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IN SEARCH OF MY FAITH, MY JOURNEY TOOK A SPOOKY TURN! Part 2

04 Saturday Oct 2014

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As I said in Part one Of This Writing,

My son Brad passed away from heart disease and my wife and I moved back into our home in Belmont. Again these events are from 26 years ago so they are in the rear view mirror of our lives now but hold a very important cautionary tale.

After my son passed we were greiving so heavily, my wife was shattered, I could not give her peace and happiness. So, I was so freaking mad ! Remember I thought I could fix everything, fix anyone, fix whatever. That was one of my major faults!

So, I have always been a passionate person persuing my truth. I thought what kind of God does this to anyone? So I defiantly started to look at faith , God, Spaceships , aliens, transcendental meditation, you name it, I checked it out.

I began calling out things by my voice words etc  and relying on whatever to respond . Guess what, they did! And it was not good! Please Note : I was challenging God, I was not worshiping evil, I spoke words to show signs etc. But words have power beyond our understanding. I understand that now.

Evil heard me chastising God and took the opportunity to come on in. I was so , ill-equipped to deal with this. The devil fueled the flames of our misery. Just what he wanted a young prideful fool with a broken heart to torture.

I created a spiritual mess that I needed to stop, but how ?

Here is a few things that were happening.

Foot steps in the attic above us.

Foot steps and crackling of the hard wood stairs coming down to our main floor.

knives disappearing.

Food disappearing.

Appliances turning on by themselves.

Very cold spots in the house which brought sorrow and dread.

My son was around three and would wake up saying mommy, I could not sleep there was a hairy monkey waking me up.

My brother and his then fiance were baby sitting my son and new baby S. when my wife and I went to dinner and a movie and when I came in they said the kids are fine but we can never watch the kids here again. Bring them to our home. This place is haunted.There was the banging upstairs, then it came down the stairs and he saw the hairy arm on the railing.

My wife had a few small kids over. Again, Danny was probably 4-4.5 by now and they were playing in the toy room. The windows were shut and locked for their safety and the livingroom air conditioner was on. There were no fans.

Well my wife was in the kitchen folding laundry and heard the little kids laughing. As my wife rounded the corner this heavy gum wood door was opening and closing. She ran in and the kids were sitting in the middle of the room on the rug laughing and  said the monkey was funny.

My parents were involved and said Danny please get out, come here!

I just said, we can’t mom I/We need to sort this stuff out. Around this time my Grandmother Nana Ilene had died too. My wife and I were almost there but needed a little more time and money to prepare to get into our own home somewhere.

I could not shave in my bathroom because I knew someting was looking at me, it was horrifying to be honest with you. I shaved at work. For a very long time!

It was like we were being watched and we were, it was scary.

I will continue with part three shortly.

This song fits perfectly with how I felt in this time. God loved me but I did not trust or personally know him so I created a mess through my free will choices.

And believe me I was so sorry for my choices and was finally seeking God who is my God now  in a way that I never did before. I was living in horror, as was my wife.

My Feeling is…,

I read this somewhere,

We are spiritual beings having a human experience. 

God loves us and wants us to grow closer to him and when we are called to him through Christ this journey of Our Holy Spirit will go and the body will remain here in its imperfect state like this world.

This is me in the early 90’s, God has a sence of humor.

Lucky Lee I play the fool

 

 

IN SEARCH OF MY FAITH, MY JOURNEY TOOK A SPOOKY TURN! Part 1

03 Friday Oct 2014

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This Post is truely a serious subject to me. Let me frame this situation up to the best of my ability. It will take more than one writing, that is for sure. But it is true, it contains the Shrine in Boston, A priest and my landlord. A spiritualist came to my apartment too. Life was scary thats for sure! This event took place around 26 years ago while my wife and I were renting a beautiful apartment in Belmont.

Life was beautiful my wife and I were engaged and we rented an apartment in Belmont. One of my clients was a realtor and she had this listing. It was a beauty.

WE did not live there until we got married. We would not have but the landlord told us that we could not anyway, they did not go for that stuff.  We just bought stuff mainly 2-3rd hand who cares. 🙂 and furnished the place.We earned our pay and liked to save for the proverbial rainy day. We were wed and moved into our apartment together. Married life began. My wife and I had our first son D. My wife worked nights 6pm and arrived home by 2 :30 a.m. I left for work at around 7:00 a.m. so my wife was on duty at that moment.  Things were very good at the apartment for the three of us. Our landlords were old school and very family oriented. We loved them.

My wife and I were expecting our second son Brad Michael and he was found to be ill and my wife also went into labor and was put on bedrest.  I spoke about this on the July 29th blog entry.

Well, my son Brad Michael passed away and the day after his burial we moved home to Belmont after 6 months of living with my parents.

Life was very bitter, and we were angry with God as many people would be. It is not God’s plan for children to die, it was brought on by original sin. I  was also at this this time in search of my faith and even though I had been attending church I started a boycott on God. I was lashing out and getting revenge on God, how stupid ! I left God just when I needed him most. My wife was so devestated that she kept praying and crying. I will continue this, I can only go so far with each writing, what spiritural stuff that I brought upon my family was horrific. I tried  to tell Fr. R about them years ago, and just could not. It was an open wound still, to me. Like I wrote in a past blog we need to be careful what we expose ourselves to. Evil is for real !!!!!!

This song is very good, I walked away from God in anger and hurt. I left him , but he never left me.

Just when I needed You Most. Randy VanWarmer

God Bless You,

Danny

Gift Of The Spirit

02 Thursday Oct 2014

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Not all things of the Spirit are good. Let me tell you why, in my opinion. It is my feeling after prayer and my life living with the Holy Spirit that we all have the ability through the Holy Spirit of God to do good.

But we also have the power through our thoughts and words that we speak to bring a Spirit Forward that is not of God but of Evil.  I came up face to face with Evil 26 years ago. I will be publishing on this post starting tomorrow about this experience.

Why ? Because I need people to see that it actually does exist. it is not just something talked about around a cap fire or on a scary television program.

When the Priest, Rabbi or Pastor talks about Evil/devil it is not because they are crazy or fear mongers. They are trying to inform us so that we do not experience these things in our lives. The evil one is lurking around all the time.

Stay close to Jesus,  as my mom would say …

Knowing what you stand for, limits what you fall for.

At the time of my life when all heck  broke out, I was very uncertain of who God was in my life. I was so angry about my son’s death.  I opened a horrible spiritual door. I do not relish reliving this. I could not tell Fr. 5 years ago because it was terrible for me to relate to others without emotion and reliving it. But today is a much better day, a different Danny is behind the key board and God wants it out so,  it shall  be done. I am a prayer warrior who is giving what I have to God and he is my Lord and Savior too. Every situation has its benefit and I will touch on that as well.

Again, These writings will commence tomorrow.

God Bless You,

Danny

 

Let me say this I won’t leave this blog writing on a sour note so. Here is a wonderful song. No matter what we get ourselves into God will protect us once we come to him, confess to him. He can save us from peril and give us peace once again.

Turn up this song and feel the Holy Spirit Fly:  Peace !!

 

Michael W. Smith Awesome God

 

Light Of The World, Jesus Christ

30 Tuesday Sep 2014

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God is the Father.

Jesus is the son.

And we are his salt and light to each other . Amen.

 

Listen to the words and realize that there are people who struggle with their faith and belief that there is God waiting to meet us when he calls us. So, we need to shine his light on others and speak about his love for them .

You know, I went to church this past weekend and I saw an older gentleman that I know there. He leaned into me and said there is a person that keeps confronting me on faith based stuff and God. This man was stressed out he could barely stand he is very handicapped. I said B, Do not worry, I made this mistake years back too I said. You cannot save anyone, only God can. We are called to live our lives in a way that people will want to say what do you have, That I don’t?

I told him if this non believer is coming after you then that is not God, if this person has a Spirit of Opression then that too is from a different master. I said to B, do not give your peace up, don’t respond to the attacks, pray for this person. Not because you feel your right or better but because he is lost. Amen.

Why he confided in me in that moment only God knows. The bottom line is that I am proud that he trusted me enough to come to me.  These are situations that we all face.  It is life. Because B came to me with this issue before mass, I was able to pray for them both so it made that Holy mass even more special. Amen.

 

England Dan and John Ford Coley .       Love is the answer

God Bless You,

Danny

So Many Tears, I think Not :) Step Right Up.

27 Saturday Sep 2014

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Let me just say I was not thinking of this song I haven’t  heard it since I was maybe a ten year old boy when I driving around with my mom and dad. I know my mom liked it.  It came out of the blue in fragments to my mind, just a few words with a beat. The song popped up in my head and up out of my chair I went to my computer and I found it. God does work in mysterious ways 🙂 Today I was talking to a childhood friend from Florida Billy. God joined our  lives and our personal psalm #139  back in kindergarden he was my first friend there. We have been connected since that day. It is funny, I remember the first  day I walked home from school with him, the school was a half block away from my home so my mom would come out onto the walkway and watch me come down the street. This day she was also weeding the front flower bed. In this moment , I am thinking how  it really is miraculous indeed that my memory remains so vivid even through this Gleo’s attack on me. But again, thats God. I will pick up with more on Bill in the not too distant future. He is an amazing man.

 

For this moment let me say this , Life can be tough but It is not tragic. And, oddly enough even great things can become problems to us. Its how our emotions are running in any given moment. Thats why emotions need to be controlled, another free will choice ! Even in the perfection of a Miracle I can find the imperfection. Thats why I need to be aware of that aspect of my thinking and I need to cut that thought off at the pass.

I am a Miracle and yet have more physical hurtles yet to jump. I generally say so what to that fact but, I do have moments that I say I cannot stand this. I am grateful and yet frustrated. My body holds my mind back back from going and doing. Only prayer to my Lord and Heaven restores me. 

Another thing about a Miracle in my feelings anyway and based on my life, is that I just want to be normal to others, that I blend in . I have been so many places where people will see me at a function, grad party, restaurant and do a double take shocked to see me. They cannot believe its me or how I look.  For a while in my home parish some  people would part like the red sea to allow me passage to a seat. Some actually said Its a honor and God would have me stop and say, thankyou, and I am only a person like you and God loves us all the same. I then thank them for their prayers. I am not a matyr by any standard,  it takes courage to be one of those. God gave me an easy pass for the moment.

God called me in this moment to witness and inside my head sometimes I am that little kid pouting and stamping my foot. Part of me wants to say this right now, How dare I feel this way! But you know, I am human and God knows my short comings and knows my gripes etc. He loves me anyway, he knows my heart and he is merciful. He loves you all too. 🙂

Finally, here is the song that I spoke of above, and we sometimes feel like this in our lives but the reality is that we do not have to live with this as our personal anthem. Life is good, Life is worth living 🙂 Amen.

And the after life when this side show ends, it is so much better. ! 

Side Show  Blue Magic

 

As always, God Bless You,

Danny

The Worth Of Our Souls.

26 Friday Sep 2014

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As the the years have gone by especially the last 5 years for me, I have come to the understanding that the most important thing that we have to consentrate on in our lives is the condition of our souls. Personally, as a dad it also invigorated me to make this point to my children crystal clear.

I have said it before but it is the truth. You may not understand this and I can’t say that I blame you for that either, but…

Nobody wants a desease such as what I have had however,  would my soul be today in this moment where it is now if I had not had this experience ?

We are called to be prepared because the Lord could call us by name to him at any moment. People really think that  I know so so much about faith, life, it all. Let me tell you honesty, I don’t.  I have only scratched the surface of Who God Is!  I am falling in love with God so personally. Without this cancer I would not be here now and have this Spiritual Awaweness. And I still have a very long way to go.

I have the awareness of God, I have faith in God, but now God has me in the school of knowledge where His word (scripture) after study are being revealed to my heart for their use in my life. So, for the first time in my life, God is living in me. I personally own that reality. It is the intersection where my body, mind and Holy Spirit are aligned to serve God and undersrtand what he wants from me and for me. He wants me to witness him to my peers and wants me to call people back to his cross. The Holy Spirit is working with me so, I am sure that he will help me get it right. God wants the same for all of us. We are all equal in his eye’s. But we need to take Jesus/ God on our journeys daily. Pick ourseleves up, dustoff and keep going, always with an outstretched hand  from another in need of help and the need of the revelation of Jesus Christ in their lives. Christ  is our 1  hope , our life, our only hope. Jesus had done it All.

Aaron Sledge    Did It All For Me

 

What I do know is about the Mercy he has given me and all of you.

Full Question

What exactly is a soul?

Answer

The glossary at the back of the U.S. version of the Catechism of the Catholic Church defines “soul” as follows:

The spiritual principle of human beings. The soul is the subject of human consciousness and freedom; soul and body together form one unique human nature. Each human soul is individual and immortal, immediately created by God. The soul does not die with the body, from which it is separated by death, and with which it will be reunited in the final resurrection.

Here’s more:

The human person, created in the image of God, is a being at once corporeal and spiritual. The biblical account expresses this reality in symbolic language when it affirms that “then the Lord God formed man of dust from the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living being.” Man, whole and entire, is therefore willed by God. In Sacred Scripture the term “soul” often refers to human life or the entire human person. But “soul” also refers to the innermost.aspect of man, that which is of greatest value in him, that by which he is most especially in God’s image: “Soul” signifies the spiritual principle in man. The human body shares in the dignity of “the image of God”: it is a human body precisely because it is animated by a spiritual soul, and it is the whole human person that is intended to become, in the body of Christ, a temple of the Spirit. Man, though made of body and soul, is a unity. Through his very bodily condition he sums up in himself the elements of the material world. Through him they are thus brought to their highest perfection and can raise their voice in praise freely given to the Creator. For this reason man may not despise his bodily life. Rather he is obliged to regard his body as good and to hold it in honor since God has created it and will raise it up on the last day. The unity of soul and body is so profound that one has to consider the soul to be the “form” of the body: i.e., it is because of its spiritual soul that the body made of matter becomes a living, human body; spirit and matter, in man, are not two natures united, but rather their union forms a single nature. The Church teaches that every spiritual soul is created immediately by God—it is not “produced” by the parents—and also that it is immortal: It does not perish when it separates from the body at death, and it will be reunited with the body at the final Resurrection. Sometimes the soul is distinguished from the spirit: St. Paul for instance prays that God may sanctify his people “wholly,” with “spirit and soul and body” kept sound and blameless at the Lord’s coming. The Church teaches that this distinction does not introduce a duality into the soul. “Spirit” signifies that from creation man is ordered to a supernatural end and that his soul can gratuitously be raised beyond all it deserves to communion with God. The spiritual tradition of the Church also emphasizes the heart, in the biblical sense of the depths of one’s being, where the person decides for or against God. (CCC 362-368)

 

Answered by: Jim Blackburn

With this in mind, we need to seriously think about our Souls daily and see what the condition of it may be. The Holy Spirit will help you, if you feel guilty or realize that you have been hurtful to someone, cheated, stolen etc, we will be convicted by that sin BUT, if we seek repentance from God and are truely sorry Jesus will heal your soul of this sins and never remember the sins again.

We must always forgive everyone of their debts or transgressions towards us as well. God cannot forgive someone if they are withholding forgiveness to someone else. Those are my thouhgts on that matter.

Josh Groban Remember When It Rained     Out standing !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Josh Groban.. My Confession. Beautiful.

 

God Bless You and Have a wonderful Day.

Danny 🙂

For A Special Person Margie :) And Our Jewish Friends.

25 Thursday Sep 2014

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Happy New Year.

I Received a call today from a beautiful friend Margie . I will write a book about her someday 🙂 I love her so much ! 🙂   We talked for a while and I was reminded of our Jewish friends Holiday’s of Rosh Hashanah and the Holy time until Oct 3rd , Yom Kippur. The day of atonement.  Very Beautiful.

a·tone·ment
əˈtōnmənt/
noun
  1. reparation for a wrong or injury.
    “she wanted to make atonement for her husband’s behavior”
    • (in religious contexts) reparation or expiation for sin.
      “an annual ceremony of confession and atonement for sin”
    • CHRISTIAN THEOLOGY
      the reconciliation of God and humankind through Jesus Christ.
      noun: Atonement; noun: the Atonement
      So, I would like to say. God Bless You All during this time, you are in my prayers. Amen.
      Rosh Hahana
      http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TMKQ9kDXJ68
      Yeshua ( Jesus) Kadosh (Holy)
      http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CJX43l9-Qx0
      Pray For Israel.
       My Wife and I are very grateful for our Friends in Israel. We have never visited there personally but our hearts are united in a very Special way to you all. Not only do we have many Jewish friends her in the U.S. but….
      During my journey with Glio Blastoma Multiform Grade 4 that was non surgical and considered terminal. Our Special connection with the people of Israel came about by God’s Magnificence only. Amen.
      After my diagnosis two very dear friends came to visit my wife and I here and we prayed together.
      He gave me a card that was very heavy. I opened it up and inside the card there was plastic pocket that held a beautiful large silver colored Medallion.
      There was a small letter from Bob and Jackie that was enclosed. By the way, I had just found the little letter folded in half by itself mixed in with my prayer material next to my chair within the last two weeks. Finding the letter was God ‘s doing, for this very moment  , there is no doubt about that. 🙂
       Bob and Jackies letter was small and reads this verbatim. 
      Dan:
      A number of years ago, an Israeli colleague presented this medallion to me during my first trip to Israel.
      The inscription in Hebrew and English is a symbol of faith and love. That persons, regardless of their personal belief, may someday visit or return to the eternal city : Jerusalem.
      Alway’s with the prayer. ” May You Go Safe and Come safe”.
      our thoughts and prayers are exactly the same for you , dear friend as you continue and complete your journey at this time.
      Also, one of our dearest friends in Jerusalem. We emailed him a request for prayer for you and your family at the Wailing Wall and insert a prayer for you all in the wall.
      With our continued friendship and love ,
      Bob and Jackie
      Now, Thats God For You! God can do anything.
      I do not have the card or the medallion anymore. There was a reason for Bobs feeling compelled to share that with me. As soon as I received it I felt compelled to use it in prayer. I only have one hand use since the cancer and treatment so I took my pocket cross and that medallion and had my kids put a rubber band on them so they were bound together. I then placed it in to my hand and prayed through the night for the Safety Of Israel and for my country the USA to stand and watch over them. God called me to prayer with such furvor. God gave me a passion and love for Israel. I pray all the time for Israel and its people. When I pray, I envision a supernatural protection like a clear dome protecting them. And guess what I believe that  prayer can do that!!  Call it crazy, but I don’t. It is the time of God’s miracles.
      About 6 or so months ago before I went to church I got an interior message from God that it was time to return the medallion to Bob it was very tarnished when I returned it to him, but it should have been I held it in my hand everynight for nearly two years and prayed not stop with it.
      God knows the whens and whys of everything. Thats all that really matters to me.
      So, thank you God for my friends, Bob, Jackie and Margie they are bricks in my foundation of faith.
      Love,
      Danny
      Song Of Celebation 🙂
      http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5h02blxzkmQ
      I hope and pray that the music is good , i do not speak Hebrew!
      After all , I am just Danny. 🙂
      Lastly, Bob and Jackie facilitated the planting of a tree in my family name in a Garden in Jerusalem. I told them right away thank you but that tree was planted for us all so we could unite together. Beautiful friends.
      Your  prayers are part of the reason why I am sitting here in this moment.
      God answers everyones prayers ! Amen.

Someone to emulate, God called And They Answered

23 Tuesday Sep 2014

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God calls us all to service. Each one of us lives to help and make life better for the next one. When we are young our minds wander and we think and sometimes worry what we are going to do when we get older? What will I be? And then there is the little voice that becomes the Big voice as we grow with faith with our God. The Holy Spirit calls us to descern what our destiny will be.

For Me, I remember being between 7 and nine years old and got the interior question, should I be a priest ? My dad and mom thought that it would be great, they said just think about it Dan, and I did. My mom had at least 3 or so counsins who were dedicated to the Lord and were nuns. They would come by to visit our home and my mom so they were very real to us. We saw the person and the nun. Nuns were people too. 🙂

I remember going up to the beach and they were there on the sand sitting with their parents etc. It was a beautiful time. I just never envisioned them on a beach and yet they were. 🙂 lol What a revelation to a kid. LOl

Having gone through the Catholic school system in the Late 60’s and 70’s I remember the nuns. Sisters of Saint Joseph taught us at St. Agnes. it was around the time of Vatican Two and the changes were happening in the church. The nuns were changing their habits. 🙂 Literally.

We had some of the sisters in the traditional long black habbits with the bright white bibs. And other sisters wearing the newer habits with the small head piece.

The habits changed but their love,devotion, and care for us their children did not. The school staff was at least 90% religious with a few lay teachers but even those lay teachers were so dedicated to their faith as well. It was a very Holy environment. It was strict and there were rules and consequences for us all.

The Parish priests made it their business to get to the school and would make their presence known. It was a big deal for us kids for them to come by. ( thats a future writing ).

Every morning the nuns would come out of the convent and would enter the school together and open their classrooms.

When the bell rang in the school yard, Everyone formed lines and each child orderly followed their teacher in lines of 2 and quietly followed them into the school.

I had a problem with the quiet part 🙂 lol. I got detention a lot. I cleaned a whole lot of chaulk boards and erasers. The nuns had no problem staying late to allow their students to learn the boundaries and decipline. They did not have a job, they had a ministry. They were God’s brides and they were doing the most important job in society helping to grow future leaders of the church and society.

I could go on and on. I miss the nuns , I miss the huge May Processions. I miss the faithful packing the church. So many changes but is all change good ? I do not think so.

I remember all the nuns in church all the time it was a special time.

And yet, The nuns took vows of poverty, chastity etc. They were servants of God.

You know I hear all the time to pray for the religious life vocations. Which makes me want to ask this,  Did God stop calling people to religious life ? I do not think so. I think society is not listening? What use to be a noble and proud service for God is now some how uncool? Only God knows the reason for this taking place.

 

Well, for me at the age of nine or so the voice of priesthood quieted in my head. As I grew in years  I just knew that I was not cut from that cloth to be a priest. To be a great priest you need to be there 24 hours a day and need to be very strong in faith to fight the barrage of stuff being put upon you. I was not that person and God led me to my beautiful wife so, I know that God did not intend me for that special service. He expected me to pray and think about the invite though. I was intended to be a son,husband, dad and friend. My own life ministry I guess we can call it 🙂 You have one too. 🙂

When I see the culture laughing and making jokes about these special people it comes from one place. evil. Making fun of a servent who is given their lives to Honor God is not funny. It is in this case ……..

sac·ri·le·gious
ˌsakrəˈlijəs/
adjective
 
  1. involving or committing sacrilege.
    “a sacrilegious act”
    synonyms: profane, blasphemous, impious, sinful, irreverent, irreligious, unholy,disrespectful

    “your vile language is sacrilegious”

 

Here are a few exaples of what special people nuns are.

 

It is a beautiful Habit to have. 🙂

Blessed Mother Teresa

http://www.americancatholic.org/Features/Teresa/WhoWasTeresa.aspx

Someone to emulate

https://www.ewtn.com/motherteresa/words.htm

Another beautiful nun.

Young Beautiful Actress Left Hollywood to Become a Cloistered Nun

Delores Hart part 1

 

Delores Hart Part 2

 

For The beautiful brides of Christ. The sisters in service to our communities.

Joe Crocker Luciano Pavarotti

God Bless You,

Danny

Take Me To The King, Getting out of the sofa, Word of God Speak.

19 Friday Sep 2014

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What resounds in my heart today, is how fragile we all are. I have never really discussed on my blog as a guy what my diagnosis with a terminal cancer had meant in that moment to me, my family, my parents, siblings and my friends.

This could be a long writing but I will break it into peices over a period of time. Upon receiving the news about my friend Paul yesterday it was so close to home for me that when in prayer last night , I had his whole family unit and friends in my large web of thoughts and prayer.My wife and I met Paul and Linda 20 years ago and were neighbors for 10 years and have remained friends since our move to a different home in town.

I know what I felt like after I was diagnosed personally and I felt like I had let my family down. I wrote once that to me,  I felt that I was my wifes knight in shining armour and had fallen off the horse. I felt that I had failed my wife and family. I really beat myself up for a while over this.. My wife did not feel that way. And, as I grew in my awareness of what this situation truely was and where God was in it. I realized that what happened to me was not of my doing it is a condition that God had never intended for us either.

If you have read my blog you would know that God made it clear to myself and doctors through the Holy Spirit that …. I had cancer, cancer was not of God and that I do not own this cancer. And, I never did.

Well,

That goes for my friend Paul and you all as well. We are all the same in God’s eye’s. He loves us all so much ! cancer and evil is not of God, period !

But, he will get us through , Amen !

You know,  recently ( two weeks ago) , my wife and I were sitting in the family room here and she reminded me of how Paul and Linda had come to visit one night after my diagnosis and Paul had to get me out of the sofa, I was so weak.  I remember being stuck and not being able to get up and out of it. We are all our brothers keepers. For anyone who is currently not well, think positive thoughts, trust in God and expect healing. Pray and visit healing services too. God answers all prayers. Look for the angels in your life. I have too many angels in my life to count. Thank you God ! 🙂 xo

Remember to laugh always no matter what !

I will continue on this topic shortly. Hope abounds !!!!!!

 

Tamela Mann   Take Me To the King.

 

Kick Cancer in the Butt! Pray for a Cure ! There is nothing that he cannot do !

Chris Tomlin Indescribable

Word Of God Speak.  Mercy Me

Jim Carrey Impressions   Enjoy a good laugh

 

Love, Your Brother In Christ,

Danny

 

 

 

The Courage , The awareness, and keeping what you have.

16 Tuesday Sep 2014

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One important thing that came to me as I ate my 1/’2 sandwich for lunch on Monday was a conversation that  I had with an older friend of mine years back. She was a walker. She walked 365 day’s a year with a friend who was committed to doing it with her.

She had various illnesses that were possible if not probable of effecting her due to genetics. He physician told her to use it or she could  lose it. He was speaking about her body. I can attest to that point as I sat here side lined with this cancer that I have never owned.

The bottom line is this according to her doctor, and I agree 100%, once the legs go then the rest of the body follows.

When cancer took my left side. I went from 150 miles per hour to 5 miles an hour physically. When my legs could not walk , my arms did not move involuntarily either, my lungs shrunk from sitting and my bodies energy withered too. When we walk, all of our muscles are involved stomach, back, legs, arms, chest, buttocks, heart and lungs included. Your mind is renewed by what it is sensing in smell, sight and sound it is a win, win for life. Your mind and Spirit can connect easily.

What I did have was God’s Peace, Faith and the knowledge that when this curtain falls on my life here that Act two with God and Jesus Christ will be absolutely Beautiful and will never end. Being united with all who have gone before me, including my pets. Love just does not die, thats my belief anyway. Last but not least, God gave me the Holy Spirit and the will to see things in my life through a magnificent prism. I love my wife, children, family and friends so much that my desire to live and conquer my  adversities to be physically whole once again is as large as a mountain. I can see it. .  My goal makes life, a sheer joy. If I get an inch forward , I will stretch that gain to   a mile. It is very simple. I can only imagine what God could use me for if He blesses me with my physical healing that I see.. God has already peirced my heart, humbled my life and has grown me in relationship with him. Its the same for you all too 🙂 The Holy Spirit has transformed and renewed my mind and has convicted me of my sins and any of the the crap that was in my life. That stuff was left on the confessional room floor. So in life bring the stuff to God and he will heal that wound. I have said it before yet, I feel once again compelled to write these words so, I would love to live and be here to love and support my wife, to love my kids and witness who they grow to become, weddings grandchildren the works but none of us truely knows what God’s plan is.  So, I take comfort in knowing that I am doing everything in my power now to faciltate that desire to happen. But, I also am grateful to know that should God call me to him then he knows the reason, and I believe that I will still be with my loved ones and friends, watching over them and perhaps in my purified state having accounted for my lifes errors To God . My prayers will be even more valuable for my loved ones and all of you 🙂

So, Sitting down constantly was not an option. By Gods grace, I fought to my feet and dragged my left side up and down the stairs with me. I began to try and empty the dishwasher and vaccuum the hard woods on the 1st floor. If I have a little energy I try to expell it and to cause my body to have to rise to the occasion and make more energy, I made a roasted chicken dinner for my family complete with vegetables that hit the kitchen floor. Too heavy for one hand, but I was hours in the kitchen doing what I used to do cooking and it was a labor of love. We all had a wonderful dinner too 🙂 What they did not know, did not kill them:) Everyone was raving about it. I must keep that recipe! LOl.  I began to walk the track when someone can drive me down and be with me, a safety net. I must say the first time I looked at the 1/4 mile track I almost stayed in the car. Question?, what if I in that moment I had said no, I can’t do it ? I probably never would have walked. I have walked two laps now which is 1/2 mile so again, my legs were moving my arms were moving and my lungs were talking deep breathes because I was winded. What a wonderful feeling that is. I have been taking it to the limits because God has called me to be bigger than myself! He has called me to be God strong for everyone. If I can do this, then you can too. 🙂

Below is a photo of myself and brother in law at the relay for life, Cancer walk this past May 2014. I walked the survivor lap with my brother in law C, he is another one of my hero’s 🙂 Oh BTW, I am on the left, no wheelchair, no walker, no 4 prong cane. God wants the best for all of us !!!!  Amen !

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I am on the road to recovery and like I said it is a long and winding road, I have my family and friends who see me in the down moments that I may have and  they give me a kind word or a  slap on the rear end LOL and I am back in the saddle again. So we are all helping oneanother 🙂

The Eagles  Take it to the limit! I am always running back to God !

 

God adores us All, Don’t leave him standing there !!

Believe in the Miracle that you are and see the the day of endless possibilties that lies ahead !

Even if you move one inch further on your road  today  then you are gaining your Victory through God. Amen !!

The Long and Winding road  The Beatles

Gene Autry. Back In The Saddle Once Again 🙂  Try not to smile, I double Dare You !!!

 

With The Love of Christ,

Danny