Good afternoon everyone it’s been a little delay in getting this post done. My energy continues very low, I sleep a lot but thank fully feel great my family is constantly here cith me here so tha is is so beautiful. I tell them please don’t feel that they don’t need to come back and forth constantly with work and other responsibilies I don’t want them racing and not living their own lives. Plus, I worried yesterday about the ice etc and they all insisted on coming uanyway. today they are all driving through the snow which I do not like # dad and moms worry. But, ultimately they are adults and We  raised them to be positive and to live in faith so again it’s their choice. Amen.
Janet has not left my si. Being in Hosppice out side of my home full time is the best decision that I have made. For sure not being redundant but any one who may be. Wondering. I will be posting pictures on this post of my experience here. That will show that My experienc w

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lights and the Christmas 🎄The the Advent Season Early. This year began very early with music anyway. I found out in Oct the Octbrr quite by accident about a free App known as I heart ❤️ radio and it covers basically anything you would want to listen to I saw. a station that saidChristms o c
Clicked it and really began to enjoy it as did my familyit brought a littlejoy back into our lives. Like I say illness does not effectjust the sick but the whole family every generation. regardless of what. Love ❤️ is love and we all bleed for oneanother when we are in a tough patch whatever it may be.Everyone in this life has something going on in their lives it is the human condition.
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Ourfriend Jean Marie who I wrote about earlier on a blog post sold their home in NorthAndoverto go off and to and puRchase their retirement home in N.H She then was moved by her job abroad so off she offered Janet her Christmas tree ours had lost it lights and our our original tree 🌲that was in our first home was about 7.5 ” tall and our new home has 10′ ceings in the living room so it definitely looked like a Charlie Brown 🌲We had purchased a new tree back 3-4 years ago it was the right height but it just did not fit the space. When we got home 🏡 from the hospital in Dec from my last tumor which is currently in my head that has no treatment available.Janet has been with me non stop.At home when I began my Hospice journey she was afraid to leave me I am a big guy she is tiny and once the falls began and my first seizure. I again said I need to go now. I was right as was the hospice professionals. Janet is here with me every moment not be cause she is afraid of me getting hurt she just wants ever second to because She is afraid it’s because she is very very loving person and wife who is just here and spending every precious moment plus while the family has got the center here getting supported by the center” with my children, family and many of our closest of friends who have been so wonderful to us over the last many years. We could not be in a better place honestly. I am a very blessed man. I have no feared pain what so ever. And have love abounding.Janet was squuzing into my hospital bed at home just to hug and talk to me. Now, she is here doing then same thing at night here. S o, it’s good to have this time together as I have said before and totally believe it’s easier for the person to go to God than the families that are left to grieve. I honestly do not think I am going anywhere too quickly. Again, I believe Gods got continued work for me to do. But who knows. Everyday people are losing their loved ones here and a new person gets that call that they have an ambulance on the way.
When I arrived home from the hospital on The ambulance company said your home looks so pretty the lights are beautiful. I could not see them I was looking downhill after the ambulance backed into my driveway I saw what a amazing job my kids did in I was so happy to see them and their significant others and that my kids and their awesome significant others. took out all of our old decoratiions and some probably 25 to 30 years old and threw out a lot of themWhat was really cool is that they found our original star that we had not had up for years because the top branch of support either was too weak so it was crooked or .But, the tree that Jean Mariegave to us held the star perfectly and the tree 🌲 was so beautiful and perfect  actually🎄👍❤️️. It, made Janet so pleased which is really what it is all about to me if my family is happy Everyone of them from my dad , my siblings, Janet and I then am in a good place
Whatever was gone they threw out
We are all so thankful for your love ❤️ and prayers. They went out and purchased one of those new projector lights that projects small laser like orbs around in the air that float around that also make little patterns on the 🏡 It They decorated the family room and even decorated our old ficus tree 🌲 that was in our family room it looks so nice My kids after I left for The gang put everything back into storage for us too. I am going home for a dinner with my family too. My kids need it and it will great for us as a family. So, I will set it up here with their social worker here who is here and will my outing for my get together arrange together home 🏡The chair company will be lined up to be at my home and they can safely get me up and in. It will be my children and their significant others if they are available and my siblings, my dad.Wehave nvited one of our couple friends too who are coming in from New York who have scheduled a trip to visit us on ce again. So, We are getting excited for this like I always say I am making yet another fun goal to reach. I am certain I/ we reach it too.

Finally, As proof that Hospice is not scary.

Myself and my beautiful Janet with one of our fur babies Jerry. He was visiting us pups are welcome as long as you supply the paperwork from your vet showing that all shots are updated.

This is of my son and I taking a walk around the beautiful property. They have a koi pond and meditation .

The picture below of my youngest daughteRachael  and her awesome boyfriend Austin is considered our son. He is incollege in Boston. Rachael met Austin met years ago at St.Basils in Methuen Ma. Awstn is from N.H. And he and his family have stood with us every inch of the way. Again, we are so blessed.

This is the blog card that my son made for me… please share the blog if you think it will help other people.

 

Here’s the song for today. God Bless you all, thanks for your prayers!