When I think of this song I think of the older folks by its beat and orchestration. Being in business for as long as I was gave me a wonderful clientele many of them older and I thoroughly enjoyed them and I feel deeply honored to carry them in my heart and remember their beauty , kindness, and simple life values. May they rest in peace Amen.
First off Happy Birthday to my angel in heaven Brad Michaels birthday is today. He was born 26 years ago today. 🙂 He is with my mom and grandparents celebrating and watching over us.  A few of His friends are in heaven with him Benjamin B., Scotty Mac  and Alex H.  Until we meet again.
I was sitting here today in the silence of my home thinking after my post was completed and my mind drifted off to a deep recess of my mind and pulled out a memory of a conversation that I had when I was a teenager with my mom and dad. It reminded me of a writing on this blog recently about the fears and stressors that kids have in their lives at that time.
I remembered in detail this morning that discussion with my parents some 40 years later. I look back now at that conversation and see clearly that my young uncomplicated 17 year old youth could not get what my parents were saying.
I did what people who cannot defend their position do , I yelled, banged my fist and fled the house. When we are young we sometimes cannot accept the truth and wisdom and the reality check that we receive from those that we love when we ask an opinion of them and do not like the answer that we get.
Fortunately for me, my parents let me come back in good time to them when I was ready to sort things out. Again, the dignity of my own decision.
We as parents deal with this from time to times ourselves. Now that we are in the parenting role we can clearly see what our parents wanted for us. The best. 🙂
I had a good friend Mark when I was a growing boy and he was going through a lot of personal stuff with his parents. His father in particular. I remember telling him Mark your father loves you and  thats why he is strict with you.I could see it clearly in Marks family but not in mine because sometimes the perspective is too close.
So in life some lessons are not easy forgotten for a good reason. We may need them In our own families to lead the next generation forward. Amen.
I came across this song quite by accident and when I listened to it I thought how true. I have  strong personal beliefs about this subject.
Having lost my 2nd child after 14 days of life I could never understand the act of ending a babies life and existence.
My extended family long ago had a situation that you would think that abortion was tailored for. But by their faith they saw yet another option, Â life. This child was given an opportunity to live by a couple adopting him. He has had a beautiful and productive life with family, friends, love and faith.
Again, I will say that because of my own personal experience with brain. Cancer that God decides who is born and when we will be called back to him.
So listen to the song and see what your heart tells you.
WE ALL LOOK TO OTHERS TO SHOW US THE WAY. IT IS PART OF OUR LIVES SINCE WE WERE CHILDREN. IN MY DAILY WALK TRYING TO GET MYSELF BACK IN SOME SORT OF SHAPE I SEE EXAMPLES OF STRENTH FROM OTHERS WHO HAVE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH MORE THAN I AND THINK GOD , WHAT AM I COMPLAINING ABOUT ? THE NEXT GENTLEMAN NOAH IS SUCH A EXTRODINARY WITNESS TO THE HUMAN SPIRIT. A TRUE HERO. HE MAKES ME FEEL THAT ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE.
Day 2 of my week away from my blog I saw a pastor on a program talking about finding your God given gift and living out your life’s purpose. I was glad to be in the moment listening to his words. He said a whole lot of things that resonated with where I currently am at.
The process of living out your purpose  begins when we are very young. It could be that we are born with a special need that allows our parents, siblings and families a chance  to learn from us.
It could also be that we are born with a very special gift. A very smart young child or prododigy who can play the piano right away that effects the world in a particular way.
we all come with our own very special attributes. None of us have it all though either.
For me I began to ask myself when I was a teenager, whats life and this existence about? All of the heavy duty questions accompanied by the fears of whats goning to happen when we grow up. What would I do? How would I make my living? How would I meet the right girl? etc.
I had attentive parents and grandparents so I was able to weather that period. but it is a scary time when we are young. When my children were born in the back of my mind I remembered my personal experience growing up and watched for the stress signs if they were to arise in my kids. Each child is different but each one has lived through this process to different degrees. You have to love your kids no matter what and let them know that you are with them and will support them as they make their way on their own personal journey. One of the most beautiful parts of a flower is when you watch it bloom. Kids are no different, some flowers take longer to bloom but they all do with love and encouragement. They are all magnificent when they do too. Amen. 🙂
Before you listen to this song next song I would like to say that I do have a personal connection to this song…
It was my first St. Agnes School dance at age 11. I danced with Elizabeth Reagan and although I thought she was nice the magic was not there. lol 🙂 plus, there was like 50 kids at the dance and 85 parents chaperoning us. OMG
I think the fathers all had shotguns too. 🙂
God looks down upon his creation and wants to see us as a brilliant garden of love in service  to oneanother.
The first thing I would like to say is sorry. A friend told me that my blog experienced a loss of some of the attached video files. I have no idea why. I spent about 5 hours restoring the blog entrees so that  they function as I intended them to do. Just another challenge. 🙂
I will go further back into the blog all 270 or so and make sure that they all are in working order.
This blog needs to function as God intended it to in order to help others.
The plain truth of the matter about my personal life is this. I am a man in the dessert of my life at this moment and I am living this life  challenge to the best of my ability.
I know God’s awesome power, I am living it. Up until 5 years ago you could ask everyone that knows me that  I was the fun creative guy in the crowd who was just not very serious.
5 years ago God took my life into a different rhelm one that I never knew existed. Just as I was starting to try to figure out that whole experience my business slowed down and I now was facing economic changes in my personal life. After these two life events took aim and attacked my life , my mother fell gravely ill in the Spring of 2011. We spent everyday at my mom’s bedside until she went home the day before Thanksgiving of that same year. In the meantime the Spring of 2012 brought me terminal brain cancer. Since that diagnosis God again moved in my life and has made incredible things happen to me. My mom went to the Lord Aug, 2013 and even given my faith it hurt like heck and still does.
The next piece to my life journey is this blog. This blog is my third form of Spiritual writing that I have been called to do. I have to state again for the record that I am no writer. It is not a natural process for me. I am not an open book type of person but I have become one by God’s design. At one point I began to write that I needed to die to self. I have come to understand exactly what that means as I spilled my life out in my different writing endeavors.
I also know that this is my calling in this moment. I feel a sense of peace in my soul that this is my job for God. I am to witness my journey and his Victory in my life defeating an evil that attacked me to silence my voice.
I know that this is my truth. The other part of me Danny the average regular guy has struggled to keep up with all of these monumental life changes. It still seams like fantasy Island at times. I am being completely honest with you.
I needed the week away from this blog to just stop the process. I have spent time just being. I have spent a lot of time sitting before the Lord in the chapel.
It was beautiful but it is work keeping silent and stopping my mind from wandering. Silence also makes you take on the issues in your heart and mind very honestly. It is a tough and necessary process though. Life is easy when you drown out everything with work, noise, tv and music.
God does not call us to be constantly distracted , he wants our attention. He wants a conversation with us.
In the chapel I feel so peaceful. God is present. I opened my heart up to God in a very special way last Monday while in the chapel and felt a warmth surround me like I was being hugged it was breathtaking.
Moments like that are the reason that I believe that I am not crazy but I Â am human who is living an Spiritual journey thus I cannot fully comprehend everything that was and is taking place.
I Â have always said that this blog would be honest. I have described my life very thoroughly as I have lived it daily. The highs the lows and the hum drum.
On Wednesday 3-25-15 I woke up early and got ready and moved my car out of my wife’s way so she could get to work. I then had breakfast and went to physical therapy by 8:00 am .
The day was a series of household little projects that I can do physically and I went to the chapel to sit quietly and pray. It was great to be out and about.
The day was beautiful and I was exhausted I said good night to the bride at 11:00 pm and went up to bed. I fell asleep immediately as I was doing my night prayer and I woke as usual at 4:OO am I glanced at my wife’s clock and decided to get up. I went to position my self to get up and I was already at the edge of the bed so off I went, the whole body off the bed and onto the floor. There was a huge bang and my wife jumped up an yelled omg are you all right? Did you bang your head? Is anything broken? I just said no , I am fine. I just have to figure out a strategy of how to get myself up off of the floor. She offered to help or get the kids and I said no, I need to figure this out on my own in case it ever happens when I am alone. So, she watched as I manipulated my body with its weak left side by dragging it and finally I got  my chest on the edge of the mattress. I was then able to transfer my weight to the bed and lifted my body with my right leg and arm. I managed to joke and laugh throughout the ordeal but it was a harsh reality of my daily journey. I felt bad for my wife to yet have to deal with another fright, another sad moment. I said to a friend this morning yes God has blessed me with a upbeat disposition but life is not easy. It kinda stinks sometimes.
I was thankful for a couple of things. I was thankful that although I fell off the bed and hit the floor so hard that I was not hurt.
Interestingly enough. I fell on top off my dogs bed that is beside my bed. My black lab died suddenly the third week of DEC 2014 and I missed her sleeping on the floor beside me. She was such a good friend and protector of me. When she died I had the thick cushioned bed washed and put back beside my bed. I would look at it and think of her. It gave me comfort. Well early this morning I landed on that dog bed and the 3 or 4 inches of cushioning saved my left shoulder, hip and head from having a hard hit as I made contact with the hard surface.
It was yet again another moment in my life that I am grateful for Divine protection from above. I believe that the need to keep her bed beside mine was an inspiration from above so thank you God for that.
Hill song Trust in You.
In life we have to get up ,shake it off and  set the course to move forward with gratitude for all that we have. Amen.
You know, in life we hear  stories of hero’s and stars.
To me the true stars in society are the regular guys that despite their lot in life kick the walls of adversity down and bring a smile , joy, light and laughter to others around them. Â That’s what I call a hero. They are GOD strong and are truly living.
This wonderful man used humor to alleviate stress and to make bearable a horrible circumstance. It’s funny, I am driving now after 3 years of being sidelined. I have no where to rush to so I just roll on to see my dad, roll on down to the chapel and do local erands. I have not even gotten into visiting friends yet. But there is a big difference in attitude of the drivers out there since I stopped driving 3 years ago. People are super agitated, angry it is crazy how hostile it can be out on the road.
I wonder if the long winter has caused people to be less patient.
I think to my self why are people so short fused?
Perhaps people could take a lesson from a few of the people below. I have learned the same lessons as they have. Count your blessings and smile when you are doing the mundane things or when a car takes a second longer than it should out of the green light. I watch people tailgating, passing blowing the horns etc and I am  thinking to myself,  for what? I have seen a few of the drivers especially the elderly very afraid looking. It is very sad to see.
Another thing that I would like to say in this moment is this. Dov was no less than the Miracle that he was in life after he went to the Lord. He was a miracle by his Strong Spirit a gift from God and he touched so many by living his Victory despite his terrible lot. He lives on in our hearts and memories of what beauty, courage and hope that there is in our brothers and sisters out there.
Also, the most beautiful thing that we all need to remember is this, as Easter reminds us that Jesus came for our sins and to take eternal death from us that Dov and all of us have an eternity of joy laying ahead of us. Amen.
Just Danny Speaks 