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My Second Vision/Dream Jesus.

28 Thursday Aug 2014

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Hello, today I wanted to present to you my second vision/ Vivid Dream that I had back over two years ago. I will draw the canvas through the Holy Spirit and tell you in exact detail what I told Father right after this blessed event took place back over two years ago.

Okay, here we go…..

Back to the day in May 2012, I had been diagnosed with the inoperable brain cancer. I was feeling so tired I honestly did not really care if I passed away or not. I know it sounds strange.  Obviously, I want to live as long as possible to be present for my wife, kids, dad and family. But I was feeling a fatigue that I could never fully describe. Also, God put me into such a peaceful state that I was not and am not worrying about it.

Well, that day I was sitting down in my family room and just wanted to go upstairs. My bedroom is a place of real serenity,(truely a prayer room) It has skylights, a door out and large window that  look out into my rear yard. I have a massive Beech tree with a 12 foot trunk. It has a massive canopie of leaves. God’s masterpiece. In my prayer/ bedroom I can see God and connect with him through his stars at night just by looking up through the glass in the sky lights. At  night, The beech tree is constantly moving in the air and looks so majestic. If you have seen the picture Jesus Wept, I can envision him in that moment and can relate to his agony to a certain degree, I could never have done what the Lord had done for us all. That, I do know.

I told one of my kids, I need to go up and lie down and made my way upstairs with one of my kids. I was fully dressed and layed on the bed. I was on my side looking out the window it was a windy day and the tree branches were swaying. I was praying and said, God, I am so tired. How can I take care of my family? I was not crying I was just asking. I was too exhausted for emotion. I drifted off to sleep and the next thing that happened was this. It is a message for all of us! He loves us all so much 🙂

 

I was suddenly laying in a small boat, It did not have a sail. I was laying on my left side in the center of this small boat and I could hear water lapping off the side of the boat. I was again laying on my side so my right eye was able to see over the top edge of the boat and off into the distance. I heard in my head the word, Galilee. It was a male voice and was deep, soothing, and a little dragged out.  I felt such exhaustion yet so peaceful laying there and was just listening to the lapping water, again, so peaceful. I saw on the distant shore a stone ruins coming up and it had green vines climbing it. I could see off white and white stone the slabs that the wall had been made from. I then noticed trees above the stone ruins. along the ridge. The trees were unlike anything that I had ever seen. My eyes now looked above and notices a pretty blue-ish sky with little birds flying around. It looked like a sky we would see here.

I could not move due to the fact that I was so weak, I remember so vividly that I decided to try and look in front of me all the while I was thinking, what am I going to do to help my family?  Again, it was not desperation, just quiet surrender I guess. I managed to turn my neck upward a bit and caught the view of two legs and feet in sandels, The man was sitting sideways but looking ahead of the boat. So, I worked very hard to turn my neck further yet to see more. I saw that this man was wearing a robe and it was very heavy looking, heavy texture with beige, white and gray looking fibers like from a lambs coat. I just remember straining my neck forward further and I saw that the man was looking forward away from me. His hood was on.  He had dark hair, with a reddish color to it ( maybe the sun  effect ?) and it was blowing back in the breeze. He then turned his head to the right showing me the profile of his rugged tanned face.

I then got this message in the silence of my mind yet they were words again, a gentle authoratative male voice.   Do not worry, God created you, He knows the ending.  I felt such peace I remember that I put my head down and was resting my neck. We just drifted along in this boat and it was so beautiful, once again I decided I need to look again so I turned my neck once again passed the tanned medeterranean feet and legs up the coat to the gentleman again he was still looking to the right and then he turned directly to me and smiled. It was Jesus Christ ! As, I sit here The Holy Spirit is leaping inside me .

When Jesus Christ looked at me as I said to Fr. so long ago, His smile was the most beautiful smile, his skin was that of a fisherman from all the sun, his beard and hair where different colors dark black with red tone mixed in.  When he smiles his peircing blue eye’s exploded this feeling of love in to me that I will never be able to ever accurately depict. Just know one thing, this is awaiting all of us when we met our Lord 🙂

I  awoke when my wife came in to the bedroom to let me know that she had soup for me to eat. I told my wife and the next person I spoke to was Fr. R. I made my way down to the rectory shorty after this miraculous  event for confession and to speak with Father. I sat on the chair and said to Father, I want to tell you about a Dream/ Vision that I had and as I began to recount the experience that is detailed  above, God filled that room and our Spirits with so much joy that I exploded from the love and was crying so deeply! I could not sit up straight. When I looked up Father was crying a bit too and said, Danny this a very special and rare gift that God has given you.

You see, I am, at my heart a very square conventional person, if you know what I mean. Anything extraordinary that I achieve is through the Holy Spirit.

Getting myself to understand that God would use me to write for his church, write for his people would not be something that I could easily accept. I was not worthy.

Father said, God is confirming that you are doing all they he wants. It was a gift !

I will say this,

Thank you God for telling me otherwise, I really think that I would have perrished from the thought of being disraspectlful to my God and My Lord  Amen.

Thank you God for loving us so much. And anyone that might read this,  just trust and know that if you are doing good that you feel God is compelling you to. Just pray and do it in the glory of God and he will know !! He will bless you for it as well.

In Gods Love,

Danny

I came across this video just now, led by the Spirit. This young prodegy has done a painting it is the closest to what I can describe Christ as looking like from my vision.

When you go to the link below watch and it is about 1:41 on the link you will see her painting of Christ.

 

The Artist  Akiane Kramarik

 

 

We are all one !

27 Wednesday Aug 2014

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I would like to attempt on this blog today to bring up a point. I don’t know all , and do not think for a moment that I do. I got a call late morning from my Friend  P ,the deacon from .N.Y this was on Tuesday morning. He said that he was inflight arriving in Boston on business and wanted to visit for an hour or so. He arrived and we went to a local diner for lunch. God was up to something once again.  We had lunch  and during that time I discussed this blog with him. I explained to him that It was in fact work and due  to all my prayer the Spirit is spilling out so much so quickly. Only God knows why.

I will tell you what God had up his sleeve(  in one moment ), it was very funny. God’s having a lot of fun with me lately. LOL

But first let me get back on point. I have been reminded so many times during prayer that we are all one, under God. Many Churches, many Faiths. I am not a theologian. I just know to me, that  we are one through Christ Jesus.

I have heard remarks over the many years that I have lived that some people are not believers or of the same practicing religion etc. My feeling is, that’s okay. That is their personal opinion. Perhaps God has not broken through to them as of yet so they too can believe. We can all be stubborn during our lifes journey. It is easier to go with the flow than to follow Christ. We live without conscience on so many levels. We live unconvicted so we do what ever we want to do and it is great. But, it is not. It is not for us to judge others either. We need to just live a life that they will see something in us and wonder , What is it  that He or She has ? You want them to see in you what might heal their lives.( God) Remember, with every person we help only God knows how many more people that they may help.

None of us is holier that thou! ( found this on the web)

Holier-than-thou
When a person has taken the moral high-ground or are just up themselves, they are being “Holier-than-thou”. Holier-than-thou literally means, holier than me or better than me.
Just because I made one stupid mistake doesnt mean Britney gets to give me this holier-than-thou attitude!
by Dani October 28, 2005
 
There are many reasons why there are so many churches, and my explanation of why would not be substantial enough or 100 % correct.
 
I will say this though, the church that God built, his church,  was upon his Apostle Peter.The first Pope. The church was filled with people just like us. When you have lots of people in any group religious and otherwise, there will  differences of opinions, in fighting, different interpretations of the bible etc. Feelings get hurt , ego’s get hurt  and in this case the church fragmented and new churches came to be. The orginal church, my church has continued to Spread the Gospel. And help so many. All these churches are following the leader Christ/ God. But we as Christians are  acting like they are on opposing teams. It is very silly.
 
For me, I am faithful to my God and love my church, that is how I was raised and rediscovered for myself later on personally my love of the Catholic Church and its sacraments. I then shared that joy with my family and anyone that I possibly could. I do not care if some one is from a different faith or walk. We do not need to hip check other Christians or anyone else for that matter into the boards. It’s not a game, it’s life.
 
I spoke at great length recently to a friend  who has had very deverse thoughts on all faiths and I thought it was refreshing.
 
Our conversation stemmed out of conversations based in the news. Persecutions of Christians, not being allowed to live their faith. They need to convert their faith to another, pay a fee or be murdered. Sometimes both anyway.
 
Everyone, has their God given right, to be who they were born to be and  to seek and find their God through what ever faith gets them there. In my personal belief due to my upbring, that it is through Jesus Christ that is how we get to our Father, God.
 
I can see the writing on the wall here as well  in this country. God is being pulled from the culture and the bedrock is shifting. .We better stick together as Christians because if we don’t, before long we may be facing the same fate as other Christians world wide..   Remember, we are part of a flock not part of a gang. Evil is on the prowl. And the sheep of the flock are running around not paying attention.
 
 
So, in conclusion,  My friend P took me to my schedules PT appt after lunch. He walked in with me into the office. I wanted to introduce him to my PT staff. He is in the medical field also. I  told P you may see V here today too, he is a deacon also 🙂
 
We walked in and he met everyone, and P saw V they knew eachother and immediately engaged in conversation. They were exchanging information about others and ministry stuff.
Meanwhile, I stood at the glass window of reception and my pt therapist was like hi and smiled you do not have an appointment today and laughed. I stood there and knew God wanted these two men P and V to meet today, that is part of why he came from NY to my PT appt, only God could do this. Paul had business but God added my pt visit to his agenda. God wanted P and V to meet for his reason.:)
 
I came right home grabbed my calander and realized that I was looking at next Tuesdays date by accident. God is awesome. it was a great day.
 
God Bless You All !
 
Danny
 
Video below :
 
I really like Joyce  a lot, I spent alot of time trying to find God early on in my life, I saw her years ago then moved on. I told Father I think that  she is really good. When I became ill with Glio Blastoma , I was stuck here in my chair for along time. I rediscovered Joyce again and she really helped me to make it through this life situation  too. I love who she is and what she does. It is God.
 
Joyce Meyers, God’s Love
 
Please watch ! She even mentions psalm #139, no coincidence. God’s talking. Amen!
 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=09rRLFFzuOE
 

The Rain, The Chapel, The Medal and The Miracle Part 2

23 Saturday Aug 2014

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The doctors were informed that I had an incident in Radiation with the equipment malfunction and left the room quickly, I had said to the doctors that  I was okay and could see from my left eye again. Although, like I said to my wife, brother and the few who have heard  about this account over the last year or so .I had to complain 🙂 I said hey God, my vision returned in my left eye to what it was before I was blinded, you think that you would make it perfect when vision was restored.:) I have told you before God must be rolling his eyes all the time over me. LOL Father said that God has a sense of humor , So, I choose to believe him 🙂

Going home in the car my wife was like, Danny we need to know what happened, my brother tried to just say it would be a good thing to know even for others. My feeling was at that time, Its fine, it happened and it is over. They know how firmly God has placed me into a peace that is not of this world. In my mind I hear  all ll the time like a whisper. “Be Still and Know, I Am God”. So, I understand why people have a hard time understanding me. But ,know in their hearts it is true. So that night was filled with every living family member of my family calling me to say Dan, you have to ask them what happened.  My brother B and my wife were taking me  the next day for treatment.

We got up the next morning, my brother was in our driveway here at around 5:30a.m. as usual. And off we went to Dana Farber, we went to the radiology unit    at Brigham and Williams, that is where my radiation treatment was done, and checked in. My wife said again, Dan find out what happened when you go in. Bob said the same thing.  They were ganging up 🙂 lol

Just kidding, again no one was wrong in their comments that I should find out what happened. I just announced to them it is not about me everything is happening as it should. I just had peace. You will see and read why shortly. I was the only one allowed in the radiology treatment area so the staff came and got me again the Spirit was right their to great them. Big smile as always, I gave the staff my as I called it my golden ticket like Willy Wonda, it was a red card actually that would allow my program to run on the radiation equipment. They took me  to the treatment vault by the massive solid door and rolled me  around the corner in view was the treatment bed and the 3 or so staff members that were normally there. They all greated me with smiles as normal. No one mentioned the day befores event.  And what the Holy Spirit did in this moment was just astounding. When I say in my writings that I am merely a passenger on the bus watching God work his Miracles it is very true! I am so serious about that fact, and it is not because of me, I am, just me. God used what the devil was attempting to do to me which was to silence me so that I could not continue my ministry and giving Gods good news. God can do anthing!  It as plain as day to me. And when God wants me and my witness for him is done. I will be taken to him. I will then be judged too for my shortcomings.  Just a plain and simple fact of life.

So anyways, I am sitting in my wheelchair facing  all of these people. There was a new face that I never seen standing there before. In a second,  God took over and The Holy Spirit emerged. Out of my mouth came. Hello, to the new worman in the lab coat , This is the Holy Spirit everyone in the room was polarized and staring at me. I saw tears in the eyes of the believers that had been treating me over the last 5 or so weeks daily. He said you are in charge of the equipment correct? She said yes. The Holy Spirit said then you know what happened to Dan yesterday when the equipment malfunctioned and he was blinded in his left eye. She was so stunned, He said Dans doctors came right down to check the equipment to see what happened, again she said yes. The final question he asked was this, Dan should not be able to see with the amount of radation that he received  is this true, he is a miracle  she hesitated, he said, it is true isn’t it? She said yes, I saw the faithful in the room just totally wrapped up in Gods amazement and glory.

There was a young  person working in that room as well that was an intern finishing up her studies in college. Everyday during my treatment she was generally there. Her name was L and she reminded me of my daughters very sweet. Everyday when my treatment was done before I left the vault as I call it. They would grab my  treatment card and hand it to me. Then, away they would take me to my family in the wheelchair. Well everyday, I would  say, God Bless You as  I was leaving that area and I could tell she hated it, never said a word to me but she would turn away.

Well, God healed this situation in about 10 seconds one of the most breathe taking things I have ever witnessed and guess what it was not about me, all of the radiation staff were still there including the women responsible for the machine. God established that I was a Miracle and then turned directly towards the young lady L.  I felt the Holy Spirit through me lock eyes with  her and  God reached out with such love,

L you are not a believer. Just a simple loving statement made by a father, she responded softly yes, I do. Again, God through the Holy Spirit was talking to her with such love all the faces in the room were locked on my eyes. God said, you don’t and thats okay. Dan tells you everyday, God Bless You and that is only because he is thankful  to you for your helping him. With that her face lit up and you could see joy. Hear heart melted and her presence was light and she now believed in God. This is only the tip of the iceberg on what God is doing in this time through many people. Love heals, truth breaks deception, God triumphs over everything with Love. He is the just Judge. He knows all, like psalm #139 say’s We cannot hide from him, he knew that in this second before I ever came to be that I would be declaring his victory. His God News! today right now ! And, you would be here reading it. We are all connected.

I then layed on the treatment table and was strapped in. I had  no concern based on what happened the day before, I had my job and that was to offer up everything for whatever God wanted. It was simple. Treatment went well and I as always felt great and thankful.

The Bottom Line :

You see my appointment with my doctor that was scheduled for the day before was switched to the day of the incident. So, God new that in that day this malfunction would happen, he also knew that I would be seeing my doctor on that afternoon. He also  knew that  L would be in my treatment room as a student and witnessing the whole thing. And, then the next day God declared Victory to the staff in Radiology that I was a Miracle building all of their faith. He then turned around and saved L. right before our eyes. She saw the truth, so her eyes open to Heaven and God. As the bible says the Scales fell from her eyes. If that’s not magnificent then, what is? God handles everyone of our lives everday, I am  having a hard time with typing and dictating so, you know where I stand.  🙂 

By the way L’s last day as a student ended on my last day of threatments in June 2012.No coincidence either.  She always said God Bless Me with a big smile on her face, she rolled me out of the room that day and hugged me. I introduced her to my wife and brother and my doctor was in his office so, the fog horn(me) opened my mouth and I yelled hey Dr. A. LOl He came out and greeted me, what a great guy! 🙂 I said, L here is finishing her studies when she comes for a job please help her out, she’s great !They all laughed. I often wonder how she is. Like the bible say’s, Jesus will go after the one lost sheep to protect it. And, he did 🙂 Also, I cannot imagine the wonderful things that L will do in her life. Just beautiful. Amen !

God Bless You All,

Danny

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In The Beginning and My first Heavenly Vision/ Vivid Dream.

13 Wednesday Aug 2014

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In The Beginning of true Spiritual awakening of all of us is a long time in the making. We experience different levels of awareness in God, his existence and supreme gift to us all and I m not talking about life 🙂 That is a Miracle in itself.  I am referring to the gift of The Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit as far as I am concerned is our bridge to the Almighty, he facilitates all that is good, he inspires us, he warns us,he allows God to fill us with joy and allows our conscience to feel guilt for a wrong doing.The Holy Spirit will help to bring us to our knees for repentence before our Lord. The Holy  Spirit that dwells within every one of us is God given and works in concert with our desires, needs and to allow us to fulfill our destiny for God and his people. We need to allow The Holy Spirit to work with us. We need to pray for his assistance in a meaningful way. I mentioned this in one of my recent blog writing that I began praying and commiting myself to God and the holy Spirit with my daily shower and telling all of Heaven that the water was my rededication and reminder of my baptismal water. I say daily to God that I surrender myself to whatever he wants from me and tell the Holy Spirit to please use me to the best of my ability. Lastly, I call on all of Heaven through my prayers for all of the Angels and Saints to please bestow on me any gifts of the Spirit that I may need in the future. Heaven is for real.:) This is a very special time that we are living in, a time like no other. It is a time of Miracles, it is a time of God’s pouring out of The Holy Spirit and Spiritural gifts for eachone of us. We all have our very own special gifts. Some we are born with some we acquire from God in the moment of his choosing. Our gifts can bend and change over a period of time based on what God wants and needs us to accomplish. The one prerequsite that God has for each of us to open our hearts and desire to be an agent of good to be the light to oneanother. It is simple. Through my childhood, adolescence and even into my 30’s I was always searching for my true God and his existence. I could feel him to a certain degree but the picture was still far from focus. During that time for me the 90’s.  Life had a lot of moments of hurts from people you know, daily nonsence. Its hard to see God when you are surrounded by others who are not necessarily in Christ or God based. You are wandering around in a crowd of lost sheep many of which have no idea that they are even lost. I am not judging but  it is indeed a fact.   Well in the latter part of my 30’s I managed to bring my picture into a little more clarity with prayer and the assistance of others through a beautiful retreat know as Cursillo in a retreat house know as St. Basil’s in Methuen, Ma. that was I believe in Oct 1999. My wife went in November of the same year. It was life changing, the focus and picture was now crystal clear! It was an intersection where God made himself and his presence known. It is a Miracle, just as St. Basils is. You should call and look into this retreat house. It will be the best gift that you can give yourself ! So, I came back from that retreat and one of my friends called me the next day and  said, hey Dan, I saw you walking on the water of the lake today 🙂  It was so funny,he knew that I was on Fire .lol Each day that we live sets the stage for the next day and action. So all of the many little or big moments of my daily journey that come out onto this blog journal are always building for a bigger God moment. They are all God moments because he is there with us getting us through. All of our Spiritual Gifts are to be shared. It is not about us. This blog tells my journey through God. It his victory over death (my) and yours. God wants my life psalm #139 shared so that all will see him, and draw closer to our Heavenly Father.    4- 5 years ago, I am not sure of the date, I was called out of the blue into some of the most intense Spiritual experiences that I could ever have imagined. I was blown out of the water, I will just refer to them as writing for my church. The details of those writings were not for us , they are for the church. I will say this anyone with a sense of Spiritural awareness just needs to look at the news or turn on the television to see what is going on. The world is out of balance. This process was stretching myself and family to the max. The Holy Spirit is just so awesome. My spiritual adviser said to me , Dan, lets just see where it goes, and we did. I will explain about this experience at a later date.   My first vision, vivid dream, about 4-5 years ago during the time I was doing the  church writings. I was asleep and had the most vivid dream. God uses our own lifes experiences and will make them part of his message in my case it was based in my lifes work and I have been for over 30 years through the gift of the  Holy Spirit an interior Designer. I have done projects that when I had completed them looked at them and said, God, I did that! I did through God and love alone complete my projects .More on that later too!:) So, I was sleeping and my vision which seemed like forever started. I am giving my account  to you exactly as It happened and was told to my priest, my adviser and friend long ago… This remember was more that 3 years before my cancer diagnosis. I walked up to the door of this house and rang the bell. I had decorating samples in my hand. A women came to the door and opened it, I just remember how pleasant she was, I could hear children laughing and she said, excuse me for a moment and walked away off to the left in the direction of the children. I did not see them but heard them laughing.  So, I stood there and it seemed like a while, I being the type A personality and loving what I did. I said to myself, I will just walk in to the right here and see what she needs. So the interior was very itherial everything was a very soothing white color. It was extremely peaceful. I just kept walking and ahead of me was a hallway with a very bright light people were coming out of the light and passing me again all faces were non descript, everything was very etherial and white. I noticed that there was something on the wall that everyone that came out of the hall seemed to be stopping to look at so, I wandered over to it and looked and was a very pale colored picture I recognized it immediately. It was the shroud of Turin. I have to say this too, I had never given  1 seconds thought to the shroud in my life yet here it was . Well any way I could hear voices from down the end of the long extremely bright hallway and hear a booming voice and laughter it was pure joy. When I got to the entrance I realized, I shouldn’t be here, I had wondered from where I was left to wait. I would never wander around my clients home. So, I returned to where I was waiting by the door. I was getting annoyed and it was like 4 hours. Well, the really pleasant women was back and said she was sorry for the delay and she opened the door to the left of me. The children were quiet now  and she guided me into the room. I stood there and there was a very large white table in front of me. As I stood there the women was standing to the left side of the table looking at me and there was another figure to the right side of the table looking at me  as well. The women looked at me and, I felt love like I had never felt before. She said again sorry for the wait, I remember having been so angry to had to wait 4 hours for her to return and , I just responded its okay and she said to me you are an angel. Of course, I told Father I am certainly not, I am a sinner like everyone. I remember feeling intense love. I knew that it was my Blessed Mother. She without  a word uttered pointed down to the table and moved her hand over the surface as if  she wiped the table and the white milky color left and it now had a clear glass. It was a case.  I could see all kinds of relics, bottles of oils, and religous statues related to my faith and she spoke these words to me, We want you to have many Spiritual gifts. And that was it. I woke up and is as alive today and vivid as the time that it occured.   I have had years to think of why The Blessed Mother would call me an angel, because I am not. So I have a couple of thoughts on that. 1.) She knowing that I was upset with waiting for her which my Blessed Mother would know and yet I told her no problem thought that I was kind? 2.) Everything that I have done in writing including this blog through the Holy Spirit is never about me or any one of us . We are all loved the same. And what mother does not look upon her child at least as  an angel in training?  🙂 Thats the best I can do on that thought last but not least the booming laughter and joy was,  I know, was Our God!  I was given a glimpse of Heaven. I pray everyday to continue to grow for his purpose and into his will completely . Amen. Better Is one day In Your House By Kutless https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jdE03zRJtxw   In Christs Holy Name, Danny

Dana Farber Part two

24 Thursday Jul 2014

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That day of my ekg, lunch etc, Just as Dr. R had said his head nurse S, showerd up with pills at my next scheduled squeezed in appointment. She was around every corner. She is spectacular. I never had 1 concern, all day. I met with I believe my new  radiologist oncologist at Brigham and womens. Dr A , I called him the great!  He is  a young, compitent , kind and awesome doctor  with another superb team of of assistants. from his head nurse S and her assistant , R they treated every patient the same, amazingly.

I would be remis if I did not mention the lovely social worker. N who has been there since day 1 for us. Very Sweet and soft spoken but always professional and helpful.

I had to go in after my consult for either a scan or an MRI , I cannot remember which but they needed to map my brain so they could target the best way to eradicate the tumor with radiation.

The radiology staff  there where great. They have a lot to deal with daily and are responsible for making sure that every patient was comfortable and that their bodies were positioned just perfectly so that the equipment could target the desired location with radiation therapy and nothing more.  They try to only hit the target and not to kill any more healty cells. Quite a responsibility.

Next I went in and My Dr. A had a plaster mold mask made of my  face and head, a mold I guess you could call it. It was made of a plaster.Once the Drs decided the attack plan they mapped and programmed my treatment into their computers. I was ready to begin my radiation therapy on the tumor that I never accepted as mine thanks to Gods word. I had six weeks of radiations 5 days a week monday to friday.

I had it easy in my eye’s compared to my wife and family who took the brunt of the wear and tear, juggling schedules, work etc. Some driving miles to pick me up only to turn around and take me back in the other direction into Boston.  And then once again have to  drive me home from treatment. I would like to say again from the depths of my heart thank you for your sacrafice and constant love. You make life worth living. xo Many friends also offered to help me with rides etc. God in action for sure. Love to you all too.:)

My phantom mask, thats what I came to call  it ( again my sense of humor) , the plaster mask was now a strong perferated plastic mask that fit my face, skull and had snap locks that locked my entire head 100% in the exact position to the treatment bed so there were no slight movements possible.  BTW, I asked for that mask when I finished radiation, they said sure. I said I am a decorator so I will hang it on my wall. they laughed. It currently sit a plastic bag in my garage.

have learned in life that we have a laugh as much as possible. There is healing in laughter God created such a beautiful creation in us. Laughter, is truely a healthy thing it makes gray colorful. so I laugh all the time and try not to ever stop, sometimes it gets me in trouble and I have to hit the confessional. I remember as a kid reading Erma Bombeck she cracked me up. Remember If life is a bowl of cherries , why do I get all the pitts?

Radiation did not bother me physically for a while. And then, my left side arm and leg decided I am taking a break, see ya and I lost most movement and feeling. I also became very very tired Dr. R said I would and I did. On July 4th 2012, I went into the bathroom  while I was at my brother S  at his cookout. I dropped dropped something on the floor. I went to swat a little to get it off of the floor and realized as soon as I did this that it was a mistake. My image disappeared from the mirror as I took position on the floor quietly. Again, I am stubborn so I just laid there saying hum how do I fix this pickle I got myself into?lol  My brother realized that I was missing and came to the bathroom and inquired through the door, I responded I am fine, I am just here trying to get up. he came in and Still says he does know how he got me up by himself.As a closing remark, I has a chance to study the tile and decor and found it very beautiful . lol

 

I truely feel Blessed because I have the peace from God, my incredible wife, kids, family and so many wonderful friends love and support. Everyone rushing to our sides and everyone has lifted us up. The Spirit was and is so still so high. Life is hard at times but it is our families our faith and friends that get us through.

One  day in I guess it was maybe Sept ,2012  my family told me that they were going to gather here together at my home , something not uncommon for our family. You know, food, family it has alway’s worked for us.lol  My mom, dad, wife, kids, 3 brothers and my dear sister and all of those kids my brothers mother in law M where all here.  There were I guess around 20 people in the house. I was in my recliner, very tired but my Spirit was full of peace, my whole family was here! It was so nice.All of a sudden someone came down the hall behind me and was a dear friend and brother in Christ, A and he hugged me and kissed my cheak. He pulled up my desk chair and started to speak to me , what a surprise! i had not seen A for a while. I said to him what are you doing here and he said that he heard that I was not feeling well. He stated that  he was In the area and wanted to say hello. He gave me a Blessing and left. My brothers were sitting on the couch here in my familyroom  with my dad and one of my brothers said who was that?  And I told them. They were astonished by his presence he is a very good and Holy man. The Spirit of God just shines. God Bless A and his family.There were so many prayers being said for our needs that I swear to God you could feel them raining down on us. I still feel them to this very day. Our prayers for one another are the most powerful gifts that we have to give to help anyone.

So, A left and I was happy for the visit and prayer and blessing he gave me. A short while went by and My brother S had gotten up to leave the room and returned, he said Dan can you come in here. I was like ugh, I had no strength, and needed assistance to get down the hall. I went down the hall and turned the corner to the front hall. I could not figure out why I was being led there. What happened next is a Miracle no doubt!

My brother opened my front door, and what I saw was a little piece of  Heaven! Friends who are gifts from God had quietly converged on my quiet street on the side walk and lawn. They had candles on my front steps with the exception of the  top two.Their had to be at least 40 beautiful souls out there. They were holding candles in their hands.One of my brothers helped me out and led onto the the top landing and I sat against the left rail, They wrapped a blanket around me. Then Praise and Worship began, prayers songs, people were driving by and stopping, some people peered from their windows, and then one of our beautiful friends son came out from behind my pine tree and played amazing grace on his bag pipes. It was just so incredible. I remember, God gave me the message and I tearfully passed it on. ( joy was overflowing)   I said tonight is not about me. Thank you. God is healing so many of us right now and in what ever way we need to be healed.  I think my whole neighborhood was Blessed in that evening. God Bless all of our friends and of my home parish of St. Josephs and 2nd parish home in and retreat center of St Basils in Methuen.

My love to you all and  with God’s Blessings.

So anyway, ( I told you I am not an expert writer, back to the point! 🙂

I went to treatment for radiology of my tumor which was sitting over my central nervous system.I was losing ability rapidly which would explain why when I told Dr. R that I would come back next week,  it  would not have been a good choice on my part. The Doctor understood the whole picture, the process and short window for action, so thank God they pushed with love and concern If they had not, I mayu not be here in this moment.

I will give you the list of meds I was on as well. In the not too distant future so people especially who are going through anything similar will know what was used in my treatment. People ask me that question a whole lot. I know every treatment plan is different and there are always new trial med coming out . So the news is great for everyone! There is lots and lots of Hope!

Celtic Women. You Raise Me Up.

God Bless You, Your in my prayers alway’s,

Danny

 

 

Amazing Grace

21 Monday Jul 2014

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Last night while lieing in bed my mind went through the days activities and assessed where God was in it . The moments that we learn  something or teach something to one another. Two of brothers and I were together for a brief  time  today to pay respects to a wonderful young man who tragically passed and his family. During our time together we discussed different things going on in our lives, this world, and our culture.

I finished my evening prayers, and laid there on the twilight edge of sleep and listened for Gods voice or word to inspire and soothe me. Well, he did but it had a hint of sadness to it which made me stir a bit.

God uses things that I understand to allow me to understand What he is saying in any given moment to me. It is the same for all of you as well.The Holy Spirit is working with us always. There is a response/ psalm that is used in  my church from time to time which stepped forth in my mind and I could hear it but the word and implication was different.

This is the whole  song version  , so it is longer than the verson we use at my church. It is haunting, and what God was saying to me last night was  why have so many in this world abandoneded him at the foot of the cross?   Is  it good that we wander off to face the wolves alone? I do not think so.  Life can be challenging.

here it is.

Responsorial Psalm 22:

Dandan Soy

 

God is our protection and there are forces darker in the world that would want us hopeless. I strongly feel that if had  not stayed stay at the foot of the cross with Jesus during my life It would have been impossible for God to heal me and build me up one again, my heart was open and hopeful.  Like a branch that falls from that the tree I would be dead not just physically but more importantly I believe that i would be eternally dead in my soul.

So, I needed to share this with you all.  I know it sounds heavy, but to me it is.

I want to always be honest in all my writing irregardless of how fantastic it sounds. bacause God  knows the hows,  why’s and whens. We just need to say yes.

Enjoy this next video, I love it

This video was shot in the ruins of the colisseum where meny Christians were killed by the lions just for amusement and because of their religious beliefs. Remember Daniel and the lion den?

Amazing Grace II Divo

my next blog will re in reference to Beginning treatment at Dana farber.

God Bless You ,

Danny

Like a baby – I will finish up treatment plan1 treatment

19 Saturday Jul 2014

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Hi, I thought the song selected below fit very well with my situation as well as all of yours., We need to go through the bad times (valleys) to get to the mountain. It is like a baby that must crawl before he or she can stand and walk. it is a process. They end up falling and sitting down alot so cute.  Life is like that for everyone.We are  like a baby who keeps trying to stand up and yet we fall, have disappointments, illness, addictions whatever life can pick up and throw at us. We are human and make mistakes. It is part of free will.

It is my personal belief that God is on the mountain and he is in fact our Father. I believe when  he looks at us he see’s the child only, not the baggage and wrinkles or the years of ageing. The same way we reach as a baby for our parents hands to find our legs and stand, so to do we need to reach up to our Heavenly Father to keep us stable and upright. This is why prayer and talking to him and requesting this help and commfort is so important. He knows our issues, problems and needs even the things that we do pull out of the shadows.  What he is waiting for us to do is to ask him. If you needed your dad to help you, wouldn’t you calll out to him.? Of course! You donnot have to shout to get Gods attention, a simple silent interior prayer anywhere will work just fine. He wants us to rely and believe that he will in fact respond. He is our one true constant from this life into eternal life.

As i am sitting here I just looked at a placque up on my mantel.You know simetimes as a parent you wonder how much of what we try to teach our kids sticks? Well one day one of my daughters came in and said dad look what I bought . She valued what it meant and purchased it, that too me was Heaven. I love to see my children all coming into their own. And taking Jesus along with them. it reads…

Let your FAITH  be bigger that your fear.  The word faith is very over sized.

in an earlier writing I spoke how my parents chose my Roman catholic upbringing. That is true but having said that, I did go out in search of my truth and after a few years found myself back where  my roots were planted, The catholic Church and the sacraments that I truely love. And, having said that I totally believe that  there are a lot of beautiful communites and faiths outthere that  gather and honor God in with their  own traditions.

Fininshing up where I left off with my experience at The Lahey Clinic,The doctors there were wonderful as were the staff nurses everyone. God made his presence  known to all of the people involved with my case. Again, it is not because I am special, God is useing me as what I believe  ia a witness and reminder of his presence here. As I stated in an earlier writing that I believe that this is the time of Miracles. I can see them. And, I wonder how many  miracles happen daily where Gods angels intercede on our behalf. Like my shoulder and knee,” dawn did not break on marble head” for a while after I was healed of what I had received and the appreciation that i should have had to offer the praise not to the word Miracle but to the word God. All Praise goes to God.

There were truely amazing events that took place at Lahey, interactions ,events etc that I will share sometime in the future. I don’t write what I do not think that God wants to share . I feel now is not that moment.

 

During my appointment with the doctors my family met with myself and doctors and we decided that based on my situation Dana Farber would be the best solution to help me because of the number of clinical trials that they offered. I felt peace. During the consult Dr. D my Lahey surgeon said we need to get David on the phone right away. He took out his cell phone his assistant  called right there on the spot  and got an emergency appointment with Dr. D R in Dana Farber.. They said on the phone they had to meet me I was an excellent candidate because of my Faith and demeanor. I knew it was God, working in my life through these wonderful doctors and their staff. They were sensing the Holy Spirit that we all have, it guides us, soothes us, makes us feel bad when we are not good and it our own personal teacher. The Holy Spitit also rushed in with love that is immeasureable at times. Tears of joy! He helps to heal our hurts and is love.

 

I have to go my back is bothering me see, i am human too. lol  just danny 🙂

Peace and God’s love.

 

The Mountain of God. Third Day.

 

Love this song: casting Crowns East from the West

 

Kathy Trocolli

13 Monday Jan 2014

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Before I begin, I would like you please pray for a wonderful young man and his family. Scott was a beautiful young man. God Bless and hold them all always. Amen.

Thank you.

 

During my Cursillo retreat weekend in October of 1999 my eyes we opened to the world of Christian music. I was very familiar with church hymns etc but was totally unaware of this beautiful form of music.

Even after all these years it just amazes me how much beautiful Spirit inspired music there is. It is a very important part of our lives when we  become aware of it.

I can hear music Kathy Troccoli and Beach Boys

Kathy Troccoli & Friends – Love One Another

Water Into Wine- Kathy Troccoli

Go Light Your World – Kathy Troccoli

 

God Bless,

Danny