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Good Afternoon everyone.Sitting here on a beautiful sunny day looking at the pretty view from my sunny. Room. I look onto the remnants of the snow that fell the other day and at the woods. It is very very peaceful as always.

 

I have always said that I would be honest in everything that I write about my journey because of  wanting to help another who may or may not encounter something similar. My energy level continues to be. Weak and last night,early evening I woke up after a nap and felt that I needed to use the restroom. I do not get out of my bed at all even with family because the Hospice Home is about my safety and preventing further injuries .I am a liabity .hey are awesome and so loving. When I ring they run because they know that I I know I never call unless I need something or often will not ask anybody for anything  feel like I am bothering some one and I have felt that .i am not the only person here who has needs and mine are far less serious than theirs at the moment as far as I am concerned. The last almost 5 years I have been saying…I am sorryto Everyone for everything and no matter who it is in my life they have always the said thesame thing to me stop.itand t, if it was us you would help us the same way. You have always dreamed me everything for everybody. So ,it is in my own mind know a definitely a pride issue. feeling responsible for the illness that came upon me that changed our whole families livesincluding my moms who was at the time fighting her own battle with lung cancer during ng that time I got there to be with my beautiful mom with my family driving me. When  it was hard to get there. I spoke to her at least twice a day and she loved the blog too. When we as a family we’re together. My parents  and siblings who ever were there in my parents dining room would pray together and in the end of prayer we did our Prayers to the St. Rachael the patron Saint of Healings and we used the blessed oil from My home parishes healing ministry. St

 Joseph’s in Wakefield AMA. Ty

Like a say, I being the dad that  the dad. I am suppose to take care of my family .there is no known cause of Glio and it is on the rise unfortunately really getting common. I do believe that a cure will come  for all cancer someday. Not for me but hopefully for you family and your loved ones. Everything is inspired by God through his Divine Spirit to us Medicines, machines 

So, everytime my aides or nurses are here they tell me the same thing. do not say sorryWe chose this job and I know God has them  in their ministries that they agreed to. I / we truly love ❤️ them and always say God Bless you.  Last night I had 2-3 accidents not their fault which required one of the aides o be here after her shift washing my laundry for the second tand third cleaning my bedding, the bath etc.Maria had me fully cleaned up for the second and said please stop saying sorry. said your sadtonight which s I said I am just so ashamed. Guys do not do not this. I need to say this I was not raised in a home where women were second class citizens. Or were second best. My momand dad worked together in unison to get their family to where they envisioned us to be. My mom worked a very successful career in her time-and frankly was a ,beautiful kind doer she smart She said Danny you have brain cancer and have no control. She said you are Miracle, to which I said we are Miracles just by our births. I said you are all miracles here to your patients too And they truly are.She said You are helping so many people there and have no idea how many are being effected by your blog and by your loving spirit are beno idea. The ..” bYou have no idea. She said everyone can feel the love from you and your family flowing through the hallways it is so rare to see theis here we never see this

She  said to me that she makes prayer worry boxes and she was making one for me . The next time she comes she said we are going to use small slicky notes for whatever is on our minds and just give it to Godthrough the slot  and leave it with God . She said once it goes into that is my Hospice experience and the love and support is unbelievable. I hope that I am not offending anyone by my candidness. Janet crawled into my bed and hugged me and I put my bed behind me to hug and talk and I put my pandora on and set it to my Christian music selection. and it was amazing all of the different songs that came up. This is one of the first songs by Natalie Grant.

God is with us always and I needed to say this because last night I was not feeling so bulletproof. God restored me by his the gift 🎁 of music while I slept with it gently and softly playing all  nightOn a really cute note every night. The kids always kiss and hug us repeatedly and say your the cutest dad and the best dad in the world.. I responded last night to them no I am not my dad/ papa is and I meant it. He is what I want to be when I grow up.and, I do mean that sincerely. I have never met another like him. I know I get my faith and my fight to go on from he and my mom so I am truly blessed by the foundation that Faith and my foundation of strength that came from so much living so many people we all are connected and we all know each other by God’s election if you readA.

Psalm #139 you will. The very bottom of the psalm speaks of anger that God should kill all wicked. Knowing God the way that I feel that

I doGod is love. It’s when we arrive at his judgement seat that each of us will be judged by his message. Also, my further though is that God just struck them by my faith they would be denied their free will choice to reconcile themselves to their wrongs and their God. Those are my thoughts anyway. I think that the bottom of #139 were the personal thoughts of the prophet who loves God so much that he is personsonally invested in the message and does not understand someone not feeling the sameway. I just do not like the verbage. It’s not the word of God to me.everyone is free to use their own faith to see what works for them. In my feelings once again, there is one God and many valid faiths. No matter which it is . 🙏

 

in afinal note the stuff that happened last night is suspected to be My now beingnLactose intolerant. Ii have not ever been but in life things change.,they make homemade incredible milshakes here. My desire yesterday for a nice fresh Strawberry 🍓 shake uncovered something new.So, in the future I will watch any dairy that I take in. The shake was unbelievable but new again.

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God Bless you all always love just Danny and familyEnjoy this beautiful Day look up and say Thankyou. Amen