a little fear only God knows. She broke in and said don’t worry Dan, when the doctors complete the biopsy, I can give you some  meds like they use when you have a colonoscopy they are like twilight drugs that help you forget some of what you went through. okay, I said that sounds good thankyou. The next thing that happened was they put a mask over my face/ visor it was clear like a window.

The doctor D then said Dan, we are going to be cutting into your skull a spot that is what you will hear and feel okay, again I was calm they were monitoring my heart and everything stayed on an even keel. They took a small piece of black fabric and covered my clear visor, obviously they were going to making small hole into my skull and they did not want to get my viser dirty which potentially could upset me.The little saw or drill started and they again kept talking to me softly to soothe me, they were all wonderful. God had put me into such a deep peaceful state.The doctor said I am sorry Dan I am now going down behind your eye it is going to hurt, I felt that pain for sure. The Holy Spirit took over he announced  it okay the pain is gone and out came the Holy Spirit just like in the pre -op department saying  Praise you Jesus, Praise you Jesus , thankyou my Blessed Mother and so on , the doctor said okay Dan please move your fingers, and a couple of other commands.  I said okay, made the rquested movements and he said good. At that point I laid there with no drugs, no pain and I was doing Praise and worship and thanking them all for helping me. I could not see the doctors faces the whole time but I did see the face of the anesthesiologist she was beautiful and extremely moved by what God was showing her and God only knows what the doctors faces were doing behind me. She could see them. In those units they can talk a language with their eyes without uttering one word .

So anyways, I was laying there the doctors were putting in stitches to close the wound. I am laying their with the black cloth on my face mask and I could look down on an angle and make out the person still at my feet.  Out of my mouth I swear to God,  I said  Luke, I am not your Father from  the Starwars movie, thats what I felt like with my black mask on Dark Vader. Everyone began to laugh and the anesthesiologist had tears in her eyes. She reached forward, and removed the fabric and my visor was then clear once again. A few minutes later she announced that they would not bother to give me the twilight medicine because it was possibility that it may make me feel lousy or tired. I had done so well and they did not want to do that to me. i said okay, I felt great.

When the surgery was over,stitches etc the Dr. D came over to me and said, incredible Dan in 30 years I have never had a patient not cry, and behave in this manner during this surgery. I said it was God not me, again it is my feeling that that God was useing my illness not just to mend me but to show others he is here. With God anything is possible. He is shaking people up and I am just so fortunate to be as I have called it a passenger on the bus where God and The Holy Spirit are allowing  me to witness things in a much different way than I normally would have been able to .Why God is allowing me to witness and experience this is only for him to know. It is not because I am any different than all of  you my brothers and sisters out there.

I will continue this soon,

With Love and prayers.

Danny