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To God Be The Glory , God Took Over

28 Monday Jul 2014

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To God goes the Glory! That is for sure.

Today I am going to share some down right Miracles witnessed my many people including my Surgeon Dr. D included at Lahey Clinic in Burlington back in 2012. I wrote of my Lahey experience back a week or so ago. I also said at that time that there were things that I could not devuldge at that time, again it is per what I feel God wants to speak of. He knows the why,I am accustomed to it now. God is always right. I feel peace from God and I know that today is the day to begin the account.

I will list the events and you will see God in them all.

Some of this stuff might be graphic to illustrate what the events were. So a little warning, I am not working from a script or draft of any kind, I am working through the Holy Spirit and he is live from heaven lol. I assure you he will get this account right, he was with me then and and he is responsible for my making it through this process and witnessing God to everyone. I personally take no credit for the following factual account. He is with us all and always has been.

For my brain biopsy procedure to get  the grading  of my cancer. which was  a grade four Gleo and it was non surgical. Meaning, it could not be removed.

1.) I was brought down to the pre surgical unit to have a surgical metal crown installed on to my skull, It was heavy and had two peices. I was backed in on my gurney into the small prep area. It had a wall behind me, a curtain that drew to either side of my bed and the corrider in front of me that was wide open. There were people in the other beds and parking spaces all around me sorry, I told you I have a dark sense of humor. So any way, I was cranked up to a sitting position. The doctor and assistant were behind me. There was a nurse standing at the foot of my bed to the right side watching me. She had a very almost sad look on her face probably because she knew what was to come. The doctor said okay Dan we need to get going sorry we can’t do anything for the pain I am sorry, The Holy Spirit was there and responded it’s okay,

Next, I felt the weight of piece number one of the crown being placed on my head and then the sound of the drill.  He said okay Dan and I felt the screws going into the back of my skull. I could be wrong but I believe there were four screws around the circumference of my head. I remember feeling the pain and what God and the holy Spirit did was amazing .I  said oh, I can feel it and next the pain was gone and out of my mouth came Oh, its okay I am fine praise you Jesus, thank you Mary. I am speaking of My Most Blessed Mother. As I said before their is one God and many different churches. I as a  Roman Catholic we do not worship Mary but we do venerate her and Honor her because she was chosen by God above all women  to be The Savior Jesus Christs Mother which happily makes The Blessed Mother my mom too .It gives me great comfort, and I pray the rosary and chaplet with her daily for you all too.

Each screw went in and the same thing happened I could feel it announce the pain and The Holy Spirit would announce the same, its okay now and begin Praise to God, and thanked The Blessed Mother for her assistance. The nurse looking at me was fighting tears back. She was actually backing away from me a little into the curtain behind her.

If you know me you know my voice does not require a microphone. What I did not realize at this time , but then again, why would I have? This  pre-op department was not just for brain surgical procedures alone the man laying directly across from me was witnessing the crowning and the praise and worship service directly.  He looked like he was frightened and yet mesmerized by what God was doing. There was a women beside mecurtain # 1 to my left, sorry again for my humor, who was saying to her staff whats happening to him they were trying to calm her. Apparently everyone in the unit was listening and heard it all .( I will explain later in detail )

The next thing after part 1 of the crown went on my head  they said Dan we are going to put the top of the crown on now. it screws into the bottom of the crown.The Spirit responded okay.Not one tear was ever shed.

Well I was crowned and the doctors said okay we are ready So, out of the bed space I went and as I was rolling out with the medical team the doctor said Sorry Dan the crown is heavy, we will try to help support it. The Holy Spirit announced through my mouth no problem, I have a strong neck. The Holy Spirit greeted everyone in that pre op ward. I rolled by  like it was in a parade and Blessings were coming out of my mouth through the Holy Spirit The people were all in shock seeing me smiling they looked like they had seen something out of this world and guess what ? They did! Not  because of who I am but because of Who God is. The evil of cancer picked on  me, and God decided to show everyone that he is here with us all. I will say this yet again, This is to me the time of miracles for all of us.

My miracle is not again about me. God loves us all and as far as to why I am here and why God has  not taken me yet, I feel honestly that perhaps he has granted me extra time to get myself ready to meet him. Perhaps it will be tommorrow or 30 years from now. I do not know and who does ? What I do know is he loves us more deeply than we could ever understand.

Into the hallway we went on our way to MRI. You see the crown that was placed on my head is necessary so they can do an MRI on my brain to map how to go into my skull to get a biopsy sample from the brain tumor. The Holy Spirit even gave a God Bless You greeting as they rolled me down the hall. There was a staff electrician changing light bulbs in that hall that stepped asside so we could pass. He looked shocked as I greeted him. We got to the MRI suite and the staff went in to give the information to the staff inside the unit that two minute window where my wife and I were waiting in the hallway my cell phone went off, my wife had it with her, I nonshalontly said to her who is it? She said its mom, (my mother) I said, I’ll  take it, I will never forget the conversation , Hi mom , how are you she said good darlin , My mom said I just thought I would check into see how your day was going.  I said good mom, I am just on my way into the store to get a few things it was getting late in the day, so she bought it. She said okay honey, I let you go, she told me she loved me and I responded the same to her and we hung up. What was really something is that while I was talking to my mom the MRI staff had come out and was waiting to bring me in for the test and heard everything that came from my mouth and their hearts were on fire. You see, God shows courage, kindness and love all the time the Holy Spirit was giving me the grace necessary to do Gods will to help others in a very special way.  The Holy Spirit was in control with God. You see my parents were not told a word about me until we were certain of what was going on. My mom when she realized later on that I was actually in the hospital at the time of her call to me cried and said that she did understand why I did it, but  please never do it again.

So, the staff took me in and transferred me from the gurney to the MRI bed and the test was done, my brain was mapped. They were all thanked and Blessed as I left by the Holy Spirit, (sounds crazy huh ). But it is true.

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They took me directly down to the surgical suite, I gave my wife a kiss and one of my children had come to be with my wife, everything was happening at lightening speed.

I got into the OR  there was Dr. D and another surgical associate standing with him above the head of my table. There was an anesthesiologist at the foot of the bed. It was explained to me again, sorry Dan this is called the awake surgery, we need you to be awake so you that you can respond to our voice commands. Because damage can happen to your brain we need to know if our probe is damaging the brain or something to that effect. We cannot for that reason give anesthesia for this reason for this surgury. I remember the Holy Spirit was in control and I was very calm. He responded to them okay. The Holy Spirit went on to say to the doctors and all the medical staff, thankyou, for helping me, God chose them in this time to help me. The anesthesiologist was looking at my face and I could see that she could sence something not of this world taking place and was filled with joy, and perhaps a little fear only God knows. She broke in and said don’t worry Dan, when the doctors complete the biopsy, I can give you some  meds like they use when you have a colonoscopy they are like twilight drugs that help you forget some of what you went through. okay, I said that sounds good thankyou. The next thing that happened was they put a mask over my face/ visor it was clear like a window.

The doctor D then said Dan, we are going to be cutting into your skull a spot that is what you will hear and feel okay, again I was calm they were monitoring my heart and everything stayed on an even keel. They took a small piece of black fabric and covered my clear visor, obviously they were going to making small hole into my skull and they did not want to get my viser dirty which potentially could upset me.The little saw or drill started and they again kept talking to me softly to soothe me, they were all wonderful. God had put me into such a deep peaceful state.The doctor said I am sorry Dan I am now going down behind your eye it is going to hurt, I felt that pain for sure. The Holy Spirit took over he announced  it okay the pain is gone and out came the Holy Spirit just like in the pre -op department saying  Praise you Jesus, Praise you Jesus , thankyou my Blessed Mother and so on , the doctor said okay Dan please move your fingers, and a couple of other commands.  I said okay, made the rquested movements and he said good. At that point I laid there with no drugs, no pain and I was doing Praise and worship and thanking them all for helping me. I could not see the doctors faces the whole time but I did see the face of the anesthesiologist she was beautiful and extremely moved by what God was showing her and God only knows what the doctors faces were doing behind me. She could see them. In those units they can talk a language with their eyes without uttering one word .

So anyways, I was laying there the doctors were putting in stitches to close the wound. I am laying their with the black cloth on my face mask and I could look down on an angle and make out the person still at my feet.  Out of my mouth I swear to God,  I said  Luke, I am not your Father from  the Starwars movie, thats what I felt like with my black mask on Dark Vader. Everyone began to laugh and the anesthesiologist had tears in her eyes. She reached forward, and removed the fabric and my visor was then clear once again. A few minutes later she announced that they would not bother to give me the twilight medicine because it was possibility that it may make me feel lousy or tired. I had done so well and they did not want to do that to me. i said okay, I felt great.

When the surgery was over,stitches etc the Dr. D came over to me and said, incredible Dan in 30 years I have never had a patient not cry, and behave in this manner during this surgery. I said it was God not me, again it is my feeling that that God was useing my illness not just to mend me but to show others he is here. With God anything is possible. He is shaking people up and I am just so fortunate to be as I have called it a passenger on the bus where God and The Holy Spirit are allowing  me to witness things in a much different way than I normally would have been able to .Why God is allowing me to witness and experience this is only for him to know. It is not because I am any different than all of  you my brothers and sisters out there.

I will continue this soon,

With Love and prayers.

Danny

When you feel alone, even when you are in a crowd.

27 Sunday Jul 2014

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I was thinking over the last few days about all of the worry and thoughts that race through our minds. Have you ever been sitting there relaxing in a chair peacefully and then a thought or worry comes from left field you literally have to get up and walk it off. It used to happen to me me from time to time a couple of years ago. I was also able to happen to me while being in the midst of a gethering of some sort.  For me, it was usually based in business and family related issues.  It all stems from scheduling issues and trying to juggle work schedule with my wife and kids. On top of that my wife and I were helping with the care of her mom and dad. So, things were so busy. I could be in a chair one moment relaxing and a troubling thought or worry based emotion would throw me off the chair like a top. I would some times get out of the chair and try to walk it off. You also cannot run from your mind as I came to learn. These events would essentially make my brain freeze like an overload.( I know we all have them) I needed to get a grip on what was going on!  I think doing too much sometimes makes us feel good and successful. But in hein sight If back in that day I had been more rooted in God and was not trying to be all to everybody and save everbody that it would have been a healthier thing for myself and others. We need to trust in God. If, we are doing things from the heart then God is in it with us. But, we need to know his word, the bible before we can be successful. I was in so much personal pain and nobody really knew what was going on inside of me .Remember I was the face of an A personality. Everything was fine outwardly but inside I was burning out, I was mastering my ship onto the rocks. My drug of choice was food. it became my personal joke. The first one at the buffet table I would laugh but it really was not funny to me, it was shame with a laugh attached to it.

During my healing with this cancer illness and combined with writings I had done for my church. A  calling that I received from God  to sound a horn of a warning to the church and later an email chain from God to his people to turn back to him they were called love letters from God. It was also back at that time that I  began to be enlightened through the Spirit and learned more about who I am the good and the bad aspects.  I have to share it all in this blog as I said before this is my chance to tell God’s story of victory not just for me but for eachone of us personally. Some of the stuff that will come out with blog  is just so fantastic and  it is what it is, the glory of God.You see prior to 2012 and the onset of this illness I was under the wrong understanding of what helping others is all about. I did not realize what I was doing at the time but it was hurtful to myself, my family and yes even to those I thought I was helping.

I  came to realize after many years and once I began to write in the Holy Spirit that I cannot save anyone including myself. Jesus saves us. We are called to be Jesus to oneanother. We need to pray for eachother, support etc, but we also have to give everyone the diginity of their own decisions. We can show a way if asked to help someone  but cannot always drive them there. It is their free will choice. God knows where they are truely at, far better than we do.

God speaks of helping in one of his parables that you can show a man how to fish, but we are not required to feed them forever, meaning that he does want us to help and support them  but we cannot carry them forever. If they are not handicapped and are capable of course. They will never learn to find who they are in God for themselves. God gives everyone very special gifts of their own. Their is so much diginty that a person derives in taking on their destiny and seeing what God has in store for them! While I was playing God with these people they were carried and did not learn, I was handicapping them with love and assistance. It was when I hit the wall, and realized I could not do anymore that they were forced to get up and get on and find their way. My mom and dad would simply say to me you are doing too much! And, it was true, I was.  My wife was trying to stop me but again, me being me I had to learn for myself, I  needed to learn and  be humbled. What I did was done out of love but it was not done with the right understanding of God’s teaching. It also depleated me , exhausted my wife and made life messy.

My wife and I recently had the pleasure of having lunch with  very dear friends, our friend said that she kind of had to retreat from everyone but her family and husband. She was spent at the moment and needed to recharge. She too is a doer, and really tries to help out everyone. They have hearts of gold. So, God Bless them.

I had so many people as I said before in another writing say that I needed to tell this story.  Someone I was talking to a few months ago said Dan it can be a taxing process. So becareful you do not give too much of yourself up in the process. Hearing my friends the other day tell me of their need to slow it down, I understand it and see that what I have to share is my responcibility to help others but they are in fact work. I believe that is what God has ordained for me in this moment so if they do not come everyday they will come in God’s time, for God’s glory.

Well, back to the point 🙂

Like the old saying goes in every life some rain must fall. Today it is pouring out and I woke up happy to see it. Rain cleans and washes the enviornment and gives our plants grass trees and watershed water that is needed to keep things in balance.

I, like all of you need to be replenished by the rain in our lives, Just as Jesus was baptised in the river Jordan by John the Babtist . I too was babtised as a child in my parish at that time of St. Agnes in Arlington. We are one with Jesus.

About 10 or 12 years ago, I attended a meeting of the St Frances DeSalles Society at one of our friends homes. One of the teachings was to everyday when we shower to consider the water  to be a reminder of our baptism. I rededicate myself during that time to God and the HolySpirit everday in prayer that I say yes to do their will to the best of my ability.

With brotherly love,

Danny

Healing Rain

Michael W. Smith

 

 

 

 

From Lahey Clinic to Dana Farber part 1

22 Tuesday Jul 2014

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Off we went to Dana Farber for our second consult and my new and current Dr. Dr. R. When we arrived it was via wheel chair for me, we were brought into the exam room. Again, we felt nothing but warmth and compassion from everyone. There were a number of medical /clinical coats in the room standing against the wall, my wife, one of my brothers and my sister were present too. I had been helped up on top of the exam table and was sitting upright on the edge of the table my legs dangling down.( It is funny how life makes us at times feel like a little kid).

Dr. R knelt in front of me on one knee and put his hand on my knee and said we have looked at the reports and biopsy information from Lahey and said we agree with the diagnosis. Glio Blastoma multiforme grade 4, it is non surgical. What I realized as I look down into my doctors eyes from my table edge was that he was a truely compassionate and loving man. He did not make me look up while he was talking to me, he took a position kneeling so he could meet me where I was. I remember the peace of God as still just flowing over me and I announced to all of the staff there that God had told me that I had the cancer, cancer was not of God and that I did not own this cancer, I went on to say that God selected them in this time to help me through God’s medicine, God’s machines, and their hands with are the extension of Jesus Christ. we are all Spirit driven and we need to remember where  the Holy Spirit  is from. God! 🙂

I told them about my spontaneous healing in Dec, 2010 that was discussed with my primary care doctor in January 2011 during a physical. He has confirmed the event to be true. This experience that I am going to begin to share is going to be a bit long and I am finding now in this moment will truely be an excercise emotionally but I will continue in a number of writings because what has happened during this time sounds impossible and is astounding but it is also very true. Witnesses were everywhere during this time and nothing will ever be the same . God is revealing his presence in a very strong way with good reason. He wants a personal relationship with us.

So any way, My Dr R was kneeling down on one knee to comfort me, I announced the message God gave me and tears filled his eyes, I was so tired, I just wanted to go home. not upset like one would imagine I had no energy and just wanted to sleep. The team raced out of the room, and two seconds a women that I will refer to as My scottish friend came in as cool as a cuccumber and said Ok Danny the doctor wants me to get an ekg of your heart. I had been insisting on getting into my wheel chair. She gently laid me back onto the table my legs still dangling off of the table and off came the shirt, and on went the electrodes. She started the eeg and when finished helped me with my shirt. And off she went.  My family was  there all the while in that room with me. Its like the bible I always have witness or as I call the Riley clan with me lol  My scottish friend was rolling out of the room, I was being assisted into my wheel chair by my brother and my wife and Dr R’s head nurse S, came into the door closed it and stood with her back against it and said, We need you to stay, we have made calls and want to get more tests done while you are here. I said no, I said I am too tired and I do not have my afternoon medication, she tried to convince me and my family tried to get me to sway, I said thanks I will come back next week. She said okay and sprinted out of the room, I said c’mon lets go. We left the exam room, I sware to God I was leaning left in the chair, so weak. When all of a sudden I heard something and Dr. R was coming down the hall full seam ahead. I saw him look at my family and went to his knees once again, he put his hand on my left arm and said please Dan we want you to stay, I went through the whole I will come back next week thing , I don’t have my meds, my family had to go to work they have not eaten, I was tired. My family asserted once again that it was okay that they would call in to work. Dr R. said we have made all of the arrangements necessary and our radiologist at brigham and womens was staying as late as he had to accomodate me. He said we have all the medications you need in our unit we have meds for occasions like this he said okay:) Then he said why don’t you get a bite to eat and S, meaning his head nurse will see you in a while. I said okay and he patted my arm and smiled. It was yet another Miracle. There are mericales  like this happening daily in our hospitals and doctors offices, we are a Blessed country. and at times fail  to see them for what they are. God’s people are loving,compassionate and giving.

BTW, my ekg came back with a strange rythmn like there were two heart beats and that is because as my test was being done, and it was a stall tactic, my sister who was so devestated was holding my hand thus two heart beats . Just beauitful !

I am exhausted and need to stop for the moment. I will continue to write from this point tomorrow.

God Bless you, and thank you God for everything that give us all. Amen.

Chris Tomlin Thank you God for saving me

 

 

Amazing Grace

21 Monday Jul 2014

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Last night while lieing in bed my mind went through the days activities and assessed where God was in it . The moments that we learn  something or teach something to one another. Two of brothers and I were together for a brief  time  today to pay respects to a wonderful young man who tragically passed and his family. During our time together we discussed different things going on in our lives, this world, and our culture.

I finished my evening prayers, and laid there on the twilight edge of sleep and listened for Gods voice or word to inspire and soothe me. Well, he did but it had a hint of sadness to it which made me stir a bit.

God uses things that I understand to allow me to understand What he is saying in any given moment to me. It is the same for all of you as well.The Holy Spirit is working with us always. There is a response/ psalm that is used in  my church from time to time which stepped forth in my mind and I could hear it but the word and implication was different.

This is the whole  song version  , so it is longer than the verson we use at my church. It is haunting, and what God was saying to me last night was  why have so many in this world abandoneded him at the foot of the cross?   Is  it good that we wander off to face the wolves alone? I do not think so.  Life can be challenging.

here it is.

Responsorial Psalm 22:

Dandan Soy

 

God is our protection and there are forces darker in the world that would want us hopeless. I strongly feel that if had  not stayed stay at the foot of the cross with Jesus during my life It would have been impossible for God to heal me and build me up one again, my heart was open and hopeful.  Like a branch that falls from that the tree I would be dead not just physically but more importantly I believe that i would be eternally dead in my soul.

So, I needed to share this with you all.  I know it sounds heavy, but to me it is.

I want to always be honest in all my writing irregardless of how fantastic it sounds. bacause God  knows the hows,  why’s and whens. We just need to say yes.

Enjoy this next video, I love it

This video was shot in the ruins of the colisseum where meny Christians were killed by the lions just for amusement and because of their religious beliefs. Remember Daniel and the lion den?

Amazing Grace II Divo

my next blog will re in reference to Beginning treatment at Dana farber.

God Bless You ,

Danny

Sactus Real Something New.

20 Sunday Jul 2014

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Sanctus Real Something New

This song represents so many aspects of my life. Even a Cancer diagnosis as I said before has a silver lining too. I have done so much of what this song and lyrics say. Please look at the lyrics, we all need to purhaps hit the reset button. I know life has done that for me , and I thank God that I was blessed with the adversity that helped me to find my biggest treasure, namely God!

We are all works in progress daily. 🙂

 

For 2 years since my cancer diagnosis my recliner became my place, my prision whatever I deemed it to be moment by moment. As I accepted my new life not knowing if my chair would be permanent location until death do we part. lol  Sorry, I do have a dark sense of humor and it makes me laugh. 🙂

Well I am out of that chair a lot more more often now. It is just my redocking station now 🙂 Praise God!, and the mantra what am I going to do with my life? along with the prayer, God please give me a direction! I said God whatever you want, I will do. Just so long as it pleases you and helps others. I would  be so grateful.. This blog was over  2 years in the making of praying and waiting. Waiting as I came to understand is what God required me to learn before he could answer me. I have so many people, family ,friends and medical people tell me that I needed to share this story, blog, put pen to paper, write a book, whatever. I just felt who am I to do this?  Then I thought it is the truth and for God’s glory. So why would God not have me write of this?  I figured God was useing all of my friends, family and medical people to give me my answer that I had prayed for and to encourage me to step in and respond to his call. I know the writing is helping me to find things hidden in my mind like thoughts,memories,sorrows,love,shame. Do I like all of these things?, Not all of them! But, that is not the point. The point is stuff in the shadows that lirk and play havoc in our lives and our Spirits are not good and are not of God. They are evil and keep us in bondage. We can be healed from these things. Drag them out into the light of God’s presence, pray on them and God will bring the healing to them and you will be made a new creation. Secrets and hurts are cancer in our minds, souls and the Holy Spirit and as a result I believe our physical health suffers.The child inside does not have to anguish forever, we have an obligation to that child to find him and her peace and fix and heal the wounds of this lifes journey. We are the children of the light, we are called by God to radiate our love and faith to all we meet irregardless to our personal story or struggles. Perfection is not required just a heart that is willing to serve. It is in helping others that we are healed.. With healing of our inner child comes a whole host of benefits. We find peace, forgiveness, self love, and allow The Holy Spirit to work in us and through us in a very harmoniously way honoring God and validating his love to those who need him. People are attracted to a peaceful spirit.  I sincerely hope these writings resonate with all of my brothers and sisters out there and that you too can find the healing peace of our Lord Jesus Christ/ God. Amen. These writings are Spirit Driven, with my love and kinship with you all at its core.

You are all in my prayers for whatever your needs might be, God knows who you are and what you need. Please pray for my family and this world we all need them.:)

God Bless,

Danny

While I am Waiting

17 Thursday Jul 2014

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In my chair over the last two years, I have been in contact with so many people, many of which I have never met in person. Yet, the nature of our discussions cut direct to the quick as my mom used to say. I have more to share about my mom in another writing. She was a force to be wrecken with in a very good way. Like she would say, emmulated by some , surpassed by none, as she would  laugh. 🙂

I have prayed with them, shared with them and I truely believe that they helped to sustain me through what seemed like a very long winter. I in  return, hope that I was able to comfort them as well.  Some of them are still here with us and some have earned their reward and the Lord took them to a glory that I can only imagine.I do know it exists, God showed me glimpses of Heaven when I was at my sickest. Again, for another time they will be an emotional thing to communicate but it will happen. God gave them to me to shared at the appropriate time.I miss those who have gone before me and my heart is better having known them. They were courageous, God fearing, and good human beings I hope to see them on the day that the Lord calls me home.

Some  info on my first healing…

I had a spontaneous healing by God in the third week of Dec 2010 while praying.  I was working on a job site. My right knee and right shoulder were healed. I went to my doctor in January 2011 he asked about my shoulder, I had been in terrible pain for a long time but was afraid of the doctor, and surgery etc. My wife had to literally force me to go.

So on that day, my primary care doctor came in smiled and said nice to see you, hows that shoulder I said looking down I know this is going to sound weird but a few weeks ago i had a healing of the knee and shoulder while working and praying. He looked at me and said show me and I went on and showed the the painless movement he gently smiled, I said what do you think? He gave a great smile to me and said Praise God! For the first time I found out that my primary care provider was a believer which was wonderful but more importantly I realized for the first time I was so grateful to be healed (like I deserved it)?  No, what I realized is that the honor should go right back to God. I had kept it quiet because i figured people would think that I was crazy. Up to that point I had not realized the magnitude of his gift. I did nothing but pray for me, my situation, business was slowing down etc and he responded. I guess if I am going into this story I should paint the picture and take you back to the night before the event and keep it factual. Because God is  magnificent and the Holy Spirit is pushing me on to do so, here we go…

It was the third week of December 2010, Tuesday of that week…

 

Business was slowing a bit plus the seasonal lull, who wants workmen in their home right before Christmas. Thank God my brother Steve and sister in law Nancy did 🙂


  Tuesday, I loaded all of my painting and decorating materials into my vehicle and it was not easy my shoulder was humming. That evening I told my wife I was going over to Steve house to work the next day. I was doing a large amount of work, all raw plaster miles of ceiling’s, all new walls and trim. My wifes response was thats good then she said how can you do all this work with your shoulder? I said, I don’t know? I said we need the money . I said God’s just going to have to get me through. You have to realize that I could not even sleep good at that time. At night I would lift my arm above my head while sleeping all the time which only damaged my shoulder more. We even discussed strapping my arm to my side while in bed to stop myself from doing this. So, Wednesday morning rolled around and I got out of bed and off I went to my brothers home. I went trip by trip carrying and unloading back and forth until everything was out of my car. I said hello to Nancy’s mom who was upstairs to let her know that it was only me.

I proceeded into the work zone and had to sand everything with my extension pole,I do mean everything! To me it had to be perfection. They deserved it, like everyone I ever was blessed to work with.

December 2010 was the winter of never ending snow  if you remember. I was working in one of the areas where there was a bank of windows and as I was working the radio was playing and Christmas music was on, I gazed out the window onto the gorgeous lanscape of the abundance of snow and its beauty. I remember thanking God, for the blessing of this job and my heart was filled with  such graditude. The next thing that happened as God as my witness is as follows,

I was looking with my head out the window and heard in my head the word shoulder. I looked up stunned and realized both of my hands were above my head sanding the ceilings. i had an extension pole which requires both hands to do this. I had been working for around 3 hours at this pont, with no pain and did not even notice, very strange.  I said Oh…… And a serge went from my feet to my head 3 times the last time the breathe was knocked out of my body like an estacy, I felt overwhelming love and then took my good hand and began to rub my bad shoulder that did not hurt anymore, my knee was not grinding nor was it swollen. I cried and ran the stairs to share with Nancy’s mom Madeline. She was busy doing the rosary at the time. I was in the place where God wanted me that day, I was in a very prayerful place personally and my heart was pouring out graditude and praise to my creator. He ansered my prayers more that I could ever have imagined. I had a lot of pain for a long time and I am glad to have had that gift of suffering  because I grew and learned the word surrender.I also learned from my master a love that is not of this world.

If you could please for pray for

Lacey and her family lost their father who was a believer a very wonderful man. . He was battling cancer.

Also,

Please , keep in your prayers also a young man Steve who died tragically. I got word this morning. He was a wonderful man from a great family.

 

While I’m Waiting.

john Waller

 

Lifes twist and turns

16 Wednesday Jul 2014

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My illness took me, a type A personality who never stopped and alterered my whole reality and my identity of who I was to myself, my family and the world. I went from super dooer to a person who relied on everyone especially my wife and kids, family and many friends for the majority of my daily needs. I remember the personal guilt of feeling as is if I failed my family and those who relied on me at that time. My mom and dad included. The fact that I could not work, and am  still not to this date, had really weighed on me . All the desires on my behalf of getting out of here have fallen short do to my slow but steady progress of recovery and the  rebounding energy drain from treatment etc. I am a Roman Cathoilc by my parents choice at baptism, by the sacrament of Holy Communion , Confirmation etc. Having said that,  I do believe is at some time in everyone’s life we are all born again. What I am trying to convey however clumby it may be is this. To me God, My personal God is waiting for us to personally meet him with a heart that yearns for him. I had always done the works before I had cancer. When I was a very young child I was a paperboy. On Thursday evenings I would go out deliver my evening route and collect the money from the customers, hopefully with a tip.:) I am guessing I was nineish. On Glen Ave in Arlington I had a number of clients, one inparticular has stayed in my heart and mind all theses years. Her name was Esther Sullivan. She lived in a second flloor apartment of a two family home. i would go up to her door ring the bell and there would be a buzz and the door would up lock for me. it was like Star trec or something. She could not do stairs easily anyway so, I would bring her paper up to her and her siamese cat would hiss at me.i though he was scary and exciting. His name was Tao. But, I digress. lol So anyways, during my visits. I would carry things in the kitchen because she was by herself and i wanted to. I began to spend a few more minutes there just talking to her about what ? maybe worms :)I then began to wash her kitchen floor her, I then went home and told my mom about Esther or in that day Mrs. Sullivan 🙂 My mom was making a cake at the time so I said mom can you make a little cake out of a small chicken pot pie tin, she was very compliant with my request and taada, Esther was getting a small cake weekly delivered in my mail bag on my stingray bike. The bottom line to this saga is this as a child our love and innocense guides so much. it is like the right thing to do is easily less complicated. Were just guided by God’s goodness and the Holy Spirit. As I got older personally doing good works and deeds became also combined with the fun of the crowd social aspect etc. Sorry was it really for God? The jury is still out. During my time here in a recliner ,I have had a lot of time to evaluate everything, not by emotion but by the Gold standard God, his teaching, commandments and what is this whole thing about meaning life. I do not know all the answers, i suspect I never will but I know the most important thing. God! He call us to love eachother the way that he loves us. God wants us to go to him for forgiveness , in my case that would be the confessional. because, I have learned that I need to forgive myself what i felt was my failure by getting sick and altering my whole families world. through my prayer, my confessional visits and a wonderful Priest, God has healed much more of my life that my body, my Spirit is awake and aware and the vision of myself as danny the person can love himself a lot more and accept that i did not bring this on myself. neither did God but he getting me through it one way or the other. He is the boss! He doing the very same for you all and always has. Well, One day I made my way to Esthers stairway rang the bell and there was no response after a few minutes, a man opened the screen door on the first floor and I said i was looking for mrs. Sullivan and he said she does not live here anymore. I still miss her today.Some times I wonder If she was sent as an angel into my life to see if I would respond to God’s calling. On a kind of sillier note I hope she was allowed to eat sugar and my little cakes were not leathal. Well in closing in Danny’s world here, I have made an effort whoever clumbsy to find God and it took diagnosis day when the Good Shepperd met me where I was at. We need to work our faith and pray even when we cannot feel anything. God will not fail to respond. And furthermore he will always meet us in the moment. Here is here. Feel the breeze on your face look at the beauty of a baby that you encounter it is that easy.

Carrie Underwood/ Vince Gill “How Great Thou Art” – YouTube

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NW0QkOUjweM

 

Bless You and Yours, Danny

So, What is a miracle?

15 Tuesday Jul 2014

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So, What is a miracle? To me every one of is a miracle from conception to natural death. Even in my toughest personal times I have found that there is always beauty. Yes, it is true that I would not have desired to be striken by brain cancer especially for my family. I have been Blessed with a beautiful wife, four great kids and an angel in heaven. This is not the garden that God had originally intended for us all so it is what it is we all call life. The bottom line to me is that God has already saved us, by the shedding of his son’s blood upon the cross, that is of course my Lord and Savoir.

I personally do not worry about what will happen to me tommorrow. I have had so many wonderful people touch my life since my birth and I people always seemed to me to be a positive thing to my foundation and mind set. I have never felt that  I have had adversity in my life even throuhout this prediciment. People look at me when I say that but i honesty feel that to my core. I am not a victim.  We are all traveling the road of life and we do not always know when we will hit a corner, dead end, traffic light or intersection. Over two years ago with my diagnosis I came to an intersection. I got a sign by God’s stepping in and announcing to me that the cancer was not his and I did not own it. The sign on the road of my life read yeild. It was an immediate command and by Jesus Christ alone was I  placed into such a state of peace that has never left me. The doctors at first were thinking the poor guy is in denial or whatever but as they all came to understand that it is my real personal state not because of me but because of God. I reminded my doctor at  my last scan. God told us that I would be healed and he said yes, you did say that. My wife, while getting ready to go to one of my appointments said I have questions, I said ask the doctor anything that you need to ask him. So, off we went to see My Doctor and when we got into his office after my scan,  I said to the doctor and also to help ease my wife Dr. Janet has questions whatever the answers are don’t worry please just tell her. I am fine whatever the answer might be. It does not bother me. It was all about if the cancer  will come back ,signs to look for etc. The last question was pretty amazing. You know Doctors do not use words lightly mine included. I love my doctor and all of my doctors for that matter. He said he had one of his oldest survivor in the day before it was 16 years. After a few minutes and looking at my clear scan he said I think your one of those, he said he is like you just incredible faith. I took that as a word of knowledge from my Dr’s lips from God.  The bottom line is this and I love this saying,

God does not expect us to do miracles, he expects us to believe that he will ! 🙂

These doctors, nurses and medical people are very special. The are front line in so many peoples life stories in writings  done so long ago under the title love letters from God. These personal life stories were referred to as our own personal psalms. Like the Holy Bible Psalm #139. God know all about our days.Please read it when you have a chance it  gives me great comfort . He is the author of life.  I do believe that that is the truth. The free will of how we decide to handle our life situations will chart where our lives,faith, minds and ultimately where our souls end up.

In my situation, I have learned to see more clearly, yes, I have had down moments, i am a regular guy far from perfect. But, I can see perfection in a different way now. I have been  left with some left side disability. I was in a wheel chair, i then progressed to a walker, then a 4 prong cain and finally a single cain that i use when i go out to safeguard myself from a fall.

One thing that I do know is across the board every doctor and physical therapist i have seen has said just how amazing my case and continued healing is. You see God has begun in my mind his time of miracles and i believe they will only become more vivid so to get everyones attention.

I pray for everyone whether I know you or not because part of the silver lining on my journeys is seeing love in everyone, seeing the beauty in nature and the smells of the changing seasons. It is like I lost some mobility and others senses in my body woke up.

one fact that I really do feel and always have since D day (diagnosis) is that whether I live 1 more day or thirty more years is that I would not be one incling less of the miracle that God intended me to be. The same is true for each one of you too

One of the great saying that I was taught early one was this, I honestly cannot remember who but they said,  Yesterday is a canceled check, Tommorrow is a prommisory note, today is ready cash so use it and it just stuck with me.

I am not a writer so I will say this one time for however long this blog goes for, please forgive typos, comma placement, run ons, and popping back and forth between thoughts. It may not be pretty but it is real.  thx

So, in closing use your cash today and stay in the moment. 🙂  God is right here.

God bless You,

Danny

I have cancer, cancer is not of God, I do not own this cancer.

14 Monday Jul 2014

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   7-14-2014

 I have cancer, cancer is not of God, I do not own this cancer.

      Those are the exact words that  came out of my mouth through the Holy Spirit of God in the doctors office. The doctor was just about to inform me that I had Glioblastoma multiform grade 4 and that it was non surgical. The words that God delivered in that room from my mouth sent an awareness like a wave of God’s presence in that moment, we all felt it. And, guess what?  He is with us in every moment that is why 2.5 years later I sit upright in my chair here, breathing, happy and more alive than I have ever been. You see the doctors know statistics like months to live and understand the deseases that what  they are striving to control and eradicate. They are very special persons. Their gift of the Spirit allows them to be the healing hands of Jesus. I told them through the Spirit that God selected them in this time to help me through his (Gods) medicines, machines,and their hands. All of theses elements are Spirit driven and inspired by our magnificent creator. For the record, I was 50 years old at diagnosis. I am currently 52 years and 4 months old. I am cancer free/ tumor free and am healing daily. They say its a miracle, I know its God.

 

This blog is for God’s glory not mine and I will contunue to follow up , fill in the blanks of this incredible journey that I have been on. I want to share one very common thread that binds us all together. God loves us all the same,  immeasurably . No one is any more or less  valuable than the other. He is our Good Sheppard , like my blog page banner picture dipicts anyone of us could be that precious sheep being help by Jesus. He will never leave or forsake us. 

This is the time of miracles so Believe!

So, if my blog helps even one person than my writing will have been expressly what God wanted.

God bless You!

Danny

PS todays , my first blog will be dedicated to my 86 year old dad. Today is his birthday, I want to be just like him when I grow up. 🙂

 

Kathy Trocolli

13 Monday Jan 2014

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Before I begin, I would like you please pray for a wonderful young man and his family. Scott was a beautiful young man. God Bless and hold them all always. Amen.

Thank you.

 

During my Cursillo retreat weekend in October of 1999 my eyes we opened to the world of Christian music. I was very familiar with church hymns etc but was totally unaware of this beautiful form of music.

Even after all these years it just amazes me how much beautiful Spirit inspired music there is. It is a very important part of our lives when we  become aware of it.

I can hear music Kathy Troccoli and Beach Boys

Kathy Troccoli & Friends – Love One Another

Water Into Wine- Kathy Troccoli

Go Light Your World – Kathy Troccoli

 

God Bless,

Danny