As a Follow Up to yesterday’s writing another very common phrase I am getting all the time which I totally understand is this…. We are going to miss you so much! What are we going to do when you when you are gone This is how we all feel when we become separated from those we love.so This is why I am attempting to pull this subject out of the shadows and bring light upon it. It’s natural and totally understandable. Everybody feels this way about loss even with a beloved pet. I know this having lost my baby pets? It is a question born out of love and out of a future longing because we all feel the effects of missing our beloved in our lives I mentioned yesterday in my writing about never wanting to let go ofthose you love, one more hug,one one more kiss. My life window has been described to me with this to be very short. And, my condition could change in a blink of an eye.Hense people are even are more nervous this time. I appreciate their love and I love them all too? I toohave said time and again to everyone in this blog that. I feel as the cancer patient to be in the easiest position here. I believe it is easier to go to God then to go through the period of a love loss. I know it may sound crazy but it is true. This is a common sentiment shared by a a whole lot of my friends. I have always thanked God if a demonic illness such as cancerhad to go after anyone I athat it was me and not my children or my Janet.T his is the song I woke upto in my mind after all of my recent conversations.The song sounds a little melancholy But, I feel the powerand beauty of the words and their meaning. It definitely brought be back nearly 28 years today to the ICU at Bostons Children’s Hospital when my son body Brad Michael was passed to me to hold after he passed from heart des ease at the age of 2 weeks old for The very last time nurses offered his little body to me hold and I almost could not bare the thought of holding his tiny little body of around 8 pounds. If it had not been for my Janet that day who encouraged me it may not have happened. My life and understanding of God was shattered at that moment as was Janet’s. Iwas horrific as we left the hospital as we left that hospital on a warm April afternoon. On our way home we heard on the news about the police were searching for someone who had left a baby to die in a dumpster it hit us like a ton of bricks as we watched the kids walking over the BUnbridge. Brad by the way is one of our life catalysts to bringus to our personal faith to where it is today. We started anew to discover our own relationship with God and Heaven. Our elder family members and family members in genera land those that God brought into our lives ought to help us as helpers in the faith has helped to heal me/ us over the years. Brad that April day was going down right away for organ donation which we have always been so happy that the hospital had were asked and that we said yes. Some other beautifulpeople were blessed with what they needed God knows! So, that’s what matters. I understand again the sentiment of this next song. MY NEXTtopic that I will write on tomorrow which needs to be addressed is, Am I afraid? I will honestly tackle that question tomorrow to the best of my ability it is a constant question that is presented to me and I have spoken to many other cancer patients and others who I have visited when their time was near to the end of their journeys. I would pray with them,or would bring the Holy Eucharist to them if they desired it. I would get clergy or whatever they desired. We spoke about any personal desire or anyone they wanted to speak to. It was about their wellbeing as they prepared to step forward to their next destiny based on their own faith and beliefs we are not all Roman Cathoilc and I totally appreciate that too.being so, I made sure that if God had me there that I did my part for themand their families I often spoke things to them that the family just could not. They were devastated that’s whyGod had me there. Remember, I am not a hospice worker. I am just me like you are just you. All loved the same by one Creator. God. I used to be nervous at times when I went in and I sat down with someone who I did not know too well including their families but I was there to help. No one knows where everyone is truly coming fromespecially in a high stress situation or from a position of despair. My blog tomorrowwillanswer will most assuredly be guided by the wisdom that they imparted to me as well. well. I again need to be honest on this blog we are all connected and need to support and love one another.It breaks my heart when people say what will I/ we do ? I understand that my passing likeanyone else’s changes a number of people’s universe.When I felt called out of the boat to begin to visit the sick and to reach out with calls and prayers I call it stepping out of the boat into the water After stepping out of the boat and trusting in God taking Jesus hand as Peter did I found a small scripture that allowed me to enter into the situation after my prayer. It read something like this… The will of God will never take you to a place where the grace of God does not protect you. Those few wpowerful words have allowed me such freedom and peace. You see my Holy Bible is my living and breathing words of God they are alive and well.?